Even the extraordinary isn't good enough for what you require. Unique, unusual, educational -- how do you find something that meets all these requirements? Easy. You let it come find you. Relax for now.
Be generous when it comes to work and love. In work, give it your all. In love, give your sweetie (and yourself!) the benefit of the doubt. A little extra kindness goes a very long way at times like these.
Secretly you're wondering why this person is wasting your time. Just wait -- there's something or someone you need to know that they're leading you to. Once you get there, you can find a discreet way to exit.
You've got more bounce than a trampoline right now -- not to mention more fizz and pop than a six-pack of soda. Just where did all this energy come from? Don't question it -- grab your honeypie and enjoy it.
International Economic Law Moments
Prof: So Mr. Bautista, if you imagine a developed Philippines ... who would take care of your kids?
Deo: ROBOTS.
[uyy, may hangover pa ng Transformers]
Prof: How many kids would you like to have Mr. Puno?
Gino: 4.
Prof: All with the same mother???
[panganay lahat e no?]
Prof: Ang customer nyo ba ay un may pangil at ma sungay na ganito? [on 5-6]
Prof: Kilala nyo ba si Samantha Jones?
Class: [blank]
EUns: [excited] SEX and the CITY!!!!!
Prof:ANo ang trabaho nya?
Kat: PR Manager?
Prof: Kung sa Pilipinas ano ang tawag sa kanya?
Kat: Events manager? Party planner? Eventologist?
Prof: Kikay!
Deo: ROBOTS.
[uyy, may hangover pa ng Transformers]
Prof: How many kids would you like to have Mr. Puno?
Gino: 4.
Prof: All with the same mother???
[panganay lahat e no?]
Prof: Ang customer nyo ba ay un may pangil at ma sungay na ganito? [on 5-6]
Prof: Kilala nyo ba si Samantha Jones?
Class: [blank]
EUns: [excited] SEX and the CITY!!!!!
Prof:ANo ang trabaho nya?
Kat: PR Manager?
Prof: Kung sa Pilipinas ano ang tawag sa kanya?
Kat: Events manager? Party planner? Eventologist?
Prof: Kikay!
The BIG 23
This is long overdue, mainly because I turned 23 last May 14 and the only reason why this line of thinking was triggered is because Ces and I were talking about her very own "turning 23" moment that will happen on the 7th of July. The secondary reason was because my birthday seemed so small compared to the Elections which kind of drained the energy out of us to even speak of something outside of its realm. It's harsh really, especially when I am reminded of how close I am to the fulfillment of what i have dreamed of for myself and that in just a matter of time, I will find out if i have been chasing the wrong rainbow all my life.
My life's pretty stable and that's what scares me, it's usually a sign of something big that is possibly lurking and that will show its face when I am least prepared. It has always been hard for me to admit it but I am a scaredy cat. As much as i would like people to assume that I fear nothing, there are quite a number of things the scares me really... one of those things is failure. I am a sore loser, not because I blame the weakness of the opponent but because I am always hard on myself. I grew up relying on no one else but myself that it is very difficult if not unlikely of me to consider asking help from people or to even show signs of weakness. Masokistang mayabang.
Off to the more important and jologs part of my turning twenty three, when I was in my teens, i would dream of looking really goo when I turn 23... why? [drumroll please!] because 23 was Judy Ann's age, [i think] when she lost weight for that flick with Piolo involving boxing. I swore that if I want to find the Piolo Pascual of my life, I would have to start taking care of myself. Now at 23, I still am the same old Eunice, too busy or lazy to actually lose weight and too bankrupt to visit my dermatologist regularly. Sadness. I know it sounds superficial, but who wouldn't want to improve and be the best that she can be?
I was talking with Haze and Patring about how jologs my life has become because nothing has been happening and quite frankly, I am not exaggerating, besides the now routinary teasing about pseudo-love interests and my one sem-long ranting about a supposed Neverland, I am tired of playing games. [cue to play QUIT PLAYING GAMES WITH MY HEART]. I guess I really am beginning to be old. I cannot find it in my personality at present to really begin dating, the way I used to date people when I was in college. Also, I don't see myself dating someone younger simply because it's awkward. It's more like a preference now that I am sure I have matured a lot. Heck, I cannot even find it in my heart to crush on someone, I feel so uhmm.. RIGID.
I should be happy, in fact, I can honestly say that I am... but there are little things that are needed in my life to make me say that I feel complete. Sometimes, I feel empty, not knowing what my purpose is... Sometimes I feel low because I feel that people are finding it hard to take me seriously. It must be my destiny to make people laugh, and now that the joke is on me, I find it incredibly impossible to stop them from laughing. Fragile din naman ako paminsan-minsan, my closest friends can attest to the fact that there are times were I cry because of the smallest of things just because I feel the gravity of future situations. I am not afraid to cry, but I am afraid that when I am finally at ease with the idea of someone being strong for me and I finally let go... that person will leave me at my weakest.
I have survived a lot of things last year, it was a ride that had its highs and lows and just like Ally McBeal, the times where I was crying were in fact the times when I experienced happiness. ALthough they were fleeting, unsure and unstable... I found solace in the fact that there was a possibility. The what if's were so good that I forgot to rely on the sure things. I don't know if I can promise to not rely on mere possibilities now that I am a year older, but if there's one thing I really learned, it's the fact that my fairy tales are written by me and the "end" depends on how I handle things. Yes they may not be the endings that I hoped for or expected but I have control over my being... no matter how bad the situation may be I can choose to be strong and happy.
Lastly, turning 23 isn't a mere sign that I have become older and more mature, it's also a promise that on the 24th year on my life, my 23rd year might be "the year" that I find fulfillment. I want people to understand that I am not shallow, that I am not dumb and that if they only take me seriously they will realize that it is very hard to make people laugh, to make people feel good and to make people feel powerful over me. It takes a lot of humility and a lot of faith in the strength of the "me" that I have honed through the years. I am not the Eunice that some might envision me to be. There is definitely MORE to what a majority of these people think that they understand of me. I am complicated. The conclusion that you have figured me out will never be true because I,myself, haven't figured out who EUnice really is.
She constantly evolves, she constantly strives to become better and she constantly proves a point. Matalino din ako... Please don't underestimate me because I know when people do. It hurts me, deeply and badly when I am boxed into a definition that I never imagined myself to be defined with. I get hurt... I may not be as transparent as the people that you know but If you'll only take some time to really know me, maybe you'll find out that I am a treasure.
After 23 years, I am definitely better. More scarred, more bruised but more ready to learn and to love. Looking forward to my 24th... I know the good things are beginning to come.
My life's pretty stable and that's what scares me, it's usually a sign of something big that is possibly lurking and that will show its face when I am least prepared. It has always been hard for me to admit it but I am a scaredy cat. As much as i would like people to assume that I fear nothing, there are quite a number of things the scares me really... one of those things is failure. I am a sore loser, not because I blame the weakness of the opponent but because I am always hard on myself. I grew up relying on no one else but myself that it is very difficult if not unlikely of me to consider asking help from people or to even show signs of weakness. Masokistang mayabang.
Off to the more important and jologs part of my turning twenty three, when I was in my teens, i would dream of looking really goo when I turn 23... why? [drumroll please!] because 23 was Judy Ann's age, [i think] when she lost weight for that flick with Piolo involving boxing. I swore that if I want to find the Piolo Pascual of my life, I would have to start taking care of myself. Now at 23, I still am the same old Eunice, too busy or lazy to actually lose weight and too bankrupt to visit my dermatologist regularly. Sadness. I know it sounds superficial, but who wouldn't want to improve and be the best that she can be?
I was talking with Haze and Patring about how jologs my life has become because nothing has been happening and quite frankly, I am not exaggerating, besides the now routinary teasing about pseudo-love interests and my one sem-long ranting about a supposed Neverland, I am tired of playing games. [cue to play QUIT PLAYING GAMES WITH MY HEART]. I guess I really am beginning to be old. I cannot find it in my personality at present to really begin dating, the way I used to date people when I was in college. Also, I don't see myself dating someone younger simply because it's awkward. It's more like a preference now that I am sure I have matured a lot. Heck, I cannot even find it in my heart to crush on someone, I feel so uhmm.. RIGID.
I should be happy, in fact, I can honestly say that I am... but there are little things that are needed in my life to make me say that I feel complete. Sometimes, I feel empty, not knowing what my purpose is... Sometimes I feel low because I feel that people are finding it hard to take me seriously. It must be my destiny to make people laugh, and now that the joke is on me, I find it incredibly impossible to stop them from laughing. Fragile din naman ako paminsan-minsan, my closest friends can attest to the fact that there are times were I cry because of the smallest of things just because I feel the gravity of future situations. I am not afraid to cry, but I am afraid that when I am finally at ease with the idea of someone being strong for me and I finally let go... that person will leave me at my weakest.
I have survived a lot of things last year, it was a ride that had its highs and lows and just like Ally McBeal, the times where I was crying were in fact the times when I experienced happiness. ALthough they were fleeting, unsure and unstable... I found solace in the fact that there was a possibility. The what if's were so good that I forgot to rely on the sure things. I don't know if I can promise to not rely on mere possibilities now that I am a year older, but if there's one thing I really learned, it's the fact that my fairy tales are written by me and the "end" depends on how I handle things. Yes they may not be the endings that I hoped for or expected but I have control over my being... no matter how bad the situation may be I can choose to be strong and happy.
Lastly, turning 23 isn't a mere sign that I have become older and more mature, it's also a promise that on the 24th year on my life, my 23rd year might be "the year" that I find fulfillment. I want people to understand that I am not shallow, that I am not dumb and that if they only take me seriously they will realize that it is very hard to make people laugh, to make people feel good and to make people feel powerful over me. It takes a lot of humility and a lot of faith in the strength of the "me" that I have honed through the years. I am not the Eunice that some might envision me to be. There is definitely MORE to what a majority of these people think that they understand of me. I am complicated. The conclusion that you have figured me out will never be true because I,myself, haven't figured out who EUnice really is.
She constantly evolves, she constantly strives to become better and she constantly proves a point. Matalino din ako... Please don't underestimate me because I know when people do. It hurts me, deeply and badly when I am boxed into a definition that I never imagined myself to be defined with. I get hurt... I may not be as transparent as the people that you know but If you'll only take some time to really know me, maybe you'll find out that I am a treasure.
After 23 years, I am definitely better. More scarred, more bruised but more ready to learn and to love. Looking forward to my 24th... I know the good things are beginning to come.
Transformers
It was one helluva flick! I mean, I am not really a fan of Transformers... When I was a kid, I used to often think about how silly it was to actually give a damn about the lives of robots or of uhmm, DNA-based robots or whatever it is they want to call them, but this film surely "TRANSFORMED" me into a believer. That's of course with great thanks to Bumblebee who played the right song at the right time, The "Drive" and "Baby Come Back" moments were just sooo damn funny in a "kilig" kind of way. ANd just like what I told Joan while Optimus Prime was doing his thing, "It is unbelievable that I am actually having a teeny weeny crush on a ROBOT, for crying out loud!"
Of course, a film will never be complete without the mushy-gooey-silly-moment-kung-moment scenes [i.e. trying to reach for each other's hands habang nagtatalsikan ang mga bakal sa paligid] and if I may quote that hot girl who, I think, is now the object of hatred and jealousy of a lot of women and the object of affection of a lot of men... "NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, I AM GLAD I GOT IN THE CAR WITH YOU." Un na. Cars bring out the sweet side of all couples, or of couples in denial, or of secret lovers or of uhmm... basta.
Anyway, on our way home, Ces, Joan and I were kind of talking about how odd it is that the "antagonists" intelligently chose to transform into WAR VEHICLES while the "protagonists" chose to transform into "PA-CUTE" vehicles which are of course typical of bidas. At sabi nga ni Ces, MABUTI NAMAN WALANG NAG-DECIDE na maging SUBMARINE kasi kamusta naman sya nun naglalabanan na, and all that silly robot can say would be, "Come on, let's get it on... [nakita ang lack of water] OH SHIT." Tawa na lang kami ng tawa inside the car. Mabuti naman at di pinili ni BUmblebee na mag-transform into the BARBIE Bike of the kid's mother, laughtrip un... all he could way would be, "Uhmm, guys I'm sorry, I can't go any faster... Uh-oh"
So, in the end, I am glad we decided to catch that 11 o'clock showing last night, amidst all the asarans and the tuksuhans that i had to endure because of the now infamous "boyfriend". It was a refreshing end to a tiring week and it was something we can continue to talk about until uhmm, Monday, I guess.
SO thank you to the Human RIghts people for temporarily adopting us, thank you to "the boyfriend" for the invite and thank you to Ces for the ride home.
Saya.
Of course, a film will never be complete without the mushy-gooey-silly-moment-kung-moment scenes [i.e. trying to reach for each other's hands habang nagtatalsikan ang mga bakal sa paligid] and if I may quote that hot girl who, I think, is now the object of hatred and jealousy of a lot of women and the object of affection of a lot of men... "NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, I AM GLAD I GOT IN THE CAR WITH YOU." Un na. Cars bring out the sweet side of all couples, or of couples in denial, or of secret lovers or of uhmm... basta.
Anyway, on our way home, Ces, Joan and I were kind of talking about how odd it is that the "antagonists" intelligently chose to transform into WAR VEHICLES while the "protagonists" chose to transform into "PA-CUTE" vehicles which are of course typical of bidas. At sabi nga ni Ces, MABUTI NAMAN WALANG NAG-DECIDE na maging SUBMARINE kasi kamusta naman sya nun naglalabanan na, and all that silly robot can say would be, "Come on, let's get it on... [nakita ang lack of water] OH SHIT." Tawa na lang kami ng tawa inside the car. Mabuti naman at di pinili ni BUmblebee na mag-transform into the BARBIE Bike of the kid's mother, laughtrip un... all he could way would be, "Uhmm, guys I'm sorry, I can't go any faster... Uh-oh"
So, in the end, I am glad we decided to catch that 11 o'clock showing last night, amidst all the asarans and the tuksuhans that i had to endure because of the now infamous "boyfriend". It was a refreshing end to a tiring week and it was something we can continue to talk about until uhmm, Monday, I guess.
SO thank you to the Human RIghts people for temporarily adopting us, thank you to "the boyfriend" for the invite and thank you to Ces for the ride home.
Saya.
The Economics of Law
Thank you Evelyn Chua for the invitation to give a talk on the "different facets of the study of law"... Thank you Ley La Salle members for being so accommodating, thank you for the participation. Wow, I'm a celebrity. haha.
Looking forward to receiving our pictures.
Looking forward to receiving our pictures.
Great.
Another kilig moment that I am not a part of. Badtrip. Happy for my friend, bad trip for me. Pero sige, happy na rin.
Sabi ni Elliot, masyado daw misteryoso ang mga blog entries ko kaya di nya magets un iba, ang ibig sabihin lang nun Elliot, nagpapanggap ako na may nangyayari sa buhay ko. Brother, sabi ko naman sa'yo e, dapat magkwentuhan tayo uli next time.
Transformers na. Wala parin akong time manood ng sine. Kelan ako naging ganito ka-loser? SOCIAL LIFE ZERO. Epekto ng ubo, sipon at panaka-nakang lagnat.
Di ko na makakalimutan magdala ng jacket. Ayoko na mangyari uli un nangyari kahapon. Hassle.
Sabi ni Elliot, masyado daw misteryoso ang mga blog entries ko kaya di nya magets un iba, ang ibig sabihin lang nun Elliot, nagpapanggap ako na may nangyayari sa buhay ko. Brother, sabi ko naman sa'yo e, dapat magkwentuhan tayo uli next time.
Transformers na. Wala parin akong time manood ng sine. Kelan ako naging ganito ka-loser? SOCIAL LIFE ZERO. Epekto ng ubo, sipon at panaka-nakang lagnat.
Di ko na makakalimutan magdala ng jacket. Ayoko na mangyari uli un nangyari kahapon. Hassle.
Pag Minamalas ka Nga Naman [Sineswerte ka After]
Di na'to kaartehan na sakit, I really am sick. BADTRIP. My talk's tomorrow. Pagminamalas ka nga naman.
I went home early last night because I felt like I was gonna faint any moment [thanks Ces for giving me a ride]...Due to the unlikeliness of my being at home early, my parents were so happy to see me. I think the last time they saw me awake was last Sunday. My dad said, "Pinag-uusapan ka lang namin ng Mommy mo kanina, naglolokohan kami na baka di ka naman talaga pumapasok... Buti naman at nandito ka ngayon para sagutin ang katanungan na yan..." Tawa lang ako ng tawa. Medyo nag-alala naman sila when I told 'em that I wasn't feeling well, at nang tinanong ko kung nasan ang dinner ang sabi ng dad ko, "May sakit man o wala, isa lang talaga ang sureball na bisyo ng anak ko... [grins]" Hay naku, thanks talaga dad ha. Pero bumawi naman sya when they were about to go to bed, "Good night Tabachoy [don't mind the name-calling], sa wakas nagkakwentuhan tayo ulit."
Aww no? Well, I have a very loving family. Mapanglait, pero loving. =P
I went home early last night because I felt like I was gonna faint any moment [thanks Ces for giving me a ride]...Due to the unlikeliness of my being at home early, my parents were so happy to see me. I think the last time they saw me awake was last Sunday. My dad said, "Pinag-uusapan ka lang namin ng Mommy mo kanina, naglolokohan kami na baka di ka naman talaga pumapasok... Buti naman at nandito ka ngayon para sagutin ang katanungan na yan..." Tawa lang ako ng tawa. Medyo nag-alala naman sila when I told 'em that I wasn't feeling well, at nang tinanong ko kung nasan ang dinner ang sabi ng dad ko, "May sakit man o wala, isa lang talaga ang sureball na bisyo ng anak ko... [grins]" Hay naku, thanks talaga dad ha. Pero bumawi naman sya when they were about to go to bed, "Good night Tabachoy [don't mind the name-calling], sa wakas nagkakwentuhan tayo ulit."
Aww no? Well, I have a very loving family. Mapanglait, pero loving. =P
UPDATES
I am sick. Not the normal "insane me" sick but it's more like, "lalagnatin-yata-ako-may-sipon-pa-ako-ang-ginaw" sick. Must be the weather, must be my excessive dancing last Saturday at the Back to School Party, but the point is, I am finding it hard to concentrate today. I even got mad at my sister for unintentionally waking me up thus resulting to my difficulty to go back to sleep at freaking 6 in the morning. Rant, Rant, rant...
Last night, Ces made me search for the lyrics of "Love Team" by Itchyworms for reasons I cannot disclose in my blog, so here it is... just because I can't find it in my lazy self to start studyin at 4pm.
Last night, Ces made me search for the lyrics of "Love Team" by Itchyworms for reasons I cannot disclose in my blog, so here it is... just because I can't find it in my lazy self to start studyin at 4pm.
LOVE TEAM
Itchyworms
Itchyworms
di naman talaga tayo magsinta
pero gusto nila
kahit ayaw mo bagay daw tayo
di naman totoo mga yakap mo
pang-eksena lamang ito
di mo lang alam
na nababaliw na’ko sa iyo
di ko na yata kaya to
ang aking lihim na pakay
ay ang lahat ng ito’y gawing tunay
[chorus]
Sana wag mong sisihin
kung di ko kayang pigilin
sabi mo na mahal mo ‘ko
ngunit di naman seryoso
sana magkasingkulay
ang drama at tunay na buhay ko
ang tanging pag-asa ko
ay nasa tambalang ito
Sinungaling ka
kapag may tao ay nilalambing mo ko
pero pag wala ay sumasama ng turing mo sa ‘kin
ay parang haning bitin na bitin
di nila alam na sa dulo ng tagpo
di na patok ang linya ko
nag-iiba ang iyong asta
hanggang sa susunod na eksena
[chorus]
Sana wag mong sisihin
kung di ko kayang pigilin
sabi mo na mahal mo ‘ko
ngunit di naman seryoso
sana magkasingkulay
ang drama at tunay na buhay ko
ang tanging pag-asa ko
ay nasa tambalang ito
[instrumental]
[chorus]
Sana wag mong sisihin
kung di ko kayang pigilin
sabi mo na mahal mo ‘ko
ngunit di naman seryoso
sana magkasingkulay
ang drama at tunay na buhay ko
ang tanging pag-asa ko
ay nasa tambalang ito
Tapos, nagsisisi ako na hinanap ko sya. Anyway, for the past days, Chris and I have been studying in Starbucks every morning and every single day, we always rant about having NO INCENTIVE in Law School. As to what "that incentive" we're actually looking for is, I'll leave it to your imagination. CLUE? Hindi GRADES. So, I am for the nth time reminded that well, I am in need of human warmth. Literally and figuratively. Technically meron naman sana kaya lang... TECHNICALLY un. =P
By now, you probably already realized that this blog entry is not meant to make sense. That embodies my life right now, nothing makes real sense. All are but BLURRED images. Drama.
Pero masaya ako. Sa mga nagtatanong, don't worry masaya naman ako. Salamat.
At dahil dyan, MAY JOKE ako.
I am so excited to finally see Sam and Nate on Saturday for their first class in Ateneo. Both of my friends are gonna be taking their MBA and well, we're gonna see more of each other, at least once a week. Nate is my eternal Stanford and well, Sam is my eternal Samantha. As for me, I still maintain that I am living a CARRIE BRADSHAW-ish life.
To that girl who said she loved my hosting last Saturday, thank you. It meant something coming from someone I don't know.
Lastly, my talk in La Salle that didn't push through last week is gonna push thourh [keeping fingers crossed for them] this Friday, the working title's "THE ECONOMICS OF LAW" and i'll be the sole speaker. Wish me luck. I hope to not discourage the legal management students form going to law school...
By now, you probably already realized that this blog entry is not meant to make sense. That embodies my life right now, nothing makes real sense. All are but BLURRED images. Drama.
Pero masaya ako. Sa mga nagtatanong, don't worry masaya naman ako. Salamat.
At dahil dyan, MAY JOKE ako.
Ang nagmamahal with UNREQUITED LOVE ay parang Beneficiary ng LIFE INSURANCE.Japhet called me last night to check on me. Laughtrip. Pero Japh, pag may nangyaring masama sa akin, kasalanan mo. [wink wink]
Kasi, ang benefit na paglaya ay dadating lang kapag NAMATAY na ang INSURED. =P
I am so excited to finally see Sam and Nate on Saturday for their first class in Ateneo. Both of my friends are gonna be taking their MBA and well, we're gonna see more of each other, at least once a week. Nate is my eternal Stanford and well, Sam is my eternal Samantha. As for me, I still maintain that I am living a CARRIE BRADSHAW-ish life.
To that girl who said she loved my hosting last Saturday, thank you. It meant something coming from someone I don't know.
Lastly, my talk in La Salle that didn't push through last week is gonna push thourh [keeping fingers crossed for them] this Friday, the working title's "THE ECONOMICS OF LAW" and i'll be the sole speaker. Wish me luck. I hope to not discourage the legal management students form going to law school...
A Little Time
Your emotions might be erratic, and as a result you may be feeling jumpy and skittish, Eunice. It is best that you make the effort to put a limit on how far to let this energy take you. Keep your thoughts to yourself instead of processing them aloud for everyone else to hear. Keep a damper on things or else you are likely to put your foot in your mouth at the worst possible time.
It seems like you have fewer opportunities available right now, but this is really a great chance to zero in on what's best for you. The stars simply wanted to accelerate things for you by eliminating a few options.
Let a promising encounter stand on its own, at least for now. You may be eager to follow up, but savor it a bit instead. The stars say giving it a little time only makes it better.
It seems like you have fewer opportunities available right now, but this is really a great chance to zero in on what's best for you. The stars simply wanted to accelerate things for you by eliminating a few options.
Let a promising encounter stand on its own, at least for now. You may be eager to follow up, but savor it a bit instead. The stars say giving it a little time only makes it better.
Di ko na Naco-control...
For some weird reason, the news is spreading like a forest fire sooooo... sa mga nagtatanong kung totoo. Err, technically totoo. haha.
Anyway, may bago nanaman akong joke...
Anyway, may bago nanaman akong joke...
Ang LOVE di yan INSURABLE, kahit na may risk at pwede mag-cause ng damage...
KASI...
TO LOVE IS TO GAMBLE.
[Kamot Ulo]
Dear Eunice Zuleika,
Here is your love horoscope
for Monday, June 25:
That person may seem completely perfect, and you might just be ready to launch a campaign, making your case like you would in a job interview. How about treating them as the candidate instead?
Coupled up, but ready to mingle? Talk to friends about the latest activities and hot spots. Better yet, why not do a little reconnaissance work about what's new and happening yourself? The response will be excellent.
Here is your love horoscope
for Monday, June 25:
That person may seem completely perfect, and you might just be ready to launch a campaign, making your case like you would in a job interview. How about treating them as the candidate instead?
Coupled up, but ready to mingle? Talk to friends about the latest activities and hot spots. Better yet, why not do a little reconnaissance work about what's new and happening yourself? The response will be excellent.
My Daily Tarot
The Four of Swords card suggests that my power today lies in recovery. Our mutual losses or experience deserve to be acknowledged or remembered with dignity, honor, and respect even as we regroup to move forward. I am willing to work on forgiveness and letting go of the past in order to find peace. It's time to give it a rest. I am empowered by stillness an
Due to Insistent Public Demand
Here are my very own, QUOTABLE QUOTES from last Saturday's Back to School Party
Q: If you were a subject in the law school, what subject would you be and why?
Euns: I'll be INTERNATIONAL ECONOMIC LAW because if i'm International, you can bring me anywhere and just like ECONOMICS, I can SUPPLY all your DEMANDS.
Q: If you were a professor from the law school, who would you be and why?
Euns: I'll be Atty. Candelaria because no matter how prepared you think you are, when you look into my eyes, mawawala na lahat... And just like his readings, I can keep you up all night.
Q: Use a legal maxim to convince the searcher to choose you.
Euns: Res ipsa loquitur [The thing speaks for itself]... Need I say more?
Q: Kung part ka ng Consti ano ka at why?
Euns: I'm the Declaratory Principles, kasi I can direct you.
*I was the host but to inspire the searchees I sort of gave them examples on how to answer the questions.
UNPUBLISHED Q & A:
Q: Which body part do you most frequently use in the law school?
Euns: my LIPS. [insert whatever it is that fills your imagination] ... pero syempre sasabihin ko, kasi I recite all the time. =P
Q: Saan mo maihahambing ang love na term sa law school?
Euns: Ang love parang TORTS... kasi pag may FAULT or NEGLIGENCE pwedeng magkaroon ng liability for damages... KAHIT WALANG PRE-EXISTING CONTRACTUAL OBLIGATION.
Grammatically-challenged
Yeah [at the risk of sounding German], my subject-verb agreement went berserk... Yeah, I was hoping for the worst. Pero kahit ano mangyari, I will forever be proud that I got through my first Succession recit alive... and hmm, I think I did ok.
Malayo pa ang umaga pero dumating na ang dapit-hapon ng aking kaba.
Malayo pa ang umaga pero dumating na ang dapit-hapon ng aking kaba.
Pahabol na Salamat
with the best co-host ever, AJ
with the "date" Mike Lo
with the newest "party people" of Alchemy
with the very hot girls, Maj and Ina and of course, Mike
flaunting my "blue / charcoal eyes" with Hazel and PattyI also wanna thank L'oreal Professionel for my Hair last night and of course,
Maybelline especially Hazel Go for doing my make-up.
Feeling celebrity talaga e no?
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Post Back to School Party
It was definitely worth the wait, last night, I partied like there was no tomorrow... because there was a touch of reality to that statement. In truth, the law students I know get drunk all the time, but they don't have time to go dancing. Last night was definitely a blast.
I have to share a few things about the "back story" of the night... my first official date with my boyfriend, Mike Lo. It was a story similar to a romantic comedy that we always find ourselves watching. First off, how did the official date happen? Well, secret. Haha... but the bottomline of the whole thing is, he gave me a ride, went there early and wore pink. Sweet no? Naiinggit na nga si Jess Lopez eh [kiddin Jess]. Anyway, dahil official Eunice blog entry ito may booboo din ang aming ride to Alchemy.
Diba? Di ko sana sya mapapatawad sa pag-iisip na di ko naintindihan, pero he explained naman na baka sa ibang tao scaffolding is a TECHNICAL TERM at higit sa lahat, sinuot nya for the 2nd time un PINK LACOSTE shirt nya for me. Aww diba?
Oo na Mike Lo, bagay sa COMPLEXION mo un HOT PINK mong shirt... [winks]
I have to share a few things about the "back story" of the night... my first official date with my boyfriend, Mike Lo. It was a story similar to a romantic comedy that we always find ourselves watching. First off, how did the official date happen? Well, secret. Haha... but the bottomline of the whole thing is, he gave me a ride, went there early and wore pink. Sweet no? Naiinggit na nga si Jess Lopez eh [kiddin Jess]. Anyway, dahil official Eunice blog entry ito may booboo din ang aming ride to Alchemy.
Euns: Manong, san po un ALchemy?
Guard: Ah, ma'am alam nyo po ba un guardhouse dun? [turo] May makikita po kayo na scaffolding dun, un na po un ALchemy.
Euns: Thank you po. [to Mike] I don't understand kung pano naging sosyal ang scaffolding. I don't understand... [gets nyo naman na ang ibig ko sabihin, di pwede sosyal kung scaffolding lang sya diba?]
Mike Lo: ANg scaffolding un... [blahblahblah explaining TO ME what scaffolding means]
Euns: Mike! I know what it means.... MATALINO din ako!!!
[laughter]
Diba? Di ko sana sya mapapatawad sa pag-iisip na di ko naintindihan, pero he explained naman na baka sa ibang tao scaffolding is a TECHNICAL TERM at higit sa lahat, sinuot nya for the 2nd time un PINK LACOSTE shirt nya for me. Aww diba?
Oo na Mike Lo, bagay sa COMPLEXION mo un HOT PINK mong shirt... [winks]
BACK TO SCHOOL PARTY NA!
Pero bago ang lahat, I wanna thank Gayle for the very sumptuous dinner...We should thank you more really... HAPPY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY and well, I hope to see more of you and your really cute ways in the future.
Thank you ANALOG SOUL for the top I'll be wearing for the party tonight.
Thank you boyfriend for [if things go as planned] picking me up early. Grateful ako ng sobra, un tipong umaabot na sa hiya, hehe. Mabait ka talaga.
At to everyone who's been telling me that they are looking forward to seeing me and AJ host the event, we hope to not let you down tonight.
Have fun everyone, I'll see you guys [and girls, to be gender fair, hehe] later.
PS:
Kung mahagip ng mga intense lights ang cellulites ng legs ko, isipin nyo na lang un redeeming factors ko [i.e. talent, humor, wit, friendliness] to compensate for that "glitch" in my system.
Thank you ANALOG SOUL for the top I'll be wearing for the party tonight.
Thank you boyfriend for [if things go as planned] picking me up early. Grateful ako ng sobra, un tipong umaabot na sa hiya, hehe. Mabait ka talaga.
At to everyone who's been telling me that they are looking forward to seeing me and AJ host the event, we hope to not let you down tonight.
Have fun everyone, I'll see you guys [and girls, to be gender fair, hehe] later.
PS:
Kung mahagip ng mga intense lights ang cellulites ng legs ko, isipin nyo na lang un redeeming factors ko [i.e. talent, humor, wit, friendliness] to compensate for that "glitch" in my system.
The Pay Off
I have a Sponsor for my clothes at the Back to School Party.
ANALOG SOUL, thank you.
Finally, a pay off that's more TANGIBLE. hehe. HURRAH!
ANALOG SOUL, thank you.
Finally, a pay off that's more TANGIBLE. hehe. HURRAH!
Patay Gutom Moments [Pictures of my Freeriding]
with college bestbud Japh
dae, euns and ces
haze and eunsThe Inefficient Co-beadle
So much for good first impressions, well, i kind of ruined it when I forgot to erase the freakin' board. Now I have to prove that I am not that inefficient after all...
To more pleasant things, I'll be the sole Guest Speaker this Wednesday at the Ley La Salle Talk on the Study and Practice of Law at 12nn, this of course will be at the Dela Salle University [Main]. I'll be speaking in front of Legal Management students to encourage 'em and to convince them that the LAW is not sooo boring after all. Mukhang kaya ko naman un. Thanks to Eve Chua for choosing me, it's an honor really.
More claim to fame diba?
WIsh me luck.
Plus, i'll be hosting the Ateneo School of Law Back to School Party this Saturday, June 23rd at ALCHEMY [supposedly the "New Embassy"] in Ortigas... Hope to see you there guys.
To more pleasant things, I'll be the sole Guest Speaker this Wednesday at the Ley La Salle Talk on the Study and Practice of Law at 12nn, this of course will be at the Dela Salle University [Main]. I'll be speaking in front of Legal Management students to encourage 'em and to convince them that the LAW is not sooo boring after all. Mukhang kaya ko naman un. Thanks to Eve Chua for choosing me, it's an honor really.
More claim to fame diba?
WIsh me luck.
Plus, i'll be hosting the Ateneo School of Law Back to School Party this Saturday, June 23rd at ALCHEMY [supposedly the "New Embassy"] in Ortigas... Hope to see you there guys.
SUPER!!!
Prof: What is this? [tinuturo ang ilalim]...Tama naman... may continuation pa yan.
Class: Infra.
Prof: What is this? Ms. Gutierrez... [tinuturo ang desk]
Kya: Table.
Prof: What is this? [turo ilalim]Tama nga naman, logical... infra, supra... NORA!!!
Class: infra
Prof: What is this? [turo gitna]
Class: supra
Prof: What is thiS? [gumagawa ng isang malaking bilog sa ibabaw ng lahat]
Class: [SILENCE}
Prof: Sino si Ate Guy???
Gino: [with all enthusiasm he has] NORA!!!!
Unfortunately, SUPER pala ang tamang sagot. Therefore na CHEVERLOO ang mga CHENES natin. [inside joke of the International Economic Law Students].
Dahil naghintay kami ng matagal... at napaisip ako ulit.
I hate it when I'm alone, I am reminded of my days with you. These are not mere memories but feelings that I get to relive over and over. There is truth in my happiness now, but there's no truth in your lie.
I hate it when I'm alone, I am reminded of my days with you. Not because I think, but because I feel. When I am alone, it's like you're here again, watching with your innocent and fierce gaze that made me look back.
Yeah, I almost looked back. Almost.
Now, I am alone, but unlike the old times... i am not lonely.
I don't hate it when I'm alone. I am reminded of my days with you. I am reminded of my reasons.
I am reminded of my mind.
I hate it when I'm alone, I am reminded of my days with you. Not because I think, but because I feel. When I am alone, it's like you're here again, watching with your innocent and fierce gaze that made me look back.
Yeah, I almost looked back. Almost.
Now, I am alone, but unlike the old times... i am not lonely.
I don't hate it when I'm alone. I am reminded of my days with you. I am reminded of my reasons.
I am reminded of my mind.
Para sa mga Di Nakaintindi
A chosen few didn't get the Ipe anecdote in my previous entry so this is my explanation.. baka kasi kailangan in digest form. hehe.
Facts:Ok na ba?
Ipe is a new face in Section B.
Atty. Gonzalez was Section B's Tax I Professor.
Therefore, Atty. Gonzalez does not recognize Ipe, thus the question, "You're from?"
Issue:
w/n "You're from?" should be interpreted as: 1. Residence / Domicile OR 2. Former Section
Held:
As evidenced by the class' laughter after Ipe blurted out the controversial "Batangas" answer, everybody interpreted is as the latter meaning, "Which section are you from?". This is precisely because the first assumption is that the professor does not care where you live because it does not generally affect your academic performance [there are exceptions of course].
FIRST DAY HIGH
Prof: Closa... (nanibago kasi bagong mukha) You're from?
Ipe: ... Batangas.
[Thundering Laughter from the class, KAMUSTA NAMAN ANG Mr. Batangas? Kulang na lang sash]
Prof: Where did you work?
Nols: VGS
Prof: The dean's office?
Nols: No sir, the dean's LAW office.
[Tama nga naman...]
NEWSFLASH: Si Leah A. may new "SEATMATE"
Euns: Magiging classmate ka na ba namin forever?
Ogie: Hmm, forever? Sana wag naman kasi baka di na tayo gumraduate.
Euns: [in fairness, witty.. pasok sa section B ito!]
Ipe: ... Batangas.
[Thundering Laughter from the class, KAMUSTA NAMAN ANG Mr. Batangas? Kulang na lang sash]
Prof: Where did you work?
Nols: VGS
Prof: The dean's office?
Nols: No sir, the dean's LAW office.
[Tama nga naman...]
NEWSFLASH: Si Leah A. may new "SEATMATE"
Euns: Magiging classmate ka na ba namin forever?
Ogie: Hmm, forever? Sana wag naman kasi baka di na tayo gumraduate.
Euns: [in fairness, witty.. pasok sa section B ito!]
These I Will Teach You
One should never mess with a force that he/ she does not know of.
One must not talk about something that he/she doesn't know of.
In short, if you don't know, don't talk.
The better rule?
Make sure the people you are talking about do not hear you.
Otherwise, you're dead.
Goodluck.
One must not talk about something that he/she doesn't know of.
In short, if you don't know, don't talk.
The better rule?
Make sure the people you are talking about do not hear you.
Otherwise, you're dead.
Goodluck.
Ang Pagtatampisaw, Pagtalon sa Bangin at Pagpapakita ng "Laman"
Sino ang napagalitan dahil nilagay nya sa machine detector and baon naming empanada at sandwiches? (taas ng kamay si Eunice), ang nasabi ko na lang, "Edi kung may dala pala akong drugs tapos nilagay ko sa stryro maipupuslit ko ng mabilis kasi ayaw nila i-check un food?" Fine, palusot ko lang un.
Beh BOAT-e Nga!
The only thing that was going on in our minds was the fact that we are on our way (finally!) to the beach... that we actually pushed through our plan and we made it, well almost. It would've been more fun with the rest of the gang, but we promised ourselves that we will have a blast in Puerto Galera." I just wanna be on the beach, sun-burnt..." was the familiar lyric for that boat ride. We temporarily panicked when the boat stopped at a really ugly place, we gladly welcomed the idea that it was just a stopover. And thank God it WAS merely a stopover. The white beach welcomed us with open arms and we submitted ourselves to the call of the sand, the sun and the sea...
Ces and Haze were kind of low bat after our trip so after we ate, they decided to go back to our room to sleep and prepare for the night life that was waiting for us. I was not in the mood to go to bed so I told 'em that I'll walk around first and go sunbathing. Yes, my goal was to get as tanned as possible and I kind of really achieved that. We all prayed for a clear night so we can party really hard... I bought a few white pieces of clothing to complete my wardrobe and went back to our PERFECT room. Why is it perfect? We had the best view of the beach, the party scene was right in front our very own veranda.... WE ALL SMILED and said, "THIS IS THE LIFE." Since Ces and Haze were still sleeping and I kind of got tired after my "solo frolicking", I went to bed too to get some energy.
Surprisingly, the skies were clear on our first night. We were more than happy to go down and start our Mindoro Sling fest. We had dinner and feasted on inihaw na pusit and inihaw na manok... A pitcher of Mindoro Sling after, we still were ok. So we ordered beer, and Haze ordered her margarita (without our approval, hehe)... While ordering our beer, I got to chat with the manager of the place, Diane. She asked me about my school, who I'm with and we ended up chatting about hot bisexual guys that she met a few nights before... She offered to bring our beer to my table and I added her to my list of newfound friends. After a few minutes, we brought our beer with us and sat by the beach to contemplate on how great our lives at present are, we went star-gazing thanks to Ces and we talked about a lot of incriminating things that I cannot blog about... Then it started to drizzle. It was our cue to go back to our lovely room...
On our second day, Haze started out with a headache, which of course burdened not only her but all of us, hehe... after having breakfast ( I ate arroz caldo, this decision was made the night before, when I saw it on the menu), we decided to walk around a bit, Haze went back to our room while Ces and I continued to walk around until I decided to get a henna tattoo. That's where we formally met Ivan, the manager of the Tattoo Place, who by the way has nice teeth and a sort of hot tattooed body. Ces and I informally met the the magicians (Derrick, Oliver and Mark) who was teaching Ivan a few tricks. One of the tattoo artists was sorta witty when he said, "Ang bagay sa'yo (to Ces) rose, sa'yo (to Euns) dolphin." We all laughed and I jokingly demanded for an explanation why mine has to be a DOLPHIN. Hmm.... after a few laughs, I decided to get a Phoenix tattoo... Ivan asked me if it was ok for me to be under the sun while he draws the phonenix because the copy was outside, I smiled and said, "Adik ka ba?" I think he's kinds cute, especially when he said, "Sa'kin walang mawawala maitim na ako, ikaw ang kawawa." The long-haired tattoo artist suggested that I should get a tattoo that will be placed on my chest slash breast, I was like, "I don't need more attention for that part of my body, thank you very much." It was a fun experience. After my punishing Ces to wait for me, we bought a childhood drink, the SCRAMBLE. Yebah! We got into a kwentuhan with Manong about how good the group of magicians are... we had no idea that we'll get a private show that night...
We went back to our rooms to wait for my henna tattoo to dry up and decided to go BANANA BOAT riding. I totally forgot about the henna tatoo and I was disheartened when I realized that I sort of ruined it by wearing the life vest. Luckily, it wasn't really destroyed, the part that was not needed was the one that was washed up by water. The banana boat ride was amazing, we met two girls, kids actually who were practically cheering while we were riding. We dropped twice, it was FUN FUN FUN. Syempre pa si hazel, Nagkauntugan pa sila nun isang bata. MAlas talaga, haha.
After the ride, Haze had a brilliant idea to walk to the isolated part of the beach so we can go sunbathing and swimming. But no, sobrang lakas nun waves sa part na un at uhmm, mejo malalim sya. BRILLIANT. Haha. But we got to achieve naman the sunbathing part, took a lot of pictures and eventually had to retreat to our rooms because it rained hard.
WE PRAYED LIKE WE NEVER PRAYED BEFORE FOR THE RAIN TO STOP. WE DIDN'T WANT TO SPEND OUR LAST NIGHT IN GALERA INSIDE OUR ROOM.
God answered our prayers and we went downstairs and got ready for our LAST NIGHT. The night to remember. It started out sort of slow, we sat at the bar, chatted and Diane said Hi... she called me DYOSA, sosyal. Then we transferred to another table, Diane asked us why we don't have boys with us... well, we don't really have an explanation for that. Haha. The whole night became interesting when the group of magicians arrived. They performed and I was targeting their non=magician friend, Mark. He's cute, nice abs and nose... But no, before you get your prize, you must hurdle a few loser obstacles... When I went to the bar alone, this bald guy in orange approached me and TRIED TO ESTABLISH A CONVERSATION. I didn't even pay much attention, but followed me around even to my table. All I said was, I'm with my friends, sorry. and that "I'm not really interested." He eventually backed off, only with a vengeance. When we unconsciously left Haze on our table, the same desperate guy approached her and asked for her number. She of course panicked so we went to our table to back her up and we all went to the bar to watch the show. I strategically sat on the chair to block our the outside world because I wanted to concentrate on the magic show. Derrick, one of the magicians, was also cute. Then I think a couple of loser guys approached Ces and Haze and in my eavesdropping, I overheard one guy asking Ces, "What if I tell you that I know that Magic too?" I stopped myself form laughing because dude, he was a total loser. That was until they decided to make an ungraceful exit, and premise MADILIM, they all brisk walked their way to our table while I was left with the other guys asking me if we were leaving and why, all i said was, "Yes, sorry." and I, without even thinking jumped... yup I FUCKING JUMPED. Ngyarks. I almost twisted my ankle, dyahe. Kasalanan ito ng dalawang mahilig mag-panic kong kasama.
After the whole pagtalon sa bangin incident, they were resigned to the idea of going back to our room... I told them, "I refuse to let those guys ruin my last night in Galera. You guys sit down and I can handle them." pagkatapos naman sila mahimasmasan, naupo na rin sila... I was happy. Then I went back to the bar to ask for ice, and to establish some conversation with Mark. Successful naman. As a gift, I even managed to convince the rest of the guys to do a "private magic show" for us... Well, ehem, di naman sa pagmamalaki pero I made the night INTERESTING, haha... Aminado naman sila that they OWE IT TO ME. Kung hindi, nanuod lang sana kami ng cable sa kwarto. How sad.
Then we formally met Derrick, Oliver and Mark... the magicians. That night, we were the Magicians' Groupies. Sabi nga ni Diane, my newfound friend, we found na daw our boylets... We stayed until around 2 in the morning just chatting with them and letting them wow us with their magic tricks. One of us got "more than a magic show", ehem... And as for me, I managed to get a "relationship proposal" from Oliver, it was funny really... haha... They were really good guys, I hope to bump into them soon. As for my crush Mark, well, sayang, I should've said yes when Derrick and Oliver volunteered to set up a date for us since Hazel nonchalantly declared that I went to Galera to look for a boyfriend, hence making me vulnerable to sudden attacks, haha. It was a great great night, it was apt for our last night in what for me now shall be called as the "Sanctuary". We shall go back really soon.
In the morning, we went swimming and sunbathing again until it was time to go home. We got more than what we hoped for and we went back to Manile not only with smiles on our faces but experiences that are forever gonna go down as worthwhile memories... We went back to Rockwell and attended the Orientation Seminar to parade our sun-kissed skin. Woohoo, to Ces and Haze.... Good vibes mga Dude Pare!
New Sem, New Issues
It doesn't hurt anymore. I can look at our pictures again and smile knowing that what we had was good, heck it was amazing. Though I've been through quite a rollercoaster with you around, I don't regret and never will regret my decision to subject myself to such sweet agony. The only sad truth is that it can never be the same again. It can never be like it was before. I can feel that you try, you have to believe me when I say that I try too, but just like all events that are caused by the forces of nature, our natural course is to go our separate ways. Our separate ways are not absolute, once in a while we will meet and reminisce then gladly go down our separate paths again to seek the better memories that are waiting to be made and discovered... individually.
My Eleven Minutes Quotes
When we meet someone and fall in love, we have a sense that the whole universe is on our side. I saw this happen today as the sun went down. And yet if something goes wrong, there is nothing left! No herons, no distant music, not even the taste of his lips. How is it possible for the beauty that was there only minutes before to vanish so quickly!
Life moves very fast. It rushes us from heaven to hell in a matter of seconds. [9]If I must be faithful to someone or something, then I have, first of all, to be faithful to myself. If I ‘m looking for true love, I first have to get the mediocre loves out of my system. The little experience of life I’ve had has taught me that no one owns anything, that everything is an illusion – and that applies to material as well as spiritual things. Anyone who has lost something they thought was theirs forever finally comes to realize that nothing really belongs to them.
And if nothing belongs to me, then there’s no point wasting my time looking after things that aren’t mine; it’s best to live as if today were the first (or last) day of my life. [16]
I stood for a long time by the roller coaster, and I noticed that most people get on it in search of excitement, but once it starts, they are terrified and want the cars to stop.
What do they expect? Having chosen adventure, shouldn’t they be prepared to go the whole way? Or do they think that the intelligent thing to do would be to avoid the ups and downs and spend all their time on a carousel, going round and round on the spot?
At the moment, I’m far too lonely to think about love, but I have to believe that it will happen… The roller coaster is my life; life is a fast, dizzying game; life is a parachute jump; it’s taking chances, falling over and getting up again, it’s mountaineering; it’s a wanting to get to the very top of yourself and to feel angry and dissatisfied when you don’t manage it.
If I had fallen asleep and suddenly woken up on a roller coaster, what would I feel?
Well, I would feel trapped and sick, terrified of every bend, wanting to get off. However, if I believe that the track is my destiny and that God is in charge of the machine, then the nightmare becomes something thrilling. It becomes exactly what it is, a roller coaster, a safe, reliable toy, which will eventually stop, but while the journey lasts, I must look at the surrounding landscape and whoop with excitement. [47]
Despite her apparent freedom, her life consisted of endless hours spend waiting for a miracle, for true love, for an adventure with the same romantic ending she had seen in films and read about in books. A writer once said that it is not time that changes man, nor knowledge; the only thing that can change someone’s mind is love. What nonsense! The person who wrote that clearly knew only one side of the coin.
Love was undoubtedly one of the things capable of changing a person’s whole life, from one moment to the next. But there was the other side of the coin, the second thing that could make a human being take totally a different course from the one he or she had planned; and that was called despair. Yes, perhaps love could really transform someone, but despair did the job more quickly. [53]
In the search for happiness, however, we are all equal: none of us is happy. [56]
I’m not a body with a soul, I’m a soul that has a visible part called body. All this week, contrary to one might expect, I have been more conscious of the presence of this soul than usual It didn’t say anything to me, didn’t criticize me or feel sorry for me: it merely watched me.
Today, I realized why this was happening, it’s been such a long time since I thought about love or anything called love. It seems to be running away from me, as if it wasn’t important any more and didn’t feel welcome. But if I don’t think about love, I will be nothing. [71]
I need to write about love. I need to think and think and write and write about love – otherwise, my soul won’t survive. [72]
Men are very strange, and I didn’t just mean the ones who come to the Copacabana, but all the men I’ve ever met. They can beat you up, shout at you, threaten you, and yet they’re scared of women really. Perhaps not the woman they married, but there’s always one woman who frightens them and forces them to submit to her caprices. Even if it’s their own mother. [81]
All my life, I thought of love as some kind of voluntary enslavement. Well, that’s a lie: freedom only exists when love is present. The person who gives him or herself wholly, the person who feels freest, is the person who loves most wholeheartedly.
And the person who loves wholeheartedly feels free.
In love, no one can harm anyone else; we are each of us responsible for our own feelings and cannot blame someone else for what we feel.
It hurt when I lost each of the various men I fell in love with. Now, though, I am convinced that no one loses anyone, because no one owns anyone.
That is the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it. [90]
There is a name for that pebble: passion. It can be used to describe the beauty of an earth-shaking meeting between two people, but it isn’t just that. It’s there in the excitement of the unexpected, in the despite to do something with real fervor, in the certainty that one is going to realize a dream. Passion sends us signals that guide us through our lives, and it’s up to me to interpret those signs. [112]
I would like to believe that I’m in love. With someone I don’t know and who didn’t figure in my plans at all. All these months of self-control, of denying love, have had exactly the opposite result; I have let myself be swept away by the first person to treat me a little differently.
I can lose him without having to blame myself for another missed opportunity. And if that is what happens, if I have already lost him, I will at least have gained one very happy day in my life. Considering the way the world is, one happy day is almost a miracle. 113
Love is not to be found in someone else, but in ourselves; we simply awaken it. But in order to do that, we need the other person. The universe only makes sense when we have someone to share our feelings with.
He should have saved me, I should have saved him, but he left me with no choice. [116]
Passion makes a person stop eating, sleeping, working, feeling at peace. A lot of people are frightened because, when it appears, it demolishes all the old things it finds in its path.
No one wants their life thrown into chaos.
Other people think exactly the opposite; they surrender themselves without a second thought, hoping to find in passion the solutions to their problems. They make the other person responsible for their happiness and blames the for their possible unhappiness. They are either euphoric because something marvelous has happened or depressed because something unexpected has just ruined everything.
Keeping passion at bay or surrendering blindly to it – which of these two attitudes is the least destructive? I don’t know. [120]
“But you loved.”
“Oh, yes, I loved, I loved very deeply. I loved so deeply that when my love asked me for a gift, I took fright and fled.” [130]
Profound desire, true desire is the desire to be close to someone. From that point onwards, things change, the man and the woman come into play, but what happens before – the attraction that brought them together – is impossible to explain. It is untouched desire in its purest state.
When desire is still in this pure state, the man and woman fall in love with life, they live each moment reverently, consciously, always ready to celebrate the next blessing.
When people feel like this, they are not in a hurry, they do not precipitate events with unthinking actions. They know that the inevitable will happen, that what is real always finds a way of revealing itself. When the moment comes, they do not hesitate, they do not miss an opportunity, they do not let slip a single magic moment, because they respect the importance of each second. [133]
I’ve met a man and fallen in love with him. I allowed myself to fall in love for one simple reason: I’m not expecting anything to come of it.
It’s enough just to love him, to be with him in my thoughts and to color this lovely city with his steps, his words, his love.
Really important meetings are planned by the souls long before the bodies see each other. Generally speaking, these meetings occur when we reach a limit, when we need to die and be reborn emotionally. These meetings are waiting for us, but more often than not, we avoid them happening. If we are desperate, though, if we have nothing to lose, or if we are full of enthusiasm for life, then the unknown reveals itself, and our universe changes direction.
Everyone knows how to love, because we are all born with that gift. Some people have a natural talent for it, but the majority of us have to re-learn, to remember how to love, and everyone, without exceptions, needs to burn on the bonfire of past emotions, to relive certain joys and griefs, certain ups and downs, until they can see the connecting thread that exists behind each new encounter; because there is a connecting thread. [139]
She wanted to tell him that she loved him. But that would spoil everything, it might frighten him, or worse, might make freedom of her love depended on asking nothing and expecting nothing. [163]
Every human being experiences his or her own desire; it is part of our personal treasure and although, as an emotion, it can drive people away, generally speaking, it brings those who are important to us closer. It is an emotion chosen by my soul, and it is so intense that it can infect everything and everyone around me.
Each day I choose the truth by which I try to live. I try to be practical, efficient, professional. But I would like to be able always to choose desire as my companion. Not out of obligation, not to lessen my loneliness, but because it is good. Yes, very good. [165]
She loved him and couldn’t understand why he behaved like that; he loved her and couldn’t understand his own behavior. It was as if the agony that the one inflicted on the other was necessary, fundamental to life. [185]
When I had nothing to lose, I had everything. When I stopped being who I am, I found myself.
When I experienced humiliation and total submission, I was free. I don’t know if I’m ill, if it was all a dream or if it only happens once. I know that I can perfectly well live without it, but I would like to do it again, to repeat the experience, to go still further. [188]
After all, we are human beings, we are born full of guilt; we feel terrified when happiness becomes a real possibility; and we die wanting to punish everyone else because we feel impotent, ill-used, unhappy. To pay for only one’s sins and be able to punish the sinners, wouldn’t that be delicious? Oh, yes, wonderful. [195]
Pain is frightening when it shows its real face, but it’s seductive when it comes disguised as sacrifice or self-denial. Or cowardice. However much we may reject it, we human beings always find a way of being with pain, of flirting with it and making it part of our lives. [201]
But I cannot simply do nothing, pretend that everything is normal, that it’s just a stage, a phase of my life. I want to forget it, I need to love – that’s all, I need to love.
Life is too short, or too long, for me to allow myself the luxury of living it so badly. [206]
In all languages in the world, there is the same proverb: “What the eyes don’t see, the heart doesn’t grieve over.” Well, I say that there isn’t an ounce of truth in it. The further off they are, the closer to the heart are all those feelings that we try to repress and forget. If we’re in exile, we want to store away every tiny memory of our roots. If we’re far from the person we love, everyone we pass in the street reminds us of them. [232]
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