The Constant Gardener

Watched a flick with my family again... wala parin un Flight Plan so we settled for the Ralph Fiennes / Rachel Weisz movie The Constant Gardener. I loved it. I'm really a sucker for weep-worthy movies.

I will never forget this conversation...
Guy: (blah blah threats threats) Forget about it. Go home.
Justin: Rachel was my home.

Awww. Pero di ako dun naiyak. Di na ko iiyak dahil sa pag-ibig. (nahahawa na ko kay Pepe) At the end of the flick, two african kids were running around, smiling amidst the trash, the misery that's surrounding 'em. I was touched by how they still manage to be happy with their lives. Nakaka-guilty na nagrereklamo ako. Ako na nag-aaral, na nasa Rockwell lang lagi, na wala naman talagang masyadong malaking problema as compared to 'em.

On the other hand, I remembered talking to Joseph about us, as individuals, having the capacity to suffer a certain quantity of pain. About the relativity of our strength sa persons. That it's really hard and inappropriate to compare your life to other people because what may seem easy for 'em is hard for you and vise versa. That's a good way of looking at it, it's a more "tolerant" perspective... still i feel like i dont deserve to whine and be bratty about my being in law school. How many people would wanna trade places with me right?

I remember myself saying last Saturday, "Mababaw lang naman kaligayahan ko eh." Totoo naman, madali ako mapasaya. Pero ang nakakalungkot, madali rin ako malungkot. Ika nga sa Crim, nao-offset lang ng mga aggravating ang mga mitigating circumstances. Here we go again.