ILLOGICAL

Sometimes I think of you, sometimes I don't.
Not because I have forgotten but because
I, at times, cannot pinpoint where the line is.
I know that in those moments that I don't
get reminded of the YOU that exist, I unconsciously
still hold on to thoughts of you, which by now,
already are parts of me.

The only thing I lost is total dependence.
I have decided to take control of my emotions
and live my life just like I used to.
This is with hope that I was THAT side of me
that you have fallen for, or at least got comfortable with.
I will be responsible for what I will become until
you realize that you want to be a part of me too.

I won't wear my shades anymore, I am through with being afraid.
I know that you know, or barely feel and understand.
We never talk about it, we never go that way.
Maybe we're just not ready, YOU'RE not ready.
For me, it's not a question of WHEN anymore but of HOW.
It's not a confusion of WHAT we have but of WHY.
It's not a question of LOGIC but of something ILLOGICAL.