The Sweet Side of Suicide

"He took his life because he wanted to protect us from the further pending hell that was again to break loose, as a result of losing his battle in the Supreme Court, as a result of the injustice that continued without fail," Dolly said, reading from a statement after the ninth-day Mass for Borlongan last Tuesday..."

I saw Ces Drilon's interview of Dolly Borlongan last week, and i couldnt help but be affected. She talked about how "it was ted's personality" to eventually commit suicide, and how it's his way of showing his love for her. I can feel how mixed her emotions still are about her husband's death. I never thought she wold talk about the SWEET SIDE of SUICIDE. Death really is one mystery that we are yet to fully understand.

A flashback of one scene in Kingdom of Heaven ran into my usually barren mind [naks], that scene where Orlando Bloom's dead wife was being buried. They had to cut her head because she committed suicide. I dont think it's necessary. Im sure a lot of people'll agree, and im sure my opinion is useless because this tradition must've disappeared ages ago. Will you be surely in hell if you committed suicide? What if it's your only way to save other people? Won't God understand?

"I'm sure God will understand. If He wouldnt, then He is not God." [Orlando Bloom on burning the cadavers while being stopped by the Pope]

How do we measure if one's reason for suicide is just and isnt plain selfishness or cowardice? How do we know if it's in the personality of a person to be suicidal? I'm sure there are psychological symptoms, but do we really know? It's a horrifying fact that a person's life is so bad that one chooses to end it. I think suicide is that one fleeting (Yassy-inspired) moment where you feel it's the best thing to resort to. It's that one insane minute of superficial sanity.

I dont think I could ever commit suicide. I cant stand the thought of bringin so much grief to my family. Im sure someone'll blame him/herself for my death and i cant stand that. There's no sweet side of suicide for me.

As for Ted Borlongan's family, i hope they survive his love. Death is such a tough act to "follow".