"I don't know why we all hang on to something we know we're better off letting go. It's like we're scared to lose what WE DON'T HAVE. Some of us say we'd rather have that something than absolutely nothing... But the truth is: To have it halfway is harder than not having it at all."
- Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy
What is a "last day of Midterms" entry without ranting? It's really been a tiring week and the manifestations are quickly emerging. Take the case of my favorite person in the whole wide galaxy, MYSELF. I went home last night from an "attempt" to study Legal Ethics and my brother opened the door for me. He looked at me with a mocking smile and insensitively remarked, "Ate, para kang nagd-drugs. Uminom ka ba? Bakit ganyan ang mata mo, red na red? At yang eyebags mo, parang six layers na yan a." Wow, what a way to boost my already zero self esteem.
Anyway, I refuse to be disheartened. Sabi nga ni Patty, look at the good/ happy things that are happening and don't dwell on the panaka-nakang "sad parts". That's the best atttitude, but when these "few sad moments" parade themselves in front of you with a full band and really colorful costumes, you can't help but notice diba?
Enjoy it while it lasts, That's everyone's mantra this Midterms week, because after the show, there really is no assurance that history will repeat itself. A lot of other factors will be CONSIDERED and a lot of "there's no turning back" decisions will have to be made. Reality will once again sink in and the things that made you smile... you have to hold on to them and make the memories as vivid as they can get, inside your head and ok, your heart. You never know, these might be the only things that will make you look forward to still surviving. Or to at least believing that once in your life, things worked.
I'm sort of happy right now. With no assurance that I'll be happy ever after. I couldn't care less actually. Whatever works, i'll be more than happy to accept.
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