Destructive Optimism

jersee_d_goddess :they're not supposed to drain you, they're supposed to give you more life. kids are still kids, they have this aura of peacefulness that emanates from em
jomitorrijos: optimistic ka noh?
jersee_d_goddess: uhmm, at times. pero kids kasi, i love bein around them,
jomitorrijos: i guess when you are sick youll understand that it’s very hard. very very hard and depressing.healthy kids are far from sick kids i felt the difference. sorry dark yung mood ko. i just listened to the care eh from the radio
jersee_d_goddess: im sorry. i guess im too delusional. and i guess i dont really understand. but if there's something i know, even sick kids have a different perspective.
jomitorrijos: well im not generalizing din naman. and there’s always a different perspective on everything
jersee_d_goddess: i feel so shallow tuloy.
jomitorrijos: each kid is unique diba. so maybe. i only have theories. i am a contradicting theorist.
jersee_d_goddess: we all have theories. and u know,they dont need you to be depressed for them. :)

I don't need people to be depressed for me. I'd like to think that my life is still "less than perfect" and that i should be happy. After all, nobody’s perfect. Everytime I get the chance, I pray to God for contentment. But at times I feel that it's so hard to compromise the concept of contentment with the concept of aspiration. When do you draw the line between being happy with what you have and wanting more? I have all these things that I still continue to ask for but when can you say that enough is enough? It’s so hard to be an optimist when you’re surrounded by so much pessimism. Yet, I’m also scared that my optimism is purely superficial, that I am optimistic because I’m outside the real world. It’s like I’m just window shopping and all I do is look and make conclusions about what I see inside a store that I refuse to enter.