MAXIMUM BENEFIT... MINIMUM BULLSHIT

Re: I Wanna Go Back to Shallow

Sabi ni Garyn, she also likes shallow because...

"MAXIMUM BENEFIT, MINIMUM BULLSHIT."

I like that. Let us all go back to shallow. Sabi nga namin ni Sep, landian lang muna. hehe.

Speaking of landian, I watched Rush Hour 3 with a "friend" the other night... Then I went drinking with the girls. The first part was the LANDIAN part, the second part of the evening will be dubbed as, "Back to REALITY" part. Pero I enjoyed naman, mainly because it wasn't planned. It just happened. Plus, a friend of mine confessed his "admiration" for one of my friends.. as usual, di ko nanaman hiningi un information, gusto lang talaga nya tine-text ako everytime na nagkakaroon sya ng mga realizations tungkol sa mga crushes nya. Very good. At most of the time, lasing sya pag sinasabi nya un.

Last night, the girls in Starbucks are once again reading what is fastly becoming our "Bible" [Lord you know naman what I mean right?], the HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU book. Because I'm a loser, and i've been reading it a lot of times already I shall quote from memory the STAGES after the HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU REALIZATION...

Stage 1: Exaltation [Otherwise known as "He's out oy my PHONE, he's out of
my LIFE"]
= ilang beses na ba natin ginawa ito? buburahin ang number sa Phonebook,
memorized naman.. alam nyo ang mas effective? Change his name to DON'T TEXT so
that yo'll be reminded of what should be done.

Stage 2: the "What the hell do I do now?" Stage
= Panic stage. The realization that you have to let go is pretty scary
naman talaga.

Stage 3: TEMPTATION [otherwise known as the DEVIL IN DISGUISE]
= Yeah, some of them come up with a lot of pretty decent reasons that it's
tempting to forgive them... but don't fall for that BS again!

Stage 4: Waiting for a long haul stage
= This is where I'm in. It's otherwise known as the "nakakinip maghintay,
pakshet kasi un mga lalaki stage".

After everything... quoting the writer, Greg:

"Replacing the mediocre relationships, halfhearted men and meaningless emails and texts is not just bone-crushing LONELINESS. It's CONFIDENCE."

Kaya, be confident. Masaya din umabot sa stage na yan e.

QUOTES I LIKE:

• If he's not calling you, it means YOU'RE NOT ON HIS MIND.
• If you can find him, he can find you.
• YOU DESERVE A FUCKING PHONE CALL.
• "Hanging out" is not dating.

Last na lang, I had dinner with one of my study buddies in Starbucks last night and he made a startling confession, this was after I confessed that I joined Little Miss SM [there, I blogged it]... He said that he wanted to join that contest back when MGA KABABAYAN KO was the coolest song, he even bought the necklace with the peace sign to convince his parents and he wanted to get Francis M.'s cut to help him play the part more effectively... Kung kilala nyo lang kung sino sya, matatawa talaga kayo. Mai-imagine nyo sya with his PURUNTONG MAKULAY SHORTS ala-FRANCIS M. Laughtrip. Sinabayan pa nya ng fact na pangarap din sana nya mag-escort sa Little Miss Philippines kasi sikat ka pagdating ng Monday kasi kinausap ka ni VIc at Joey. Sayang, gusto ko din sumali sa Little Miss Philippines dati eh, naghahanap pa naman ako ng escort nung time na un. Haha.

Three Down.. I'm Finally Halfway.

Surprisingly, I don't feel drained... I feel like I have quite a reserve of energy. Di ko alam where I'm getting it from, must be my lack of other issues, must be my passion to finally do something right or must be that God's finally allowing me to be calm. and peaceful and uhmm, genuinely happy. Mabuti naman. Sa tingin ko all of the above.

Ung lalaki na naging crush ko the other night, may girlfriend pala. At un girlfriend pa ay un mukhang masamang ugali na kontrabida sa telenovela ang tipo. I'm through with my Mara Clara days eh, kaya dahil di sya actionable document... Kebs na lang. So I have one more. Di rin masyado actionable pero PWEDE. Haha. Sep asked Pia and I if we girls check guys out too when they pass by, answer? TUMATAGINTING NA YES. Dumadaan na nga e, di mo pa titingnan. Free meal kumbaga. Bawal talaga magka-love interest sa law school kasi nakakairita lang pag ayaw mo na sya. Nakakairita rin pag gusto mo sya pero away ka nya. NAkakairita. Sa tingin ko naman may pag-asa ako dun sa isang natitira kong object of affection... ngunit subali't datapwa't... TRICKY ito.

Sa wakas inamin din ni ___ sa'kin na nag-break na sila. Binigyan ko naman sya ng MOMENT OF SYMPATHY tapos pumalakpak ako. Ang sad part, di ko na sya makukulit ng, "Hoy, BREAK na ba kayo? Mag-break na kayo!" So nawalan ako ng isang mapapagkaabalahan na libangan. Pero natutuwa parin ako kasi pwede ko na sya tuksuhin kahit kanino.

Si Quani naman, walang ginawa kung mag-tsismis tsismis sa Starbucks. Tapos paminsan-minsan, umaapela sya para sa mga bagay na DI TALAGA pwedeng i-apila.. Minsan pinagtatawanan lang nya [at ko na rin] un mga taong PULA un buhok at un mga taong nakaupo sa harap ng salamin ng Starbucks na walang table. Lakas kasi ng TRIP e.

SI Krizna, sinisira ni Sep un buhay. Si Tristan naman nasisira ang buhay sa kakaubo. At syempre, si Dema at Sev.. ayun nag-aaral.

Namimiss ko na rin un mga dating tao sa Starbucks, pero di na yata talaga babalik ang dati. [Tingin sa malayo] Si Raplh may kasamang kaibigang lalaki kagabi [tingin kay Ralph ng may malisya], pinakilala nya sakin sabi nya.. "___, si Eunice, Eunice, si _____. Single yan." Sa isip ko, ayos magpakilala tayo habang Midterms.. pero ang sinagot ko ng walang pag-aalinlangan.. "Ako din."

Tinanong ako kanina nun kasama kong nag-aaral na free-rider kung ano ang tipo ko ng lalaki, sino daw sa law school. Wala ako masagot. Masama un. Ibig sabihin, wala talaga. Nun night before, tinanong nya ko kung ano ang tipo ko sa lalaki, sabi ko MATALINO. Un na.

Ngayon, katatapos lng ng TORTS exam na di ko alam kung ano ang mararamdaman.. KALMADONG KALMADO ako e. Nakakatakot un. Babalik ako ng Starbucks at magpapaka-loser na mag-aaral ng TAX. Kamusta naman. Pero di ako nagsisisi. In fact, excited na ako mag-aral. Kasi, un lang naman ang sigurado sa buhay ko ngayon. Kahit ano ang gawin ko, mag-aaral parin ako.

Grounded na grounded itong post na'to. Talagang may maayos na flow of thoughts. Concise.

I wanna watch a flick. I wanna go to CineMalaya.

Pero wala ako pera. Sya.

It's Like... What the Fuck?!

Oo, I will forever be haunted by Jojo Miggy because I said, "It's like... [moment] What the fuck?!" with full emotion. Hassle.

Sep: Di naman nakakatakot un Kapre e, un may ulo ng kabayo na
nagyoyosi?
Euns: Oo nga, di talaga nakakatakot un kasi kung ulo nya kabayo si Petrang
Kabayo un... Matatakot ka ba kay Roderick Paulate?

Sep: So, un Tikbalang un katawan kabayo tapos ulo tao?
Euns: Oo, at ung Kapre un higante na nagyoyosi...
Sep: [moment of silence] Bakit nga ba tayo napunta sa kapre at
tikbalang?
Euns: Ewan ko. Nanaginip ka yata ng malupit kanina e.

Sep: SUSULONG na ako sa ulan.
Euns: Sige, "SUMULONG" ka na. Ayos, parang katupinero a.
Sep: Edi, LULUSONG na ko sa ulan.
Euns: Di ba sa baha lang un?
Sep: [blank stare]

I Cut My Hair

AGAIN.
The other day.
Why? Because of my need for something to change.
I've been receiving overwhelmingly many compliments from well-wishers and I appreciate that. I think I got "IT" back. Finally.

I was praying this afternoon when it dawned on me how I can safely say that I am back to "OK" again. I ended up teasing God about how He almost always plays tricks on me, hurts me enormously and then He ends up feeling guilty after. Sabihan bang nag-guilty si God? I'm sure He laughs at me all the time too, quits lang kami. Pero totoo, nai-imagine ko si God na sinasabi, "Naku, sumobra na yata un prank ko kay Eunice, kawawa naman... Di na nagsusuot ng makukulay na gamit... Bigyan na nga sya uli ng strength at peace of mind." At ayun, I instantly gain the real ME back. Walang pakialamanan, kanya-kanyang gawa ng scenario ito. Whatever works right?

My life's once again pretty stable, I'm enjoying it... not thinking of other things besides law school and friends. It's like I'm really "growing up".

For the first time in ages, I don't know what to blog about anymore. I'm a pretty common writer, it's not hard to figure me out, when I'm emotionally unstable, I flood my blog with everything that I feel, see and experience just so I can document how I managed to survive that chapter of my life. Everything's so fleeting that I don't want to end up forgetting important but small things. Life is a wonderful string of petty things blown out of proportion. Great things start from small beginnings nga diba?

So, I did cut my hair... again. Mainly because I'm bored but the underlying reasons are infinitely many... like, I feel that I can pull the short hair look now that a lot of people are assuring me that I lost weight and uhmm, I wanna feel more empowered.

I think it was a good decision. I'm feeling pretty empowered these past few days.

Sana.

Two down...

... one being my dream of DL-ship
... the other being me.

hehe.

Pero ang totoo, TWO DOWN! Succession and Insurance are sooo yesterday...

TORTS naman..

ang nananakit ng walang pre-existing contractual obligation.
Blech.

WOWOWEE Good Morning

Talagang kailangan mapanood namin pareho ni Bos Maj itong episode na'to para mapagkwentuhan namin.. haha

Host: Ulo, Tuhod, Paa... Saan matatagpuan ang poknat?
Contestant 1: TUHOD?? [sabay upo habang nakamini-skirt sya at tawa]
Contestant no. 2: [alam ko'to FACE] WALA???! [ginaya ang ginawa ni contestant 1]
Contestant 2: MATA???? [wala nga sa choices!]

Host: Kung ang whistle ay pito... Ano naman ang WHISPER?
Contestant 1: [excited pa at pasigaw na sinabi...." MODESS?????!
Contestant 2: NAPKIN????!
Contestant 3: [sa isip nya, ang tatanga naman nitong mga 'to!] SILBATO???!

Un na, di na nakayanan ni Willy... sinabi na nya ang sentiment ko... "TROPANG TRUMPO ba'to? [Battle of the Brainless kasi e!]

Good morning talaga Wowowee..

I WIsh I Can Go Back to Shallow

... It's safer.
... Has less pressure.
... easier to get out of.
... no complicated gear needed.
... it's impossible to hide.

I wish I can go back to shallow.

TAROT CARD for the Day

The Tower card suggests that my alter ego today is the Survivor, whose superpower for revolution lies in my epiphany for change, brought on with the aid of a serious reality check. Today I have reached a turning point. It may be all over but the crying -- but I have the strength to move on and create a better situation for myself. You may say that I never saw it coming or learned the hard way, but with profound change comes new opportunity. One door closes -- another opens. So tear down the wall, and rebuild anew.

What Great Timing

I AM SICK. This is the second time in one semester, talk about BREAKING THE RECORD. Now I have to worry about how to get through the Midterms, ALIVE. What great timing.

Off to more pleasant things, last night, we had a spontaneous Tarot Card reading with Joan's friend who insists on being called ST because apparently, "It could mean anything." So to prove his point, I called him Science and Technology. I'm sure both Haze and Ces'll be posting something about their reading, so i'm not gonna spoil the fun and just render information about mine... It's amazing how accurate the cards were.

My key card symbolizes INNER CONFLICt, sabi nga ni ST, meron daw akong nakitang double-edged sword, di pa ko nakuntento na kinuha ko, sinaksak ko pa at inako ang sakit. Ayos. It is GREATLY affecting me raw, although I am a very strong person because of this certain QUEEN CARD which symbolizes me, I have an inner turmoil. In seven days, I will have to let my MIND dominate my emotions and THINK really hard about the situation. My past card shows that the event is perceived as a VICTORY by other people, everyone's so supportive and happy about it but I know deep inside [going back to the INNER TURMOIL CARD] that there are issues that are waiting to surface. He even said that I am surrounded with SUCCESS and that I NEED TO GROW UP because of this card which shows a child with a growing plant on his back. The most important of it all is that I WILL MAKE THROUGH IT if I regain whatever it is that I think and feel I lost, which to our conclusion would be PRIDE. The future has a lot of beautiful things for me and all I need to do is THINK and not let my EQ over power my IQ. Ayos ulit.

The TAROT CARD READER is, incidentally, also a COUNSELOR. What great timing diba? So when everybody decided to go home at around 1 in the morning, we stayed until three am to talk about me and how I should be able to handle certain situations. Yeah, WE ARGUED BIG TIME. But he said a lot of very beautiful things about me and I appreciate that.

He said, "Do you honestly think he's good for you?". That was the question... my answer? Smile.

He went on to talk about emotional unavailability and all this psycho-shit which I appreciated.

Overall, it was a great night. And yeah, I am happy that I dropped him off at Joan's. Yihee. [Ayy, sorry.]

Sabi nga ni "Dementor"...

"How can love let it go if it has no place to go?"

and

"Maybe someday I'll see why love did this to me....."

quoted from.... SURPRISE!


CATCH ME I'M FALLING
TONI GONZAGA

I don’t know why but when i look in your eyes
I feel something that seems so right
You’ve got yours i’ve got mine
I think i’m loosing my mind
Coz i shouldn’t feel this way
Catch me i’m falling for you
And i don’t know what to do

How can something so wrong?
Feel so right all along
Catch me i’m falling for you

How can time be so wrong
For love to come along?
Catch me i’m falling for you

How can love let it go
When it has no place to go
And i can’t go along pretending
That love isn’t here to stay
Catch me i’m falling for you ooh ooh

If i could just walk away
Without you floating today
I would die just thinking of you
I know we can’t therefore be more than friends you and me
But why do i feel this way

Catch me i’m falling for you
And i don’t know what to do

How can something so wrong?
Feel so right all along
Catch me i’m falling for you

How can time be so wrong
For love to come along?
Catch me i’m falling for you

Maybe someday i’ll see why love did this to me
Coz i can’t go along pretending
That love isn’t here to stay
Catch me i’m falling for you
Catch me i’m falling for you

And it’s wrong for me to feel this way
Coz i don’t know what to do without you
I’m falling for you
Catch me i’m falling for you

How can something so wrong?
Feel so right all along
Catch me i’m falling for you

You're not being Punished...

from POSTSECRET