What Great Timing

I AM SICK. This is the second time in one semester, talk about BREAKING THE RECORD. Now I have to worry about how to get through the Midterms, ALIVE. What great timing.

Off to more pleasant things, last night, we had a spontaneous Tarot Card reading with Joan's friend who insists on being called ST because apparently, "It could mean anything." So to prove his point, I called him Science and Technology. I'm sure both Haze and Ces'll be posting something about their reading, so i'm not gonna spoil the fun and just render information about mine... It's amazing how accurate the cards were.

My key card symbolizes INNER CONFLICt, sabi nga ni ST, meron daw akong nakitang double-edged sword, di pa ko nakuntento na kinuha ko, sinaksak ko pa at inako ang sakit. Ayos. It is GREATLY affecting me raw, although I am a very strong person because of this certain QUEEN CARD which symbolizes me, I have an inner turmoil. In seven days, I will have to let my MIND dominate my emotions and THINK really hard about the situation. My past card shows that the event is perceived as a VICTORY by other people, everyone's so supportive and happy about it but I know deep inside [going back to the INNER TURMOIL CARD] that there are issues that are waiting to surface. He even said that I am surrounded with SUCCESS and that I NEED TO GROW UP because of this card which shows a child with a growing plant on his back. The most important of it all is that I WILL MAKE THROUGH IT if I regain whatever it is that I think and feel I lost, which to our conclusion would be PRIDE. The future has a lot of beautiful things for me and all I need to do is THINK and not let my EQ over power my IQ. Ayos ulit.

The TAROT CARD READER is, incidentally, also a COUNSELOR. What great timing diba? So when everybody decided to go home at around 1 in the morning, we stayed until three am to talk about me and how I should be able to handle certain situations. Yeah, WE ARGUED BIG TIME. But he said a lot of very beautiful things about me and I appreciate that.

He said, "Do you honestly think he's good for you?". That was the question... my answer? Smile.

He went on to talk about emotional unavailability and all this psycho-shit which I appreciated.

Overall, it was a great night. And yeah, I am happy that I dropped him off at Joan's. Yihee. [Ayy, sorry.]