Letter of Love #4

Hey,

Valentine's Day is over and I surprisingly didn't feel tha bad. I wonder how you spent your day. I have a lot of plans for our first Valentine's Day you know, the plan's to be spontaneous. I have a lot of things in mind, like how I'll surprise you with poems made for you, of how we'll spend it as laidback as possible... perhaps at your or my garden / backyard, talking about how greener the grass looks now that we're together. It may possibly be the first Valentine's day that I won't be drinking because just being with you is more than intoxicating. I want to be able to feel every little natural reaction that my body will do when I'm beside you. Our Valentine's day may even start with us hearing Mass because the feeling of gratitude will overwhelm me, us. I might even cry for the overflow of positive emotions within me. I imagine you to be sweeping the strands of hair away from my face so we can properly look into each other's eyes, with the "teary-eyed, trembling in anticipation of our life together" me, looking forward to a whole new road ahead of us.

Valentine's Day will never be the same again. It will remind us of the countless Valentine's Days that we had to spend apart.

Yesterday, while I was walking alone, I closed my fist just so I can imagine your fingers entwined into mine. It's kind of stupid, I know... but in the same way that I'm human, I have my days of loneliness, some deeper than the others.

I hold on to your own loneliness. JOINT LONELINESS is definitely better than one... I guess. It's ok to be lonely, you just have to remembe that you are being lonely... WITH ME.