Letter of Love no. 5

Hey,

Have we met? I am feeling you... I know that somewhere, you are around, NEAR. Or he may be similar to you. I watched Music and Lyrics last night and I was with someone who could've been you. But he wan't you. It was hard to be close to him knowing that you're not him. It felt so right, it's like we are meant to hold hands, like my body fits his side as I lean to say something. But he's a part of my past, a past that I would like to be reminded of, the past that showed me that I am capable of loving and of being loved in return. I was happy with him. Until we had to part before we end up wasting our happy memories. I must admit that I've been impatient these past few days. I have been questioning God why we have to spend this long a time apart. You maybe in a relationship and not thinking that it's me you're meant to love. But I don't believe in absolute destiny, you have to want to meet me when we reach that crossroad.

I agonizingly wait for you. It hurts knowing that we're looking, or that you are looking for me unconsciously. I want you so badly to be here at my lowest of lows. I know that with you, I will not be scared to let it allout. I will not be shamed to cry, to tell you that I made a lot of mistakes. To show you that I am human. It will be the first time that I'll take my mask off and strip, emotionally.

Please rescue me now, I am beginning to believe that I am meant to be alone... and that burdens my already weak heart.