One Way Secret Affair

To deny one’s feelings is suicide.
Enthralling my defense would make my world crumble.
From the falls of uncertainty sprouts an inexplicable longing and grief.
Diversion is not a panacea, and neither is acknowledgment and assurance.
Melodious and moving, I capture your smile, I hold your hands in my hallucination…
Love isn’t a part of my plan and to get caught up in this is such an ignominy.
I am having an affair with you, nobody knows, not even you.