Break

We take a break in silence; not having
to talk, meet eye to eye and interact
is sometimes easier and less complicated.
The unspoken words are chosen to be
unspoken because they are not mere
words but emotions guised in letters.

I watch you purposely, carefully
memorizing how you move and not move.
Pretending to not feel my gaze, I
assume is your way of protecting you
and me. No US, no WE, just you
and me... forgotten.

It's really all about you. Sorry
that I cannot let go of the possibilities.
If you let me, I will talk not through
my mouth but through my heart
that silently shouts, "Fool!" over and over.
To be a fool is my comfort, pain is my wall.

There are moments when you're there
but I don't feel you, i'd rather really
that you hurt me and be there than
leave and bring with you my ability
to feel and be felt. Don't ever mistake
me for sadness, for sadness is my friend.