Sabi ni Father...

... The Lord is my destiny.

Well, it's true. I cannot count the number of times that God has saved me from my bad judgment. In fact, a lot of 'em are very close calls that all I was left with was to say, "Thank God He took control."

Beterana talaga yata ako ng mga maling desisyon at konklusyon. Kasi, I know that a lot of people will agree that being in a position where you are one of the parties blurs the line between LOGIC and OPTIMISM. ANd we are such stubborn creatures that we seldom listen first to God or even to the people who care for us because we think and feel that only us could ever understand the situation.

I don't know, it never has been a habit of mine to pray at designated hours or to even have a routine where I am compelled to talk to God... it's always been spontaneous, sometimes I find myself talking to Him inside a tricycle or a cab, or even while taking a shower, or while I am waiting for my turn to recite... it's just ME. I am not comfortable with conforming and to committing to something when I am not sure if I can actually finish or successfully follow it. It's actually fun to just talk to God the way you'd talk to your close friends... barkada kumbaga. It's very uhmm, effective.

Minsan nga lang, I find less time... and I can never find it in my heart to make excuses... it's futile to even bother because no matter how logical or how convincing it may sound to a human, excuses are not meant to give you a "pass" when it comes to Him. Nothing can justify lack of time for God because if He suddenly decides to not have time for you, basically, you are doomed. I constantly thank Him for the smallest of things because as cornball sounding as it may sound, these little things make life a li'l more exciting...

Finding the extraordinary out of the orindary... finding time to thank Him for allowing you to safely go home... finding time to thank Him for taking away your runny nose... even the most shallow of reasons like finding time to thank Him for a disaster date.

God really is the embodiment of our DESTINY. Just like God, we can never grasp, no matter how hard we try, the complexity of how things work and how things lead us to where we are right now. We can try but if we take away the layers of logic, reason and dedution, it all boils down to faith. FAITH is called Faith because no burden of proof is imposed, no contradiction could ever amount to a rebuttal and no supervening event could ever change it.

At the end of the day, FAITH becomes our companion, faith becomes our strength. FAITH becomes everything.

May Ginawa ako...

... na ikakatuwa ng isa kong friend.

Finally, the incentives are coming. =P

FRIENDS FOREVER

[looks at my closest friends because they understand the "meaning" of the title]

And so July 7, 2007 starts... I met up with my "long lost friend" and well, nothing has changed. He still is very focused, goal-oriented and well, I still am in charge of all the fun. We went to Figaro to "catch up" and we sorta chatted for two hours. It was nice to bump into him again. I guess it'll take us at least another 2 years before we can meet up again... "busy eh".

Horoscope for today:
Nothing's more alluring than your undivided attention for a tantalizing spell. Leave them wanting more of it. Tune in fully, consider offering a friendly invitation, and move on to more prospects.

Don't be played for a sucker. If you feel like you're being boxed into an
emotional corner, speak up and say so. They may not be doing it deliberately or
maliciously, but you still need to stand up for yourself.

To the "fans" of "the boyfriend", you guys don't have to worry. I asked for his permission before I embarked on the adventure that is "meeting up with the long lost friend", that's of course with a disclaimer that HE IS NOT ALLOWED TO DATE ANYONE else because I'm SELOSA. The poor boyfriend just replied with a witty, "Kamusta naman ang GENDER EQUALITY?" which got a standing ovation from me and my friends last night. But of course I have to remind him that in reality, Relationships don't have GENDER EQUALITY... we [the women] are the BOSSES, I AM THE BOSS. No violent reaction after that, haha.

And so, the TRIPLE SEVEN day started and we're still a looooong way to go before it comes to an end. I look forward to more "magical moments" and to more "worthy memories" waiting to be blogged. Special thanks to Joan and Ana for checking on me if I am still doing ok in my highly publicized "coffee date". Yeah, I'm a big girl, I can handle one "long lost friend." In fact, I think I handled him, err the whole thing pretty well.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my BATCHY CES PAL!

Itutumba natin yang Coco Cabana na yan mamaya!!!!

Of Pseudos, Dates and Long Losts

Sam [http://samboado.blogspot.com], my dragon lady, is posting a lot of entries about her dating escapades and I am literally JEALOUS. Well, except for the fact that I have a "pseudo-boyfriend" and that I have a "potential" lunch / coffee date tomorrow with a long-lost "friend", my dating career is in a HALT.

This entry is meant to clear up wrong conclusions, wrong assumptions and wrong "feelings" that are brewing, both internally and externally. Anyway, ranting has been a part of my daily blogging and today, I am err... not really sad, not really lonely, but expectant.

If things "go well" [keeping fingers crossed], I might be in for another roller coaster ride. "The boyfriend" has been physically and emotionally absent but will [hopefully] be present tomorrow night, the "long lost buddy" is trying to reconnect and Ces is turning 23. This should be the beginning of a string of exciting events. Except that I vowed not to get drunk again and that I am quite in limbo for the past weeks.

And no... nothing romantic has been happening... and no I never had sex in my life. And yeah, I am conservative... despite all observations leaning towards the contrary.

But... there is ONE THING that might lift my spirit up. This is make or break. [looks at Ces and the gang]. Sana.

I would like to end this entry by describing this scenario... "Euns looks at Patring, smiles and winks. "Nakatulog ako kagabi, ikaw?" [inside joke]

Halik ng Diwata

Hindi ko na maalala kung paano ang maramdaman ka. Nananaghoy ako di tulad ng isang umiibig na naghihintay sa kanyang sinta kundi tulad ng pangungulila ng langit sa mga tala na kinukubli ng mga dumadaang mga ulap.

Ang paglisan mo ay nag-iwan ng mga agam-agam. Ni ang aking alaala ay hindi maibigay ang damdamin na pumuno sa akin ng naryan ka pa. Hindi ka isang alaala, hindi ka isang gunita... ikaw ay tila halik ng diwata na nag-iiwan ng maraming mga tanong ukol sa katotohanan at mahika.

My Source of Joy Fled

Koko Nog apparently was in the law school while I was enthusiastically listening in my Corp Gov class. He had a question about "the boyfriend".

Koko, I still am not in a relationship. This is contrary to popular belief. I miss you and I hope your date went pretty fine.

Sabi ng HOROSCOPE eh!

The Bottom Line

Like the song says, when it comes to a new relationship, you had better shop around!

In Detail

As the song says, when it comes to a new relationship, you had better shop around! There are quite a few interesting candidates on the scene right now, but many of them are not worthy of a second look. Keep in mind that choosing a book based on its cover will probably leave you disappointed. When people have too much outer beauty, they sometimes tend to get lazy about inner beauty. Look for someone who offers more for you in both areas -- inside and out.

Having discriminating taste is a good thing in the realm of romance at the moment -- you're noticing the little things and paying attention to overall compatibility too. Do give 'em a chance, though. Your sweetheart wants you to be a little more spontaneous. Your reaction is to check your planner and see if there's room in the schedule for that. That's definitely a sign you need to go with the flow a little more!

No Can Do

We will find our way... you can try but you can never stop MULTIPLY addicts. And as for me, the blogging starts again.. woohoo.

I'm a POSTCARD MODEL!!!

i'm the girl, 2nd from left... NICE JUMP DIBA???? haha..

Eunice Looking for BLISS

[title's my reply to Shem]

Euns: He doesn't like me!
Chris: He doesn't know I exist!
Euns: I'm not better off!!! Sa'kin may finality... he's not that into me.

I had a moment with my crush... well, i saw him, he saw me.. NR. Hassle. I Think he even tried to avoid me. Badtrip.

Blech.

Lemme introduce you to the newest law firm in town... Pallarca Liboon Lumawag Sy Humangit Law Firm


PLUSH
"We will PLUSH your FROBLEMS away!"

Sayang, may party pooper kasi e... hmmp.

Three Persons in a Week

Three random persons talked to me this week about my "sadness". They all managed to corner me and ask if something is wrong because according to them, I look really sad...or lonely... basta malungkot. In these three moments, my reaction was the same, I was as confused as they are because the truth is, I am not really sad. I don't know if I deserve the word sad, it's too "sad" a word... I don't know if I deserve the word lonely either... it's too "lonely". I cannot accurately pinpoint what the cause of this aura is, I am not even sure if I might be blocking the loneliness that's been bothering me for the longest time.

It might be that I am afraid to embrace my loneliness or to even acknowledge the fact that I am seriously in need of something at least close to interesting to happen in my life. I don't want sadness to eat the spirit that's been keeping me from losing whatever happiness I have stored in my being. I don't want loneliness to betray me and make people see right through the happy wall that I was able to build.

I am afraid of fragility. No matter how many times I vowed not to hide it anymore. Maybe I do need some saving... maybe these three people are meant to wake me up and toface that part of me that I'm running away from.

I am a mess. I want to be me again. I don't know how and where to start.