Whoa, I’m an Economist!

Nine freaggin’ units left and I’m technically an “Economist”. Whether I like it or not, I’ve grown to love my course. Being in a way knowledgeable in Economics (especially in a third-world country) has its perks. One would be that you can actually read the Business section of the newspaper and comment on anything which involves Economics and oter related fields (like, uhmm, sex? Hehe). You can read The Economist without the fear that you have no right to read it. A lot of people respect you because just like what you think when you were starting, it looks really hard. All these graphs can be confusing (you bet). But there’s one teeny-weeny problem that I fear I still have to address. I don’t think I want to be a full-time economist. I’m burdened by the fact that I don’t think what I learned is enough. I can’t even find a good topic for my thesis. Waah! Lemme see, Japhet and I were eyeing a thesis about Temporary Employment and I think it’s very timely. But there aren’t enough data! Grrrr.. it’s hard to actually be interested in the welfare of the masses because not a lot of people would want to admit that their welfare are really taken for granted. I also wanted to make a study regarding the Medium Term Development Plan of the Arroyo administration as compared to the past Administrations and the paper written by 11 of my professors, but I don’t know where to begin. Now I’m scared that I might get fucked up and I may not be able to finish a commendable thesis. Damn! If only I can get my act straight and start to really focus. Haaaay!

Still I’m a future economist, whether I like it or not. This is the path I’ve chosen, I might end up as a lawyer still, I am an economist. I know, I know, I should be happy. In fact I am! but I always end up thinking of what might have been. If I have taken up Creative Writing instead, or Journalism or Mass Communication, would I have been happier? If I took up Theater Arts instead, would I have been more successful? Oh well, I guess I have to settle for whatever I have accomplished right now. Hey, it’s still an accomplishment that I’m almost graduating right? Only, I would have wanted to graduate with honors. (sighs) I was browsing to some letters I kept from high school and something caught my eye. It was an envelope from Ms. Villaceran, my adviser when I was in Grade four. She gave it back to me when I was in my retreat in my 4th year in high school. It was a drawing I made myself. I drawing or my office as a future lawyer. I cant believe I’m one step closer to that dream. I’m still on the right track, almost there. As of the moment, all I can say is that.. Whoa! I’m ALMOST an Economist.. =P