The End of a Crisis

Things are kind of settled now. As always, God has guided me to what I should do. I prayed hard this morning and looked at my options. Should I just stop chatting, delete mg MIRC program? Should I ask for an attention-seeking public confrontation? Should I just keep quiet? But God told me to look at things in a different perspective, be open to the possibility of making things clearer by once again talking to this guy. That’s what I did…


MsEconomist> hey, i still think we should talk..
MsEconomist> in a more laidback way.. =)
delicatebeat> Sure
MsEconomist> ive been doin a lot of thinkin since last night, and well, i came to the conclusion that yeah i may have come out too strong or somewhat annoying to people.
MsEconomist> and i just wanna say that it's unintentional. can u tell those people that im sorry?
delicatebeat> Yep
delicatebeat>No Problem
delicatebeat>> :D
MsEconomist> are we ok now? i mean, i was really disappointed that people see me in a negative way..
MsEconomist> and when i said na im used to the treatment, i mean it.
MsEconomist> coz im very at ease with the people i interact with..
delicatebeat> Yeah, we ok now
MsEconomist> i had no idea na im annoying anyone,
delicatebeat>> Mmmm
delicatebeat>> Sometimes when we look at the mirror we don't see the bvious
delicatebeat>> Ganun talaga
MsEconomist> i guess that rough on the edges thing is in a way a reflection of my bein too game to talk about almost anythin..
delicatebeat>> Kaya most often i enlist someone to censor me
delicatebeat> Di ba?
MsEconomist> another thing i felt bad about was that nobody talked to me about it.
delicatebeat> Gagawa ka ng program let's say or a painting
delicatebeat>You want feedback from others
MsEconomist> im very open to that naman, i mean it wudve been better if they told me right there and then..
delicatebeat> Shemps you'd be subjective because it's your "baby"
delicatebeat> Same as with our attitudes
MsEconomist> i dont need people to be polite per se, i want them to be honest w/ me..
delicatebeat>> MsEconomist: They haven't got the nerve or the time
delicatebeat> Or prolly the concern
delicatebeat>> Not the same case with me
MsEconomist> because ive been very honest..
delicatebeat>> Kasi i have the time and the concern
MsEconomist> yeah, and thanks for pointing that out.
delicatebeat>> :D
MsEconomist> i never realized that they're that burdened by my presence..
MsEconomist> and i feel bad tat i have a negative effect on them.
delicatebeat> Not really burdened
delicatebeat>> Take the case of some person
delicatebeat> You do know what flaming is, don't you/
delicatebeat>> ?
MsEconomist> flaming?
MsEconomist> uhmm, i didnt quite get that..
delicatebeat> Flaming
delicatebeat> It's publicly dissing a person
MsEconomist> ohhh..
delicatebeat> Usually in forums and boards
delicatebeat> And e-mail
delicatebeat> And also applicable to chat
MsEconomist> it's kinda problematic for me, because i never had any intention to publicly diss anyone,, did it actually look like that when i comment on some stuff?
delicatebeat>> Well sometimes
delicatebeat>> Kaso i was too busy to play arbiter
MsEconomist> oh well, yeah i guess i should be more conscientious.. honestly, i never intended any of my replies to be offensive that's why i was dumbfounded last nyt.

I got disconnected, but it was a relief to actually talk to him again. At lest I know that he meant no harm. Though I’m still unhappy with the fact that he chose to publicly humiliate me first, I just thought that maybe I wouldn’t have paid attention if he didn’t do that. I’m ok now, ready to face the world again and wink at it. Another crisis has been resolved, I wonder what’ll be next…