Suicide is leaving the old you that has given you grief, pain and uncerainty. I WILL COMMIT SUICIDE TONIGHT. I am running away from the ME that i thought i love. I am now embracing my imperfections, I dont want to pretend that I can handle things anymore. I am tired.
I am admitting it. I am fragile, i am stubborn... i am a needy bitch who wants to feel. I will stop tolerating the numbness that i have enveloped my self with and i will willingly commit suicide so i can start living again. I will DIE because i want to be hugged, to be pampered, to be taken cared of. I am tired of taking care of myself because i am not doing a great job.
I want to know how people will write their eulogies for me. I want to find out how i lived my life in the eyes of those I lived for. I want to write a eulogy for me too. It will have words that revolve around happiness, how i sought it and managed to get a glimpse of it.
I gave the people whom i value a piece of the puzzle that is me. Some valued the piece that I gave them. Some walked away, shrugged their shoulders and dismissed the idea. I hope they all come in the celebration of my life. So they can all bring the pieces that i gave them and complete the puzzle. I want them to understand me.
I am committing suicide tonight. While everyone's sleeping and I am wide awake... scared and shaking.
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ReplyDeleteSa grave mo, ilalagay nila, The blogger who announced her suicide around the world.
I wish this isn't really true.
uhmm, i wasnt talking about physical death.. this is about emotional suicide. i think that's the catch. :| thanks for readin my blog anyway.
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