Loose Screws

This is sooo ironic. Just when i'm admitting my fragility, i am faced with the fact that I can't be too fragile after all. At ito pa, a guy from my past texted me today. According to him, "we need to catch up" What am I gonna tell him?

"Sure. Well nothing really much has happened to me. I'm now in law school and I'm having a hard time. If you wanna know if I finally found someone who made me feel special, I'd say yes. A lot of 'em. But everything was short-lived. I am pretty much screwed up these past few days and this is the perfect time for us to catch up. That's beside the fact that i saw your picture and that you're hot and that you are not dating anyone right now. It will be like slapping my face for letting you go because I AM JUST ONE SCREWED UP woman who continues to be undecided. You are a great guy, really... but i just coyuldnt bare to meet up with you because you are perfect and i am far from it... very far from it. I've been depressed the whole week because I feel like nothing's falling into place. Oh and by the way, I think I like this guy who is not you and if we start dating now i'm afraid all you'll get are puffy eyes and glass-eyed looks and empty statements. No, i am not in love with him, i just think we have a chance and i dont want you to endure a conversation that will potentially be disastrous because i might cry in the process and i might all of a sudden decide to say yes to your proposal of dating again. Then it will start the whole process of me getting hurt again and that sucks. BIG TIME."

Pathetic.