The Law and Economics of Lust, Love and Life: September 2005

Ang Weird.

Ang weird ng gabing ito... Bakit? Basta.

I googled my name again and voila!!! Nakalagay na sa site ng UP School of Economics ang thesis namin ni Teepee Japhet. Yuckers. Land Issues and the Medium Term Philippine Development Plan. Parang totoo.

Im supposed to blog something.. but i forget. I didnt get called today for anything. We reported na for Persons and Family Relations... Good Job Phantom of the Oprah group. G'luck kina Chorizo, Ricky Boy at Joey Boy sa kanilang report tomorrow. Umaasa akong maentertain nyo ako.

G'luck to Jots para sa kanyang Final Exam in Art History later. Nawa'y nakatulong ako sa iyong "pseudo-review". Ipasa mo yan, importante ito! Let's go Madonna of the Long Neck! (winks)

Realization

Shem: Ano na ba ang status nyo nun?
Euns: Ganun parin.
Shem: Ano nga?
Euns: We're friends.
Shem: Just friends?
Euns: Friends.
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Sa tingin ko, di siya nagmamabagal... baka "He's just NOT THAT INTO ME." We're JUST FRIENDS until proven otherwise.
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Fave drink: Bevande in lattine and acqua minerale naturale
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I got called to recite today in Crim. Todo na 'to.
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Pag dumating ang sem break at wala parin... WALA NA TALAGA.

In Agony.

Literal. Hyperacidity ruined my day. T'was my bad really, i drank coffee early in the morning without eating anything. I feel so bobo. I got called in Consti, Crim and Stat Con, my friends said i answered the questions pretty ok but i felt like i should've done better. That's if i wasnt literally hurting. I had my first breakdown in front of my law school peeps. Parang tanga. I'm running out of luck. Thanks peeps for being there, for the pat on the back that i needed. Source of joy kayo.

We got to report in Consti. Isang malaking laughtrip. I sooo love my groupmates, they were all out in their performances. Pao pao's impersonation of Sir Ereneta was hilarious, and Joey Boy and Ricky Boy's Sex Balls cheer was just superb. Ang saya saya.

Sa Starbs natawa ko kay Mel. I was talking to an upperclass guy from law school when she texted me. What did she say? "Yihee. =)" Ayun na. Thanks Mel.

I'm seriously contemplating on stopping my daily trips to Starbucks. Naf-frustrate kasi ako tapos lately parang masyado ako distracted. Baka i need a change of venue.

FINALS NA. I need some inspiration. I need a date to jumpstart my reviewing for the Finals. I shall ask someone out. Argh.

Saktan nyo na lang ako.

A few days before the Finals.. Nawawala un Revised Penal Code (Criminal Law) book ko. Putangina. May Crim bukas. Tangina.

Weeping For Fiction

when will i weep for something REAL?

The Constant Gardener

Watched a flick with my family again... wala parin un Flight Plan so we settled for the Ralph Fiennes / Rachel Weisz movie The Constant Gardener. I loved it. I'm really a sucker for weep-worthy movies.

I will never forget this conversation...
Guy: (blah blah threats threats) Forget about it. Go home.
Justin: Rachel was my home.

Awww. Pero di ako dun naiyak. Di na ko iiyak dahil sa pag-ibig. (nahahawa na ko kay Pepe) At the end of the flick, two african kids were running around, smiling amidst the trash, the misery that's surrounding 'em. I was touched by how they still manage to be happy with their lives. Nakaka-guilty na nagrereklamo ako. Ako na nag-aaral, na nasa Rockwell lang lagi, na wala naman talagang masyadong malaking problema as compared to 'em.

On the other hand, I remembered talking to Joseph about us, as individuals, having the capacity to suffer a certain quantity of pain. About the relativity of our strength sa persons. That it's really hard and inappropriate to compare your life to other people because what may seem easy for 'em is hard for you and vise versa. That's a good way of looking at it, it's a more "tolerant" perspective... still i feel like i dont deserve to whine and be bratty about my being in law school. How many people would wanna trade places with me right?

I remember myself saying last Saturday, "Mababaw lang naman kaligayahan ko eh." Totoo naman, madali ako mapasaya. Pero ang nakakalungkot, madali rin ako malungkot. Ika nga sa Crim, nao-offset lang ng mga aggravating ang mga mitigating circumstances. Here we go again.

For Lack of Better Ideas...

... i'm just commenting on my daily romantic horoscope:

It's not about trying to look good or make a great impression -- it's about doing what makes you happy and letting that joy radiate from the inside out. Set out to have fun, plain and simple, and see what happens.

doing what makes me happy... i dunno what'll make me happy now.

You're someone who appreciates -- heck, revels in -- the earthier pleasures of life. So when it comes to fun, all you need to make you happy is some friends and some really fine food. Make dinner at your place tonight.

so that explains it. friends and food'll make me happy. sa horoscope ko lang pala malalaman ang mga kasagutan eh. ngii. sana ganun nga kasimple.

Bakas ng Kaantukan

For Philo of Law, the biggest challenge is for you to stay awake. So, to stop myself from journeying to Neverland right in front of my professor, i write. I didnt have the chance to type my random thoughts so i'm just gonna put 'em in one entry. Halo halo na ito. Isang magulong post. Random kung random. Mga doodles na nakasulat sa likod ng aking notebook.

On Caring

We begin to care when we begin to doubt. Caring for someone is such a complicated emotion. You at times find yourself thinking of how you can make life better for that person only to realize in the end that you have your own inadequacies... and that these might tear your worlds apart.

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Runnin Out

I'm running out of words to write,
of stories to tell,
of moments to remember,
of emotions to feel,
of tears to shed,
of hope to hold on to
of the passion to keep fightin
of love to smile about,
of happiness to look forward to,
of everything that matters.
But the list goes on and on... and it never runs out.
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It never occurred to me to quit. When you're at the last step of achieving your long-time dream, quitting is not an option.

These past few days, the harshness of my new life has become unbearable.

I'm not absolutely unhappy. This is something that i want. It's a case of wanting something too much that it drains the life out of you.

"Eunice, are you really smiling, or are you smiling to stop the frown from showing?"
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Do people take me seriously or will i forever be stuck in the blackhole of pseudo-apathy that people push me to become?

I never use big words to express myself. I feel that it will take away the simplicity of my thoughts. I cannot afford to be too complicated anymore. Life's complicated without me exerting any effort anyway.
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ANO NANAMAN ANG NANGYAYARI.

Tinatamad ako pumunta ng Rockwell. Umuulan pa naman. Ang sarap magpaka-mantikang matulog. But nooooo, CONSTI report sa Monday. Walang karapatan magmaganda.

Nakakatamad. Nakakatamad. Nakakatamad.

Sana bigla dumating si marc nelson sa bahay ko tapos kakargahin nya ko hanggang Rockwell. Argh.

nakakatuwa un friendster meron na syang "send a smile" feature. tina-try ko send-an lahat ng mga friends ko. wala lang. para naman matuwa din ako.

un brother ko di naligo today. may laban sya ng volleyball sa UST ng 9am, nagising sya ng 9am. Kung di lang sya nakakaawa laughtrip talaga un sitwasyon nya. Buti na lang umulan, napostpone yata un unang laban sa kanila.

ang sarap nun sinigang na kinain ko. magluluto sana ako, but nooooooo, masaya na ko sa sinigang ni Mommy.

nanonood ako ng Batman ngayon, si Jim Carey ay isang cute cute na kontrabida.

Ito ang aking Daily ROmantic Horoscope:

Just because you're indecisive doesn't mean you don't have anything to say. Quite the opposite, actually -- so share your ambivalence with a certain someone and see what they can do to convince you.

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Payn Alpayn.

An Entry about Princess Milkshake's Birthday Bash and the COMMITMENT-havoc that is Me.

I'm just so glad Yvie liked what we did. In the law school, we should try to do li'l things to uplift each other's spirits...We got to meet Yvie's Bebe Joseph, finally. After a long time of being merely a semi-fictional character that we read about in her blog entries. He was kind of shy, but who wouldnt be shy around really loud and weird people like us? Uhmm, yeah.. ME.

I didnt do well in Crim's midterms. But it isnt enough to make me feel like shit. After all, the WORSE or WORST is yet to come.

Haze said something last night that made me think. She perceives me to be not serious about this "WHOLE ROMANTIC THING" that's been sorta-unraveling. I'm not really sure what i want from this rendezvous. After all, nobody's saying anything about taking it to the next level anyway. But i value it, i really do... and it's undeniable that there IS a connection. But this old me is resurfacing... Shit, im thinking again. This is the 2nd level of my ROMANTIC DOOM cycle. I will not run away from this. We'll see. We'll see. This might be IT.

Segue:
Nga pala, si Backstreet guy ay nasa Starbs yesterday. Naka-glasses. Cute. Nakalong sleeves. Cute. May kasamang girl. Di cute. Hmmp. Bakit ngayon ka lang? hehe.

Whew.

I [finally] got called to recite in Persons and Family Relations today. I think i did pretty ok. 27 cases in Constitutional Law?! I was literally shaking while waiting for my doom. Melo, Yves, Shem and Haze all got called. I'm still a lucky gal. But then again, i already got called in Persons.

Quotable Quote:
"Arent you gonna check on the background of the kid you're about to adopt? Dont you have a say? What if his name's Chucky?" - Persons prof.
[ayun na, takutan ito?]

I think Ana and Pepe belong together. Sana nakita nyo sila sa Tokyo Tokyo at narinig nyo ang mga hirit nila. Laughtrip.

According to Shem, Yves' Fafa Joseph'll be going to Rockwell tomorrow. Finally, we'll meet Sannet's love of her life. BEBE JOSEPH. Excited na kami.

Melo's text. "Naalala kita dahil tinugtog ang LOVE WILL LEAD YOU BACK" I dunno why. Therefore ito na ang LSS ko for the night.

Jots gave Ana and me a ride "home" and we thank him for that. Sa uulitin. (Winks)

Ode to a Newfound Friend

I shouldve given you a hug for being so bold,
for sharing the story of your life
notwithstanding the fact that i'm a li'l more
than a stranger. Thank you for entrusting me
with your emotions, i wish i'm as brave.
I shouldnt have broken down
but i did. I was hoping i could be the "stronger" part
of the conversation. You have managed to take a peek
at that side of me that i most of the time try
not to show. T'was a pleasure listening to you
as your story unfolded through your sincere words.
T'was a pleasure journeying
with you in an emotional rollercoaster amidst everything
that's ordinary. I shouldve hugged you
because when our conversation ended, i felt so sad
not only for you but for the fact that i never
got to tell anyone my "real story". I shouldve hugged you
not because you need it, but because at that time,
i felt that i needed it. I dunno if i really have a gift
for listening, but you sure have a gift for cutting through
the "ice" that is me. You dont have to thank me,
i'm grateful to you too.

Strangers.

Stranger no. 1:
S: Where you at?
Euns: Home
S: Wanna go out?
(sayang i have class. kung nagkataon this is my first "pseudo-date" in ages.

Stranger no.2:
Casablanca : o baket ka naman naging neglected
Nice: mahirap i-explain. one of my "episodes" lang.
Nice: thanks for askin nyway
Casablanca : ngek
Casablanca : senti mode ka?
Nice: mejo eh.
Casablanca : o baket naman
Nice: stress lang siguro.. diba lahat naman tayo may ganitong moments. un bigla ka lang napapaisip .. naiisip mo un mga inadequacies mo.
Casablanca : ehehe
Casablanca : ngek
Casablanca : tinutulog ko na lang yung ganyan
Casablanca : saket sa ulo lang yan e
Casablanca : baka maiyak ka ha
Nice: i knooow. but the thing is, i cant sleep. i need to study for a loooong class day tomorrow. argh.
Nice: maiyak? naku, normal na yan sakin. merjo fragile ako these past few weeks eh..
Nice: kadiri nga e
Casablanca : tension lang yan
Casablanca : baket d ka makatulog
Casablanca : tsk tsk
Nice: kasi nga i still need to read a lot of cases.
Casablanca : hehe
Nice: di talaga ako sanay magkwento tungkol sa mga malulungkot na bagay eh. so sa pagsusulat ko lang nagagawa un.
Casablanca : baket ka naiiyak? school-related?
Casablanca : hehe lagi ka namang nagsusulat e
Nice: hmm.. not entirely.
Nice: yeah, i know. ang ibig ko lang sabihin, mas comfortable ako na nilalabas un emotions ko through writing.
Nice: un unknown un readers.
Casablanca : lovelife ba yan
Nice: argh. not entirely.
Casablanca : unknown naman ako e...dito lang tayo magkakilala hehe
Nice: basta halo-halong kalechehan.
Casablanca : ano ba yan?sexlife?
Casablanca : hehe
Nice: kaya nga. hehe. tama. kaya nakakapag-usap tayo.
Nice: sex life? never had sex.
Casablanca : onga pala
Nice: oo, virgin pa ko. di lang halata.
Casablanca : baka kaya ka naiiyak..kasi never had sex
Casablanca : joke lang hehe
Nice: pede rin.
Nice: laughtrip ka.
Casablanca : hehe
Nice: thanks. i appreciate this.
Nice: napagusapan na natin to db?
Nice: dapat ko na talaga yata tanggalin un collage na un.
Nice: delikado na ang aking reputasyon.
Casablanca : alen napagusapan? ung pagsesenti mo?
Nice: di, ang pagiging virgin ko. natatandaan ko.
Casablanca : reputasyon... hehe... baybayin mo... re-putas-yon hehe
Nice: di ko lam kung pano ako magre-react.
Casablanca : oo nga...frigid ka ata e hehe
Nice: far from it.
Casablanca : so mas frigid pa?
Casablanca : hehe
Nice: ayan. tama.
Casablanca : hehe
Casablanca : kaya ka pala naiiyak e.. natutunaw na yung yelo sa katawan mo
Nice: nawawala na ang momentum ko. laughtrip ka
Casablanca : hehe
Casablanca : baka madapa ka pa jan sa momentum mo e
Nice: tama.
Casablanca : hehe yaan mo
Casablanca : wag mo na iyakan sexlife mo...dadating din yan
Casablanca : hehehe
Nice: sana un na lang ang problema ko, ang dali humanap ng solusyon.
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At least these conversations made me smile.

Neglected.

It's been a while since i actually felt appreciated. Really appreciated. I dunno, there's something about my life that makes me think everything's superficial. That people arent really happy that i'm around. That they can actually go on living their lives without having to think of me. That i never really make that much of a difference to the people i interact with.

Ever felt like you wanna just walk real slow to find out if someone'll look back to ask why you're a step behind? I did. Ever felt like you wanna just sit back, not talk and observe.. hoping that even for a second, someone'll notice that you're not saying anything? I did. Ever turned the volume of your MP3 player to its maximum to drown out all the voices that are in your head because in the end, there's really one voice you'd rather hear? I did. Ever read someone else's blog hoping that you'll at least get a glimpse of how they perceive you to be only to realize that they didnt bother to say anything about you? I did. It sucks. The worst part is, you know that there's really no one to blame. You know that your attempt to find the answers to that ONE QUESTION that's been bothering you is just so futile that there's nothing left to do but forget about the idea.

There are moments when i feel i have given myself the task of making other people laugh only because i am desperately waiting for that someone who will share this burden with me. What am i doing wrong? A lot of what if's and if only's are slowly resurfacing again, bruising my already scarred ego. If only im thinner, if only im smarter, if only im more "mahinhin".. What if i didnt do this, what if i didnt meet him, what if i didnt choose to be this clown?

The clown never gets the girl [guy]. - Ed

I'm surrounded by a lot of really warm people.. but why do i feel cold? Abandoned? Alone? When will i be numbed by these hurtful emotions?

Set the Date! Set the Date!

A lot of things happened today because my day started really early. I was in Makati 'round 8am already for a "Tour" around the Makati City Hall. T'was fun.

I wanna say sorry to you whom we have hurt through our insensitive remarks. T'was an unintentional felony, alam kong may liability pero sana mabigyan mo kami ng "pardon".

I got to talk to Mr. Hotness No More no.1 today. Wala lang. We finally got to tour our Library. We saw Rocker Dude and we all made a big fuss out of it. Maliit nga lang sya. Kawawa naman magiging anak namin, "vertically-challenged". He looked good in Red.

Melo and Ceia came up with their songs for me. They feel like these 2 songs embody my "situation" as of the moment.... "Torpe" at "Tell Me How You Feel". I love the 2nd song. Pero uhmm, nananatiling "walang progress" ang istoryang ito. Come on, ask me out. Ika nga ni Charlotte sa Sex and the City ... "Set the date! Set the date!" But he's rarely online and i dont think he ever tried reading my blog, so he wont get this hint. Nananatili kang nangunguna sa aking listahan kahit na bata ka pa at di mo ko tinext. Hahahaha.

Ito ang gabi na naglakad ako mag-isa sa dilim upang maghanap ng cab. Keri lang, "sanay ako". The non-perk of NOT HAVING A GUY. Minsan lang ako magpaka-damsel in distress ngunit wala naman akong knight in shining armour. I'm dead beat. I wanted to stay in Starbs but i feel sooooo exhausted. Thanks Jots for looking at me in the eye and for saying, "Eunice, magpahinga ka na." Sometimes i have to be reminded. Ika nga ni Jay habang nakangiti, "Mukha kang bangag." THanks for pointing that out. Thanks Yumi for the "concerned look" you gave me when i told you about my going home dilemma. Sa totoo lang kinabahan ako, but a girl's gotta do whatta girl's gotta do. Sanay naman ako mag-isa. Iskolar ng bayan eh. Hehe.

My friend Japh pressured me into going to the Premiere night of Perfect Catch. Buti na lang game si Shem at Ana, i hold myself responsible pag nagkalat kami sa recits namin tomorrow. In fairness, i appreciated the flick's humor and i was sighing the whole time because it's a certified "Kilig movie". I wish someday i can also say this line...

"Everything you feel about that thing you're passionate about.. I also feel...
FOR YOU

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Tulugan na.

I'm Creeping ME Out.

I was looking at his pictures as if it's the normal thing to do. I am officially creeping myself out for checking his Friendster profile every time a get the chance. The last time I was like this, things ended catastrophically. Now, if I can only focus on the facts and pay attention to the real life. I should be studying. I shouldn’t be whining about things which cannot positively contribute to my now shitty and totally out of control life. His pictures are on the other window. By clicking alt-tab I can once again look at him and contemplate on why I think we have a chance. But I’m scared that if I start thinking again, I might think my way to doom. Tangina. Wala pa ngang sign na gusto ka niya nababaliw ka na sa kakaisip. For all we know, isa ka lang sa maraming close girl friends na meron siya. Hindi ka pa ba nasanay? Lagi ka kayang "the in-between-girl". The girl after a past relationship, before a future relationship, but never in the present relationship. Tangina.

I read Mister Slyde's blog today. It got me into thinking about how good it will be to sleep and wake up in a totally different place. A better place. But I didn’t surprise myself when I instinctively typed, "I'd rather SLEEP in a way better place. Not waking up is a good option anyway." Where is this pessimism coming from? My life's perfect. My family's great, I have the bestest group of friends. Why is there something way within me that makes me feel like I’m inadequate?

I got to converse with my high school friend Jaycee the other night and he was talking about how he has acquired a totally new perspective with regard to the Catholic church. It occurred to me how things have really changed. High school was just so long ago that if I meet up with my friends now, there probably are gazillions of new things that I will find out about them. It's like we lost that familiarity that we used to enjoy. It was one of the things I used to fear when I was close to my high school graduation. Losing everything that familiar, warm and stable.

Ang ironic. My last entry was entitled Happy Happy Joy Joy only to follow it with a "Creeping me out entry." Damn.

Happy Happy Joy Joy (Koochie koochie koo)

Today was a stress-free day. I went to Mass with my family, saw a few of my highschool friends and went straight to the mall. After another episode of "katakawan 101", we watched Cinderella Man starring Russel Crowe and Renee Zellweger. The film was a-ok, heart-warming, inspirational, superbly touching. I was crying the whole time. When i say i was crying, my tears were flowing like there's no tomorrow. I'm a sucker for these kinds of flicks, feeling ko nakakarelate ako sa kanila.

I was reading Shem's blog and i got reminded that there's something i have to react on. Mel gave a comment regarding attraction and i found myself nodding in agreement... I quote," Just because you find someone handsome / attractive, it doesnt mean that you are crushing on him..." Tama, tama. I'm a very "appreciative" woman with regard to good-looking and yummy men but i'm crushing on a person, it's not even the "seriously crushing on him" kinda thing. It's just another way of saying that he caught my eye. Honestly, i dont see anything wrong about telling a guy that you find him hot, it's just like praising someone for a job well done, for wearing a good piece of jewelry or whatever it is that makes a person praise-worthy. Ok lang kahit malaman ng mga tao sa "Hotness List" ko na kasama sila dun, it's not like i wanna date 'em. Pero sa ngayon, meron isang taong nananatiling gusto ko sanang i-date. Sana'y mabigyan kami ng chance ni Lord. Hindi ko alam kung sign na biglang sinabi ng dad ko kanina, "Wag kang mag-aakyat ng lalaking parang di marunong magpagupit ha?" He was just kidding, still. Parang nakita ko sa friendster si Hot Barister / ROcker Dude na lagi namin namamataan sa Library. Nakita ko na rin un crush ni Ana. Di ko parin nahanap si Backstreet Guy. Sawang-sawa na ako kay Starstruck Moment... ako ba ang dahilan at na-achieve nya ang status nyang ito? masyado ako naging vocal na i USED TO find him hot. Oh well.

Ang hot nun bagong housemate sa Pinoy Big Brother, umaariba si Mam Rakel. She's horny daw. Ayun na. Si SAM ay isang yummy na lalaki. He skates, he's from the states and he's y-u-m-m-y!

Parang may dapat ako isulat pero nakalimutan ko kung ano. Yves promised me na she will try to minimize my appearances in her blog entries, pero i dont really mind. I find it fun nga na lagi ako napapasama sa kwento. Ibig sabihin nun ay unforgettable ang mga pinaggagagawa ko.
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Funny Conversations

Aldrich (my brother): Tignan mo si Mrs. _____. Ano naiisip mo?
Yunis: Ano?
Aldrich: UN damit nya mukha syang PRAYLE. Kung naging maroon un, mukha sya Nazareno.
(laughtrip)
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Mel:(while watching the Pep squad competition) alam ko na kung bakit wala kayong balloons.
Yunis: Bakit?
Mel: Walang balloon na kulay Maroon.
Yunis: OO nga no. (ngii!)
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Yunis: Nalulungkot ako na di ko napanaginipan un bunch of BALD GUYS from La Salle's Pep squad. Maganda sanang gising ko kung ganun. Mga tipo namin ni Mel. Matangkad na kalbo. (Your booty shivers me timbers..)
Sis: Alam ko na kung ano un mga tipo mo.
Yunis:Ano?
Sis: Si MR CLEAN!
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I watched Gary V's concert and my LSS for the night is....

KAILAN

Bakit kaya nangangamba
Sa tuwing ika'y nakikita
Sana nama'y magpakilala
Ilang ulit nang nagkabangga
Aklat kong dala'y pinulot mo pa
'Di ka pa rin nagpakilala
REFRAIN
Bawat araw sinusundan
'Di ka naman tumitingin
Ano'ng aking dapat gawin
Bakit kaya umiiwas
Binti ko ba'y mayroong gasgas
Nais ko lang magpakilala
Dito'y mayroon sa puso ko
Munting puwang laan sa 'yo
Maaari na bang magpakilala
REFRAIN
Bawat araw sinusundan
'Di ka naman tumitingin
Ano'ng aking dapat gawin
CHORUS
Kailan (kailan), kailan mo ba mapapansin ang aking lihim
Kahit ano'ng aking gawin, 'di mo pinapansin
Kailan (kailan), kailan hahaplusin ang pusong bitin na bitin
Kahit ano'ng gawing lambing, 'di mo pa rin pansin
AD LIB
Bakit kaya umiiwas
Binti ko ba'y mayroong gasgas
Nais ko lang magpakilala
REFRAIN
Bawat araw sinusundan
'Di ka naman tumitingin
Ano'ng aking dapat gawin
CHORUS
Kailan (kailan), kailan mo ba mapapansin ang aking lihim
Kahit ano'ng aking gawin, 'di mo pinapansin
Kailan (kailan), kailan hahaplusin ang pusong bitin na bitin
Kahit ano'ng gawing lambing, 'di mo pa rin pansin

The Soundtrack of my Age of Non-innocence.

i got this from Marlon and he got it from Dean Alfar.

You may go to this site and look out for the search bar at the left side of the screen. Type in the year of your high school graduation. Enter. Click on the top 100 hits (one of the search results). Copy and paste the list into your blog and feel free to comment on the soundtrack of your naive years.

Mine's here. Circa 2001.
Here are a few of my faves...

1. Hanging By A Moment, Lifehouse - awwwwww.
2.Fallin', Alicia Keys - this started my loving alicia.
3. All For You, Janet - sayaw kung sayaw!
4. If You're Gone, Matchbox Twenty - mush, mush. simple pero rock!
5. I'm Real, Jennifer Lopez Featuring Ja Rule - naman! kinakanta ko lang ito last week e.
6. Drops Of Jupiter (Tell Me), Train - sino makakalimot nito.
7. Let Me Blow Ya Mind, Eve Featuring Gwen Stefani - uhuh uhuh..Gwen Stefani.. memorized ko dati lyrics nito eh.
8. Thank You, Dido - Eminem statue?
10. Independent Women Part I, Destiny's Child - Let's go Charlie's Angels.
11. Again, Lenny Kravitz - isa pang malaking Awww..
12. It's Been Awhile, Staind
14. It Wasn't Me', Shaggy Featuring Ricardo "RikRok" Ducent
15. U Remind Me, Usher - hottah hottah abs.
17. Angel, Shaggy Featuring Rayvon - he just had to have another single. sobrang hit un It Wasnt Me.
18. Ride Wit Me, Nelly Featuring City Spud - hiphop kung hiphop.
20. Follow Me, Uncle Kracker - I LOOOOOOVE THIS!
21. Drive, Incubus
22 .What Would You Do?, Alicia Keys
23. Survivor, Destiny's Child
24. Lady Marmalade, Christina Aguilera, Lil' Kim, Mya & Pink
26. Love Don't Cost A Thing, Jennifer Lopez - kausuhan ng mga ganitong kantani JLo.
31. Family Affair, Mary J. Blige
34. Don't Tell Me, Madonna
36. Crazy, K-Ci & JoJo
37. Fill Me In, Craig David - ayun sa akin nun freshie pa lang ako sa college.. "Sasagutin ko kung sino man ang makakakanta sakin nitong kantang 'to.
38. Someone To Call My Lover, Janet - si Abby naiisip ko.
39. With Arms Wide Open, Creed
41. All Or Nothing, O-Town - naalala ko si Abby na kinakanta ito.
42 .Bootylicious, Destiny's Child
43. I'm Like A Bird, Nelly Furtado
51. This I Promise You, 'N Sync - Boyband ito!! Haze?!
54. Crazy For This Girl, Evan And Jaron
55. Nobody Wants To Be Lonely, Ricky Martin & Christina Aguilera - sensual!
61. Never Had A Dream Come True, S Club 7
65. The Space Between, Dave Matthews Band
66. There You'll Be, Faith Hill
72. Play Jennifer Lopez
75. Beautiful Day, U2
76. Austin, Blake Shelton
77. Southern Hospitality, iLudacris
80. Loverboy Mariah Carey Featuring Cameo

"I CANNOT BELIEVE" EPISODES.

I still cannot believe UST managed to snatch the first prize (again!) from UP. I was kinda sure that UP will win. UST's performance today at the competition wasnt bad but it wasnt spectacular either. Nakakadepress. Sabi ko pa naman di ako jinx. I feel bad for my friend Kai, it's her last year in the squad. Oh well, UP did GREAT. I still think we shouldve won.

I met up with my friend Jason today at Gateway's Taco Bell. Sya ang pinagdiskitahan ko dahil Thomasian sya. Hmmmph, talo talaga dapat ang UST. Kahit siya aminado na akala nila talo sila. He was wearing his yellow shirt at lalo nag-init ang ulo ko. hehe, joke lang Jeiz... you know naman na i love you. Still. Grr. Btw, congrats sa friend mong si JaYson with a "Y".. kahit he didnt win sa CLose up to Fame, he did ok naman.

I went Ukay-ukay shopping tonight and i managed to buy a really good "coat" for (drumroll pls!) 80 pesos. I shall wear it on Monday.

Ayun kay Mike G., akala nya may BF ako. Therefore, di ako mukhang single? Hmm. I dunno if that's a good thing or a bad thing. Kasi si Backstreet guy ay may dina-date na raw na girl. At si Mel ay hinihiling sa akin na ipaubaya ko na siya since meron naman daw akong "BUDDING ROMANCE" with another guy. Ngunit subalit datapwat.... di ko alam kung may patutunguhan ba kami ni Mr. Budding Romance. Isa syang magulo. Ayun kay Yves, mukha daw mauunahan ko si Shem na magka-BF at masisira ang propesiya ng aming "Bunutan"... WE shall find out. Kasi nga gaya ng sinasabi ko nitong mga nakaraang araw, AYOKO MAG ASSUME dahil wala naman syang ginagawang hakbang. Ayoko ng magulo.

"Maganda sana ang mga lips mo. Para san pa yan kung di mo gagamitin?"

Red Eye

isang malaking.. Ngii! I'm 100% sure that i get attracted to DANGEROUS-LOOKING, Assassin kinda guys. Isang hot na lalaki un antagonist sa Red Eye. I wanna be lost in his eyes. (hyperventilates) Creepy sya pero TYPE ko sya.

I (almost) spent my Friday night in the hippest, trendiest and most exciting place in the whole wide world...Starbucks. But since we're all spontaneous people, just when we thought we were all going home, we decided to watch a flick in Powerplant. Ayun na, Red Eye. Isa syang laughtrip. At di kami nilubayan ng mga traces ng lawschool, on our way to the Cinema we bumped into (my fave) our Criminal Law professor, Sir Vallente. He was with his wife. Yihee. Ngii. While watchin the flick, we couldnt help but think of the aggravating, justifiying circumstances and their requisites. Sick man!

Pepe is the Way the Truth and the Life.

"if it's from Pepe, it must be good."

Pepe celebrated his existence yesterday and boy were we glad. He was a lucky charm for all of us because....

1. FREECUT sa Persons!!!!
2. half lang ng period and ginamit namin sa Crim.

may mas gaganda pa ba sa araw na ito??!

then Pepe treated us to another episode of "NAKAKASUKANG KABUSUGAN" sa Dencio's. According to him... (after ordering another round of sisig) "Para kasing dinaanan ng bagyo un ulam eh!" Natawa na lang ako.

Si Pepe ang isa sa mga pinakanakakaaliw na tao sa buhay ko ngayon. Ito ang mga dahilan.

1. Siya lang ang kauna-unahang nakilala ko na nagpapatakbo ng 140 km/hr.
2. Siya lang ang taong may maraming maraming PEYBORIT na kanta na lagi nya tina-try na i-claim na PINAKA-PEYBORIT nya sa lahat ng mga PEYBORIT nya.
3. Sya lang ang willing na buksan ang bintana nya kahit na marinig ng mga tao na ang song na pinapatugtog nya ay "Wag jan, may kiliti ako jan" by Baywalk Bodies.
4. Sya lang ang kilala ko na willing matukso sa mga girls na nagbibigay ng ticket sa Parking Lot.
5. Sya lang ang willing na tuksuhin sya sa lahat ng babae sa block.
6. Sya lang ang nakakayanan na mamasyal sa Powerplant na suot ang kanyang mala-boxers na shorts at Bokia Shirt with his girlfriend na bihis na bihis.
7. Siya lang ang nakakapagsabi ng... "Penge picture, pagpapantasyahan ko lang."
8. Sya lang ang nakakapagpull-off ng mga lines tulad ng.. "nakaw na sandali, ang pag-ibig ay parang magnanakaw sa gabi..."
9. Sya lang ang nakikipag-convoy na iniiwan un ka-convoy nya at nags-swerve forever.
10. Siya lang ang makakapagpull-off ng pangalan na... "Joey Boy Corde" sa habang panahon.

Bagong Laban.

first and foremost, i wanna congratulate 1-C's debate team; Jayvee, Jeno, TJ and Pam for ACING (relevant itong word na ito) the 2005 Freshmen's Debate Competition (imbento ng title ng event). Best Memorial and Best Team, let's go 1-C!!!!

Oh well, i do remember saying that i'm actually giving up on my stalker stint for this Backstreet guy. I ALMOST DID IT. But aid came and all of a sudden, there's information overload about him. At higit sa lahat, fate as usual is making fun of me because.... HE IS ONCE AGAIN ALL OVER THE PLACE! I amost didnt make it to Mass today, i woke up late but i didnt wanna miss my chance to read for the first time as a bonafide CMO member, so i did my best. It turned out that i was still early for the mass. So, i have come into a conclustion that the saying "God moves in mysterious ways." is really manifested (fortunately and unfortunately) i my life. While i was reading, he entered the chapel. I ALMOST got distracted. Then, he just started to appear wherever i am. And proposals for introduction also came in abundance. Woohoo. I'm torn between two lovers.

Ayun kay Kay, Raffy's reading my blog... so i'm saying hi to Raffy. At wag ka mag-alala, ipapagpatuloy ko lang ang pagsasabi ng mga kalokohan na ginagawa ni Kay sa law school. Makakaasa ka na patuloy mo syang pagtatawanan sa aking pagkukuwento.

When do you realize that you have finally gotten out of the awkward stage? Hmm. when it's ok to say you're pooping. Dahil sa imminent danger, di ko na sasabihin ang name nya. Para mapangalagaan ang aming pagkakaibigan. Gaya nga ng sinabi nya nun last time, "We're officially close."

I promised Pepe that im gonna make a separate blog entry for him because t'was his birthday yesterday. Therefore, this is the last sentence for this entry.

Nakakatawa.

Now i know why for quite sometime now, i dont seem to have any ranking in Pinoy Blogs... I typed the link to my site wrong.. i typed it as http://eunicemonsod.blogPSOT.com !! can you believe it? It's a"Bible Site", that's why i havent been getting votes. Argh.

I wasnt called to recite today. Mahal talaga ako ng Diyos. Pero nakakatakot baka bigla na lang di na nya ako mahal at matawag ako bukas. Di ako naging productive masyado tonight. I still feel bad that Jaye dropped out of law school already. I dont have a seatmate anymore. Parang nabuhusan ng mainit na tubig na may mga aalis talaga sa laban na ito. Haay.

Ayoko na i-stalk si Backstreet Boy, sa kanya lang ako nahirapan ng ganito. Hmmp. Pseudo-stalker lang pala ako. Nagbo-bow down sa isang matinding pagsubok. Di ko nga sya nakikita sa law school eh. Payn.

I've been complaining about how my life revolves around the law school and Starbucks so to break the monotonous routine that i have, i went to Greenbelt with Joseph to buy his IMPORTED ILLUSTRATION BOARD. Yes, there is such a thing. An imported illustration board. I am praying that he ace this uhmm, project that he's working on. Sa ngalan ng panlilibre. Woohoo! He told me story about his misfortune about three weeks ago. I know he's gonna write a blog entry about it so i'm not gonna preempt his attempt to revive his stagnant blog. I pa-paste ko na lang pag nasulat na nya. Isa itong milestone sa aming pagkakaibigan, quoting him on my riding his car, "We're officially close." Therefore mahahawahan ko na sya ng pagiging "mabait" ko. Yeah right. Roll your eyes.

Nakakatawa, i once again googled my name and i found out that a lot of other blogs have been posting My Bestfriend Theory. Aba, meron na akong "readers". Sweet. Salamat sa inyo mga kapatid.

Nahihilo ako sa bagong layout ng friendster. Nakakalito. Technostress.

Bruhahahahahas.

Romantic Horoscope:
The world seems to be rewarding the flirts and the wild ones, but -- really -- do you want what they're getting? Your patience, rock-steadiness and trust mean your heart will find the right (and far better) place.

Ok. I'm through with flirting. (Thunder and lightning) Seriously, nakakapagod. One moment you feel like something great's gonna come out of it, the next moment you feel like everything's a show. Kaya simula ngayon, WALANG MALISYA lahat ng mga usapan at mga "nakaw na sandali". Hanggang walang nagtatapat, walang maga-assume. Kaya kahit na lahat ng tao ay tinutukso ako sa kanya, at minsan tinutukso ko rin ang sarili ko sa kanya... MAGKAIBIGAN lang kami. Nadala na ako sa mga wrong assumptions. I cannot afford to be distracted.

Yunis: Productive ako ngayon.
Ana: Congrats.
Yunis: Ganito talaga pag walang lalaki. Di distracted.
Ana: Alam mo naman pala eh.
Yunis: (tahimik)

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(habang pinapakita ang mga stolen shots ni Shem sa aking Starbs Cutie)
SHelly: Sino 'to?
Yunis: Taga- *********
Shelly: Bakit sya umupo sa table mo? Di mo sya inimbita? Ang kapal naman nya.
Yunis: Di mo ba alam na pwede na mag-table sa Starbs ngayon? Parang beerhouse?
Shelly: Ano?!

Kat Kalapati read my blog ang found out about my Backstreet boy crush. For a second i panicked. Dyahe. Pero kinuwento ko parin. Therefore, alam ko na ang first name nya. Last name na lang. Chicken feed. Stalker na stalker talaga ako. Parang highschool. Kaya sayo *** mag-ingat ka na, i shall find out a lot of things about you. Please bumalik ka na sa pag-inom ng kape sa Starbucks. Matutuwa kami ni Melo.

Sa lahat ng mga LURKERS at mga unidentified readers. Salamat sa pagbabasa. Nakikita ko ang mga ip addresses nyo. Haha. Just kiddin. Sana magparamdam naman kayo jan.

Sa tingin ko nagiging boring na ang personality ko. Madali na ko mapagod sa pagkukuwento. Tinatamad na rin ako manamit. Nagukay-ukay ako kanina, ang mahal! 120 daw each, hmmp. Natawaran ko na 150 na lang un dalawa. Reyna ng pagtawad ito.

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Use statue in a sentence.
"Yunis, statue?" Hubba, hubba!!!!

Barren

I feel so scared. It’s like I’m falling apart just thinking of what the future has in store for me. I don’t know if I can keep up with the depression that I have to go through. Every minute, I see more reasons why I should start hating myself. I don’t really know what I have to offer. It’s like I’m deteriorating into this good-for-nothing little girl who isn’t accomplishing much in her world of make believe.

I’m just not used to asking for help. It’s happening again. I wish a wolf would just eat me up. I don’t think even a wolf would want to eat me. This is so pathetic. No. I am so pathetic. Chances are, I don’t even deserve the word pathetic.

Please. This is not me. Or maybe, I’m just beginning to see who I really am. After a few hours, I will be smiling again. It’s just that lately, my smiles are painful. They’re empty smiles from a barren being.

Contemplations of a Budding Anorexic.

This morning i was feeling a level heavier, a level sadder and a lever more complicated. T'was that depression attack I had last night. At one point in your life, you will have to cross that quicksand of emotions. Scratch that, it's not ONE POINT is A LOT OF POINTS. People'll either notice or not. For a lot of people, it matters that people notice. For me, it really doesnt make a difference.

When i was a kid, my childhood friends used to embrak into what we then used to think as TREASURE HUNTING. I would often wonder why the grown-ups never noticed the tons of diamonds (which turned out to be broken glass) scattered in our school's gymnasium. I thought, if only they stopped to observe a li'l bit harder, they'd know that they didnt have to work. I eventually found out the truth.. that the diamonds that i was collecting are all worthless. T'was painful to accept it, especially when you thought you had it all figured out. THe truth slaps your sorry ass and leave a really stingy red mark.

Contrary to how a lot of people see me, i value my solitude. It's not because i dont enjoy other peoples' company but it's because i am able to make way for certain emotions that i struggle to conceal.

PLeaaaaase.. I cant handle depression today.

Sunday Morning...

"easy like Sunday Morning..."

Is it possible to have three songs for your LSS? I waited for my"sundo" in Starbucks this morning and three songs caught my attention.. Fever, You Dont Know Me and Sorry Seems to Be the Hardest Word. Ive been singing it the whole day, salisihan. Oh hindi!

I predicted it, the moment my family saw me wearing my shirt and my pants, they all gave me weird looks. So not me. I know. Busabos.

To make matters worse, on my way to the car... Bumigay ang paper bag ko. KUMALAT ANG CASES!!!!!!!! Dyahe. Dyahe. Dyahe.

I'm majorly crushing on a Mr. Backstreey Boy. Natatawa parin ako pag naiisip ko ang kanilang pagkanta. Laughtrip talaga.

My dad bumped into a co-worker he had ages ago. I admire my dad for not forgetting everyone he works with. He's quite an unforgettable character too, im sure. I hope the people i interact with will always have a place in their memories for me. Am i worth it?

Brothers Grimm..

We had no choice, my family wanted to watch that flick by Jodie Foster or Russel Crowe's and Renee Zellweger's Cinderella Man but both apparently arent in the cinemas yet. So, my family decided to watch The Brothers Grimm. My friend recommended it this morning, and he was raving about how t'was a fun movie to watch. My family's fantasy days ended the day Okay Ka Fairy Ko ended (hehe), but since we already are set to watch a flick, we gave it a shot.

The movie was witty, a conglomeration of all the fairy tales associated to the Grimm brothers with a twist. It was kind of dragging in the beginning. A "confused film"... is it a comedy, a thriller or did i miss the humor of the whole thing? The latter part of the film was far better, i like the suspense, the exposition of the now whole picture.

Monica Belucci is just gorgeous! I'm biased, I love her. I love it that amidst all the jokes which are most of the time slapstick by nature, it maintained its dim sort of gloomy feel. I'm a sucker for sad endings. I was hoping that Will won't wake up, and the 12 girls will forever be in their "coffins" preserved with the elegance of death. Oh well, i guess i'm too much of a pessimist these days.

I did like the ending, i mean, how could you not adore the sight of girls running towards a group of villagers who have been waiting for them since forever? How could you not like the sight of a happily-ever-after denoument? I even liked the "two-timing woman" who gave both the brothers a g'bye or perhaps an "im-flirting-with-you-come-and-get-me-boys" kiss (lucky bastard). Thought the beginning was sloooooooooooow, it sorta got my attention in the end.

The movie is a nice ending to my uber tiring week.

Oops, Bar Ops..

Romantic Horoscope for Today:
Interesting encounters are the order of the day (and night), and you're intrigued but not at all acting rashly. Wait to see more before you commit your time or affection to an unknown quantity.

Today's BAR Ops day.I'm meeting up with my friends in..(surprise!) Starbucks before we go to The Westin Philippine Plaza to be first-class slaves. Maybe, just maybe.. this is where ill be meeting the "unknown quantity" that my horoscope's predictin i'll have an intriguing encounter with.

Di na muna ko depress-depressan kasi nakakasawa. Haha. I'll be wearing my "pants with attitude" today to boost my mood. O sha, ligo time.

Bakbakan Na...

I went to school earlier than usual and spent a quiet morning alone in Starbucks. I feel soooo exhausted. I dunno how i will be able to acquire the energy that i need to actually survive lawschool. It's like i'm losing my drive and passion to study. Yves and I were talking about our "quitting is not an option" mantra but these past few days, we feel like we are not as excited as we were a few months ago. It scares me to think that i may be losing interest in this BAKBAKAN.

I know a lot of people are now reading my blog, but i guess everyone knows that i dont like talking about the sad parts of my life. I dont want people to be burdened by my own insecurities. Ganito lang ako, sulat ng sulat ng mga bagay bagay habang nakatingin sa PC ko. Minsan nakangiti, madalas umiiyak. In the end, pinopost ang mga masasayang bagay. Tinatago ang mga malulungkot. Ang buhay naman kasi ay parang teatro. Lahat ng tao ay umaarte lamang. at ang tanging panahon na hinaharap natin ang ating mga sarili ay ang panahon ng pag-iisa na madalas sa hindi ay mas pinipili nating talikuran.

Signs na Masyado ka Na Naglalagi sa Starbucks (Part2)

1. Pinipilit ka na nila na dalawa ang kunin mong pastry pag pagpapa-coffee and pastry sampling sila.

2. Sila na ang pinagdedesisyon mo kung ano ang oorderin mo.

3. Hindi ka nainis nung nalaman mo na may namataang ipis ang isa sa mga customers.

4. Ang tagal mo na kumuha ng water dahil ang katumbas nito ay mga "nakaw na sandali" ng pakikipagkwentuhan sa mga barista.

5. Binigyan mo na sila ng testi sa friendster.

6. Alam mo na talaga by heart ang mga names nila.

7. Nakaka-relate ka na sa mga inside jokes nila at tinetext mo na sila pag nandun un crush nilang customer.

8. Pinapakilala ka na nila sa mga friends at kamag-anak nila, at ikaw din naman ay pinapakilala mo na sila sa mga friends mo na dumadalaw sayo.

9. Napapaisip ka na kung gusto mong coffee-inspired ang name ng future anak mo.

10. Napapanaginipan ka na ng friend mo na kasama mo ang isa sa mga barista at inampon nyo ang isang orphan na nagngangalan na Monserrat.

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Ayun na.

Re: Apathy of Law Students

for me, this is not a matter of moving out of our comfort zones but of knowing when to stop because it wont do anyone any good if we continue to be stubborn. we are not letting go of that dream to be a part of the betterment of the society, it's letting go of the method that we are now using because it's just not working. how many rallies should we attend to before we realize how harmful these things are to our economy? how many walkouts, debates should we tolerate before we realize that maybe if we would just learn how to respect the decision of the majority, things'll be more tolerable? that's what this whole process is all about right? what's the point of creating certain procedures when after these means are exhausted, people'll just resort to once again going to the streets?

i dont think silence is THAT BAD as opposed to continously talking about something that's not gonna be solved by argumentations but maybe worsened by speculations and heated exchanges.

it's one thing to know what you're fighting for but it's another thing to have the wisdom to understand and respect that what you maybe fighting for is not in harmony with other people's sentiments.
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i've been asked today by Jots, "bakit ikaw ba wala kang pangarap? ano ba ang pangarap mo?"

i was alarmed by my inability to answer him. in the past, i wouldve enumerated my list of dreams to him, but right now, i dunno what i really want. please, i dont wanna think that i've been chasing the wrong rainbow all my life.

Bittersweet Day

I have a very, very bad feeling about the habits i've been acquiring these past few days. It seems like i'm out of it. It's like i wanna shirk again and let my guards down. Panic time.

(Starbucks counter habang kumukuha ng tubig)
Camille: Hi Eunice, how was your day?
Eunice: (simangot) Itanong mo ulit sakin.
Camille: How was your day?
Eunice: Bad. My day was bad.

But in fairness, it wasnt really like a bad bad day, i had a lot of good "moments" and as usual, luck was on my side. I wasnt called in Crim and in Legal Profession so i once again escaped the surefire way to doom.

Depression almost got the best of me di man halata, [nahalata ni Camille dahil mukha daw ako di masaya at nahalata din ni Jots na mukha daw akong stressed] so i called my Teepee Japhet whom we shall now call Japh (Jeif) according to Jots. I needed someone from my past who could remind me of how "easy" it is to live a life you wanna live. Kwentuhan galore ito, not minding the numerous cases i have to read for a 2-hour battle tomorrow for Constitutional Law. It seems like t'was soo long ago. College.

Jay: Tubig ka ng tubig, Bumili ka naman! (His reaction when for the nth time, i got a glass of water sa counter)

Possible Law Office Names
Marisa Tomei and Joan To - Tomei To Law Office
Bula - Bula Law Office
Ylagan To Law Office - then youll wonder why no one's consulting

Yehey, i have a new bookmark. Special thanks to Joseph, i shall remember you as i read my books.

I thought i was gonna die. I had a scary experience today when i went home. Being alone isnt really a good idea. Sabi ko na nga ba bad day.

Harsh Harsh World

"the law is harsh, but it is the law." -- after the numbing "Mr.speaker, may i explain my vote?" marathon,i can finally say that i feel sympathy for the opposition. i will give it to them for fighting a good fight and though they mourn for their loss,i think it's time that we really move on. i dont like the idea of once again going to the streets, this wont end if the loser wont bow down. this is democracy, the majority has spoken and the truth is, it is a game of numbers.

apathy is bad, but fanning the already alarming fire is worse. =)

Bunutan Para sa Kinabukasan

We, the members of "DuhPerm" [me,Haze,Mel,Yves and Shem] found the perfect way to look forward to our division of labor in making digests for our Consti cases. What we did was to make categories for every round of bunutan. We came up with questions and the bunutan'll determine our ranking. it's very addicting. Kalokohan nga naman.

Ang hirap i-type lahat kaya un mga PINAKA na lang sa bawat category ang ilalagay ko.

Shem - ang mapapangasawa ay pinaka-HOT, sikat, malambing, responsible, mapang-pamper;
Haze - ang mapapangasawa ay pinaka-Rich, Talented, bata; pinakaunang magkakaanak, pinakaunang magiging housewife
Yves - ang mapapangasawa ay pinaka-Mabait, eccentric, matalino, ; pinakamost likely na magiging kabit, unang magkaka-bf , pinakamahal ang asawa, pinakamaraming anak, unang iiyak
Mel - pinakaunang kakaliwain, pinaka martyr, pinakaunang mag-aasawa, pinakamagandang bahay, pinakamagandang car

dalawa lang ang aking napanalunan.. drumroll please.

Eunice:
pinaka-Sexually compatible [bawing-bawi! haha]
pinakamahal ng asawa

pero dahil blog ko ito babanggitin ko na pumapangalawa ako sa:

asawang:pinaka-hot,pinakamabait at pinakatalented [not bad ano?]
at pangalawa ako sa most likely na magiging martyr [ayun na.]

Balik Freshness-Balik Bounce Bounce

I dont like what im doing. Im being my old "tamad" self. Im just thankful that ive been really lucky err BLESSED. I felt bad for Joey Boy Corde today because unlike me, he had been religiously reading our Consti cases but he got called to recite for that 3-page case that he wasnt able to read because it came late. I can still picture his expression when he realized that there's nothing more to say but, "Im sorry sir, i wasnt able to read the case.". Argh. I dont deserve the luck. Mel cried today, i understand how painful it is to accept that the effort you exerted didnt produce the result you wanted. It's more than frustrating, it's... hell. Haze also had an "episode" because she got called also for recitation and she didnt feel ok with her answer. Nakakalungkot. God has been sooooo good to me, i am actually feeling guilty.

Apparently, people are ONCE AGAIN in the streets to call for GMA's resignation. So much for the rule of law. I must admit, when i finally got into the conclusion that the impeachment case'll be trashed, i felt bad for the opposition. I know that it seemed harsh that their case didnt reach the senate because of the Lozano complaint which the DOJ found without merit and totally different from the amended complaint by Escudero's side but just like what i learned in law school, "The law is HARSH but it is the law." When it says that only one impeachment case may be entertained in a year, we have to respect that. No matter how obvious it is that technicality ruled over substance, we have to bow down.

I am still in need of human warmth.

Joke time:
Ano ang first name ni NEMO? --- edi Sarah Gero. (from Au/Deo)

Dont Fight the Feeling

"I can be your cherry pie and you can be my cream on top."

I am no longer fighting the feeling. Because there's no feeling to fight.
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An excerpt from a convo w/ my friend while i was discussing my "BUDDING ROMANCE" with cutie.

japhet_paragsa : mukha naman syang intelihente!!! hehehe so anong level na kayo?
jhersee33 : "friends"
japhet_paragsa : asus!!! i can see you na sobrang kilig!!!! i swear!
jhersee33: lam mo naman na ito lang ang stage ng relationship na naha-handle ko. haha, sabi ng mga lawschool people.. they see a different Eunice.demure.
japhet_paragsa: asus!!! nag-iiba talaga ang tao kapag may pag-ibig!
jhersee33 : sheet. di ito pagibig. isa itong landian. wala ako time magmahal sa ngayon. at wala din sya time im sure.
japhet_paragsa : sbi nya syo?
jhersee33: hindi.
jhersee33 : tapos lahat sila, "Eunice, kung ako sya di ako mag-aaksaya ng panahon kung di ako interesado" still. ayoko umasa. think arthur.
japhet_paragsa : yun na nag lang talaga ang pede mong panghawakan para makaiwas sa tukso!!! hahaha think about what happened with arthur
jhersee33 : haha. exactly.
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hinahabol parin ng anino nya ang aking kasalukuyan. argh.

Mga Kagila-gilalas na Kwento sa Buhay ng Babaeng Naka-palda.

T'was a great day. I was able to continue my journey as a budding anorexic (cucumber lang katapat!) with only one glitch courtesy of Pepe. He bought 2 boxes of my fave Gonuts Donuts for all of us, he is an ANGEL. I only ate one piece of the Pastillas flavor, t'was heaven. Merci beaucoup Pepe! I won our li'l bet, so he owes me a Caramel Machiato grande. (winks) Sabi ko sa'yo di na sya uupo, nasisira na yata ang aming pagiging magkaibigan dahil sa panunukso nyo. Grr.
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I thought it was gonna be an ordinary night until Shem decided to go home... A few minutes after she "allegedly" left, i found out that she was trying to call me and that she sent me an SMS. A green Honda CRV was parked in front of her Vios that it was impossible for her to go. Worse, she wasnt doing anything about it. She was just there, prolly cursing the man (who turned out to be a woman) who parked in front of her without at least checkin if someone's inconvenienced by her decision. I was laughin when i realized that if i didnt notice her missed calls, she wouldnt have gone out of her car and she would be really pissed by the time i found out. I asked for manong guard's help but we couldnt find the owner of the car. I was laughin my ass off at how pathetic the situation was. We had nothing to do but wait. And this apologetic girl emerged, all smiles notwithstanding the annoyed look in our face. Ok, napatawad na namin sya. Fine.
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I was able to write a poem while i was waiting for my friends in Starbucks. I love solitude, it makes me contemplate. I badly need a back massage. Oh well.
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I'm officially out of the circle of fans of Mr. Starstruck Moment. Ang taas na ng status nya sa hotness gauge at masyado na marami may gusto sa kanya. Ayoko ng marami syado ang may crush, therefore he's HOTNESS NO MORE no.2 in my list. Parang he has become overrated. Therefore i only have my "cutie" and Hotness Latino.
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When i ordered my 2nd coffee drink for the night, Jots came up with the idea of turning into reality something that me and my friends have been wanting to do for quite sometime. Remember the KFC commercial? Well, we did it. They announced all of our names for my sole Cafe Americano order. Di ko kinaya ang kahihiyan. Nakakatawa.

Let's Not Drift Apart

Let's not drift apart when we havent
even begun. We flow
like the water in a stream
of unexplainable connection. The ripples
dig deeper to my depth in the sparkling
emptiness that leave my transparent
body emerging from that peaceful
confusion.

Let's not drift apart when we're not
even together. Do mountains choose
to be in their places? If the terrains
have become ordinary, how
do they find that extra spark that could ignite
the now cold breeze? There's no
understanding.

Let's not drift apart, like the stream
and the mountain. What have we become
in this dance of possibilities? DO we
meet through the clouds or through
the earth? We are looking at the same sunset and that same eternity
that draws the line between the tangible and intangible
truth.

Friendship nanaman? Puhlease!

Love doesn't always start with big fireworks for you -- more likely, it begins with a steady, sweet friendship. Cultivate and enjoy these relationships now; you never know what'll grow.

Yeah right. I've always never known.

Childhood sweetheart: we had a thing back then.
Euns: really?
Childhood sweetheart: thought you knew.
Euns: it couldve made my childhood a whole lot better.

RE: Bakit ang jologs ginoglorify sa UP at ang mga Conio disrespected? (from Peyups.com)

glorified and disrespected are such strong words... i'd like to think that the people in UP are one of the most tolerable people you could ever meet. we're a melting pot of cultures so i dont think there really is a glorification or a lack of respect for a certain group. i spent my 4 precious years in UP and my not being jologs didnt get in the way of actually being friends with non-conio people, i think we all are just a mix of these traits.

until now, my classmates in ateneo think im conio and that just goes to show that we can all get along. i dont get offended when they call me conio as much as i dont get offended when i get called jologs. I dont think we all should try to re-engineer ourselves to just fit in. FITTING IN is not really a very big priority because BEING YOURSELF is a better alternative. If one's ok with his/her being, then that person wont find vindication from looking down at "different" people in his/her eyes. :winking:

The Right Love at the Wrong Time.

Is there a right love at the wrong time?

Mel: No. Because if it's the right love, then it can't be at the wrong time.
Ana: Yes. a lot of circumstances can become grounds for a "change of heart". (Paraphrased)

As for me, i dont believe in any adjective that comes before the word LOVE. i think love is indescribable enough that any adjective cannot give justice to its already complicated meaning. If it's love, it's love. No right or wrong love. It's plain and simple love.
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A day after, i still feel bad. I'm on my way to hearing mass with my family, it feels weird. It's like i havent seen my family in a while. We're all so busy that we dont have dinner together anymore. I dunno, i guess it's just a streakof depression that i'm feeling. Hafta think of happy thoughts.
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I think i scare men away. Lemme paraphrase that, I think I scare men to oblivion. My friends said that i look different if i'm talking with someone that i'm interested in. So what does "different" mean? If a lot of people say that i'm this fun to be with / bubbly person, then if i'm different... i'm this boring, intimidating bitch? Argh. I scare 'em away. Or maybe, they're just not that into me. Right, and THat's a better option?

malungkot na kanta, parang "kung ako na lang sana" o kaya "invisible man"...
"what do we mean to each other are we friends are we lovers is it over now?"

Next Attraction:
Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you? Are you coming back to the man you love?

The Exploits of an Optimistic Budding Anorexic.

I just wanna announce that from now on i'm gonna be known as the...

OPTIMISTIC BUDDING ANOREXIC.

oh well. I "made tambay" (ang annoying no?) at Starbucks today to study. I actually didnt have plans to go but Ana and Mel both texted me that they were there and for some reason (which i cannot really write in here) they felt the urge to "convince" me to go. I was more than willing because it felt like i'll die of loneliness in my house. Nobody was there except for the "lavender" err, labandera. And my episode last night didnt really end so i cannot stand to be alone the whole day, i'll die of depression. Nakakalunod na kalungkutan. It took me an hour, I just look vain but i can actually be prepared to go anywhere in a matter of minutes. So i arrived at Starbucks and immediately burdened Ana with my presence. I told her 'bout how disappointed, sorta betrayed or misunderstood i felt last night. It was good to be able to talk about it. It's a matter of acceptance. Lawschool has aged me.

Anyway, i had a funny conversation with my friend Baristas in Starbucks and we got into talking about why i didnt go to UP. I told 'em i didnt pass the LAE and that i'm ok with the idea of taking law here now 'coz i like the environment... one of 'em said, "Ok lang yan, at least dito may papa ka.".. I got confused. Siguro nga ang akala ng mga tao sobrang daming lalaki sa Ateneo. Well, totoo. But most of 'em are taken, at least the desirable ones. Unless may customer sa Starbucks na may crush sakin. hmmm.. oo naAna, wag mo na ko tignan ng masama. Mel, feelingera nga tayo. Haha.

On the "lighter side" of my life it's funny that my horoscope for the day says something like this:

Daily Romantic Horoscope:

A special bond between you and a certain someone grows deeper with even the most minimal efforts from either of you. It's times like this that makes your current relationship seem absolutely magical. Enjoy it to the hilt.

The sweet stuff isn't stopping, so make the most of it. Your affectionate nature makes a path straight to their hearts, so don't be shy -- and consider, just maybe, not taking it quite so slow.

A special bond growing deeper? Interesting. Unless we're talking about uhmm, the baristas in Starbucks or uhmm, my blockmates in lawschool or uhmm, the cab drivers.. I dont think there's a "Special bond" that's been brewing. Wag nyo ko tignan ng ganyan, alam kong iniisip nyo rin ang iniisip ko (at Haze, pepe at lahat ng mga tambay sa Starbucks). Minimal efforts? of course it's minimal, all i do is study, if someone falls for me while i'm doing that, i'm gonna love him like i'm loving my Revised Penal Code. Naks! Voila!

A MAGICAL CURRENT RELATIONSHIP.

Sweet stuff isnt stopping? Has it started? Ahh, mga nakaw na sandali. My affectionate nature, not taking it slow? The last time i listened to my horoscope, i gave the man i thought i love the 8-page letter. He broke my heart. Nakakatakot.

Feelingera nga pala ako. Therefore, i must confess na nagselos ako. Ika nga ni Ana, "Ate ba nya un?" at ang sabi ko, "Malay."

Jibber Jabber.

i feel bad. i feel bad. i feel bad.

i can't believe im crying. i can't believe im crying. i cant believe im crying.

i dont think i should be writing. i dont think i should be writing. i dont think i should be writing.

shit. im an incoherent bitch.

please make me feel better. scratch that.

i know i said i will never contemplate on being suicidal.

so not me.

still crying.

i dont need to be rescued.

i can handle my life.

will i be electrocuted if my keyboard'll get wet by tears?

nah, didnt think so.

UP FIGHT!

I went to UP today with Pepe, Ana , Kay and Hazel. As expected, I was late. We were supposed to meet up in Rockwell at ‘round 9 but I overslept and when I finally opened my eyes, t’was already nine in the morning. The apologetic, sweaty and unmistakably excited me arrived at the law school 45 minutes after. Thanks to our official SUNDO, we didn’t have to worry how to get to my home that nurtured me for four years in and out of the classroom. I’m such a lazy driver, I’m afraid that my vintage baby benz’ll come to a devastating end. Pepe’s ride is a typical racist’s este racer’s wheel, MAANGAS. You can hear it coming a few blocks away (literal). We did enjoy his soo FAST and the FURIOUS kind of songs and his panaka-nakang love songs which allegedly reminds him of his ex [Na pinuntahan nya kagabi, at kasama nya kanina. Ngii]Everything was great but since I was there, something had to go wrong. His car began to make weird noises, as described by Kay and I, “Just Married Noise”. We had to stop to find a mechanic and so we were unfotunateky obliged to ride the legendary UP Ikot.

T’was nostalgic, it felt like t’was a long time ago when, just like any striving student in Peyups, would ride the Ikot and Toki jeep for different reasons, with different thoughts inhabiting our minds and dressed differently throwing looks of intimidation, camaraderie approval and disgust to our fellow passengers. Sana lang di nila ako sinasabihan nh CONIO! (kay and ana!) Kay had to withdraw so she went to the Faculty Center alone while Ana had to endure the hell of walking with me from the College of Science to the Office of the University Registrar. The teletubby land with the usual “trunks-clad swimmers”, my heels were making lubog sa lupa, like it’s so kadiri, with the grass making dikit to my shoes I’ve always wanted to say that. Laughtrip. I’m sure Ana regretted walking with me because I, myself, regretted walking. Ayaw lang pahalata.

The Office of the University Registrar is interestingly described by me and my friends as THE WAREHOUSE. Think action / comedy flick with the ever present kidnapping the loved ones conflict and the ending will always be a final showdown at an uninhabited warehouse (which I assume is kind of abundant because every syndicate seems to own one, unless they hire like a NOTORIOUS warehouse), the “barilan” will be happening there for the much anticipated loved one rescue. Anyway, I had a different “showdown” today. I went through all the trouble only to find out that my transcript isn’t there yet. Haay, This was my conversation with the ate-in-charge.

Euns: Ate, relax lang.

Ate: Kasi naman nakakahigh blood talaga. Ung mga contractual naming na assistans nagsialisan na.

Euns: Talaga po? Bakit naman?

Ate: DI kasi ni-renew ang mga contracts nila e. Kami na lang na matatanda ang naiwan dito.

Euns: Naku, nun nandito nga sila dati matagal na, ngayon pa na wala na sila. Relax lang ate. (As usual, at home nanaman sya sakin at ako ang napaghingahan nya ng kanyang mga hinaing, haha)

Ate: Wala pa un transcript mo. Final checking na un nakalagay. Sandali na lang un.

Euns: Ayos. Sige po, thanks ate.

Ana and I attempted for a few seconds to wait for a toki jeep but because we couldn’t stand the heat anymore and according to Ana we are now ROCKWELLized, we weren’t able to stop ourselves from hailing the cab that was approaching. 35 pesos gone.

Pagkatapos ng paghihirap ay langit naman. We all met up at the FC, Pepe’s tambucho’s now sort of ok, a li’l lower than the usual but tolerable [translation: lahat ng humps after 10 years bago makalagpas! Joke lang!] We decided to have lunch at Mang Jimmy’s. There were 5 of us, we availed of the 4 plus one legendary promo. What did we order? 2 tapa, 1 sisis, 1 liempo, 1 lechon kawali, 4 C2, 1 royal litro at umaapaw na kanin. So much for dieting. I feel like the food I ate reached my nose. Nakakasukang kabusugan. Nakalimutan lahat ng pinag-aralan mula sa Revised Penal Code. Bad news, we were charged 10 pesos for every rice refill.

We had to rush or at least pretended to rush to Ateneo for our 2pm Criminal Law class. Lakas ng trip, Rockwell to UP to Rockwell. We got to Ateneo a few minutes before 1pm, Richard and Mel were nagtatampo ‘coz we wetent able to invite ‘em. Mas masakit ang kay Richard, kinawayan pa sya ni Kay bago umalis. Huli na ang lahat. Haha.

Nakakalungkot na tapos na ang aking mga araw sa UP. Haay.

Before Sunrise...(Insomniac at Work)

i've always had problems with the idea of letting go. i find it hard to SINCERELY forget and move forward, i find it more convenient to just let the pain inhabit my being until i feel the reward of being numb. maybe death isnt as bad as we all perceive it to be, the problem does not lie in DYING per se but in actually wishing for it.
-- my comment to a friend's blog entry

I read an entry from a friend's blog and it got me into thinking of the arbitrariness of life. Earlier tonight i got into a very interesting conversation with Jotsjots, it made me think of how i would still love to pursue my passion for writing, for the arts, for everything that's synonymous to expression. It's nice to be able to meet people whom i enjoy conversing with. There are times when i find it hard to actually open up and really express what i think and how i feel. My being an extrovert is kind of exclusive to the "happy side" of my life. It's not everyday that you get to interact with someone who isnt afraid to welcome you into the complexity of his experiences, of his emotions and who is actually interested in knowing how you see life. Someone who isnt afraid to tell you that he doesnt agree with you and who isnt afraid to ask you questions that no one dared to ask because they just dont think that you are willing to answer 'em.

It's a great night. Tomorrow's another day.

Panaka-nakang Saloobin... Pabugso-bugsong Opinyon...

i have newfound respect for my professors in Ateneo, they all are achievers in their own ways.
namimiss ko na talaga ang UP kung kaya't akoy magbabalik-tanaw bukas kasama ang aking mga kachokaran sa lawschool na sina Goodmorning Goodmorning Angel, Jose, Issa, Carmen at ang aking baong malapit na kaibigan na si Jotsjots.
t'was a great night. just thinking of how wonderful t'was makes me smile (winks at everyone)
nasira nga lang ito nang bumaba ako sa kotse ni Hazel at biglang lumakas ang ulan.
the cab i rode this morning smelled like sweat. i almost puke.
lecheng ulan, nawala un cable.
i wonder why i never saw the "StarBaraks" booth at the UP fair.
nakakatawa talaga si Pao Pao. ako na ang kanyang bagong legal wife.
natatawa parin ako sa conversation na ito...

"i think you're sick!" (remorseful tone) at siya'y sinagot ng... "THen call the doctor VERY QUICK!" .. hahahaha

pepe's "Ang pag-ibig ay parang magnanakaw sa gabi" at "mga nakaw na sandali" comments.
My friends and I were talking earlier tonight 'bout what the names of my and Hotness No More's offsprings'll be... (drumroll please) .. Panice and Pakkice... Yak, ang pangit! Pag si starstruck moment, Ranice, Ricanice...

O siya aral time.

Closer You and I

signs na masyado ka na close sa mga barista sa Starbucks...

1. nasasabihan ka na.. "ALIWIN mo naman kami"
2. ka-friendster mo na sila
3. hinahatid na nila ang iyong order sa table mo
4. pag break nila, ikaw na ang kakwentuhan nila
5. alam mo na ang cellphone number nila
6. pagpasok mo lahat sila nagh-hi sayo, di lang hi, kasama talaga ang name mo.
7. pag-out na sila, nagb-bye na sila sayo.
8. pag aalis ka na nagb-bye din sila kahit ano pa ang ginagawa nila, at kasama parin ang name mo.
9. madami ka natatanggap na freebies
10. alam mo na ang mga bagay-bagay sa buhay nila.. i.e. schedule, school, faves, family stuff.

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take it from me.

Mediocrity...

If I must be faithful to someone or something, then I have, first of all, to be faithful to myself. If I'm looking for true love, I first have to get the mediocre loves out of my system. The little experience of life I've had has taught me that no one owns anything, that everything is an illusion -- and that applies to material as well as spritual things. Anyone who has lost something they thought was theirs forever (as has happened often enought to me already) finally comes to realize that nothing really belongs to them.

And if nothing belongs to me, then there's no point wasting my time looking after things that aren't mine; it's best to live as if today were the first (or last) day of my life.

--- Eleven Minutes, Paulo Coelho

SAPUL.

I miss my friends. Japhet told me na "nagtatampo" sila. If only i can i will hang out with them. Haay.
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I think it's about time that the Philippines contemplate on having Divorce. I think legal separation is bull. If it's irreconcilable, why stop the spouses from completely moving on with their lives?

To hell with the oneness of the family if there is nothing to hold on to anymore.

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I agree with the suggestion of totally erasing the idea of illegitimate children. Why should they be labelled like such when they have nothing to do with what their parents did?

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I wanna float unstructured, i wanna inhabit my life like a porch...

On Miracles...

i do believe in miracles, but my concept of miracles is kind of different...i think everything that's ordinary is still miraculous by nature...i dont look for anything extravagant... everything that we see is in effect a part of a miracle that is life...for me, it's not hard to believe in miracles because i have come into a conclusion that no matter how hard i try, i have no idea who or what really is behind everything that exists...