Maybe we're lucky to have somebody who has that little bit of insanity. Somebody who never lets you go, somebody who cherishes you forever. Talk about a legacy, loving someone forever? That is a legacy.
- John Cage, Ally Mc Beal
I don't know what to think of anymore. My mind is consciously blocking my thoughts of you, reminding me that I can only bear a certain amount of pain... and if I don't stop, I might lose what's left of my sanity. I made a noble decision that turned out to be silently heartwrenching, bittersweet and at some point, regret-inducing. I think I am in love with you, it took this much pain for me to finally admit that. What we have is an emotional connection that is forbidden and wounded. Until I'm too dry to shed even a single tear, I will write about you. What we had, or maybe still have is more than romantic. I don't know if you see or even feel that. It's beyond philosophy, it's a connection that could've been worthwhile. It is more than enough to make me believe that someday, I'll find you again. When we're finished chasing our old rainbows and ready to chase new ones.
ALL OF A SUDDEN, there's NOTHING left for me to hold on to. All I have is pain.
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