Keepin' the Faith

image from POSTSECRET

I am officially freaking out. Today's April 29th and on the 3rd of May, my life will officially change. Everything's a blur but all I pray for is strength. My dad asked me about my grades and I couldnt give him a straight answer, his words stuck to my mind... "Bakit parang nawawalan ka na ng faith? Faith kay God, Faith sa sarili mo." It's a very painful truth that I have to face. I am kind of losing faith in myself. Not in God. God has always been good to me. I just don't know if I am still good enough. If I am still worthy of His blessings. I don't know if I worked hard enough.

My mom is supportive. She asked me where I would want to transfer "if ever" things don't turn out as planned. Argh. I cannot even imagine myself not being in lawschool anymore. I can't believe I am here again. That emotional limbo that I enternally hate to be in.

My friends are equally helpful. They keep my hopes up everytime I talk to them. They assure me that I did pretty well this sem. I dont know if they're just being kind or if I really did better. I have always believed that LIFE IS UNFAIR. So, following this assumption, even if I worked doubly hard... there is a chance that I will not get the grades that are proportional to the effort I exerted. Life is unfair that some people who didn't work as hard are going to stay. I don't hate them, in fact I will not deny that a couple of times, I even envy them. I was once like them. Never exerted much effort, still I manage to get out of the jungle alive. It's really hard when you're on the other end, when you're the one who's losing faith in yourself because you feel like YOU WILL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH.

I have faith in God. I know that whatever it is that He will decide to give me, it will lead me to the best road that I should travel. This brings me to Carrie Underwood's single, JESUS TAKE THE WHEEL. I think it's a very appropriate song.

Jesus, Take the Wheel
Carrie Underwood

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way to fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was sooo scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel Take it from my hands Cause I can't do this all on my own I'm letting go So give me one more chance To save me from this road I'm on Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Oh, Jesus take the wheel Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me Oh, why, oh

The World Taught Her Masturbation

image from Postsecret

The world taught her masturbation.

It was more than fifteen years ago when the game started. She sat beside her newfound playmate while he started the engine. Her body trembled along with everything that’s vibrating around her. She felt a spider inching its way up between her legs. The unnamed playmate was at the driver seat, and she was kneeling beside him, waiting for her classmates to finally come.

What’s taking them so long? They’ll miss our game. She watched other kids playing games she played before. This was different. She didn’t have to do anything but she always got rewarded. The controlling playmate took her left hand and directed her to caress what seemed like a bulge inside his pants. “Kailangan mo yan himasin, kasi ahas yan at pag di mo hinimas, tutukain ka.” She nodded.

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Inside her room, the little girl could hardly hear what her mom and dad were discussing. She couldn’t understand why they looked so upset when she finally told them her secret. A secret that only she and her playmate knew. Wag mo sasabihin sa Mommy at Daddy mo, hindi ka na nila papayagan maglaro pag nalaman nila. But she didn’t intend to tell her Mommy; it was like an accident. While her mom was bathing her, she proudly narrated how her playmate would also touch that place between her legs. It was like a series of games that she always won. Her playmate lavished her with toys. “Kaya nga po madalas ako may mga dalang new toys, Mommy e.” The little girl eagerly bragged with eyes expectant of her Mommy’s approval. She could tell how surprised and proud her Mommy was, the little girl felt triumphant for having achieved something this big. For a second, she thought her Mommy was going to cry.

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The girl never understood why she couldn’t sit on the passenger seat of her School Bus anymore. Why she wasn’t allowed to talk to her favorite playmate. Why one day, the School Bus stopped fetching her and her playmate stopped playing with her.

She didn’t need to play with anyone anymore. From then on, she decided to just play with herself. She was in control.

The world taught her masturbation because for a time, her playmate was her world.

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DISCLAIMER [added the day after this story was posted]: Didnt think 'twas necessary to write one but apparently IT IS needed. This is FICTION. Please stop sending me messages consoling me for being sexually molested. I mean, I appreciate the concern but seriously, I WASN'T HARASSED.

WELCOME BLACK

Eunice, your true color is Black!

Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.

What's Your True Color?

Brought to you by Tickle

Remnants of an Alcoholic Eunice...

Sarah's @ UP diliman

thanks Kitel for the Blast in the Past that I needed.
I say, "More! More!"

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after a loooooong time, i was able to chat with my dear,dear friend Abby.

Lew, para sa'yo 'to...

Sa totoo lang, nakakamiss talaga ang Captain Planet. Naalala ko dati pinapantasya ko pa na maging un girl na parang dyosa. Minsan din inis na inis ako kasi parang ang illogical, bakit di na lang si Captain Planet lagi un lumaban agad? Nagmumukha lang tuloy na incapable un mga planeteers.

OKELAMPA

Para din yang Maskman na ang stand ko talaga ay dapat inuuna nilang patayin si OKELAMPA1 (ito pala ang tamang spelling, buong buhay ko akala ko talaga UKIRAMBA!), kasi kung wala sya di lalaki un mga halimaw.

SHAIDER

Tapos sa Shaider, dapat di nila pinababayaan si Alexis na matawag un Babylos para natatalo nila.

Pareng Lew, ikaw ang inspirasyon niyong entry na'to... isa ka ding source of joy. Sana may next sem pa tayo para sa ating *plano. (winks)

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1 Okelampa - insectoid which fires a monster enlarging beam

Silent Play

It's my music playing
games with silence;
Continuing to strum
the strings out
of tune. I hear
silence... Fingers
plucking, following
the rhythm that dictates
not where to go. Stop
not and flow. Play
amidst the craving
for rest.

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image from Postsecret

DISORDER IN THE COURT

Distilled from
Disorder in the Court: Great Fractured Moments in Courtroom History
by Charles M. Sevilla

These things were actually stated and recorded by court reporters.

Q: Are you sexually active?
A: No, I just lie there.

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Q: What is your date of birth?
A: July 15th.
Q: What year?
A: Every year.

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Q: What gear were you in at the moment of the impact?
A: Gucci sweats and Reeboks.

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Q: This myasthenia gravis, does it affect your memory at all?
A: Yes.
Q: And in what ways does it affect your memory?
A: I forget.
Q: You forget? Can you give us an example of something that you've forgotten?

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Q: How old is your son, the one living with you?
A: Thirty-eight or thirty-five, I can't remember which.
Q: How long has he lived with you?
A: Forty-five years.

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Q: What was the first thing your husband said to you when he woke up that morning?
A: He said, "Where am I, Cathy."
Q: And why did that upset you?
A: My name is Susan.

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Q: Do you know if your daughter has ever been involved in voodoo or the occult?
A: We both do.
Q: Voodoo?
A: We do.
Q: You do?
A: Yes, voodoo.

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Q: Now doctor, isn't it true that when a person dies in his sleep, he doesn't know about it until the next morning?
A: Did you actually pass the bar exam?

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Q: The youngest son, the twenty-year-old, how old is he?

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Q: Were you present when your picture was taken?

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Q: So the date of conception (of the baby) was August 8th?
A: Yes.
Q: And what were you doing at the time?

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Q: She had three children, right?
A: Yes.
Q: How many were boys?
Q: None.
A: Were there any girls?

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Q: How was your first marriage terminated?
A: By death.
Q: And by whose death was it terminated?

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Q: Can you describe the individual?
A: He was about medium height and had a beard.
Q: Was this a male or a female?

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Q: Is your appearance here this morning pursuant to a deposition notice which I sent to your attorney?
A: No, this is how I dress when I go to work.

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Q: Doctor, how many autopsies have you performed on dead people?
A: All my autopsies are performed on dead people.

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Q: ALL your responses MUST be oral, OK? What school did you go to?
A: Oral.

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Q: Do you recall the time that you examined the body?
A: The autopsy started around 8:30 p.m.
Q: And Mr. Dennington was dead at the time?
A: No, he was sitting on the table wondering why I was doing an autopsy.

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Q: Are you qualified to give a urine sample?

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Q: Doctor, before you performed the autopsy, did you check for a pulse?
A: No.
Q: Did you check for blood pressure?
A: No.
Q: Did you check for breathing?
A: No.
Q: So then it is possible that the patient was alive when you began the autopsy?
A: No.
Q: How can you be so sure, Doctor?
A: Because his brain was sitting on my desk in a jar.
Q: But could the patient have still been alive, nevertheless?
A: Yes, it is possible that he could have been alive and practicing law somewhere.

Forgiveness...

Yesterday, I got to hangout with some members of DuhPerm. Thanks to their being persistent [translation: calling my landline IMMEDIATELY after sending the text message] and patience [translation: threatening me to FOREVER be labeled as a LOSER which I cannot bear for only JV is worthy of such adulation.hehe. PEACE!], they didn't give up on me when I wasnt able to reply to their text messages. They bullied me into saying that "Yes, I'll go." Well, I don't regret going because after more than two weeks of not seeing them, i realized that I needed to reconnect because WE HAVE TO TALK ABOUT DORTS' WEDDING! haha.

At the end of our Friends marathon and watching the funny slash "deja vu-ish" Just Friends [ehem, Salud.. why is the word FRIEND soooo present in this picture?], we decided to go to Starbucks to discuss our "wedding plans". Kiboy had to remind us that well, we are not the ones who are getting married. Our reply was, "STILL!"

What did I get from this "Slumber party-ish" meet-up? Besides quality time with friends, I also got acquainted to SAMANTHA JAMES. This is Anna Faris' role in Just Friends and let's just say she sort of resembles the craziness of someone really, really close to me. Hint: Basta kulot salot [hehe]. What made Samantha James more than memorable? It's her INGENIOUS song in the movie. Laughtrip kung laughtrip, it failed to be an LSS but this is the first time that I'm hoping I get LSS-ed by a song. It's totally fun fun fun.

Forgiveness - Samantha James

Forgiveness is more than saying sorry
Forgiveness means accepting people's flaws (flaws, flaws, flaws)
To forgive is divine
So lets have a glass of wine
And have make up sex
Until the end of time (time, time, time)
Forgiveness does not mean compromising
Let's forgive and forget
And solve this African debt
Just like the Cheshire cat
That says, "mreow!! you're running out of time!"(time, time, time)

(guitar solo - instrumentals)

Forgiveness (You'll always be fat to me, Chris!)
Forgiveness (Goddammit, come on Dusty!)
Forgiveness (Not happy!!)
Forgiveness (Hello Joyce? Joyce?)

Oh my God!!

Then said, "Jesus.. Father forgive them for they know not what they do!"

If you haven't forgiven yourself something, how can you forgive others?
I won't apologize
I don't forgive you
You can forgive, but you can't forget

Where are you?
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[emphasis supplied]

Plus, the members of DuhPerm are in consensus that Chris Klein's character reminds us of someone we know. It's not in a negative kind of way [diba? diba?], don't blame us if we think alike. Ehem.

JAMIE SMILES
by Dusty

Intro

Bm A E

E|-------------------------------------------------------
B|--3-----3--------2-----2-----0-----0-----0-----0-------
G|--4-----4--------2-----2-----1-----1-----1-----1-------
D|-----4-----4--------2-----2-----2-----2-----------2----
A|--2--------------0--------------------------2----------
E|-----------------------------0-------------------------

Bm A E
E|-------------------------------------------------------
B|--3-----3--------2-----2h3-2--0-----------0------------
G|--4-----4--------2------------1------1h2-----1---------
D|-----4-----4--------2--2h4-2------2--------------------
A|--2--------------0-------------------------------------
E|------------------------------0------------------------


Verse

Bm A E
E|-------------------------------------------------------
B|--3-----3--------2-----2-----0-----0-----0-----0-------
G|--4-----4--------2-----2-----1-----1-----1-----1-------
D|-----4-----4--------2-----2-----2-----2-----------2----
A|--2--------------0--------------------------2----------
E|-----------------------------0-------------------------
When Jamie smiles it takes me miles

Bm A E A
E|-----------------------------------------------------------
B|--3-----3--------2-----2-----0----------0-----------------2
G|--4-----4--------2-----2-----1-----1h2-----2--1--------2---
D|-----4-----4--------2-----2--------------------------------
A|--2--------------0---------------2-------------------0-----
E|-----------------------------0-----------------------------
from where i feel unsure

Bm A C#/Dbm

E|----------------------------------------------0--2--5------
B|--3-----3--------2-----2-----5----5--------3---------------
G|--4-----4--------2-----2-----6----6------------------------
D|-----4-----4--------2-----2-----6----6--4------------------
A|--2--------------0-----------4-----------------------------
E|-----------------------------------------------------------
When Jamie smiles I realise

Chorus:

[A] [G]
She's no ordinary girl
[F#/Gbm]
Mmmmmmmmm
[D] [A]
No ordinary girl
[G] [F#/Gbm] [Dm]
Oohhhhh

Verse:

[Bm] [A] [E]
When Jamie smiles just for a while
[Bm] [A] [E]
I feel so far away
[Bm] [A] [C#/Dbm] [D*]
When Jamie smiles I realise

Chorus:

[A] [G]
She's no ordinary girl
[F#/Gbm]
Oohhh no
[D] [A]
No ordinary girl
[G] [F#/Gbm]
Oohhh no
[F] [G]
No ordinary girl
[A] [G] [F#/Gbm]
Noooo
[D] [A]
No ordinary girl
[G] [F#/Gbm] [Dm]
oooohhhhhh

Solo/Riff.... thing:
(Background plays verse)

E|-------0------0-----------0--------0-----0----0---0--------
B|----0--------0--0-------0--------0-------------------------
G|-4--------2---------2/4--------4------6-----7---6---4------
D|-----------------------------------------------------------
A|-----------------------------------------------------------
E|-----------------------------------------------------------

E|--------------------------0--------------------------------
B|-----------------------0-------5\3-3/7--5p3-5p3------------
G|-------------2----2/4---------------------------4p2h4------
D|-0-2-3/4---------------------------------------------------
A|-----------------------------------------------------------
E|-----------------------------------------------------------

Verse:
(Solo/Riff played along)
[Bm] [A] [E]
When Jamie smiles it takes me miles
[Bm] [A] [E]
From where I feel unsure
[Bm] [A] [C#/Dbm] [D*]
When Jamie smiles I realise

Chorus/Outro:

[A] [G]
She's no ordinary girl
[F#/Gbm]
Oohhh no
[F] [G]
No ordinary girl
[A] [G] [F#/Gbm]
Oohhh no
[F] [G]
No ordinary girl
[A] [G] [F#/Gbm]
Oohhh no
[F] [G]
No ordinary girl
[A] [G] [F#/Gbm]
Ooooooooooh
[F] [G]

(Repeat until the end, finish with a strum on [A])

Nakakatamad mag-upload.

Eh kasi nga... SUMMER!

so I went back to my old summer habit of going to the gym. Astig, nandun parin ang mga taong naiwan ko nang ako'y nagpaka-mongha bilang isang estudyante ng abogasya. Isang linggo na, pero sa tingin ko mahihirapan ako bawiin ang isang buong taon ko ng pagmamataba. Kamusta naman?

JLo: Anong nangyari sayo?
Ate Cya: Bakit ka lumaki ng ganyan?
Kuya Ton: Ok ka na dati e, bakit pinabayaan mo nanaman?
Gym buddy: Kasi, sumexy ka na un, mag-uumpisa ka nanama ulit ngayon.

Uhmm, guys yeah. alam ko. MATABA ako. SALAMAT.

Mom: [during dinner] Paano ka papayat nyan, kung kumakain ka parin?

Ah-eh, dapat ba tumitigil ng pagkain? Ano gagawin ko, iinom lang ng tubig? Ano ba ito!

Gym guy: [nang nakita akong nakaupo sandali] Kuya Ton o, nagpapahinga.
Euns: [dramatic] Tao lang ako no?! Ikaw kaya mag-exercise ng 3 oras na walang pahinga, tignan natin! [syemps, nagkakabiruan lang naman]

HABANG NAGKAKAKWENTUHAN ANG MGA GYM MATES

Another guy: Kaya nga pag-umiihi ako, mejo ganito na ako umihi. [flexing muscles] syempre mejo matagal un, mabuti nang mapansin ng iba na malaki na ang muscles ko.
Euns: Ah ok. [perv!]
Another guy: e ang mga babae kayang nagg-gym paano umiihi? Di ko alam e. [silence]
Euns: Obviously, di ko un sasagutin. No comment.

But the good thing is, I was able to reconnect with some people from my past. Some of my former schoolmates were also there. Ang saya, kumbaga parang highschool reunion. hehe.

At ito pa. Merong isang cutie sa gym. Oo isa lang syang PWEDE. But nooooooooo! He's gay. DI halata, pero according to Yvonne, he's gay. Euns, ISTAP!

Ssaya-saya talaga mag-gym.

Holy Week. Holy Weak. Holy Wicked.

Mom: So, saan tayo pupunta?
Eunice: Akala ko Zambales?
Mom: Saan doon?
Eunice: Uhmm, sa Rama International Beach Resort?
Mom: Napa-reserve mo na ba?
Eunice: Di pa nagrereply. [Checkin email]
Mom: Ma, wala na daw silang room na ready for occupancy.
Mom: Paano na?
Eunice: *shoulder shrug

Therefore, we ended up going to Batangas. That's after crossing out Caylabne Bay in Cavite [just went there], Subic [nakakasawa na!] and Pangasinan [ang layo! un Mercedes ang gagamitin, PAWIS STEERING]. We at first decided to go to La Luz because a lot of people have been raving about it [that's according to my Dad]. I had no idea what it looked like but since it's also in San Juan, Batangas, I was thinking .. "What could go wrong? I've been there last week right?" [See my Kabayan Beach Resort entry] I even researched on the net and the pictures looked maginificent. So let's go sago ang drama ng pamilya.

Are We There Yet?

Funny Overheard Comment:
Manong: Ang maganda dito [pertaining to La Luz]... madaming puno.
[with that ako-lang-ang-nakadiskubre-nitong-characteristic-na-ito-matagal-ko-ito-pinagisipan-look]

(my family immediately walked past the manong and began to laugh. Ah manong, maraming puno. Bakit po di tayo nagpunta na lamang sa gubat? Iyon na ang maganda dun? Maraming puno? Payn.)

After three hours, we finally arrived in La Luz. We were eager to finally be one with the beach, but nooooooooooooooooo. The beach was sooo crowded. This cannot be, my family's a peace-loving family... yeah, it's another way of saying that we're elitists. My mom, the numero unong allergic sa ibang tao, immediately had negative vibes. Pero sige, if they have great accommodations, we might still reconsider. (Un)fortunately, puno na rin, therefore... we left La Luz[er] faster than we could say, "Next please."

Dad: San ka ba nagpunta dito last week?
Eunice: (softly) Sa Kabayan po.
Dad: Ok ba dun?
Eunice: Ok naman. (galing sa ilong) Lord please, wag na po dun. Gusto ko po naman ng IBANG LUGAR. Sayang naman ang bakasyon.
Dad: Sige puntahan natin. Ok naman pala e.
Eunice: Maliit lang un.
Dad: Edi baka konti lang un tao.
Eunice: Sige po. Damn it.

So, we went to Kabayan Beach resort. There was no more Kubo that's free for occupancy. INSERT EVIL LAUGH HERE.

Then I remembered Kiko saying that Laiya Coco Grove is a way nicer beach resort. So I innocently told my parents, "Balita ko ok daw sa Laiya Coco Grove" without mentioning that it's also more expensive. INSERT YET ANOTHER EVIL LAUGH HERE. Since we were all fastly transforming into a bitchy beach-starved family, my dad went straight to Laiya Coco Grove.

Dad: Meron pa ba kayong free na room or cottage o kahit ano?
Receptionist: Sir booked na po kami hanggang Sunday e.
Dad: Sige na, Ibigay nyo na un Stoproom. [something to that effect, apparently it's a "technical term" used to name the "secret extra rooms" for possible VIP guests"]
Receptionist: Eh sir, wala na po e. Sandali lang po. [by this time, i knew my dad's dropping of this technical term worked! yihaa!] Sir, meron po kami pero un Pool-side cottage po.
Dad: Sige kahit ano pa yan.
Receptionist: Late check-in po.
Dad: Ok lang, i understand.
Receptionist: Sige po sir, pwede na po kayo mag-lunch ng twelve tapos check in na po kayo ng 1...

And so, our vacation started.

Dad: Anak, di namin nadala un isang camera. Diba may cam naman un MP4 player mo?
Eunice: Sige po kukunin ko mamaya sa bag ko.
Mom: Ngayon na... para habang maaga pa makapag-take na ng pics. Tapos mamaya, wala na tayo iintindihin. [Yeah, just when you thought im the only camwhore in my family]
Eunice: Sige po. Patay.
(after a few minutes)
Eunice: Ma, Dad.. wag kayo maghy-hysterical. (long pause) Nabasag ko un screen nun MP4 player ko. Pero ok pa naman sya, ipapagawa ko na lang.
[tumatawa na lang un Bro at Sis ko dahil matagal ko na sinabi sa kanila at they think i looked ridiculous while saying my "wag mag-hysterical" speech]

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Flashback while my Mom, Sister and I were shopping for our swimsuits. Kakalabas lang namin ng fitting room.

Hazel: Ate, baligtad un damit mo. (bulong)
Mom: Ay ano ba yan, baligtad. (Malakas)
Eunice: Oo na, di naman halata wag na kayo maingay.
Mom: (tawa, tingin sa Kahera kasi nasa Counter kami nun) Baligtad un damit.
Eunice: Ma?!
Mom: Jan ka na magpalit, baligtarin mo na lang, naka-tube ka naman sa loob e.(malakas)
Eunice: DI nila sana mahahalata kung di nyo nilalakasan! Hmmp. (with a resigned look)

FUN FUN FUN.

Laiya Coco Grove Getaway: A Preview

ahh, finally... i took a real vacation.


bumming around and well, *sand-slash-sunbathing.

while looking at a seemingly endless sea...

I CRUSH YOU!

I checked my long-time crush's friendster profile and VOILA! He's SINGLE again. Therefore, I'm thinking of stepping up. Because he's been dating skinny women, I have to wow him with my personality. Bwahaha. I need DIVINE INTERVENTION. Kadiri! I've been crushing on this guy since I was 17... that's almost 5 years. Kasi naman, kasi naman. He's now an engineer and he owns his own company... plus, he's incredibly cute in a more mature kind of way.

Which brings me to a thought which isnt in anyway related to what i've been talking about. Why would you call your parlor, "BE BEAUTIFUL FOR HIM"? Seriously? Why would you want to narrow your target market and be politically incorrect at the same time? Sabagay, catchy nga. Still!

THE HONGKONG CHRONICLES [SOURCE OF JOY CONVERSATION]

jersee_d_goddess : koks!
jnograles : halloo! thought you're in zambales
jersee_d_goddess : not yet.. tomorrow pa. jersee_d_goddess : at ikaw, nasan ka?
jnograles : just got back from hong kong. injured myself after some stupid antics hahahaha
jersee_d_goddess : haha, what exactly did u do?
jnograles : hmmmm i ran up the diagonal column up to the second storey of the hong kong museum of art... then i remembered that i couldn't fly so i landed on my knees and rolled towards the bay
jersee_d_goddess : ouch...
jnograles : more like moronic heehee
jersee_d_goddess : that had to come from you.. if i say moronic, it's like hittin two birds in one stone, me as the other bird [in a different setting]..
jnograles : hehehehehehe jnograles : i'll share some pics with you...
jersee_d_goddess : alrighty.

jnograles : first off, my breakfast... every tour package includes breakfast. of course, they don't explicitly state that breakfast is in your hotel. so they gave me breakfast stubs for a fastfood joint a kilometer away.
jersee_d_goddess : oook... and because you had to travel a km, you really had to take that picture.
jnograles : well, eating something that looks like a face must be memorable or nightmarish
jersee_d_goddess : haha.. true..

jnograles : i walk through the fringes of kowloon bay and find myself in the avenue of stars.and then i go sightseeing. i see a star with name that is very uhmmm i dunno how to say it... bastos. yes, bastos.
jnograles : pakshet daw pangalan niya
jersee_d_goddess : and i have to give it to you for "paying attention"

jnograles : anyway, i finally reached the mall and the first shop that greeted me made me feel a little uneasy. i swear, i fear for my kids in the future...
jersee_d_goddess : wow, this is so cool. it's like a private travel show.. morphine generation?

jnograles : moving on, i suddenly felt the call of nature so i asked where the restrooms were. of course there was a big pause due to language and communication gaps.finally i figured out that the policeman was trying to tell me that the restrooms were at the basement. so i took the stairs to the basement and this is what i found at the staircase.

jnograles : you like? wait till you see the toilet.
jersee_d_goddess: mirrors?

jnograles : and so that's my hong kong story worth telling hehehe
jersee_d_goddess : god, your vacation's so you...
jnograles : did you like?
jersee_d_goddess : LOVE IT!
jnograles : hahahaha. feel free to post it at your blog hahahahaa
jersee_d_goddess : that was what i was gonna ask you nga e...you know me too well..
jnograles : hahahaha love you too eunice
jersee_d_goddess : im just gonna post it the way you narrated it.. full credit sa'yo!
jnograles : bwahahahahahaha
jersee_d_goddess : ayan, dahil summer, kaw muna ang aking "source of joy".. kasi si Paopao ay MIA.
jnograles : hehehehehe i'm proud to be bestowed that honor. btw, wanna see the SARS version of my breakfast?
jersee_d_goddess : sure..

jnograles : here's a pic of me kicking ass


jnograles : gonna have dinner lang euns see ya in a bit
jersee_d_goddess : aight koks..
jersee_d_goddess : later!

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just like what I promised Koko,
i didnt edit anything and I posted the story, exactly the same way he narrated it.
LAUGHTRIP talaga!

Aww ang Sweet.

When I woke up around 11, [please dont even think that i wake up early in the morning, that's askin too much of me] I checked my email and found another READ ASAP Email from Mel.

Date:	Tue, 11 Apr 2006 00:36:14 +0100 (BST)
From:	"Melodie Ylagan"
Subject:	READ ASAP!
To:	jhersee33@yahoo.com, jersee_d_goddess@yahoo.com

Euns! Surprise visit tayo sa san pedro today! After
lunch! Magggym lang kami ni mums, tapos meet namin
kayo ni haze sa starbucks loft! Game ha? Call/text us
asap! Ü 09177956342

Send instant messages to your online friends
http://uk.messenger.yahoo.com

I immediately felt bad because I knew I couldnt come. I'm poor [i know, im politically incorrect] and I'm waiting for my mom to call because we're supposed to go shopping today. They even called me and Shem did a great job in almost convincing me to come. Kaya lang, DUTY CALLS and well, i've been sort of neglecting my being a daughter for the past months, therefore... I had to decline their really enticing offer to fetch me sa bahay.

Pag-uusapan daw ang kasal ni Dorts. Another occasion that I am totally looking forward to.We had a preview of how "extravagant" the wedding will be when Dorts one day came to class wearing her DIAMOND RING. Yeah, engagement ring's worth more than 500,000 pesos. Whoa! We wouldnt miss the wedding for the world. Striclty formal, I LIKE! And uhmm, although I don't like the feeling of being in a picture perfect wedding because it reminds me of how empty my lovelife is, well, Dorts is a newfound friend and her special day is worth the hassle. No not really a hassle, not close even. It's an excuse to be gorgeous.

Learned how to play Bamboo's Masaya, Barbie's High, Your Song by Parokya... I'm enjoying this new skill that I'm trying to cradle ha! If ever I get kicked out of law school, (God forbid!) I can continue my disrupted dream of becoming a celebrity through Pinoy Big Brother. Hahaha..

Disclaimer: When I say I know how to play, it just means that I know the chords and well, i can actually "attempt" to play them with occasional stopping and getting lost." But what the heck! At least...

Life is a continuous process...

of learning new things.

And for this SUMMER..

i'm learning how to play the guitar...

FINALLY. After many years of sayin, "It's not for me." I am trying it out. And after two days, I can now play.... NARDA and Crazy For You. Not to mention that I now can strum (sort of) and I now know a few chords [A, Bm, C, D, E, Fm, G] Woohoo!

Medyo kasi my sister had to stop me when I was seriously contemplating on reading a non-law school related book. So she volunteered to teach me. Since magaling silang dalawa ng brother ko, i told myself.. "Why not?"

Plus, it's sort of a "bonding opportunity" for all of us. Since both of 'em are passionate about music, we are now enjoyin' each other's company.

Pero teka lang! I'm gonna be going to the beach again this thursday until sunday. My family's going to uhmm, Zambales i think. Woohoo, dagat, magkikita nanaman tayo!

This picture makes me wanna go to Rockwell and eat a Caramel Merengue!

Lovely Free Fall

Horoscope for Monday: (Taurus)

Getting past your own self-consciousness is key if you want to be able to move forward. What's the point in worrying about what others think of you? You need to live your own life, not the life others think you should lead.

Try to arrange to meet someone for a show or somewhere music is played prominently. You are due for a positive coincidence involving a tune or lyrics that could send you into a lovely free fall.

Lovely free fall. It's amazing how things can sound scientific and sooo vague at the same time.

Ang Cute.

This morning, my dad approached me to ask a really cute favor. He wants me to send an email to his long-lost friend whom he got reconnected to through SMS. This friend of my Dad's is now in Canada and is pursuing his studies on Quality Management in British Columbia Institute of Technology www.bcit.ca . I just think it's so cute that my dad actually sat beside me while i was typing his "email" to his friend. The usual technostressed dad that he is was eager to learn more about the cyberspace. Talk about breaking the "barrier" between us.

Isang problema lang, if my dad discovers how amazing it is to be online, he's gonna be another competitor to my internet usage... oh well. The price i have to pay to trying to give a solution in my own little way to the "GREAT DIVIDE". haha.

Drowning

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image from Postsecret

but this time, there are no lifeguards... i ain't in the mood for surfin' and i don't know if i still have the will to keep on strugglin' to survive.

Post Finals Shindig at Anton's

copied from Pi's BLOG

You lost that lovin' feeling,
*how could you???*
Whoa, that lovin' feeling,
*damn you!!!*
You've lost that lovin' feeling,
Now it's gone...gone...gone... wooo ooh.
*burst to tears*

newest rendition from Kiboy, Kay, Yuns, Kat, TJ and Noli-boy's promising singing career! haha. you have to feel the song eh. alrightie, Yves, lets drink to that! d:
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at syemps sino ang makaklimot sa pagkanta ng "Man in the Mirror", "Bawal na Gamot" at "Uptown Girl"

Pagod na pagod si Roca, Kat at Noli kakasayaw!
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Funny Conversation:

("di sinasadyang" nabuksan ni Nalin ang washroom, habang nasa loob si JV... tawa ang lahat)

Nalin: Wala akong nakita.
Euns: Nols, wala daw syang nakita. Diba mas malala un? Ganun ba kaliit at walang nakita?
Noli: (hysterical na pagtawa)
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Salamat sa aking mga drinking buddies na si Kiboy at Lew.
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(habang nawawala kami sa paghahanap sa bahay ni Anton)
Ces: Guys, baligtarin na kaya natin ang damit natin?
Euns: (naisip ang pagbabaligtad ng bra, un nasa likod un umbok)

Yipee.

Ana's leaving for Tacloban tomorrow morning. And she went shopping the whole day. Sosyal. Marami syang pinamiling Havaianas. Haciendera talaga!

I bumped into a good friend o'mine from UP, Arlo. We got to chat for a few minutes, did some catching up and well, t'was nice to reconnect with him.

Dahil summer, bumaha sa Starbucks. ANg labo. To mark our last day as freshies and our last visit sa Starbs, kelangan talaga masira un mga tubo nila at bumaha.

Ok talaga si Ate Pearl, Ana got her Transcript re-evaluated and well, it turned out na lumagpas pa sya sa 18 units of English na required. Yehey, di na kelangan mag-summer.

Mejo nalulungkot na ko because people started to talk about their plans if ever they had to leave Ateneo. Sobrang in denial pa ko e. Di ko nga alam kung makakayanan ko if i have to go. Pero sige, Lord. LABAN.

Haha, si Ana stalker material. Alam ang plate number ni Nicco. hehe.

Question of the day: What will happen to the world kung ang ating reproductive organ ay nasa kamay natin?

Laughtrip talaga. Think of people becoming so appreciative kasi nga, clapping will be literally orgasmic.

Pano kung mag-aappear na un mga tao?

To be continued...

It's Weird.

I'm in the library, waiting for my friends who just watched a flick in Market Market. I dont know, but i think im not used to not doing anything anymore. I was watching Kiko type his paper and instead of relaxing, i found myself reading Fr. B's new Primer. I had to stop myself because well, i vowed to relax after i finish the freaggin' paper.

How do you explain to people that you know that you've changed and that whether they like it or not, they would have to deal with the real you? I bumped into a highschool friend on my way to Ateneo and well, she hasn't changed a bit. I mean, i dont see anything wrong with that, but it just made me realize how much i've changed through the years. Whether it's intentional or not, I am not the Eunice that I was years ago, heck im not the Eunice that I was even a year ago.

My sister said, "Nasan na un Eunice na kilala ko dati?" That's after I slipped into my pants and shirt. She's kind of vocal about the fact that she admired my guts with regard to my fashion sense. It's sorta hard for me to tell her, that I kind of lost that passion for fashion. I just wake up everyday, not event thinkin of what i'll wear anymore, not because i dont want to look beautiful but because I dont have time. Or maybe because I feel guilty. It's like I get reminded of the "more important" things that i feel guilty when i begin to be vain again.

This got me into thinkin of that episode in Sex and the City where Carrie was pissed because her married friend was accusing her of being shallow just because she refused to let go of the issue of her shoes being stolen in her friend's apartment. I mean, who are we to judge what is shallow or what is profound? That is something i have to remind myself again. If looking good makes me happy, i have to start looking good again.

Oh well. That's why I'm wearin my white mini skirt and my spags today. Because I want the old me to be with the new, mature me. I'm smiling. I have a new shoulder bag. Yes, fortunately, THAT MAKES ME HAPPY.

what effect do i have on people?

	Li\'l Miss Eunice Pills: Will cause a decrease of violent urges
	'What effect do you have on people?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Kabayan GD!

Dahil ehem, wala pang nagu-upload ng Batangas pics... gagamitin ko na lang muna ang mga pics sa Kabayan Resort Website...

Naalala ko lang bigla. Kasi when DuhPerm went to Batangas last Tuesday, we found ourselves using the term, "GD" courtesy of Mel. Ano ang GD? Group dynamics... kaya naman lahat ng pang-aasar ay nagpakita ng aming unity. Haha... Therefore, i need to say that these lifeguards made Ana take off her clothes. Hehe, JUST KIDDIN.

The trip started sa law school. We decided to meet up with Shem at Petron [expressway]... ate our breakfast at Mc Donald's and waited for Shem... she arrived in her "SPAGS AND SHORTS", naks, beach na beach na. Just when we thought we'd be ready to go, someone stupidly parked her car right behind Shem's car so she couldnt leave. Therefore, we just told Shem and Haze to meet up with us at the toll gate.

We watched Fearless, listened to Pepe's CD i.e. all intro, and listened to Ces' songs in her iPod. At dahil nga Pepe has a "Need for speed" he just had to make his car run 180 km/hr. Opo, 180 km/hr. Ayun, kinabahan sya nang napansing we were being tailed by a policeman. Haha. Gaya nga ng sinabi nya, "Ayoko na."

LOGIC!

Melo's Text: THen turn right sa Mercury Drug ...... tapos STRAIGHT STRAIGHT....
Euns and Pepe: Siguro malayo un, kasi kung straight normal lang.. pero pag STRAIGHT STRAIGHT, ibig sabihin mejo matagal bago makapunta no?

Usapang Lasing:

Kung hayop ka anong hayop ka?

Pepe: Dog! Gusto ko kasi ng chowchow... kaya nga nun highschool kami, tawag sakin Winnie the Pooh.
(Ano raw? syemps laughtrip na! pagkatapos nya sabihin un diba?)

We drank beer, GinPom at Bailey's. Sosyal. Kaya ayun, ngarag lahat.

All 10 of us slept in the same room at isa lang ang masasabi ko, we can't live together. May mga nangingiliti sa paa, may mga nag-iingay ng sobra at higit sa lahat, maraming matatakutin. Bawal tuloy ang ghost stories.

Twice nag-brownout. What are the chances diba? Buti naman may generator.

Pero we loved the beach, although mejo shallow sya hanggang malayo, astig parin.

AWARDS:

Best Bikini at impake kung impake: Carmi [kahit she didnt "take it off" sya parin ang Ms.Swimsuit at kahit saan may dala paring blowdryer]
Best in GD: Melo [syemps sya ang unfortunate na nagbanggit ng word, kaya naasar sya tuloy]
Best Video: Kiboy [dahil mahilig sya mag-solo habang nagd-drama sa dagat]
Best Barista: Ces [dahil sa kanyang GinPom]
Love Team of the Year: Becky and Kiko - need i say more? although meron pumapangalawa ha.. secret na lang kung sino. haha
Best Mac n Cheese: Yvie and JV. Basta.
Anak ng Dagat: Ana [kay galing lumangoy]
Ms. Shorts ka pa Shorts: Mumiel

We went home early 'coz we volunteered to man the OrSem booth. I bumped into my good friend Gino and found out that he's enrolling. Great. Then i read Lili Mae's name sa list, im happy that there are people whom i know na i'll be seeing next sem.
Sobrang saya ko guys. Astig.

Thanks Roca!

this is a means to pressure those who still havent uploaded the pictures they took...

AFTER FINALS GET TOGETHER @ ANTON'S

itigil ang lahat ng ginagawa.. pichur muna!

uhmm, bakit parang tinatawag na kami ni Patty ng Hell?

Euns w/ Mr. Consti 99 David and heartthrob Kiboy...

There's something wrong w/ this picture, bakit parang ang laswa ko?

characteristic of a good picture... "positioning"

But Then Again...

I can't think of a single reason why I should be a surgeon, but I can think of a thousand reasons why I should quit. They make it hard on purpose... there are lives in our hands. There comes a moment when it's more than just a game, and you either take that step forward or turn around and walk away. I could quit but here's the thing, I love the playing field.

-- Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy

I love the playing field still. I just think that the playing field is not really about playing anymore.

FINALS WEEK is over. I can't find it in my heart to say "Finally!" after that grueling study marathon i had to pull off. Just like what Fr. B said in one of his exams in the past, "May God have mercy on our souls...". I feel better now than a sem ago, i dont know if i perfomed better but I am pretty positive that I exerted more effort this sem. It's really bittersweet because whether we like it or not, on May 3... things are gonna change.

But in the mean time, i have to say that i thank God for 1-C and I thank God that He gave me the chance to be with really beautiful people. Drama na kung drama pero that After Finals thing @ Anton's and our overnight thingie in Batangas reminded me of why I did my best this sem... I want to spend more time with these great people. There were people whom I only got to really interact with and became close with a few weeks ago and this made me want to stay more. It's all up to God now. I'm praying hard... hope it's hard enough.

Ito na Yun Eh...

Senti mode... Guys, kumpleto tayo dito. Ang cast ng Kapiling sa Palasyo, ang mga taong kasama ko ng isang taon sa law school. Mga taong baliw pero seryoso. Masaya pero iyakin. Basta, mahal ko kayo.

Pay Your Utang Na!

Pamilya Santos: Jeffrey, Dudee and Jimmy.


Sinong matatawa kung trash bag ang damit mo?

Pics from our Legal Writing Presentation...
PAY YOUR UTANG NA! (COLLECTION CASE)

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images from TJ Roca

Ayon sa mga Bituin..

Dear Eunice,
Here is your horoscope
for Saturday, April 1:

Take your head and your heart into account if you're faced with an important decision. You need both rationality and emotion to come into play if you're to make the right choice. Trust yourself. You can do it.

It's a good time to be you -- and an even better time to be with you. Try to make sure that someone gets to enjoy that privilege tonight, and indulge in something a little extra decadent.

NUT So Fast!

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

HUMAN WARMTH NEEDED...

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images from POST SECRET

HIGH FIVE! [Kwentong Katatawanan]

Mabuti na lang talaga at i got to talk to one of my closest guy friends, JC. I was whining about how ugly I am and how i feel that i'm totally unattractive... but what he said made me feel a lot better.

"kaw pa rin ang pinakamagandang, matalinong taong nakausap at nakilala ko..."

THanks a lot dear. You're a blessing.



FUNNY Conversation:
Jason : have you gotten a copy of the Peyups.com Compilation book?
jersee_d_goddess : nope not yet.. there is one? where can i get it?
Jason : paubos na
jersee_d_goddess : argh..
Jason Laxamana : the last copies are found sa Powerbooks
jersee_d_goddess : how much?
Jason Laxamana: i think 3 na lang yata
Jason Laxamana : P400
jersee_d_goddess : whaaaaaaaaat? paubos na? eeeeeekk..
Jason Laxamana : colored and with illustrations
jersee_d_goddess : talaga..
jersee_d_goddess ): cool.. how many articles are included?, Top 20 Most Commented
jersee_d_goddess : cool, cool..
Jason Laxamana: And then, mga top 8 ng bawat categories except reviews and news plus pictures ng mga EBs
jersee_d_goddess : ahhh.. ive never been to one. so im assumin i dont have pics of myself there.
Jason Laxamana : are you going to get your copy?
jersee_d_goddess : i want to. maybe this sunday, why?
Jason Laxamana : huwag na
jersee_d_goddess : bakit?
Jason Laxamana : kasi April Fools day na ngayon
jersee_d_goddess : holy shit.
jersee_d_goddess : so t'was all bull? naman e.
Jason Laxamana: yup. though it's one of my fantasies na may book na ganun
jersee_d_goddess : salamat ha.

Ngiting Hanggang Tenga Moment:

(Yosi Break with Ces... May lumapit na guy)

Guy: Can i borrow your lighter?
Euns: Sure...
Guy: Bar-passers?
Euns at Ces nagkatinginan...
Euns: Nope we're still in law school...

Yihee, mukhang bar-passers. haha.

PEP TALK
nalin: ive seen your effort... you're working really hard this sem , kudos to u.

Ces: Magkikita pa tayo next sem diba?
Euns: OO NAMAN!

Hindi Ito Oras...

para ma-depress dahil alam kong mababa ang magiging resulta ng aking Logic exam. Badtrip. Sabi ko na nga ba di ako magaling pag may mga cheat sheet e. Di ako nagmamagaling, nadi-distract lang talaga ako pag may cheat sheet, open notes at kung anu-ano pang parang ganun din.

I wish masasabi ko na "Consti NA LANG..." but nooooo! ang mas appropriate ay.. "CONSTI PA!"

Walang bibitaw 1-C... aayusin pa natin ang OrSem this June. =)

May nakakatawa pala akong karanasan.. well, we have a sort of test permit na pinapapirmahan namin sa proctor... It turned out that what I gave the proctor was my "Admission card"... Ang nakakatawa dun, di man lang ako sinita ng proctor.. at, pumirma pa sya dun! Laughtrip. Pareho yata kami sabog.

O sya. Gotta sleep.