... but I have to go to Mass with my family at 8am. It's not like I look at going to Mass as an added burden to my already burned out [tried to think of a good metaphor, to no avail] powerplant. This just got me into thinking of my a few weeks old SPIRITUAL IMBALANCE. It's probably hard to imagine me looking for SPIRITUAL BALANCE but like what a lot of my old friends already know, I am a very spiritual person. Not religious, spiritual. I do respect religious ceremonies and I do believe in their relevance with regard to my practice of my faith. It's just that I choose to be more of a "God-I-know-you're-with-me-let's-talk-now" kind of girl. Lately, I have been feeling a teeny-weeny bit of guilty because the truth is, things are actually doing kind of great in my life. Not that bumpy but not that smooth, and so it's kind of stable. So, I think my SPIRITUAL IMBALANCE comes from the fact that I don't know what might be brewing in the future. This is me. I anticipate bad things looooong before it happens. It's my way of saying, "Hey BAD THING, I know you're there and I want you to know that I DON'T CARE. I will conquer you!" but somewhere along the way, before it does come... I feel afraid. I get scared a lot of times. I often look at everything around me and see myself as a nail that's sticking out. A stubborn nail. This is ME without sleep. I tend to think a lot. I tend to overanalyze. I could use some sleep. Actually, A LOT of sleep. Heck, I could be Sleeping Beauty and not care.
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