We All Are Different, We All are Heaven- Sent

me and my highschool friends leids, mir, anne and mary ann Circa 2001 (@ retreat)

We all are different, we all are heaven-sent.
We have our names, we like different games.

We have our names, we like different games.
What we find funny, some might find silly.

What we find funny, some might find silly.
What we love dearly, some might find ugly.

What we love dearly, some might find ugly.
People sometimes fight on whoever’s right.

People sometimes fight on whoever’s right.
People sometimes cry and we never know why.

People sometimes cry and we never know why.
A lot of things happen, like changes that are sudden.

A lot of things happen, like changes that are sudden.
You may feel little but don’t be afraid to mingle.

You may feel little but don’t be afraid to mingle.
If things aren’t perfect, be thankful for what you get.

If things aren’t perfect, be thankful for what you get.
Life is God’s gift, it’s for us to love and keep.

Life is God’s gift, it’s for us to love and keep.
We all are different, we all are heaven-sent.

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I wrote this for my Poetry for Children class in UP, i think. And as far as I can remember, i was told that children won't understand such intangible statements. I still think children will understand.
But i didnt pass it to be graded. Mahirap na. Hehe.

Eastwood is the Place to be.

What are the chances that I'd bump into a lot of people tonight?

1. Pepe and Esmey... lovebirds ha! haha.
2. Tintin... I met her about two years ago in our restaurant in Libis. She's from Miriam. She has a kid now.
3. JC and Mark... they saw my dad [whom they call THE BOSS] while he was waiting for us outside Ensemble.

Anyway, it was a fun-filled night. We treated some of the people who worked for us at Dencio's (bagong-bago. nakapikit pa ko nag-order.. memorized na ang oorderin e. shemps di nawala ang sinugba!)

These are a few of our "Moments of Vanity"..

A Trip Down Memory Highway.

This is Melo's fault, after her infamous "survey", i found myself rummaging through my boxes of memories from gradeschool, highschool and college... time doesnt just fly, it flies faster than the speed of light. (kadiri ang cliche) Well i found really interesting stuff so lemme share to you a few of these things...

A LETTER TO:To: Mr. Emmanuel a.k.a. Jesus Christ Nickname: Lord Codename: Boyfriend Occupation: Messiah #1 Deep inside my heart st., Brgy Right Beside Me, Holy Church City, Everywhere, Heaven Country

My first and forever boyfriend,

Knowing you is the most unexplainable love at first sight of my life. At first, akala ko suplado ka at kailangan ko pang magpapansin sa'yo. Dati di ko malaman kung bakit di ako makapag-open up sayo. i've been trying to find true love sa lahat ng naging crushes ko pero i'm glad na tayo ang naging mag-steady. I wanna thank you for finding a way for me to find true friendship. Kaw talaga, nagpapa-cute ka lagi sakin gumawa ka pa ng paraan para maging sa bahay mo ang tambayan namin. Although madalas I take you for granted at nababaling ang tingin ko sa iba huwag kang magselos kasi nasa iyo parin ang loyalty ko. Kung madalas parang wala sayo ang atensyon ko pag may date tayo, sorry, dont worry.. you're who i dream about naman e. Kung tuwing tumatawag sa akin ay ayaw kong makinig dahil may hinihintay akong ibang tawag sorry. Priority parin naman kita e. Minsan nagcool-off tayo dahil narin sa kagagawan ko, sorry. Now i realized my life my life will never be complete without you. Kung nawawalan ako ng tiwala sayo dahil feeling ko di mo na ako mahal, sorry. Alam ko naman na ALL WE NEED IS LOVE and TRUST in our relationship. Kung masyado akong demanding at masyado akong nagpapa-spoil sayo, sorry. Alam ko naman kahit di materyal na bagay ay mahalaga parin. Kung madalas di ko magawa na makipag-PDA sayo sorry. Hayaan mo, mula ngayon magiging demonstrative na ko. Kung madalas di ko nasasabing thank you o i love you sorry pero deep inside naman i really love you and thank you. Kung madalas napapanis ka sa kakahintay sa akin at di ako dumadalaw man lang sayo, sorry. Di ko talaga sinasadya. Kung madalas ay insenstive ako, sorry, ramdam na ramdam ko naman ang TLC mo e. Salamat dahil kahit may relationship ay pinapabayaan mo ako mag-decide for myself. Mi mo ako pinepressure. I love you kasi kahit madalas ikaw lang ang kumikiolos sa relationship natin e di ka sumusuko. And if ever I find a new love, kahit kailan hindi tayo pwedeng magbreak kasi i could never live without you. Salamat sa lahat ng mga gifts mo sakin kahit na i dont return your favor. Sobrang in love na in love ako sayo. I love you.

Eunice
(written when i was a freshie in hs)

A PICTURE OF SPENCER REYES

with the "ang gwapo mo talaga. dance wizard" note

(i cannot believe im posting this)

A Card given to me by Bebert, one of my closest friends in HIGHSCHOOL. Di ako na-offend kahit na ganito ang design.

A Card from UTOL LEIDA


We all have gone far... let's not let go of the memories. That's all we really have.

BLast from the Past

pic #1: "lovers" Mirla and Modex w/ Mr. "im in Love" Gerald - pic#2: the gigolo / pic#3: lovebirds Paul and Ivee w/ Leida

Last night, i met up with people whom i haven't seen in ages. My highschool friends. The whole idea started when Mirla and I bumped into each other online. She updated me with the "latest news" about my highschool acquaintances. Most of the news were kind of disappointing, and because we got caught up in the "reminiscing mood" we decided to have dinner. She texted everyone and a few chosen ones replied. Thus, the dinner date with 'em.

pic#1: former seatmates Leids, Yunis and Mir / pic#2: B1 at B2

As usual they went to my house. It's a tradition, we either meet up here or at Ivee's. It's hard to explain why, but that's just how things are. We waited for Leida and then went straight to Pancake House Rockwell where the lovebirds Ivee and Paul were waiting for us. I was with Leida, Gerald and the going strong couple, Mirla and Josepher. We were all kind of "sabik" sa isa'isa. Ang saya. After a sumptuous dinner and a very comprehensive discussion about politics, showbusiness, other people's lives, school rivalry at whatever's we went to.......... STARBUCKS. Nabigla kayo ano? haha.

We talked about going into a business venture since we all came into an agreement that Taguig is fastly developing and that there is no way we'll be leaving our beloved "NOW A CITY" haha. I suggested that we build a prostitution den with Gerald as our first and only gigolo. Why not diba? Leida told us that Angelo underwent an operation to take his tonsils out. OH well. I miss that guy. My childhood crush. Ngii ang petty. We also talked about our "other friend" whose now living in with his 3-month pregnant girlfriend. Sadness pero it's his life. At si Gerald, he's allegedly "in Love". That's a FIRST. haha. Just kiddin bro. All in all t'was a really fun fun fun night. I had no idea that i missed them sooo much. We decided to make this whole getting together a more "regular" thing so next Saturday, i'm playing badminton with them. Woohoo. Excited na ako. Kay saya talaga dahil Sembreak.

I'm Creeping ME Out.

I was looking at his pictures as if it's the normal thing to do. I am officially creeping myself out for checking his Friendster profile every time a get the chance. The last time I was like this, things ended catastrophically. Now, if I can only focus on the facts and pay attention to the real life. I should be studying. I shouldn’t be whining about things which cannot positively contribute to my now shitty and totally out of control life. His pictures are on the other window. By clicking alt-tab I can once again look at him and contemplate on why I think we have a chance. But I’m scared that if I start thinking again, I might think my way to doom. Tangina. Wala pa ngang sign na gusto ka niya nababaliw ka na sa kakaisip. For all we know, isa ka lang sa maraming close girl friends na meron siya. Hindi ka pa ba nasanay? Lagi ka kayang "the in-between-girl". The girl after a past relationship, before a future relationship, but never in the present relationship. Tangina.

I read Mister Slyde's blog today. It got me into thinking about how good it will be to sleep and wake up in a totally different place. A better place. But I didn’t surprise myself when I instinctively typed, "I'd rather SLEEP in a way better place. Not waking up is a good option anyway." Where is this pessimism coming from? My life's perfect. My family's great, I have the bestest group of friends. Why is there something way within me that makes me feel like I’m inadequate?

I got to converse with my high school friend Jaycee the other night and he was talking about how he has acquired a totally new perspective with regard to the Catholic church. It occurred to me how things have really changed. High school was just so long ago that if I meet up with my friends now, there probably are gazillions of new things that I will find out about them. It's like we lost that familiarity that we used to enjoy. It was one of the things I used to fear when I was close to my high school graduation. Losing everything that familiar, warm and stable.

Ang ironic. My last entry was entitled Happy Happy Joy Joy only to follow it with a "Creeping me out entry." Damn.