Orphan Moments

Last Wednesday, my block decided to sponsor a christmas party for orphans. It was a great idea... it was our way of thanking God for giving us another sem in the law school. As usual, at the end of the day, i got emotionally attached to my kids. One of my kids just hugged me for a few minutes like she didnt want to go. I guess she was half-hoping that I'll tell her I'll take her home and that she can be a part of my family now. But I didnt. I cant.

I think we all have our Orphan Moments. When we feel like a lot of people are concerned,a lot of people are devoted to making us feel better but in the end, nobody wants to keep us. Nobody wants to take us home. Their reasons are valid and no matter how hard they try not to make us feel like we're neglected, we still feel that we will never be good enough. We will never be worthy of their love that they can't welcome us into their lives.

Now I'm wondering if we really did a good job in making them feel special that day... or maybe they feel like we're just another group of well-wishers who can only cheer them on as they continue their quest for a true family. I wish they felt that WE REALLY WISHED THEM WELL.

Merry Christmas and thanks for the kisses.