FREE SPIRIT

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It's Been Good

Haven't blogged in a while, haven't seen a lot of people who used to be parts of my daily routine.

I guess things are really changing and even if we do want everything to go back to how they were, it can't. It must not.

It's kinda sad but not in an agony-inducing kind of way, it's more like bittersweet sad.

Things are happening so fast lately, there's not much time left to look back, to stop and analyze what transpired in the past. It's better that way really, I fear silence and solitude these days. I am scared of myself because I know that with myself alone I have to face the seemingly forgotten remnants of what could be's and I shouldn't have's.

It's been good.

I hope it's gonna be better.

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Playful moments, swan-like stance
Dip me and catch me,
Let me fall if you get the chance.
I sway my hips as you walk away,
Did you really think it was all play?
You are reminiscent of a hesitant dance
One moment close, a million moments far.
I stomp and I turn, undecided as I burn,
My heart wanted to beat faster
but to say no was the answer.
The curtains closed, the lights are dim
I took my final bow
It was the end of an unfinished dream.

Bakit ba?

Ok naman sana e.
Kaw lang magulo.
Wag ka magulo,
nagco-concentrate ako.

I want to be still.
Not with you.
I just don't want you
sweeping me off
my feet...
for the nth time.

I don't want
you to hurt me
again...

We Didn't Have To

We were both guilty.
In that split of a second, we almost met.
Wait, we did meet.
But you never knew me.
I thought I knew you.
Guess I don't.
You didn't have to look away.
I wouldn't have noticed you if you didn't.
But you did.
We could've just met each other's gaze and smiled.
We didn't.
We tried to look away.
Not at the exact moment,
it was timely enough
to make things awkward
and funny
and painful
and silly
and gloomy
and confusing.
You didn't have to do that.
I didn't have to do that.
But we did.
It sucks.

Because I watched Before Sunrise last night...

Daydream delusion,
limousine eyelash
Oh baby with your pretty face
Drop a tear in my wineglass
Look at those big eyes
See what you mean to me
Sweet-cakes and milkshakes
I’m a delusion angel
I’m a fantasy parade
I want you to know what I think
Don’t want you to guess anymore
You have no idea where I came from
We have no idea where we’re going
Lodged in life like branches in a river
Flowing downstream
Caught in the current
I carry youYou’ll carry me
That’s how it could be

Don’t you know me?

Don’t you know me by now?

It's LIVING DREAMS time.. [from Patty]

Join us as Living Dreams prepares to pair off 200 children from different orphanages and underprivileged communities with 200 young volunteers from around the metro for a day of joy and friendship at Enchanted Kingdom.

How to help:
§ Volunteer as a kuya or ate for a kid and be with him/her on this adventure.
§ If you cannot attend the event, you may also help sponsor a kid/ kids to make this endeavor a reality.

Particulars:
§ Date: September 8, 2007
§ Venue: Enchanted Kingdom, Santa Rosa, Laguna
§ Time: 08.00am - 04:30pm
§ Volunteer Fee: Php 600.00 (This includes your entrance, volunteer t-shirt, lunch, and sponsorship for a kid.)
§ Sponsorship Fee: Living Dreams is accepting donations from Php 100.00 and up.
Hope to see you there!FYI:
§ Actual cost per child Php 735.00.
§ Volunteers must be at least 15 years old: high school students, college students and young professionals are encouraged to participate.

Ateneo Law School Send Offs

2007 ALS Send Offs

ATENEO LAW'S CHEER RALLY
FOR ITS BARRISTERS

Saturday
1 september 2007

6pm

(after the anticipated Mass)@ The Atrium – Ground floor
APS Bldg., Rockwell Center , Makati

* hosted by Paul C. and Kukay G.

* with the special participation of
* The Blue Babble Batallion *

Dance number by
* Salsa *

* Plus Surprises and PRIZES for lucky barristers *

MCIT

*looks at Rimo...

"Act cool... MCIT."

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MCIT is NOT Minimum Corporate Income Tax...

If you're really curious, ask me or Rimo personally.

Lakas! Part II

[Context: Nahaharass sa thesis ang lola mo.. nanghihiram ng book on Corp
Gov]

Euns: Kuya, pwede ko ba hiramin 'to? As in pwede ilabas ng lib?
Kuya: Di pwede ilabas yan eh... Pero ako pwede mo ko ilabas, kahit one
week.. o kaya one month.
Euns: [this is not the time for pickup lines, thank you very much]

Mabuti Na Lang

Last night, Joan and I bumped into each other due to our individual urges to go study in Starbucks. DUring one of our spontaneous breaks, I went on and on and on babbling about how excited I am 'cause of the SALSA number sa Send Offs... then Joan pointed out something really good and true, she said,

"Euns, ngayon lang kita nakita na ganito ka-excited uli over something in a
while. Un di related sa love life."

Na-touch naman ako kasi totoo. Buti na lang. So there. I am ok.Things are finally ok. *keeping fingers crossed*

Sabi ko nga

Euns: Kuya, paiwan po nitong mga gamit ko ha. yosi lang po ako... tsaka ito
pa po.. sorry.
Kuya: E ma'am, number nyo po gusto nyo iwan?

Sabi ko nga.

Bourne Ultimatum

[Eunice is drooling still while writing this entry and a few hours after she watched the flick]

Ok, I knew it was going to be a good film, I just didn't know it was going to be that HOT. I was literally trying not to get hit in the fight scenes. I FELT JASON'S PAIN. Not in an emotional kind of way, but everything felt so real that I couldn't help but dock every single time.

It didn't hurt that Matt Damon's just so effin' hot and uhmm, "BRUSKO". It was a great finale to a great series. Hay. Sayang lang I won't see Matt / Jason again. Anyway, that's what DVD's are for.

If you haven't watched it, PLEASE DO YOURSELF A FAVOR AND WATCH THE GODDAMN FLICK! Fine, watch it after A Love Story if you must. But the point is, DO WATCH IT.

I Wanted So Badly to be Witty

But all that the situation permitted me to say was... "Ggggghhhggghhhh...gloglogloglog..."

Ayos. May araw ka din.

On the 7th Day, the Goddess Rested

Woohoo! Six straight days. It was a perfect execution.

A lot has happened this week, I was able to once again test my strength when I received quite a depressing news. I had to be strong for a lot of people. I had to be happy for a lot of people. I had to be level-headed. I had to be sane for my sake.

It was quite a rollercoaster ride, but I'm alive and ready for another ride i guess.

If you want a summary I can say that I felt happy.

If you want a more detailed narrative... I felt happy most of the time.

On the 7th day. I rested. Until tomorrow, I'll be free. Sort of.

Freedom's overrated. In the same way that almost everything that we write, read and talk about are.

The only thing that's not is... uhmmm. I have no idea.

Yehey

Friend: Oh my god, ang laki ng pinayat mo.. [be prepared for the clincher] it's
like... You're half the woman that you used to be... Pwede ba kita picture-an?

Un un eh! Haha.

I Did Remember

The tragedy of it all is that everything's stored in my memory.
And my phone was set to remind me every single time.
It was too late when I realized that as midnight strikes, destiny will make fun of me.

I did remember. I still remember. I want to forget. Scratch that, I need to forget.

5th Day of Drunkenness

I HAVE TO CONSTANTLY REMIND MYSELF THAT I DESERVE A BREAK.

Therefore, I've been drinking the whole week. Good job.

Learned a lot of things from new friends. Learned a lot of things from old ones.

Never ever drink before a SALSA practice... nakamamatay.

From Goodearth to Dencio's to BINALOT. Lahat na inuman na ng inuman.

It's nice to be carefree again, it's nice to sometimes just let things flow.

A LOVE STORY

I'm fulfilling my post-midterms plan of getting drunk the whole week... so far so good.

Never underestimate the power of Aga Muhlach and Maricel Soriano. I watched the flick the other day with people whom I think wouldn't want to be named due to possible incrimination. Yesterday, three of my friends watched the same flick. Now, we are actually quoting lines from the movie and are laughing together as we remember the MAHADERA NURSE and the WALANG PATAWAD BROTHER of Maricel. The night that we watched it, the "guy I'm with"

"Ang bulaklak ay parang babae...wag mo pipitasin kung sisirain at itatapon
mo lang because you will never find another flower like her."

"Hindi lahat ng nagpapasaya sa'tin ay tama. Madalas ang tama ay masakit sa
umpisa... pero darating din ang araw na papasayahin din tayo. Umuwi ka na,
hinihintay ka na ng asawa mo."

Fine. Nananakit nanaman itong mga quotable quotes na'to e.

Anyway, punong-puno ang sinehan... at ang tanging nagawa na lang namin ay umupo sa third row. Ayus, nakakasuka manood. Meron pang babae sa harapan namin na tinaas un paa nya sa upuan sa front nya un paa nya. MAGTAMPISAW BA? Laughtrip.

It was a great experience. Masarap maging querida.

Dahil Natawa ako ng Sobra sa RUSH HOUR 3

Kailangan ko i-post ang song na kinanta nila...pero Beyonce at Luther Vandross version ito...

THE CLOSER I GET TO YOU

The closer I get to you, the more you make me see
By giving me all you've got (Tell me more)oooh yeah your love has captured me. yeah.


Over and Over again, I've tried to tell myself that we could never be more than friends
And all the while inside I knew it was real (oooh)
The way you make me feel

Hey (oh oh oh yeah)Heeeey (and ohhhh)oh oh ohhhhh


Lying here next to you, oh ho time just seems to fly
yeah needing you more and more (more and more)
Let's give love a try (lets give love a try)
i wanna try love


Sweeter and sweeter love grows
And heaven's there for those
Who fool the tricks of time
With hearts in love will find
True love (oohhh)
In a special way (oohhhh) way


The closer I get

closer I get

To you baby

The more you make me see

more you make me see

By giving me what you've got

oooh yeah

Your love

captured me


Ohhh Over and Over again
I've tried to tell myself that we
Could never be more than friends
When all the while inside
I knew this was real (got to be real) got to be real
The way you make me feel (you know, you know you know)


My baby, my baby, my baby, my love whooo
yeah (yeah yeah) yeah (yeah yeah)

Come a little closer so that we can see into the eyes of love (BEYONCE- I wanna see into the eyes of love come closer)
Just a little a closer let me speak to you
I wanna softly tell you something (LUTHER- Here I am, heres my love, I just want you to come closer)
Come a little closer, let me whisper in your ear 'cause I wanna tell you something (BEYONCE-I wanna whisper in your ear, so soft, so come closer and)
Move on in real close so we can clebrate the way we feel about each other’s lovin'(Luther-wanna tell you words, words of love, words that make you wanna)

MAXIMUM BENEFIT... MINIMUM BULLSHIT

Re: I Wanna Go Back to Shallow

Sabi ni Garyn, she also likes shallow because...

"MAXIMUM BENEFIT, MINIMUM BULLSHIT."

I like that. Let us all go back to shallow. Sabi nga namin ni Sep, landian lang muna. hehe.

Speaking of landian, I watched Rush Hour 3 with a "friend" the other night... Then I went drinking with the girls. The first part was the LANDIAN part, the second part of the evening will be dubbed as, "Back to REALITY" part. Pero I enjoyed naman, mainly because it wasn't planned. It just happened. Plus, a friend of mine confessed his "admiration" for one of my friends.. as usual, di ko nanaman hiningi un information, gusto lang talaga nya tine-text ako everytime na nagkakaroon sya ng mga realizations tungkol sa mga crushes nya. Very good. At most of the time, lasing sya pag sinasabi nya un.

Last night, the girls in Starbucks are once again reading what is fastly becoming our "Bible" [Lord you know naman what I mean right?], the HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU book. Because I'm a loser, and i've been reading it a lot of times already I shall quote from memory the STAGES after the HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU REALIZATION...

Stage 1: Exaltation [Otherwise known as "He's out oy my PHONE, he's out of
my LIFE"]
= ilang beses na ba natin ginawa ito? buburahin ang number sa Phonebook,
memorized naman.. alam nyo ang mas effective? Change his name to DON'T TEXT so
that yo'll be reminded of what should be done.

Stage 2: the "What the hell do I do now?" Stage
= Panic stage. The realization that you have to let go is pretty scary
naman talaga.

Stage 3: TEMPTATION [otherwise known as the DEVIL IN DISGUISE]
= Yeah, some of them come up with a lot of pretty decent reasons that it's
tempting to forgive them... but don't fall for that BS again!

Stage 4: Waiting for a long haul stage
= This is where I'm in. It's otherwise known as the "nakakinip maghintay,
pakshet kasi un mga lalaki stage".

After everything... quoting the writer, Greg:

"Replacing the mediocre relationships, halfhearted men and meaningless emails and texts is not just bone-crushing LONELINESS. It's CONFIDENCE."

Kaya, be confident. Masaya din umabot sa stage na yan e.

QUOTES I LIKE:

• If he's not calling you, it means YOU'RE NOT ON HIS MIND.
• If you can find him, he can find you.
• YOU DESERVE A FUCKING PHONE CALL.
• "Hanging out" is not dating.

Last na lang, I had dinner with one of my study buddies in Starbucks last night and he made a startling confession, this was after I confessed that I joined Little Miss SM [there, I blogged it]... He said that he wanted to join that contest back when MGA KABABAYAN KO was the coolest song, he even bought the necklace with the peace sign to convince his parents and he wanted to get Francis M.'s cut to help him play the part more effectively... Kung kilala nyo lang kung sino sya, matatawa talaga kayo. Mai-imagine nyo sya with his PURUNTONG MAKULAY SHORTS ala-FRANCIS M. Laughtrip. Sinabayan pa nya ng fact na pangarap din sana nya mag-escort sa Little Miss Philippines kasi sikat ka pagdating ng Monday kasi kinausap ka ni VIc at Joey. Sayang, gusto ko din sumali sa Little Miss Philippines dati eh, naghahanap pa naman ako ng escort nung time na un. Haha.

Three Down.. I'm Finally Halfway.

Surprisingly, I don't feel drained... I feel like I have quite a reserve of energy. Di ko alam where I'm getting it from, must be my lack of other issues, must be my passion to finally do something right or must be that God's finally allowing me to be calm. and peaceful and uhmm, genuinely happy. Mabuti naman. Sa tingin ko all of the above.

Ung lalaki na naging crush ko the other night, may girlfriend pala. At un girlfriend pa ay un mukhang masamang ugali na kontrabida sa telenovela ang tipo. I'm through with my Mara Clara days eh, kaya dahil di sya actionable document... Kebs na lang. So I have one more. Di rin masyado actionable pero PWEDE. Haha. Sep asked Pia and I if we girls check guys out too when they pass by, answer? TUMATAGINTING NA YES. Dumadaan na nga e, di mo pa titingnan. Free meal kumbaga. Bawal talaga magka-love interest sa law school kasi nakakairita lang pag ayaw mo na sya. Nakakairita rin pag gusto mo sya pero away ka nya. NAkakairita. Sa tingin ko naman may pag-asa ako dun sa isang natitira kong object of affection... ngunit subali't datapwa't... TRICKY ito.

Sa wakas inamin din ni ___ sa'kin na nag-break na sila. Binigyan ko naman sya ng MOMENT OF SYMPATHY tapos pumalakpak ako. Ang sad part, di ko na sya makukulit ng, "Hoy, BREAK na ba kayo? Mag-break na kayo!" So nawalan ako ng isang mapapagkaabalahan na libangan. Pero natutuwa parin ako kasi pwede ko na sya tuksuhin kahit kanino.

Si Quani naman, walang ginawa kung mag-tsismis tsismis sa Starbucks. Tapos paminsan-minsan, umaapela sya para sa mga bagay na DI TALAGA pwedeng i-apila.. Minsan pinagtatawanan lang nya [at ko na rin] un mga taong PULA un buhok at un mga taong nakaupo sa harap ng salamin ng Starbucks na walang table. Lakas kasi ng TRIP e.

SI Krizna, sinisira ni Sep un buhay. Si Tristan naman nasisira ang buhay sa kakaubo. At syempre, si Dema at Sev.. ayun nag-aaral.

Namimiss ko na rin un mga dating tao sa Starbucks, pero di na yata talaga babalik ang dati. [Tingin sa malayo] Si Raplh may kasamang kaibigang lalaki kagabi [tingin kay Ralph ng may malisya], pinakilala nya sakin sabi nya.. "___, si Eunice, Eunice, si _____. Single yan." Sa isip ko, ayos magpakilala tayo habang Midterms.. pero ang sinagot ko ng walang pag-aalinlangan.. "Ako din."

Tinanong ako kanina nun kasama kong nag-aaral na free-rider kung ano ang tipo ko ng lalaki, sino daw sa law school. Wala ako masagot. Masama un. Ibig sabihin, wala talaga. Nun night before, tinanong nya ko kung ano ang tipo ko sa lalaki, sabi ko MATALINO. Un na.

Ngayon, katatapos lng ng TORTS exam na di ko alam kung ano ang mararamdaman.. KALMADONG KALMADO ako e. Nakakatakot un. Babalik ako ng Starbucks at magpapaka-loser na mag-aaral ng TAX. Kamusta naman. Pero di ako nagsisisi. In fact, excited na ako mag-aral. Kasi, un lang naman ang sigurado sa buhay ko ngayon. Kahit ano ang gawin ko, mag-aaral parin ako.

Grounded na grounded itong post na'to. Talagang may maayos na flow of thoughts. Concise.

I wanna watch a flick. I wanna go to CineMalaya.

Pero wala ako pera. Sya.

It's Like... What the Fuck?!

Oo, I will forever be haunted by Jojo Miggy because I said, "It's like... [moment] What the fuck?!" with full emotion. Hassle.

Sep: Di naman nakakatakot un Kapre e, un may ulo ng kabayo na
nagyoyosi?
Euns: Oo nga, di talaga nakakatakot un kasi kung ulo nya kabayo si Petrang
Kabayo un... Matatakot ka ba kay Roderick Paulate?

Sep: So, un Tikbalang un katawan kabayo tapos ulo tao?
Euns: Oo, at ung Kapre un higante na nagyoyosi...
Sep: [moment of silence] Bakit nga ba tayo napunta sa kapre at
tikbalang?
Euns: Ewan ko. Nanaginip ka yata ng malupit kanina e.

Sep: SUSULONG na ako sa ulan.
Euns: Sige, "SUMULONG" ka na. Ayos, parang katupinero a.
Sep: Edi, LULUSONG na ko sa ulan.
Euns: Di ba sa baha lang un?
Sep: [blank stare]

I Cut My Hair

AGAIN.
The other day.
Why? Because of my need for something to change.
I've been receiving overwhelmingly many compliments from well-wishers and I appreciate that. I think I got "IT" back. Finally.

I was praying this afternoon when it dawned on me how I can safely say that I am back to "OK" again. I ended up teasing God about how He almost always plays tricks on me, hurts me enormously and then He ends up feeling guilty after. Sabihan bang nag-guilty si God? I'm sure He laughs at me all the time too, quits lang kami. Pero totoo, nai-imagine ko si God na sinasabi, "Naku, sumobra na yata un prank ko kay Eunice, kawawa naman... Di na nagsusuot ng makukulay na gamit... Bigyan na nga sya uli ng strength at peace of mind." At ayun, I instantly gain the real ME back. Walang pakialamanan, kanya-kanyang gawa ng scenario ito. Whatever works right?

My life's once again pretty stable, I'm enjoying it... not thinking of other things besides law school and friends. It's like I'm really "growing up".

For the first time in ages, I don't know what to blog about anymore. I'm a pretty common writer, it's not hard to figure me out, when I'm emotionally unstable, I flood my blog with everything that I feel, see and experience just so I can document how I managed to survive that chapter of my life. Everything's so fleeting that I don't want to end up forgetting important but small things. Life is a wonderful string of petty things blown out of proportion. Great things start from small beginnings nga diba?

So, I did cut my hair... again. Mainly because I'm bored but the underlying reasons are infinitely many... like, I feel that I can pull the short hair look now that a lot of people are assuring me that I lost weight and uhmm, I wanna feel more empowered.

I think it was a good decision. I'm feeling pretty empowered these past few days.

Sana.

Two down...

... one being my dream of DL-ship
... the other being me.

hehe.

Pero ang totoo, TWO DOWN! Succession and Insurance are sooo yesterday...

TORTS naman..

ang nananakit ng walang pre-existing contractual obligation.
Blech.

WOWOWEE Good Morning

Talagang kailangan mapanood namin pareho ni Bos Maj itong episode na'to para mapagkwentuhan namin.. haha

Host: Ulo, Tuhod, Paa... Saan matatagpuan ang poknat?
Contestant 1: TUHOD?? [sabay upo habang nakamini-skirt sya at tawa]
Contestant no. 2: [alam ko'to FACE] WALA???! [ginaya ang ginawa ni contestant 1]
Contestant 2: MATA???? [wala nga sa choices!]

Host: Kung ang whistle ay pito... Ano naman ang WHISPER?
Contestant 1: [excited pa at pasigaw na sinabi...." MODESS?????!
Contestant 2: NAPKIN????!
Contestant 3: [sa isip nya, ang tatanga naman nitong mga 'to!] SILBATO???!

Un na, di na nakayanan ni Willy... sinabi na nya ang sentiment ko... "TROPANG TRUMPO ba'to? [Battle of the Brainless kasi e!]

Good morning talaga Wowowee..

I WIsh I Can Go Back to Shallow

... It's safer.
... Has less pressure.
... easier to get out of.
... no complicated gear needed.
... it's impossible to hide.

I wish I can go back to shallow.

TAROT CARD for the Day

The Tower card suggests that my alter ego today is the Survivor, whose superpower for revolution lies in my epiphany for change, brought on with the aid of a serious reality check. Today I have reached a turning point. It may be all over but the crying -- but I have the strength to move on and create a better situation for myself. You may say that I never saw it coming or learned the hard way, but with profound change comes new opportunity. One door closes -- another opens. So tear down the wall, and rebuild anew.

What Great Timing

I AM SICK. This is the second time in one semester, talk about BREAKING THE RECORD. Now I have to worry about how to get through the Midterms, ALIVE. What great timing.

Off to more pleasant things, last night, we had a spontaneous Tarot Card reading with Joan's friend who insists on being called ST because apparently, "It could mean anything." So to prove his point, I called him Science and Technology. I'm sure both Haze and Ces'll be posting something about their reading, so i'm not gonna spoil the fun and just render information about mine... It's amazing how accurate the cards were.

My key card symbolizes INNER CONFLICt, sabi nga ni ST, meron daw akong nakitang double-edged sword, di pa ko nakuntento na kinuha ko, sinaksak ko pa at inako ang sakit. Ayos. It is GREATLY affecting me raw, although I am a very strong person because of this certain QUEEN CARD which symbolizes me, I have an inner turmoil. In seven days, I will have to let my MIND dominate my emotions and THINK really hard about the situation. My past card shows that the event is perceived as a VICTORY by other people, everyone's so supportive and happy about it but I know deep inside [going back to the INNER TURMOIL CARD] that there are issues that are waiting to surface. He even said that I am surrounded with SUCCESS and that I NEED TO GROW UP because of this card which shows a child with a growing plant on his back. The most important of it all is that I WILL MAKE THROUGH IT if I regain whatever it is that I think and feel I lost, which to our conclusion would be PRIDE. The future has a lot of beautiful things for me and all I need to do is THINK and not let my EQ over power my IQ. Ayos ulit.

The TAROT CARD READER is, incidentally, also a COUNSELOR. What great timing diba? So when everybody decided to go home at around 1 in the morning, we stayed until three am to talk about me and how I should be able to handle certain situations. Yeah, WE ARGUED BIG TIME. But he said a lot of very beautiful things about me and I appreciate that.

He said, "Do you honestly think he's good for you?". That was the question... my answer? Smile.

He went on to talk about emotional unavailability and all this psycho-shit which I appreciated.

Overall, it was a great night. And yeah, I am happy that I dropped him off at Joan's. Yihee. [Ayy, sorry.]

Sabi nga ni "Dementor"...

"How can love let it go if it has no place to go?"

and

"Maybe someday I'll see why love did this to me....."

quoted from.... SURPRISE!


CATCH ME I'M FALLING
TONI GONZAGA

I don’t know why but when i look in your eyes
I feel something that seems so right
You’ve got yours i’ve got mine
I think i’m loosing my mind
Coz i shouldn’t feel this way
Catch me i’m falling for you
And i don’t know what to do

How can something so wrong?
Feel so right all along
Catch me i’m falling for you

How can time be so wrong
For love to come along?
Catch me i’m falling for you

How can love let it go
When it has no place to go
And i can’t go along pretending
That love isn’t here to stay
Catch me i’m falling for you ooh ooh

If i could just walk away
Without you floating today
I would die just thinking of you
I know we can’t therefore be more than friends you and me
But why do i feel this way

Catch me i’m falling for you
And i don’t know what to do

How can something so wrong?
Feel so right all along
Catch me i’m falling for you

How can time be so wrong
For love to come along?
Catch me i’m falling for you

Maybe someday i’ll see why love did this to me
Coz i can’t go along pretending
That love isn’t here to stay
Catch me i’m falling for you
Catch me i’m falling for you

And it’s wrong for me to feel this way
Coz i don’t know what to do without you
I’m falling for you
Catch me i’m falling for you

How can something so wrong?
Feel so right all along
Catch me i’m falling for you

You're not being Punished...

from POSTSECRET

Tuesday is Book Day

I spent my whole Tuesday [technically] in Starbucks inside Fully Booked located at the Bonifacio High Street. It was a productive day, with a lot of funny kwentos and unexpected meet-ups.

I bumped into a high school teacher of mine, He did remember me, but by the time I realized it was him, it was too late to establish the "Hi, how're you? What've you been doing?" conversation. SO i ended up eavesdropping on him and his friend who apparently is going through a "romantic dilemma". The only reason why I was able to eavesdrop was because I had no choice, they were too close to where I was "studying" and well, I can relate to the girl's problem. But I caught one perfect string of advice from my high school teacher, he said... "Why would you text him? What do you need to know? You want more PAIN? You gave him the chance and he blew it, now move on. There's nothing to be bitter about." The girl went on saying that it's just her, she needed to clear things up... she wants to know if she should finally move on, and that she can't stand waiting. The guy didn't reply. I guess she got her closure. I hope. So she can finally move on.

Now off to more shallow things, Chinky convinced me to read the "He's Just Not that Into You" book written by two of the writers of Sex and the City. I remember that line, it was Jack Berger [Carrie's Insecure Ex-boyfriend] who said it to try to put logic in the mind of Miranda who was confused as to why the guy he dated wouldn't stay after their date. Jack said, "He's just not that into you." Made sense, only, Miranda believed it too much that it was kind of late when she found out that the real reason was that the guy had Diarrhea, but THAT doesn't happen a lot. Back to the book, it was pretty enlightening, I mean if you'll read it not as a Bible but a glimpse of how men thinks. Lines like, "He will risk losing the friendship if he really likes you." or "If he says he's busy, he's just not that into you." will make you squirm knowing that at one point in your life, a guy gave you that excuse. My favorite line was, "YOU DESERVE A FUCKING PHONE CALL." simply because it was very uhmm, straightforward... blunt. In this modern times where text messaging is more prominent, I'd like to propose that it be amended to, "YOU DESERVE A FUCKING TEXT MESSAGE." The book even bitchily said, that "If he's not calling you, then he's not thinking about you." and "If you can find him, chances are he can find you too... so if he doesn't, HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU." Loved that book, made me realize a lot of things about my past almost love stories and misadventures.

I was gonna quote something that really fits my present disposition, but I guess I don't want to incriminate myself more... Let's just assume that whoever he is, He's just not that into me. Toughluck, but I can live with that. Or not.

Then I got myself busy with the POSTSECRET book... It started when Patty showed me the postcard which said, "MY HEART IS AN IDIOT." Sakitan na ito. I've been a big fan of the POSTSECRET blog for years now, grabbing a few postcards every now and then to give color to my blog... It's a great idea, it's more than brilliant I guess... It's sharing your secret anonymously to ease your burden and at the same time "hopefully" help someone who feels the same way. I've been touched in numerous ways by the postcards that were sent to the blog. Love it love it love it.

It was a productive day, got to study for Succession and Insurance and started studying for the Midterms. Got boy-watching again with Patty, saw a lot of law students who are desperately trying to have a life or at least pretend to have a life outside Rockwell [including me] by studying in Serendra. [blank stare] Talk about a futile attempt... I found my paradise. Oh, did I mention that I got to wear "shorts ka pa shorts" in public?

Hah!

When It's a Really Sucky Day...

• You have to hold on to the memories of happy and beautiful things so you'll get through.
• Cry when you have to cry but vow to be happy after.
• Never ever think that the suckiness of things will stubbornly stay, be hopeful.
• Never let go of your faith, at the end of it all, if it remains, you'll be fine.
• Never be resigned with the idea that you're not worth anything, because failure is not the falling down but the staying down.
• Decide to be happy. Remind yourself of THAT decision.
• Let go and LET GOD.
• Smile. Like what I always say, "When you hit rock bottom, there's no way but up. Unless you want to dig deeper and exhaust yourself more."