Butterfly Effect

picture from POSTSECRET

The funny thing about love is… it’s the one game that you lose when you refuse to play."
-Ally McBeal


Hey dear butterfly,

I know, I know… I should be studying. I don’t know who you are or why you have insisted on hanging out beside me but thank you. Thank you for making my day. I need to be reminded that there are a lot of beautiful things around me and that one tiny glitch in the system is just that, tiny. How many times can one say that she had hung out or even studied with a butterfly for almost 7 hours? I did almost everything to make you go away, to fly, to find a better place… to just be far from me. Yet it chose to endure the pollution-infested spot beside me.

It was as if you were trying to make a point. The point, at least to me, was that if anyone decides to be with me, he will stay no matter how much shit he has to put up with beside me. The point was that if someone decides to choose me, he will stay without me having to ask for him to stay. When that time comes, I don’t have to play mind games because he will definitely let me know where he’s coming from, where we exactly are. I don’t have to agonize every night over how I can make him understand, how I can let him know that I have decided to be with him too… how I can make him stay because he just WILL. That’s the thing about faith, prayers and our humor-driven God, He absolutely moves in simple but mysterious ways. It took a butterfly that was willing to stay around for me to figure it out.

So thank you, newfound friend butterfly. I owe you one.
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Bubba, kung ikaw yan. Sabi ni Patty malamang pinagtatawanan mo raw ako. Fine, jan ka na lang. Samahan mo ko sa pag-iisa ko. <3