Tinkerbell

Sometimes, you feel like that thing you've always wanted is right in front of you, you recognize it, you feel happy, excited and contented. But you suddenly realize that you can't have it... It's the saddest feeling, it's the most painful thing. You smile knowing what you want, but you cry alone knowing its impossibility. You get into thinking of whether you're better off not knowing that he exists. You hate yourself for feeling regret about something that simultaneously brings you to heaven and hell. You are faced with the dilemma of letting the days pass you by just craving or of moving on to chasing a new rainbow. You feel confusion, you start to write to clear your head...

You start to write to analyze your emotions. You are hit with the reality that the one thing you're scared of is back and suddenly... you start to FEEL again.