Panahon na para makaganti ako sa kanya. Dahil maraming beses nya kami ininjan, ito ang araw na sinabi kong... "AKO NAMAN!" [In re: Legal Writing Absence]
I overslept today but it's a normal thing for me. What's abnormal about my sleep was my dream. I dreamt of the Ateneo Law Library. Nakakadiri. We were all barefoot, some were studying, some were just passing by. They were all familiar faces. Pero di un ang catch. Di ko babanggitin ang pangalan nya dahil napaka-incriminating for me pero alam kong kilala sya ng DuhPerm. Ang aking Lawschool DYOWA ay nandun sa dream at pinagtapat nya na meron syang HD sakin. Nakakatawa kasi sinampal ko yata sya pagkasabi nya at sinabi kong, "Gago ka ba?" Tapos natapos ang dream ko na naghahabulan kami mala-sitcom. San ka pa diba? Whatta way to start my day. Di ko kinwento kanina kasi nandidiri parin ako pag naaalala ko. Haha.
Alam kong inexpect na ito ni Ana kaya gagawin ko parin. Ang masasabi ko lang ay SILENCIO DE GALAW si Ana today. She got to talk to Mr. Beda Law who turned out to be from Tacloban also. I think she's freaked out of the fact that he knows her full name.. Well, I say... KAYOD MARINO! haha. Lagot ka kay Mia. =P I saw his friendster account na and he's single. PWEDE!
Si Kay naman ay pinagdiskitahan namin ni Kiboi kanina. 5th degree of consanguinity? Pwede! Kay, mag-isip isip ka. Haha.
Bagong gupit si Pepay. Dapat talaga nagpakalbo na lang sya para kamukha nya si Mr. Clean. Astig kaya un.
Natutuwa akong malaman na na-miss ako ng mga tao. Nalulungkot akong malaman na sa Tuesday na un report sa Logic. Ngii.
Lastly, gusto ko magpasalamat kay Hazel at Shem sa kanilang PRANK kanina. When I asked them if i got called to recite sa Legal Writing, they both replied to me in the affirmative. Na-devas naman ako dahil isang pagkakataon ka lang makakapagrecite sa Legal Writing. Tinry ko na i-compute ang grade ko sa kanya at natanggap ko na. Pero nang sinabi ni Hazel na, "Ok lang yan, kalimutan mo na un." THat gave her away. Alam kong di nya un sasabihin. Therefore, isa lang syang malaking JOKE. Whatta relief!
Buti naman at natapos ko na ang Section 9 ng Consti at Ang OBLICON na hanggang NOVATION. Ibig sabihin, pwede ako magliwaliw with my family later. Im so excited for my sister, Prom na nya sa Feb. 18 at magsho-shopping kami today for her prom dress at shoes. Ipapa-sched ko na rin sya for her hair and make-up appointment. Teary-eyed na ako nyan, malaki na sya. Dalaga na ang bunso namin, hehe. Naglulumandi na nga e, may lovelife. Can I just say na ang dalawa kong kapatid ay may LOVELIFE? Argh. Sickening kasi ako ang WALA. Kamusta naman.
Magpapagawa na rin pala ako ng glasses sa wakas. At un Laptop ko, sa tingin ko ay coming soon na. In re: Driving, konti na lang makakatiyempo na ko ulit para hiritan sila na magd-drive na ko. Hello my Baby Benz, we shall be one again. Pag ok un Logic at Oblicon, let's get it on na ulit!
SHIT ALWAYS HAPPENS.
There are times when everything you thought and believed in will altogether fall as a mockery of how hard you tried to make the most out of your life. Sometimes, the effort that you exert is just not proportional to the good things that come your way. I dont know if the best is yet to come or if "THE WORST" is waiting to catch "THE BEST" offguard and further dishearten me.
"Ano pa ba ang kulang? Minsan naiisip ko na bobo nga yata ako. Pumasok ako sa classroom na akala ko handa na ko, lumabas akong naniniwala parin. "
Only to be disproved by the unexpected result of the things i prepared for. Failure is a very good way to make you aware that you are not perfect. But if it happens as often or even more often than the times that you feel triumphant, though you refuse to, you start to get the hang of it.
"Shit happens."But the thing is, the cliche doesnt have the word ALWAYS in it. If Shit ALWAYS HAPPENS then it's just plain crappy. If SHIT continues to throw itself to my face then I might start to believe that it's all there is to my journey.
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- written that fateful day that we got our Consti Midterms result in Starbucks Loft
- image from POST SECRET
You just feel.
To be lost in translation is like testing how at ease you are with being with yourself. It's like trying to make a conversation that brings out issues you'd rather not face. All of a sudden, you become aware of every sensation that creates positive and negative effects. If in that particular moment, you realize that you enjoy conversing with the tiny persons that are within you, only then will you be sure that you love the single YOU that emerged amidst all the other YOUs that could've been. That's when you would have accepted the truth that YOU DON'T CARE ANYMORE. You just feel.------------
written by the soloista me last night at Starbucks Loft after reading Section 9 of the Consti Case Book
image from POST SECRET
image from POST SECRET
Rantings
I didn’t go to class today not only because of my hyperacidity attack but more importantly because I didn’t feel like it. The Consti Exam result was devastating. I am not being a selfish brat because I know that some people are in worse positions but I know I couldn’t be blamed for feeling bad. I entered the classroom that day thinking that for the first time in ages, I am confident. I went out of the room still feeling that way. But yesterday, I had to be once again humiliated.
- You are needed here, we need you to give us strength as much as we want to be strong for you.
- We believe in your capabilities and no bad grade nor recit will change that.
- When we graduate, it will be way better to look back with you, laughing all the bad memories off because someway, somehow… WE MADE IT.
- You need to finish what you started. It’s one thing to fail trying than to just turn your back on it and shrug your shoulders.
Tadhana
Di madamot ang tadhana... mapaglaro lang at palabiro. Isang malaking biro nga yata ang buhay ko, di tulad ng maraming mga jokes, di natatapos ang pagtawa sa "Knock, knock" o sa "Sirit na!". Tuloy-tuloy lang ang halakhak. Kahit takpan ko ang aking mga tenga, patuloy parin itong nag-iingay sa aking isipan. Minsan sinubukan kong kantahin na lang, minsan naman dinadaan na lang sa costume... pero sa paulit-ulit na pagtawa ng tadhanang hindi alam kung kelan dapat tumigil, gusto ko na sana magtago na lang sa backstage hanggang sa matapos ang palabas. Sa buhay ko kasi, walang FIRE EXIT ang entablado pero may washroom na mahaba ang pila.
Di ko kelangan ng mga palakpak ng mga taong di ko naman inimbitahan. Yang si gagong tadhana kasi kung sino-sino ang binibigyan ng tiket. Wala akong problema sa mga kritiko, sila ang may problema sakin. Nung kinuha ko na manager ang tadhana, di ko alam na masyado pala sya mapagbigay. Nagmamarunong at nagpapaka-spontaneous. Putang ina. Tigilan mo na ang paglalaro at pagbibiro! Ayoko nang maging star ng sitcom... Success story naman sana kung pwede.
Di naman madamot ang tadhana. Gago lang at manggagantso.
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images from POST SECRET.
STRESS RELIEVER
Who's Your Music Match?
Eunice, your music match is a Smooth Soul Singer
Maybe you're a romantic who's got a way with words. Maybe you're just more expressive than other folks. Whatever it is, one thing's for sure — you've got soul. And that's what makes you a smooth and sexy siren. Now that's hot!
Which Theme Party Are You?
Eunice, you're a Hollywood Bash
Ever get called a classic? We bet you have. You've got a great sense of style, and we bet you always know what looks good on you. You probably like the finer things in life and don't mind paying a little extra to get exactly what you want. And that's why a fancy and fabulous Hollywood bash would be an award-winning event. Cheers to that! What Kind of Party Legend Are You?
Eunice, you're a legend for your parties with a Funny flair
Knock knock, who's there? All your hysterical friends! Sides split when you host a party because these guys can be real jokers. In fact, it's all this fun-filled humor that makes you such a party legend!
To let the good times roll, you're probably not too shy about pulling out a board game or sparking up a round of charades. Did someone mention costumes, theme parties, or wigs? Sorry, that might have been your last party.
No doubt, the ice breaks quickly when you're in charge. And that's a good thing. It's great to get people mingling and making new friends. True to form, you don't sweat the small stuff. How can you fret over feet on the coffee table when someone's doing a spot-on celebrity impression?
But hey, if the gang's more into the football game than the Life game, it might be better to switch on the set. At least until halftime. This takes some of the pressure off, and who can be bored when the score's tied in the big event?
To let the good times roll, you're probably not too shy about pulling out a board game or sparking up a round of charades. Did someone mention costumes, theme parties, or wigs? Sorry, that might have been your last party.
No doubt, the ice breaks quickly when you're in charge. And that's a good thing. It's great to get people mingling and making new friends. True to form, you don't sweat the small stuff. How can you fret over feet on the coffee table when someone's doing a spot-on celebrity impression?
But hey, if the gang's more into the football game than the Life game, it might be better to switch on the set. At least until halftime. This takes some of the pressure off, and who can be bored when the score's tied in the big event?
What's Your Shopping Style?
Eunice, you're a Betty!
Ka-ching, Ka-ching! We'd be willing to bet the cash register that you're a deal-huntin', discount-lovin' shopper — a true Bargain Betty. You have a real nose for value, and you know the location of every outlet mall in your tri-state area. Let's put it this way — we wouldn't want to get in your way when you're elbowing toward the sale racks. Of course, that doesn't mean you sacrifice quality just to save a few bucks. On the contrary — you're willing to spring for the good stuff when it's worth it; after all, it's a better deal in the long run, since you won't have to replace it as often. Plain and simple, you're a smart shopper, and that's a great thing to be. Happy shopping!What Tickles You Pink?
Eunice, Great Adventures tickle you pink
Your sense of adventure makes you a little unpredictable, but you can also be the go-to gal when people need a break from the ordinary. You make everything special. Always on the lookout for the next best thing, you're even happier if you're the first to try it. Keep it up, wild thing.
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OK NAMAN AKO
I can officially say that I'm feeling way better now than a few months ago. My first Midterms in lawschool was waaaaaaay waaaaaaaaay worse than my Midterms this sem. Unlike my my "first time", I am now more relaxed and more confident with my answers. I guess just like anything that one has to learn, the most difficult part is to actually get started and remain interested.
I feel bad that another one of my blockmates decided to leave. To Miss JustMyIdiosyncrasies, I hope I get to talk to you one of these days because I only found out that you are quitting yesterday. I really hate goodbyes. But even if lawschool's not for you, I know you'll find what will make you feel fulfilled and contented. You're a wonderful girl... I will miss your calling everyone "Ganda" or "Sexy". =( We sill find our "human warmth" soon girl, di nga lang sa Cuddles. =P
Last night, Pepe gave Kay and I a lift home. Just when we were nearing the place where he'll drop me off, there's this white two-door Honda Civic that was in front of us. At first, I didnt think that Pepe noticed how slow the car was going so I just didnt comment on it. But ater sometime, di na rin natiis ni Pepe and he said... "Driver yata ng punerarya 'to e." and that got me into a laughing fest. I was laughing the whole time because Pepe's delivery of the line was flawless. I swear it still cracks me up just trying to remember.
I'm getting my hair curled again this Tuesday. Hmm... It's called the DigiPerm and I'm getting it for free, thanks to Melo and Ceia. My "curling buddy" will be Yvie and we'll be going to class as the "Braidy bunch" haha. I dread that day when we have to arrive at the same time sporting the same curls. That is soooo Paris and Nicole. That's hot. Hehe.
I feel bad that another one of my blockmates decided to leave. To Miss JustMyIdiosyncrasies, I hope I get to talk to you one of these days because I only found out that you are quitting yesterday. I really hate goodbyes. But even if lawschool's not for you, I know you'll find what will make you feel fulfilled and contented. You're a wonderful girl... I will miss your calling everyone "Ganda" or "Sexy". =( We sill find our "human warmth" soon girl, di nga lang sa Cuddles. =P
Last night, Pepe gave Kay and I a lift home. Just when we were nearing the place where he'll drop me off, there's this white two-door Honda Civic that was in front of us. At first, I didnt think that Pepe noticed how slow the car was going so I just didnt comment on it. But ater sometime, di na rin natiis ni Pepe and he said... "Driver yata ng punerarya 'to e." and that got me into a laughing fest. I was laughing the whole time because Pepe's delivery of the line was flawless. I swear it still cracks me up just trying to remember.
I'm getting my hair curled again this Tuesday. Hmm... It's called the DigiPerm and I'm getting it for free, thanks to Melo and Ceia. My "curling buddy" will be Yvie and we'll be going to class as the "Braidy bunch" haha. I dread that day when we have to arrive at the same time sporting the same curls. That is soooo Paris and Nicole. That's hot. Hehe.
EMODE MODE
Which Queer Eye Is Right for You?
Eunice, you need a date with Jai
Ever seen Jai get to the root of the problem with a question or two? Then solve it with a meaningful gesture or purchase? Creative and curious, you've got the same sort of ease and grace with people — you like figuring out what makes them tick, and you can offer a helping hand without seeming intrusive or showy. Just be sure to bring the tissues.
Who's Your Red Carpet Match?
Eunice, your red carpet match is Debra Messing
You know what it takes to show off your assets, and you always know how to dress for every occasion. Trustworthy and self-assured, it's going to take more than hordes of paparazzi and a red carpet to make you sweat. That's hot!
Which "Friend" Are You?
Eunice, you've got a little bit of Phoebe going on!
With an utterly free spirit like yours, some people see you as flaky. But creative, perceptive-as-heck, and eerily wise is more like it. You see the good in everyone, which could make your dating life a bit, well, uneven. But you always land on your feet with your humor, kindness, (and who-knows-what-from-beyond) as your guide.
Eunice, you're a Fish!
Bring on the next shindig — you're raring to go! As a Fish, you're the queen of the party animals, and you always make a big splash. Your fun-loving, easy-going personality makes you a natural at social gatherings. Without a doubt, you're the first to make a toast when they're handing out cold, frosty ones. Heck, if it's liquid, you're always willing to dive right in. Your stamina gives the guys a run for their money, and they love you for it — you're everyone's favorite party buddy. You may occasionally regret your festive nature the next day, but don't worry about it too much. As long as you're having fun, live it up!What's Your Bridget Jones Moment?
Eunice, your Bridget Jones moment is Dressing for the Wrong Occasion
Fashion, while fun, isn't the most important thing in the world to you. After all, you're much more than your clothes. You've got a sparkling personality, and you don't really care too much about what other people think. So keep up the good work. No matter what you're wearing, you're sure to brighten up any occasion!
What's Your Driving Fantasy?
Eunice, your driving fantasy is The Autobahn You've got a need — a need for speed. For you, road trips are more than a way to get from here to there. Driving, like those who've traveled Germany's famed no speed limit roadway know, is a way to test the road and engage in your surroundings. You appreciate the finer points of driving — like the curve of the road, the performance of the car, and all the nuances of true skill behind the wheel. You're a driver's driver, so when it comes to dream destinations all you need is a great car and road cool enough to test your reflexes and escape your daily hassles.
But once you arrive at your dream destination, you're sure to embrace it like you embrace the road — wholeheartedly with a sense of adventure and panache. Some say getting there is half the fun. And you agree, so long as you get there in record time and record style.
Eunice, you're most like Sex and The City As they kvetch about their love lives over brunch or Cosmos, the ladies in Carrie's clique share plenty of clever conversation and laughs. Whether or not you've got Manolo Blahniks lining your closet and call the Big Apple home, you've got a sophisticated sense of humor. With your savvy and quick wit, you're sure to shine when it comes to trading witty repartee with other smart cookies. And while bathroom humor may not be your thing, that doesn't mean you're a prude. Like the Sex and the City girls, you're not afraid to dish about silly and even, taboo topics (remember The Rabbit?), but you always handle yourself and your jokes with class. We're sure even Charlotte would approve!
Which Shoe Fits You?
Eunice, today you should slip into a pair of Practical Pumps!
Eunice, your OC crush is Seth
Sensible and responsible, you've got a good head on your shoulders, and you use it. Maybe you've been called wise for your years. Many famous folks were ahead of their times in high school, and you'll probably be one of them. So keep doing things in your own unique style. You're well on your way to great things. And it might be even better if you have an equally-awesome crush to have fun with along the way!
Dadaanin Ko na Lang sa Kanta...
My friends have the habit of dedicating songs for me these past few days.. here are some of 'em..
Unang Araw
by Sugarfree
(Anna Mitz)
Sadya ba talagang ganyan
Palakad-lakad ka't nakatungo
Sa'n patungo?
Ngayong wala ka na
Kailangang masanay na muling nag-iisa
Sa'n ka na kaya?
'Wag mo akong sisihin
Kung minsan ikay hanapin/kung minsan akong iyakin
Ito ang unang araw na wala ka na
Ito ang unang araw na wala ka na
Nasanay lang sigurong nand'yan ka
'Di ko inakalang pwede kang mawala
'Yan na nga
Nababato, nalulungkot
Luha'y napapawi ng singhot
At talukbong ng kumot
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Fix You
by Cold Play
(Anna Mitz)
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I..
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from the mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I..
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.
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I Love You, Goodbye
by Celine Dion
(PEPE)
Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
I hope someday you can Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you
Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Baby, its never gonna work out
I love you, goodbye
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by Sugarfree
(Anna Mitz)
Sadya ba talagang ganyan
Palakad-lakad ka't nakatungo
Sa'n patungo?
Ngayong wala ka na
Kailangang masanay na muling nag-iisa
Sa'n ka na kaya?
'Wag mo akong sisihin
Kung minsan ikay hanapin/kung minsan akong iyakin
Ito ang unang araw na wala ka na
Ito ang unang araw na wala ka na
Nasanay lang sigurong nand'yan ka
'Di ko inakalang pwede kang mawala
'Yan na nga
Nababato, nalulungkot
Luha'y napapawi ng singhot
At talukbong ng kumot
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Fix You
by Cold Play
(Anna Mitz)
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I..
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from the mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I..
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.
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I Love You, Goodbye
by Celine Dion
(PEPE)
Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
I hope someday you can Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you
Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Baby, its never gonna work out
I love you, goodbye
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NEW NEWS.
1. When I went home last night, I panicked when I saw quite a number of armed men [aggravating circumstance!] in San Joaquin. They were exactly where I usually take the trike on my way to my house. It turned out that it's a part of this whole "security" thing to find 4 of those Oakwood mutineers who escaped from Fort Bonifacio the night before. I didnt even have the slightest idea 4 of them managed to escape. It made me realize how unaware I am of what's happening outside law school. CHECKPOINT. Nakaka-panic, I really thought there was a dangerous event on the verge of happening and that my life was in danger. I should stop drinking Cafe Americano venti, I'm beginning to be really jumpy.
2. Japhet made an "apparition" last night. He just appeared right before my now "unclear eyes". We spent the night chatting. That's time away my Consti readings. Argh. Mali ito.
3. Japhet and I bumped into Kai [blockmate] with her boyfriend Pao. I'm glad that she's graduating this summer. We told her thatwe saw her friend "THE Anne [Curtis]" at Gram's earlier that night. It turned out that she was meeting her and the rest of her (we assume) village friends. La lang.
4. The other day, AM also made an unexpected some kind of a visit. She was having this "sports day" with her officemates at Power UP. She was the official "cheerer" of her wall-climbing friends. We werent really able to chat that long because I had to go back to Starbucks to read some more for my midterms. But I was happy to see her 'coz it's been a while too.
5. Sam [Sherry Amour], if you're reading this. I HAVE YOUR PLANNER. Get it from me next week since we'll be having our dinner naman during the weekend.
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Ok, aral mode.
2. Japhet made an "apparition" last night. He just appeared right before my now "unclear eyes". We spent the night chatting. That's time away my Consti readings. Argh. Mali ito.
3. Japhet and I bumped into Kai [blockmate] with her boyfriend Pao. I'm glad that she's graduating this summer. We told her thatwe saw her friend "THE Anne [Curtis]" at Gram's earlier that night. It turned out that she was meeting her and the rest of her (we assume) village friends. La lang.
4. The other day, AM also made an unexpected some kind of a visit. She was having this "sports day" with her officemates at Power UP. She was the official "cheerer" of her wall-climbing friends. We werent really able to chat that long because I had to go back to Starbucks to read some more for my midterms. But I was happy to see her 'coz it's been a while too.
5. Sam [Sherry Amour], if you're reading this. I HAVE YOUR PLANNER. Get it from me next week since we'll be having our dinner naman during the weekend.
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Ok, aral mode.
Taran Taran!
The need for survival brings out the wackiest ideas. The other day, I was with Hazel and we were waiting for the dinner that she ordered in Good Earth. We were having our usual conversation when we were rudely interrupted by this guy who came from nowhere. He just began to talk about how we can actually be of help to him and his organization. His speech was obviously memorized because he delivered it flawlessly in a disturbing sort of way. He spoke straight, awkward English.
I didnt really get everything he said but I managed to catch what he calls the product that he's endorsing. It's the "TARAN TARAN ballpen". I was so dumbfounded that the only thing I managed to say in retaliation to his interruption was, "Nagjo-joke ka ba?" But in the end, since I'm like my Dad in many many ways, I didnt have the heart to say NO to something which is allegedly for a "Good Cause". My other friends sort of teased me for paying 60 pesos for this amazing taran taran ballpen and even made me realize that for all I know it may not be for a good cause. I just told them that at least my intention was clear and if in fact it's for a good cause then I wouldnt be stopped by a suspicion without any substantial evidence from being a part of it. And of course there's always a catch.. i actually had two reasons why I bought the TARAN TARAN ballpen, the first one's NOBLE because I really wanna help but the second reason was more selfish. It made me laugh. I cracked when I found out what TARAN TARAN means.
The TARAN TARAN Ballpen is not your average ballpen. It has a "secret feature". It has a "PULLOUT CALENDAR". You maybe wondering what TARAN TARAN has got to do with it. Well, the guy illustrated it pretty well. All you have to do is to pullout the calendar in a snappy kind of way and shout with feelings, "TARAN!". Yes, with FEELINGS. Pull and shout. Pull and shout.
Everybody now. [Pull] and shout... TARAN! It really made my night worth it. Astig. Nakatulong na ako, natuwa pa ako. Astig.
I didnt really get everything he said but I managed to catch what he calls the product that he's endorsing. It's the "TARAN TARAN ballpen". I was so dumbfounded that the only thing I managed to say in retaliation to his interruption was, "Nagjo-joke ka ba?" But in the end, since I'm like my Dad in many many ways, I didnt have the heart to say NO to something which is allegedly for a "Good Cause". My other friends sort of teased me for paying 60 pesos for this amazing taran taran ballpen and even made me realize that for all I know it may not be for a good cause. I just told them that at least my intention was clear and if in fact it's for a good cause then I wouldnt be stopped by a suspicion without any substantial evidence from being a part of it. And of course there's always a catch.. i actually had two reasons why I bought the TARAN TARAN ballpen, the first one's NOBLE because I really wanna help but the second reason was more selfish. It made me laugh. I cracked when I found out what TARAN TARAN means.
The TARAN TARAN Ballpen is not your average ballpen. It has a "secret feature". It has a "PULLOUT CALENDAR". You maybe wondering what TARAN TARAN has got to do with it. Well, the guy illustrated it pretty well. All you have to do is to pullout the calendar in a snappy kind of way and shout with feelings, "TARAN!". Yes, with FEELINGS. Pull and shout. Pull and shout.
Everybody now. [Pull] and shout... TARAN! It really made my night worth it. Astig. Nakatulong na ako, natuwa pa ako. Astig.
IBANG TEST NAmAN MUNA..
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Eunice, when it comes to second chances, you're a Believer
Open-minded and optimistic, you've got a great energy about you, and friends are likely to feel more centered when you're around. What makes you such a peaceful person? Maybe knowing it's not always your fault when things don't go your way. Or that closed doors often reveal new paths to travel along. Now that's something to believe in!
Eunice, you're looking for a Best Friend
The ideal match for you is probably someone who can anticipate the next word out of your mouth and who laughs at the punch line before you even tell it. Chances are it's important to you that they'd expand your circle of friends, introduce you to new places, faces, and experiences, too. Whether this relationship is here for the short- or the long- term, you're a take-it-as-it-comes kind of person, with few expectations or fairytales to live up to. You'd take your constant companion and trusted secret-keeper over a fairy princess or Prince Charming, any day. Whether you realize it or not, there's someone out there who feels the same way about you. Like you, that someone is looking for the one person to be their best friend — both in the bedroom and out.
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MIDTERMS
MIDTERMS na. Friends, please do pray for me. I need all the help i can get, may it be physical or spiritual. Human warmth included. Haha. Sobrang lamig sa Starbucks Loft, di sya normal. =)
I am saying sorry to Yvie for laughing when you told us na "Nabangga ang side mirror" mo. I wasnt expecting it to be THAT serious. Argh, talaga namang gulat na gulat kaming lahat nang nakita namin ang damage na na-cause ng iyong "collision with the gate". Di na uli ako nap-pressure, dalawa parin tayong di magd-drive. hehe. Pero ok lang yan, i gave up naman the "DIGIPERM" thing for you. Sa tingin ko mas ok na ikaw muna ang kulot ngayon. Hehe.
Meron akong bagong crush. Pero kelangan ko muna i-confirm ang nararamdaman ko kung handa na ko ipagkalat na crush ko sya. haha.
Sa tingin ko mabubugbog ako any moment for coining the NICKNAME "Ebralinag" for this guy. Natatawa parin ako hanggang ngayon. Stalker Ebralinag. Bwahahaha.
Gotta go. Study time na ulit.
I am saying sorry to Yvie for laughing when you told us na "Nabangga ang side mirror" mo. I wasnt expecting it to be THAT serious. Argh, talaga namang gulat na gulat kaming lahat nang nakita namin ang damage na na-cause ng iyong "collision with the gate". Di na uli ako nap-pressure, dalawa parin tayong di magd-drive. hehe. Pero ok lang yan, i gave up naman the "DIGIPERM" thing for you. Sa tingin ko mas ok na ikaw muna ang kulot ngayon. Hehe.
Meron akong bagong crush. Pero kelangan ko muna i-confirm ang nararamdaman ko kung handa na ko ipagkalat na crush ko sya. haha.
Sa tingin ko mabubugbog ako any moment for coining the NICKNAME "Ebralinag" for this guy. Natatawa parin ako hanggang ngayon. Stalker Ebralinag. Bwahahaha.
Gotta go. Study time na ulit.
Artsy Artsy
Nude sitting on a coffee bean ( in charcoal)by Richard John Tuazon
Logical Thinking (repost from Friendster)
One day, Erap sees Pres. Ramos reading a book on logic.
Erap : Fidel, mahirap yata iyang binabasa mong libro.
Ramos : Hindi, logic lang ito, madali lang.
Erap : Ano ba yang logic na yan, hindi ko yata alam yan.
Ramos : Ganito lang yan, may aquarium ka ba sa bahay?
Erap : Oo.
Ramos : Kung may aquarium ka, eh di mahilig ka sa isda.
Erap : Oo.
Ramos : At kung mahilig ka sa isda, mahilig ka rin sa dagat.
Erap: Oo.
Ramos ; Eh di kung mahilig ka sa dagat, gusto mo pumupunta sa beach.
Erap : Oo.
Ramos : At kung mahilig kang pumunta sa beach, mahilig ka sa babaeng naka-bathing suit.
Erap : Oo.
Ramos : Eh kung mahilig ka sa mga seksing babaeng naka-bathing suit, edi lalaking-lalaki ka?
Erap : Oo.
Ramos : Eh kung lalakeng - lalaki ka, eh di macho ka.
Erap : Oo.
Ramos : Kita mo na na, ganyan lang ang logic!
Erap : Okey pala yang logic na yan, ah!
The following day, Erap sees Maceda in the Senate. . .
Erap : Pare,Maceda, susubukan ko lang itong tinuro sa aking logic ni Ramos.
Maceda : Sige nga!
Erap : May aquarium ka ba sa bahay?
Maceda : Wala.
Erap : BAKLA! BAKLA! BAKLA!
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this is my way of saying GOODLUCK to 1C for our Logic Midterms. hehe.
Erap : Fidel, mahirap yata iyang binabasa mong libro.
Ramos : Hindi, logic lang ito, madali lang.
Erap : Ano ba yang logic na yan, hindi ko yata alam yan.
Ramos : Ganito lang yan, may aquarium ka ba sa bahay?
Erap : Oo.
Ramos : Kung may aquarium ka, eh di mahilig ka sa isda.
Erap : Oo.
Ramos : At kung mahilig ka sa isda, mahilig ka rin sa dagat.
Erap: Oo.
Ramos ; Eh di kung mahilig ka sa dagat, gusto mo pumupunta sa beach.
Erap : Oo.
Ramos : At kung mahilig kang pumunta sa beach, mahilig ka sa babaeng naka-bathing suit.
Erap : Oo.
Ramos : Eh kung mahilig ka sa mga seksing babaeng naka-bathing suit, edi lalaking-lalaki ka?
Erap : Oo.
Ramos : Eh kung lalakeng - lalaki ka, eh di macho ka.
Erap : Oo.
Ramos : Kita mo na na, ganyan lang ang logic!
Erap : Okey pala yang logic na yan, ah!
The following day, Erap sees Maceda in the Senate. . .
Erap : Pare,Maceda, susubukan ko lang itong tinuro sa aking logic ni Ramos.
Maceda : Sige nga!
Erap : May aquarium ka ba sa bahay?
Maceda : Wala.
Erap : BAKLA! BAKLA! BAKLA!
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this is my way of saying GOODLUCK to 1C for our Logic Midterms. hehe.
Tigilan Na Natin.
They did it again. I was just so glad that Ana was there when it happened. At least I got to share the story, well i didnt have to because she heard their, uhmm, this girl's attempt to fish for info by merely saying his name. Ana also informed me that they continue to tell her stories about him, half-hoping that she'll tell me. Argh, that's just so lame.
Some people just dont get it. Uhmm, guys... STORY'S OVER. Don't look at me like I'm one half of the couple that you thought existed. I am not, I wasn't and I never will be with him. Give it up. And I'm saying it without even a hint of disgust or bitterness, the "US" that you're counting on is not gonna happen. So please stop dropping his name everytime you get the chance, stop inviting me to events with very high chances that I'll bump into him and just stop trying to get the answer to your questions by asking me indirectly. There was no US. We were close friends. We're still friends now. I dunno if we'll continue to be friends in the future. Case closed.
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Ana got me into thinking tonight when we had a sorta "heated debate" with regard my "Man-finding" skills. We were having a normal conversation when I jokingly pointed out that, "I dont have time for guys."
She gave me a really judgmental look (hehe!) and said, "You?? Of all people? Only you had the skill to find someone from the small world that we are in." (paraphrased) i was surprised that she said that and so I attempted to discuss it a li'l further.
Oo na Ana, compliment sa akin ung "If I want to, I can" accusation ni Ana. Apir.
Some people just dont get it. Uhmm, guys... STORY'S OVER. Don't look at me like I'm one half of the couple that you thought existed. I am not, I wasn't and I never will be with him. Give it up. And I'm saying it without even a hint of disgust or bitterness, the "US" that you're counting on is not gonna happen. So please stop dropping his name everytime you get the chance, stop inviting me to events with very high chances that I'll bump into him and just stop trying to get the answer to your questions by asking me indirectly. There was no US. We were close friends. We're still friends now. I dunno if we'll continue to be friends in the future. Case closed.
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Ana got me into thinking tonight when we had a sorta "heated debate" with regard my "Man-finding" skills. We were having a normal conversation when I jokingly pointed out that, "I dont have time for guys."
She gave me a really judgmental look (hehe!) and said, "You?? Of all people? Only you had the skill to find someone from the small world that we are in." (paraphrased) i was surprised that she said that and so I attempted to discuss it a li'l further.
So I guess I did initiate this whole romantic misfortune that I experienced not too long ago. But I stand firm with my conclusion that "He did most of the things." and that he in a way is guilty of INSTIGATION. He led me to believe that uhmm... ok I am stopping. Basta "FRAUDULENT" sya. Guilty of being in bad faith at that time.
[paraphrased conversation. couldnt remember the exact words. Ana, feel free to correct me,hehe]
Euns: Me? I didnt look for him! It was just a bet.
Ana: Still, how did it start?
Euns: I found him cute.
Ana: See? Only you can find potential from a "hopeless" situation.
Euns: But please don't say that it was purely me. All I did was to ask for his name and some info. That was it.
Ana: You made the first move.
Euns: It was just a bet.
Ana: But you still did it and it is something that not a lot of women do. Making the first move.
Euns: I didnt plan for it to be something more.
Ana: That's not the point. The point is, you still found a way to start it all.
Euns: Fine. But you must admit it wasn't all me. That was all I did.
Ana: Yeah.
Euns: I didnt come to him. He came to me. He did all the "crucial things"
Ana: It wasnt the point.
Euns: Fine. I was just messing up with the debate.
Oo na Ana, compliment sa akin ung "If I want to, I can" accusation ni Ana. Apir.
DOLLY?
It still freaks me out that my life is one overrated soap opera / sitcom. This happened yesterday during that specific time when Mia left me at Starbucks for JUST a FEW MINUTES to go to the Ateneo Law School library. I was desperately trying to study Logic for my 4 o'clock class, my mp3 player was on and i realized that someone was standing and sorta talking beside me. I looked up and saw a caucasian (I dunno if that's politically correct, and there's even nothing political about what happened to me).
It's just sooo effin' weird. I remember that I once was approached in the mall by this sorta hot foreigner guy and followed me around while asking info like, "What's your name and where are you studying." I was scared as hell. And there was also this time while I was shopping and this guy asked me which perfume I would prefer... He even went as far as saying that he was buying it for his mom. Yeah right. Do I look that approachable? It's not like i'm pretty. [ehem fishing. haha. but seriously i'm not!]
Sa aking palagay ay pinaglalaruan talaga ako ng tadhana. Baaaaakiiiit? (Nore Aunor tone)
And the funnier part was he didnt leave right away and pretended to call someone. I assumed that he was trying to figure out if I was lying and was maybe trying to prove that I'm his date. Argh. What are the chances diba?
Caucasian: (mumbling)
Eunice: What? (with a bewildered/ annoyed/ are you talking to me? look)
Caucasian: Uhmm... Excuse me... Are you Dolly?
Eunice: Nooooo. (with the ARE YOU KIDDiNG ME? tone and the "DO I LOOK LIKE SOMEONE NAMED DOLLY TO YOU?! look)
It's just sooo effin' weird. I remember that I once was approached in the mall by this sorta hot foreigner guy and followed me around while asking info like, "What's your name and where are you studying." I was scared as hell. And there was also this time while I was shopping and this guy asked me which perfume I would prefer... He even went as far as saying that he was buying it for his mom. Yeah right. Do I look that approachable? It's not like i'm pretty. [ehem fishing. haha. but seriously i'm not!]
Sa aking palagay ay pinaglalaruan talaga ako ng tadhana. Baaaaakiiiit? (Nore Aunor tone)
Pressure. Pressure.
I am the only Senior Parner of DuhPerm who isnt driving. It all started with just Hazel, then Shem began to bring her own car. Now, Melo and Yvie are also gonna be driving. Pressure ito. I was supposed to start driving my Benz this semester when I decided not to because I didnt think i deserve it. It was after I found out that I didn't perform as well as i expected. Parang penitensya ito. Pero nap-pressure na talaga ako. Yvie's gonna drive na tomorrow. Buntong-hininga. Ang pagd-drive lang na nagagawa ko sa ngayon ay mula sa bahay ko hanggang sa simbahan. Parang kailan lang I was driving around Pasig, Ortigas and Taguig... pero ngayon. Haay.
Your place or my place?
Last night, naka-score ako kay Paopao (looks at Yves! hehe).
I went "dorm-hopping with two of my now favorite guy friends Pepe and Paopao. I dunno what got into them but they just felt the need to check each other's place out. [Ehem, did I interrupt something? =P] First stop, Pepe's crib. I've been outside his dorm a couple of times but t'was my first time to actually go inside his "____-haven" (supply whatever word you deem to be appropriate, i.e. sex?Just kiddin.) The first thing that I thought of was, "Kaya pala aral na aral lagi si Pepe, talagang yun lang ang magagawa mo sa dorm nya." which I actually meant to be a good thing. He has a cutie ref, and lotsa lotsa "law books". His place screams VERBATIM. Hehe. Nice place. I found out that most of the people who live ther are also from Ateneo. Pepe's surrounded by his "idol" law students. Haha. Di halata na maraming mga kasalanan na nangyayari dito. Paopao ang I still think that he was hiding a naked woman somewhere in his dorm. We just weren't able to find her, magaling si Pepe magtago e.
Then we hopped to Paopao's sanctuary. All I can say is that his place is huge! At least for a law student who lives alone. I sooooo love his mini-library because there are a lot of really interesting books there. Plus, he practically has more books in Economics than a "poser-economics grad" like myself. Nakakapanliit. But wait, there's more! (tonong pang-Home TV Shopping) He also has books by Gabriel Garcia Marquez, Umberto Eco, Oscar Wilde... hay heaven syang talaga for a book enthusiast/ feeling intellectual na loka-lokang katulad ko. Atig si Paopao, may potential pa un place nya na maging mas ok, dapat talaga mag-hire sya ng interior designer. Hehe. What's the best part about his place? He literally has a "some kind of a gym". The works pare! Grabe pao, mahal ka na namin lalo. At sikat sya sa mga kachokaran nya sa labas. I wouldn't be surprised if I'll see "Attorney Pao" having a drinking spree with 'em one of these days.
I totally enjoyed my sorta adventure with Pepay and Paopao whom i shall now call the the P Brothers for lack of more creative ideas. Thanks mah-P bros for the ride home y'all! Oo na, I cant really pull off my talking the ghetto way. I'll stop.
P.S.
I got to recite na for ObliCon and I feel good about it. For the first time in ages it felt like I got to answer quite a number of her questions, may sablay sa dulo but it's all good... I'm beginning to get the hang of it. As in seryoso.
Koko, I miss your being a source of joy too!!! But don't worry, Paopao's doing a great job filling in the loss that you created when you left. Obviously, he's now No. 1 in my Source of Joy list. =P But you're already in my "Wall of Fame" for being an Honorary Source of Joy. You're always with us naman in spirit. Ehem, invite us to go to Davao... willing kami magbakasyon. Haha.
What is an Atenean Lawyer?
[A Legal Writing Exercise]
How does one define something that she’s just beginning to understand? How do people come up with a definition that’s all-encompassing when nothing really in this world is definite? In my opinion, the best way is to look at a word’s etymology to fully grasp the story behind a word or in this case, a phrase. The common noun, lawyer is defined as someone who has the privilege of practicing law. There really is no contest about that but the crucial part of the phrase is the word Ateneo. I tried to look at its etymology and I found out that:
The word "Ateneo" is the Spanish form of "Athenaeum". An “Athenaeum” is a Roman school named after the Greek word Athenaion, which literally means the temple of Athena, the goddess of wisdom.[1]
I therefore conclude that an Atenean lawyer is someone who acknowledges the importance of wisdom. Someone who does not have interest in being labeled as the best but is more focused on contributing to the betterment of the society. An Ateneo lawyer isn’t afraid of change because he looks at it as an opportunity for growth. He does not run away from challenges but instead eagerly waits for tough times because it is during these times that he learns. An Ateneo lawyer is like “salt”, because unlike sugar which draws attention to itself, salt brings out the best in all the other ingredients.
An Atenean lawyer does not hesitate to hit rock bottom because he knows that there is no way but up after the collision. An Ateneo lawyer is the synergy of justice and compassion. An Atenean lawyer thinks and feels. An Ateneo lawyer is human… but he draws strength from the ultimate judge that is God.
[1] Yahoo! Online Dictionary [Online], URL: http://education.yahoo.com/reference/dictionary/entry/athenaeum (Accessed January 8, 2006 )
Don't Give Up On Us.
Today's the day that my family chose to watch the Piolo-Judai flick over Narnia and Family Stone. Piolo's yummy, 'nuff said. No matter how gay he is and no matter how loooooong his hair is, I still think he's one sexy papi. About the film? There's nothing really to talk about, the film's basically everything you saw in the trailer. No twists, no attempt to be original. It's a typical Judai-Piolo, Judai-Wowie, Judai-whoever extravaganza. Come on, do you really expect the film to be of substance? My family didnt. We just have our jologs moments.
The Metro Manila Film Festival made my day when I found out that Jose, (Wangbu, that guy in Eat Bulaga who never fails to make me laugh, more like Bayani Agbayani before he became really popular) won the Best Supporting Actor for Enteng Kabisote. Wooohoooo! Belat.
I should be studying for Obligations and Contracts tomorrow. I SHOULD BE but i'm here. I miss blogging. I've been sleeping like crazy these past few years. I'm beginning to think my sibs are drugging me so I'll stop bugging them to watch Star World with me, haha.
Btw, we went to Market! Market! last night. Duhperm decided to have dinner and to go window-shopping after our Saturday class. Masaya naman. Although we literally walked past the shops and didnt really stop to LOOK. Masasaktan lang kasi kami e. But I bought Veet because the reason why I havent been wearing skirts these past few weeks is that I havent waxed my jungle-like legs. I also colored my hair brown. It's not really that "halata". Since i colored my hair, i couldnt get curls until a month after. Payn, titigil muna ako.
I found out from Japhet that Sam has her own condo na. Shala! I was supposed to go there but i wasnt able to because I dont know how. Ang risky naman if I'll take the cab uli... kulang na rin ako sa pera. Plus, late na rin ako nakaalis ng Rockwell. Oh well.
I'm just gonna sing... "Dont give up on us baby... " and dream of Piolo. Woohoo!
The Metro Manila Film Festival made my day when I found out that Jose, (Wangbu, that guy in Eat Bulaga who never fails to make me laugh, more like Bayani Agbayani before he became really popular) won the Best Supporting Actor for Enteng Kabisote. Wooohoooo! Belat.
I should be studying for Obligations and Contracts tomorrow. I SHOULD BE but i'm here. I miss blogging. I've been sleeping like crazy these past few years. I'm beginning to think my sibs are drugging me so I'll stop bugging them to watch Star World with me, haha.
Btw, we went to Market! Market! last night. Duhperm decided to have dinner and to go window-shopping after our Saturday class. Masaya naman. Although we literally walked past the shops and didnt really stop to LOOK. Masasaktan lang kasi kami e. But I bought Veet because the reason why I havent been wearing skirts these past few weeks is that I havent waxed my jungle-like legs. I also colored my hair brown. It's not really that "halata". Since i colored my hair, i couldnt get curls until a month after. Payn, titigil muna ako.
I found out from Japhet that Sam has her own condo na. Shala! I was supposed to go there but i wasnt able to because I dont know how. Ang risky naman if I'll take the cab uli... kulang na rin ako sa pera. Plus, late na rin ako nakaalis ng Rockwell. Oh well.
I'm just gonna sing... "Dont give up on us baby... " and dream of Piolo. Woohoo!
Start the Year Right Doesnt Apply to Me.
Imbyerna/Funny conversation no. 1:
Haze: Euns, wag ka magagalit pero... tumaba ka.
Eunice: Ayun. Thanks a lot. haha.
I woke up at 6 this morning and I was so glad to start my day early. I told myself that I wouldn't go back to bed so that I can read and review more. At 7am, I made the mistake of lying on my bed and closing my eyes for a split second... Naidlip ako. My idea of a "NAP" is a 5-hour sleep. Ayon nga kay Pi, COMATOSE. I woke up at 12 noon, panicking, i took a shower and got ready in 30 minutes. T'was a good thing that my parents were still at home so they dropped me to school. Saved by the bell. Buti na lang medyo late si Ma'am.
Imbyerna/Funny Conversation no.2:
Pi: Euns, bakit ganun un blog mo? Di na witty. Nakakadiri.
Euns:Point, point. (tono ni Shem) I know na may sudden shift from teeny-bopper/chick lit/atrabida ang tone ng aking blog to scientific/ patriotic/ geeky. Sorry na. Hehe.
Father B made my day. We were kind of anxious because there was a confusion as to until which Article we shold've read for today's class. Some were saying until Article 9 but the majority knew that the assignment was until Article 7 only (though im not sure if that was because it's most beneficial for us to unitedly believe that it's only until Article 7). We waited for him and got ready for the recitation but to make everyone happy all he needed was to ask us, "Do you really want to have class today?" and we eagerly and should i say, honestly replied, "Nooooooooo." (fading pa with feelings). That was all Fr. B needed to hear. Kumbaga sa judge, "Reset the trial to Friday." ang hatol. Aprub.
We had dinner at Jollibee because we didnt want to end up eating at Mongkok after a few weeks of not eating there. Kababuyan moment nanaman dahil full meal kung full meal. Kwentuhan. Then we went to Starbucks to "study". Study? Translation, we went to Starbucks to talk about what we did during the break, which was nothing really since I spent most of my vacation sleeping or watching DVDs. Duhperm specifically Shem (and her girlfriend, Yvie) had another issue to discuss with us. OUR TRIP TO BORACAY. Sa wakas. Pagkatapos ng maraming napurnadang plano, sa tingin ko seryoso na ito. Ang aming target money, 10,000 each. So I'm supposed to save 150 daily. Astig. Papayat na ko makakapunta pa ako ng Boracay. Yahoo. We shall call our new eating regime as the "Sky Flakes diet". Let's go DuhPerm. A week in Bora? J'adore.
To end my first day in law school for the year 2006, Ana had to remind Pepe that he owes us a Sentro dinner. Pepe said sure. He was willing to treat us PRONTO. Since he's going to Banawa tomorrow to do some pimpin for his car, we ought to say yes to his proposal of treating us tonight. Mahirap na, baka mapurnada nanaman. So we went to Greenbelt. Kahit na nag-dinner na kami, tumuloy parin kami. We ate at Babba Gump instead kasi as usual mahaba nanaman ang pila sa Sentro... Lumalabas nanaman sa ilong ko ang lahat ng kinain ko dahil sa kabusugan. Astig na first day. Perfectly imperfect.
WAR?
Every gun that is made,Every warship launched,Every rocket fired signifies in the final sense,War, no matter how noble the cause will always be a reason for grief, hunger, fear, and proliferation of evil in all its forms. I cant help but think of the not so recent US-led war in Iraq. I must admit, I was very open to the idea of war, I even thought it was a great idea to finally force Saddam Hussein to let go of Iraq and let them be. I was ok with it because I thought that the end will justify the means. But I realized that one major reason why I was ok with it was the fact that there is little possibility that I will be directly affected by such a war. By merely watching CNN and watching all these documentaries about the war, I began questioning if it’s really worth it. Is “freedom” really a long and painful process? will the emergence of democracy in Iraq be worth the lives of not only the soldiers from both sides but also of the innocent people who happen to be caught in the middle of these dark days?
a theft from those who hunger and are not fed,
Those who are cold and are not clothed.
This world in arms is not spending money alone
It is spending the sweat of its laborers,
The genius of its scientists and The hopes of its children
-- Eisenhower
There is a trade off to everything, besides the lives shed, I believe that it really snatches away the opportunity from people who would want to be in school, of unemployed people waiting for help from the government, of production. As an economist, I have always been firm with my decision, WAR is inevitable but its advocates should ensure the people that its reasons are valid. And that in the future, when we look back, we will all nod in appreciation at the thought that we made the right choice in the past.
Gene Therapy
I strongly believe that the betterment of lives and prevention of death are two most important goals that we should all have. In the controversy regarding gene therapy, I have always believed that there's nothing immoral to anything which aims to cure. I do understand the moral dilemma in which a lot of the people who oppose the said therapy are clinging to and I feel that they might be getting carried away by limitations that they have set for themselves. For every innovation, every advances in technology give way to the emergence of more risks and unavoidable repercussions. But I think that once again, “Fear should never paralyze us into inaction.”
Only, there is one fear or I guess dilemma that I would like to be addressed regarding this.. I just hope that if ever that there will be a massive success in the improvement of gene therapy, everyone will be given the chance to avail of such cure. I hope that it will not result to another divide which will affect the structure of a lot of societies. And though there are experiments that should be carried out, I hope that the doctors will not take it as a mere gamble but a a conquest.
Only, there is one fear or I guess dilemma that I would like to be addressed regarding this.. I just hope that if ever that there will be a massive success in the improvement of gene therapy, everyone will be given the chance to avail of such cure. I hope that it will not result to another divide which will affect the structure of a lot of societies. And though there are experiments that should be carried out, I hope that the doctors will not take it as a mere gamble but a a conquest.
HAPPY NEW YEAR PINOYS!
I have always been fascinated with Rizal and the things that he was able to come up with back when Filipinos weren't expected to excel. His ideals, theories and suggestions have been proven to be very useful and true not only in the past but also in the present, it’s amazing how he was able to predict a lot things that we are still experiencing now. It’s not a surprise to me that he has talked about how Filipinos have been in a way very individualistic with respect to progress and development. It’s quite obvious that we all are aiming for the development of our country in all aspects but we all move without thinking of how it will affect other people. It’s saddening because we have always been proud of our close family ties, our ability to survive no matter what, still, the simplicity of being united isn’t present in our society.
Just like the old times, when the revolts in the Spanish Era were motivated by mere personal motives, we will fail. We can only realize our dreams if we will try to be more conscientious of other people. We all are skilled, we all are intelligent, but moving as individuals is a disadvantage. We must lost that “one man for himself” attitude and instead focus on how we can contribute. Apathy will not get us anywhere. We must move as one, that’s why we’re called Filipinos, we all are under this nationality, we all are instruments of development and progress.
In the end, one thing is clear… The government cannot make changes happen without our help. The more we try to be overly dependent on what the government can do for us, the more our country will sulk in this slum we are stuck in. Actions will be more effective if only we are UNITED. Our economy’s growth will not be a question of who the president is, rather, a question of UNITY towards ONE GOAL. I am urging everyone to be more vigilant, concerned and sensitive of what each and everyone of us can do for our country. It is time to make a difference and to show the world what we have.
Just like the old times, when the revolts in the Spanish Era were motivated by mere personal motives, we will fail. We can only realize our dreams if we will try to be more conscientious of other people. We all are skilled, we all are intelligent, but moving as individuals is a disadvantage. We must lost that “one man for himself” attitude and instead focus on how we can contribute. Apathy will not get us anywhere. We must move as one, that’s why we’re called Filipinos, we all are under this nationality, we all are instruments of development and progress.
In the end, one thing is clear… The government cannot make changes happen without our help. The more we try to be overly dependent on what the government can do for us, the more our country will sulk in this slum we are stuck in. Actions will be more effective if only we are UNITED. Our economy’s growth will not be a question of who the president is, rather, a question of UNITY towards ONE GOAL. I am urging everyone to be more vigilant, concerned and sensitive of what each and everyone of us can do for our country. It is time to make a difference and to show the world what we have.
On Emergence and Artificiality
Ar’ti-f’cial, a. 1. made by man; not natural. 2. not genuine; affected.
ar’ti-fi’ci-al’ity, n.
E-merge’, v. Come out; appear. - e-mer’gence, n
Whenever I’m given something that I should react to, one very big concern for me is to know how certain words are defined in the dictionary. It’s not because I don’t know exactly what they mean, but I wanna be able to just figure out which of the people’s perceptions regarding a certain statement or regarding certain words have basis or are just results of their own process of figuring out the appropriate meanings. In this particular situation, the two essential words are artificiality and emergence, the meanings of the words in the dictionary are stated above. With respect to emergence, I didn’t think there was something problematic with the meaning because it’s simple as it can be. I only had certain issues with artificiality.
My dilemma with definition lies in the part where artificiality is defined as “not genuine”. It is problematic because I feel that what is real is something which exists, and to say that something artificial is something unreal would have no logical reason to back it up. I really think that this topic is very relevant because in a world where everything’s changing due to certain innovations, artificiality has become a part of life. The process of finding meanings for artificiality and emergence is a process which will be ongoing until life itself exists. My reasons for such a claim will be discussed later in the essay. I will thoroughly look into the claims and insights expressed in the essay by Ghasempour and try to analyze how it led to such conclusions.
I do agree with Ghasempour that debates on issues regarding artificiality and emergence have always been present in every single generation. These debates, I think, are attempts to decipher the unexplainable through possible exchange of insights and formulation of certain conventions regarding which explanations are to be accepted or not. After reading the essay, it made me think of some opinions or insights expressed in the essay which I disagree with and some areas which I think have become problematic. I will also be looking at all these inconsistencies, critique them and make the most of whatever I found out in the process of my research.
In the first paragraph of the essay, the concept of emergents as results of some organic evolution introduced the author’s idea of how we are baffled about the reality that we have always held true. This statement reminded me of something a representative from La Rouche told us about how all these economic theories we’ve been studying are all mere manipulations of the “more influential” part of the group of economists. He pointed out that the reality that we have grown to accept are just manifestations of who won in the battle for truth in the centuries. I get the point of how we all become confused with certain “alleged truths” which we’ve been taught right from the start everytime we would encounter something which opposes the things we believe in. it maybe attributed to the fact that the things we believe in serve as foundations for the more complicated tings that we encounter which are also vital for our growth or development. What bothered me in the statement given by the author of the essay was her question on spiritual realms which science cannot permeate. I don’t think that spirituality or the spiritual realm per se should be compared parallel to science because they are of different levels. The context in which the spiritual realm was used, for me, was foul because it exudes the message that scientists always have the easier way out by attributing the unexplainable (as of the moment) as spiritual stuff from the spiritual realms. The long standing conflict between the side which looks at emergence as a spiritual thing and the side wherein emergence is explained as a result of evolution or any natural process is in a way useless because I don’t think they are mutually exclusive. Physical laws can give explanations and so can non-scientific theories but the point will be not of making them totally opposite each other.
I also believe that there are a number of things that we can learn from the past and that these backward linkages may not directly point out such answers but they sure will serve as guides to trace what humanity has achieved so far. Still, I don’t agree with the statement that “..the future is geared towards artificiality” because I don’t wanna see artificiality as a destination but a means or an instrument that can lead us to our ultimate goal to seek the betterment of everyone and everything which exist. I believe that artificiality should not rule over our lives but we can use it to make our ways of living better than it is as of the moment.
In the next paragraph, it said something about the claim of science that everything has a logical reason behind them. Looking at the meaning of logical in the dictionary, it just means “ something used in LOGIC” and logic is defined as the “art of reasoning”. So in a way, what maybe justified by mere manipulation of reason could be considered logical. Furthermore, if one believes that our existence is just superficial or that we are just imagining this world that we are living in (think of Matrix) and he can back it up with something really convincing like, we don’t even know what happens if we die, therefore we cant grasp the whole truth about our existence and anything that we see today may just be a part of the whole play which is only revealed after our “supposed lives”. And that if the game is over, we can choose whether we wanna try again or just rest. It’s logical, but all we can do is speculate. I say, it’s not in our limitations of our cognition but in the limitations of our means of using our cognition. I agree that artificiality should become instruments for the improvement of life as a whole and that the process in which we understand is subjective and personal. Trying to explain and find out things through mere biological processes would be, in my opinion, atrocious. It is because we all vary, and we cant hold everything constant not only in our ways of thinking but in our biological processes as well. However, regarding the author’s statement on the Emergent Theory of Mind’s being useless because it merely explains the process is unacceptable because the key to being able to analyze something and to arrive into a breakthrough starts with the understanding of the basic processes and the basic events which happened along the way.
I also agree with the claim that there still are a lot of things which remains as mysteries to us, but to call the actions of modern empiricists as attempts to “RECREATE NATURE THROUGH ARTIFICING” would be dangerous and in a way, problematic. Artificing shouldn’t aim to recreate nature because recreation is a process which should happen without interference from us, but instead artificing should aim to IMPROVE and ACHIEVE the betterment if not of everyone but of at least the majority of the population.
It was in a way hard for me to grasp this idea of reality being “…independent of any possible knowledge and any actual encounter with it”. I’m afraid that through this definition, reality has become something merely imagined. If there is such a thing as accessible and inaccessible reality, then how do we verify it? What is real? Genuine? Who verifies it? I think it’s once again a matter of convention and influence. Just like the old times. The politics of reality will be at work.
Fear should never paralyze us into inaction. Every decision that we make has its intended and unintended consequences. Like what I learned in Economics, everything has its trade offs, its opportunity cost, and the knowledge on being able to imitate reality and understand emergence may cause some bad consequences. But I believe that though there are risks, it shouldn’t hinder us from wanting to know more and to discover things which in the end will offset whatever negative effects it may have. Even the cleanest of all intentions can result to serious negative effects but it shouldn’t stop us from trying to achieve more and from learning. Life is a process of learning, it’s a continued pursuit of improvement of being better. Yes, we do evolve, and learning more about reality, artificiality and emergence is a positive evolution regardless of what repercussions it may bring with it.
I like the concept in which we see our own lives to be artificial. Artificiality introduced as a way of life is a positive way to look at it. It drives me to a very important issue I wanna raise, why do people have this idea that anything artificial is not as good as the original and that it’s not gonna be good enough to satisfy something which is natural? Should there really be conflict between what is artificial and what is natural? Shouldn’t there be like a mutually beneficial relationship between them? Shouldn’t the artificial and the natural just complement each other? Are they supposed to be separate entities? I believe there shouldn’t be a clash between them.
There shouldn’t be a mere pursuit of artificiality, but instead, there should be a pursuit to improvement. Artificiality should only be one of the means to achieve improvement and to know more about the natural / real world. In STS, I learned to see the irony in defining science as something exact and systematic. It is because just like this issue addressed in the essay, science need not be uncompromising. In fact, Science is overly compromising that it welcomes even the most deviant of the deviant hypotheses. Just like the innovations we studied, artificiality shouldn’t be seen as a threat which will make life miserable for humanity but instead look at artificiality as a wagon that will bring us to a better world. A world where the artificial and the “real” live harmoniously with each other. A world where there will be not gap between people.
Mitochondrial Eve
In gradeschool. I learned something about the “missing link” in the possibility of tracing the evolution of humanity. I was very interested in actually learning a lot about our “ancestors” and how they have evolved into the beings that we are right now. I have always believed in the existence of Adam and Eve not only because of the bible, but also because I interpret the Adam and Eve that we’re talking about as humans who are related to everyone on earth. It’s quite fascinating to know that it is very possible for us to actually trace who our own Eve is and to know where we came from. In reading an essay by Krishna Kunchithapadam, she pointed out the importance of knowing that the mitochondrial eve that we’re actually looking for today is only the Mitochondrial Eve of our generation.
I think it’s very important for us to understand that the Eve that we’re looking for is not an all-encompassing Eve who was the first woman on earth (if she really existed). Kunchithapadam put in the statement, "She is the most-recent common ancestor of all humans alive on Earth today with respect to matrilineal descent. … While each of us necessarily has two parents, we get our mitochondria and mitochondrial DNA from the ovum (and hence from our mothers). Our mothers got their mitochondrial DNA from their mothers and so on. Thus, while our nuclear DNA is a mish-mash of the DNA of our four grandparents, our mitochondrial DNA is an almost exact copy of the DNA of our maternal grandmother (the match may not be exact due to mutations. In fact, the mutations in the mitochondrial DNA provide the molecular clock that allows us to determine how much time has elapsed since the ME lived).The ME represents that woman whose mitochondrial DNA (with mutations) exists in all the humans now living on Earth. That does not mean that she is our lone woman ancestor. We have ancestors who are not via matrilineal descent. For example, our father's mother (who did pass on her mitochondrial DNA to her daughters) is an example of an ancestor who is not matrilineal to us. However, she did exist at one time and was probably of the same age as our mother's mother, who is a matrilineal ancestor of ours and from whom we got our mitochondrial DNA.”.
It may sound surreal, but it’s actually proven mathematically so there’s no reason for me not to believe it. Ang astig e! Apir!
I think it’s very important for us to understand that the Eve that we’re looking for is not an all-encompassing Eve who was the first woman on earth (if she really existed). Kunchithapadam put in the statement, "She is the most-recent common ancestor of all humans alive on Earth today with respect to matrilineal descent. … While each of us necessarily has two parents, we get our mitochondria and mitochondrial DNA from the ovum (and hence from our mothers). Our mothers got their mitochondrial DNA from their mothers and so on. Thus, while our nuclear DNA is a mish-mash of the DNA of our four grandparents, our mitochondrial DNA is an almost exact copy of the DNA of our maternal grandmother (the match may not be exact due to mutations. In fact, the mutations in the mitochondrial DNA provide the molecular clock that allows us to determine how much time has elapsed since the ME lived).The ME represents that woman whose mitochondrial DNA (with mutations) exists in all the humans now living on Earth. That does not mean that she is our lone woman ancestor. We have ancestors who are not via matrilineal descent. For example, our father's mother (who did pass on her mitochondrial DNA to her daughters) is an example of an ancestor who is not matrilineal to us. However, she did exist at one time and was probably of the same age as our mother's mother, who is a matrilineal ancestor of ours and from whom we got our mitochondrial DNA.”.
It may sound surreal, but it’s actually proven mathematically so there’s no reason for me not to believe it. Ang astig e! Apir!
Fred Hoyle
“The transformation from wild terror to calmness seems entirely magical … the bird watches you with a bright eye … you throw up your arms and release the bird, and away it soars. I feel it should be like that with ideas.” -Hoyle
Fred Hoyle’s story is a classic example of how unpredictable life is, no matter who you are or whatever your profession might be. It’s also an example of how in one’s lifetime, you may have achieved numerous things and may have contributed to the society in very positive ways, but in the end they will remember you for the things you did wrong. Think of the inkblot on a blank paper. Thinking of the role of scientists in science, it made me realize that they serve as mere catalysts. They ignite interest in a particular field and they try to find out as much as they can. If they are able to achieve what other people think as a scientific breakthrough then they are given attention. Still, you can easily make a fool out of yourself by announcing a hypothesis not backed up by scientific proof that will sway the stubborn minds of the majority. Scientists are mere instruments and even if you may have contributed more in the study of a certain field, if you didn’t get into the bottom of things, then you’re not gonna be as honored and respected as the one who was able to explain it in detail.I believe that scientists have the freedom to express whatever they believe in, may it be their discovery or results of their intensive studies. They should still remember that they have the responsibility not only as scientists but even as human beings to be as truthful and as accurate as they can be. The pressure’s greater because since a scientist is dealing with something scientific, his claims should be as precise as it can possibly be.
Quoting something from an article I read online.. “What made Fred Hoyle such a fascinating figure in big-time cosmology was that he combined the accomplishments and understandings of the century’s elite - think Einstein, Bohr, Feynman - with proposals associated with cranks. In mainstream science, he helped construct one set of theories that looks spectacularly right, and another set that looks just as spectacularly wrong.” As expected, he was remembered for the spectacularly wrong things he exposed. But then again, “The heroes of 20th century cosmology have all had their quirks. Einstein famously rejected quantum theory. Feynman was a wild man. Stephen Hawking recently recommended that human genetic engineering should proceed because otherwise robots may take over the world. Of one thing we may be certain: the Universe is much stranger than the quirks of the cosmologists who attempt to explain it.”
Wow, I wrote this a few years ago.
Hey,
This is weird. I did say I’ll send you an email right? Lemme start by saying thank you for the phone conversations, the time you spared or uhmm, wasted talking to me. you have to believe me that I do appreciate it so much. We’ve only known each other for a short period of time but I guess you’re one of those people who managed to influence me and made me think, even intimidated me. Not a lot of them see what you see, or uhmm, maybe they do…but not a lot of people are courageous enough to point these things out straight to my face.
It may seem like I don’t mean most of the words I say, or that I don’t take you seriously or that I’m plain shallow and stubborn and I’m sorry for that. I’m sorry if at times I’m just a bore or a pain in the ass. I’m sorry if I call you and never talk. You must understand that I cherish even the silence that we shared. You are a dear friend, you make me laugh. Yeah, I have to give you credit for that, you DO make me laugh. At times, I would remember something you said and I’ll just smile. It may look like I don’t pay attention but I guess it’s just me. my defense mechanism, I’m still scared ‘coz I don’t really know you.
I know you remember me saying that I’m not used to opening up. I don’t even confide to my closest friends. My pride, I guess. I do pay attention, I do keep in mind the things you say. I sometimes try to recall how it all started, how we became the (I’d like to think) close friends that we are right now, but it just frustrates me because I don’t really know. I remember you saying that “for all we know, maybe it’s gonna stop when school starts”. You changed the topic and didn’t dwell on the idea, I pretended that I didn’t hear it..but I did. Im scared that we’re drifting apart, I’m scared that maybe we got close for convenience, or because we didn’t have a choice. I don’t really need assurance, I’m not in the position to ask for that. I’m still going to fulfill my part of the friendship anyway.
You worry me, it’s as if you live for pain. I DO WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY. I do want you to get a job. I wish you’ll find what it is you’re looking for. I wish you’ll stop getting frustrated and that the people around you, your friends’ll stop disappointing you. I wish they start fulfilling their promises. Don’t lose faith in them ‘coz they need your faith. I’m sorry if I can’t really say these things in person, must be my pride… that’s why I’m a writer. It’s true, you predicted it right, I really am missing you. I miss talking to you ‘til morning and I miss having you around. I miss your straightforward remarks / diagnosis of my depressing personality. I miss you and I dunno if I should even be saying this or writing this letter.
I’m sorry if I may have burdened you or made life a li’l harder, a li’l complicated, a li’l irritating for you. Thank you, I wish I can give you a hug right now. I’m sorry if I cant be the “comforting arm” while you are sleeping that you’ve dreamed about for 2 consecutive nights. You take care ok? I believe in you, you can be the “bum” or the “professional”, it doesn’t make much of a difference. You’re a buddy. Gotta run,, I’ll bump into you next time. I hope.
Smilin’,
Eunee =)
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This is weird. I did say I’ll send you an email right? Lemme start by saying thank you for the phone conversations, the time you spared or uhmm, wasted talking to me. you have to believe me that I do appreciate it so much. We’ve only known each other for a short period of time but I guess you’re one of those people who managed to influence me and made me think, even intimidated me. Not a lot of them see what you see, or uhmm, maybe they do…but not a lot of people are courageous enough to point these things out straight to my face.
It may seem like I don’t mean most of the words I say, or that I don’t take you seriously or that I’m plain shallow and stubborn and I’m sorry for that. I’m sorry if at times I’m just a bore or a pain in the ass. I’m sorry if I call you and never talk. You must understand that I cherish even the silence that we shared. You are a dear friend, you make me laugh. Yeah, I have to give you credit for that, you DO make me laugh. At times, I would remember something you said and I’ll just smile. It may look like I don’t pay attention but I guess it’s just me. my defense mechanism, I’m still scared ‘coz I don’t really know you.
I know you remember me saying that I’m not used to opening up. I don’t even confide to my closest friends. My pride, I guess. I do pay attention, I do keep in mind the things you say. I sometimes try to recall how it all started, how we became the (I’d like to think) close friends that we are right now, but it just frustrates me because I don’t really know. I remember you saying that “for all we know, maybe it’s gonna stop when school starts”. You changed the topic and didn’t dwell on the idea, I pretended that I didn’t hear it..but I did. Im scared that we’re drifting apart, I’m scared that maybe we got close for convenience, or because we didn’t have a choice. I don’t really need assurance, I’m not in the position to ask for that. I’m still going to fulfill my part of the friendship anyway.
You worry me, it’s as if you live for pain. I DO WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY. I do want you to get a job. I wish you’ll find what it is you’re looking for. I wish you’ll stop getting frustrated and that the people around you, your friends’ll stop disappointing you. I wish they start fulfilling their promises. Don’t lose faith in them ‘coz they need your faith. I’m sorry if I can’t really say these things in person, must be my pride… that’s why I’m a writer. It’s true, you predicted it right, I really am missing you. I miss talking to you ‘til morning and I miss having you around. I miss your straightforward remarks / diagnosis of my depressing personality. I miss you and I dunno if I should even be saying this or writing this letter.
I’m sorry if I may have burdened you or made life a li’l harder, a li’l complicated, a li’l irritating for you. Thank you, I wish I can give you a hug right now. I’m sorry if I cant be the “comforting arm” while you are sleeping that you’ve dreamed about for 2 consecutive nights. You take care ok? I believe in you, you can be the “bum” or the “professional”, it doesn’t make much of a difference. You’re a buddy. Gotta run,, I’ll bump into you next time. I hope.
Smilin’,
Eunee =)
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Just So You Guys Know.
Looking at my chipped nail polish makes me wonder...
how on earth did I survive 21 years of insanity?
If I Die…
I want my wake to be 5 days.
Day 1 - Book Launching
Day 2 - Poetry Reading
Day 3 - Eulogy-making contest
Day 4 - Film Showing [L'appartement]
Day 5 - Mini - concert / gift-giving
how on earth did I survive 21 years of insanity?
If I Die…
I want my wake to be 5 days.
Day 1 - Book Launching
Day 2 - Poetry Reading
Day 3 - Eulogy-making contest
Day 4 - Film Showing [L'appartement]
Day 5 - Mini - concert / gift-giving
We All Are Different, We All are Heaven- Sent
me and my highschool friends leids, mir, anne and mary ann Circa 2001 (@ retreat)We all are different, we all are heaven-sent.
We have our names, we like different games.
We have our names, we like different games.
What we find funny, some might find silly.
What we find funny, some might find silly.
What we love dearly, some might find ugly.
What we love dearly, some might find ugly.
People sometimes fight on whoever’s right.
People sometimes fight on whoever’s right.
People sometimes cry and we never know why.
People sometimes cry and we never know why.
A lot of things happen, like changes that are sudden.
A lot of things happen, like changes that are sudden.
You may feel little but don’t be afraid to mingle.
You may feel little but don’t be afraid to mingle.
If things aren’t perfect, be thankful for what you get.
If things aren’t perfect, be thankful for what you get.
Life is God’s gift, it’s for us to love and keep.
Life is God’s gift, it’s for us to love and keep.
We all are different, we all are heaven-sent.
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I wrote this for my Poetry for Children class in UP, i think. And as far as I can remember, i was told that children won't understand such intangible statements. I still think children will understand.
But i didnt pass it to be graded. Mahirap na. Hehe.
HAIKU Melendez [Tryin to be funny..]
The leaves so graceful
Wind blowing and whispering
So peaceful and free
Wind blowing and whispering
So peaceful and free
Dehydrated
I have deprived myself of water.
Anything flowing, moist or glistening
awakens an inexplicable sense of rage,
confusion, longing.
My dry, flaky skin almost powdered
To its shame reminds me of sand;
Every strand of hair has a story infinite in number
Never a panacea.
Did you deliberately die to mock me?
I imagine you to be caressing her,
Holding on to her like some immortal,
Whose touch you have blissfully anticipated.
She has stolen your last breath, like
Taking away the last cookie in my cookie jar.
You gasped with her, drowned with her,
Together, you moaned, never halted, just died.
I could have choked you with a pillow and
Let you wither on our lucrative water bed,
You should’ve told me you wanted to die like that.
I would have stabbed you while we’re exploring
each other, Taking a shower
with bodies entwined
Lubricated by water gushing out,
suds all over.
I would’ve put poison in your coffee and
Let it sip away what superficial life
You have forced me to live.
I thought WE lived,
You have nourished me, rained on me;
Only to suck whatever was flowing inside of me.
Saliva, urine, blood -contaminated.
Poison seeping through.
Forcing its way through my
semi-permeable membrane.
I have deprived myself of water,
Your presence haunts me and your laughter
Has continuously mocked my faith
In a life which you have mindlessly
destroyed and wasted.
I have deprived myself of water,
not because it drowned you but because
it exposed the mud behind what seemed to be something pure.
I have deprived myself of water,
By doing so, I am able to celebrate
Your death.
For I will die not because of water
and its existence,
Only due to lack thereof.
Anything flowing, moist or glistening
awakens an inexplicable sense of rage,
confusion, longing.
My dry, flaky skin almost powdered
To its shame reminds me of sand;
Every strand of hair has a story infinite in number
Never a panacea.
Did you deliberately die to mock me?
I imagine you to be caressing her,
Holding on to her like some immortal,
Whose touch you have blissfully anticipated.
She has stolen your last breath, like
Taking away the last cookie in my cookie jar.
You gasped with her, drowned with her,
Together, you moaned, never halted, just died.
I could have choked you with a pillow and
Let you wither on our lucrative water bed,
You should’ve told me you wanted to die like that.
I would have stabbed you while we’re exploring
each other, Taking a shower
with bodies entwined
Lubricated by water gushing out,
suds all over.
I would’ve put poison in your coffee and
Let it sip away what superficial life
You have forced me to live.
I thought WE lived,
You have nourished me, rained on me;
Only to suck whatever was flowing inside of me.
Saliva, urine, blood -contaminated.
Poison seeping through.
Forcing its way through my
semi-permeable membrane.
I have deprived myself of water,
Your presence haunts me and your laughter
Has continuously mocked my faith
In a life which you have mindlessly
destroyed and wasted.
I have deprived myself of water,
not because it drowned you but because
it exposed the mud behind what seemed to be something pure.
I have deprived myself of water,
By doing so, I am able to celebrate
Your death.
For I will die not because of water
and its existence,
Only due to lack thereof.
Ang Nasasakdal
I was browsing through my old stuff and I found this poem I wrote when I was a kid.
Ang creepy ko, talagang korte ang subject ng tula ko.
Ang creepy ko, talagang korte ang subject ng tula ko.
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Kay ingay ng paligid mga salitang nanginginig
Pangungutya, pagkamuhi, galit para sa akin
Oo! Ako ang nasasakdal ang nasasakdal na binabalot ng dilim
Ang nasasakdal na kalaban ng mundo, mag-isa walang kasama
Nasaan sila, sila na inaasahan ko, pinagkakatiwalaan ko?
Wala, naglaho kasama ng taong aking pinaslang.
Nalibing sa impyerno!
Oras na! Oras na upang ipahayag ko sa mundo ang aking pighati,
Ang katotohanan, naging bulag silang lahat!
Mga stupida!
Natahimik ang lahat, walang ingay,
at dahil sa katahimikang Iyon ay napagtanto ko,
panalo ako.
ANG NASASAKDAL.
at dahil sa katahimikang Iyon ay napagtanto ko,
panalo ako.
ANG NASASAKDAL.
ALL I HAVE ARE CONCEPTS.
Ladies and gentlemen, these are the titles of the stories that I will (though i have no idea exactly when) write in the future. Drumroll please!!! [Chick Lit ito. OO]
Overweight, Overwait.
A balanced diet + a balanced lifestyle = a perfect life.
A pretty simple formula, but who says too much of everything is bad?
Serial dater
The wannabe writer's journey of finding that final victim who will eventually imprison her in the bliss that committed love has to offer.
The Romantic Cynic
A law student explores her attitude about relationships because she’s been like a pendulum, trying to find love but scaring love all at the same time.
A pretty simple formula, but who says too much of everything is bad?
Serial dater
The wannabe writer's journey of finding that final victim who will eventually imprison her in the bliss that committed love has to offer.
The Romantic Cynic
A law student explores her attitude about relationships because she’s been like a pendulum, trying to find love but scaring love all at the same time.
Global Espionage
"Not only must contractors protect sensitive information from global espionage, but corporate espionage has also become a concern,"
--Lieske (Wireless NewsFactor)
In a world where almost everything is “wired” (literally and figuratively), espionage has become one of the unavoidable repercussions. Simple spying has been very common that it’s quite possible that you’re near a hacker in certain occasions. It’s a very big concern because if there’s something that we should be worried about, it’s our security. It has been a question of human rights when criminals are arrested because their phones were tapped, but if someone’s phone is being tapped, when do you draw the line between it’s necessity and urgency and taking advantage of technology? I think in Global Espionage, it’s not only about warfare, it’s about intellectual property rights, even closed door facts which are not meant to be exposed. Just like “Stealth” or Invisibility attained by aircrafts, it’s a saddening fact that people had to invent such ways to spy and that we all have to protect ourselves from being unaware victim.
With technology comes great responsibility, there will always be opportunity costs to technological advances. I know that we have to live with that fact, but when is it time to say it’s enough?
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