Depressingly Sweet

You can smile all day, laugh all day, dance around all day until that particular moment. That particular instance when you close your eyes right before you sleep... you get reminded of that one thing that makes you open your eyes again. You stare at the ceiling, anticipating the lukewarm build up of emotions within you.

You smile and your lips slightly extend... just in time to catch the tears journeying your cheeks. Then you fall asleep.

You make the hair at the back of my neck stand up...

Pay to the order of EUNICE's LOVELIFE
provided that somebody steals her heart.

Since my lovelife is FICTITIOUS and Non-existent... I am payable to bearer.
But because it's conditional, I am non-negotiable.
I can still "assign" it anyway.
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from Patring:

Prof: Who were present during the trial?
Student: Hmm... the judge?

Prof: Can you give me the requisites of [something]?
Student: I can't.

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I actually said EXCUSE ME to a dog. How lame is that?

Even the best fall down sometimes...

... even the wrong words seem to rhyme.
-- Collide by Howie Day

So far so not good. Three exams down and 6 MORE TO GO! People get depressed all the time and as for me, I just continue to be myself. Sabi nga ni Patring, this is how we cope. Law school can be really depressing and if I let all these negative vibes overwhelm me, I might not be able to survive. I won't rant anymore about how kick-ass my exams were, let's just say that I am still glad that I am here. This sem's been pretty gentle to me. In fact, I think this is my best sem so far, but at the back of my mind I still can't shake the thought of failing... of not being good enough.

I got home at around 12mn and both my parents were still up. I got into a long conversation with them about what's been happening to me in the law school. I talked about my friends' insanity and everything thay ought to [but wished they won't] know. I love talking to my parents, it makes me feel rejuvenated. I told 'em that I had a hard time in my exams. I even slipped into the whole kwentuhan a story or two about my Peter Pan crush. [of course i conveniently "forgot" to divulge that teeny-weeny detail of me crushing on him, hehe] It was a good ending to a tiring and disappointing day.

Ang masasabi ko lang, si Patty may chinuchurva! [*hugs]

When All Else Fails...

... play dead. - Shineee

Laughtrip. So I am officially playing dead. =P

I went ukay-ukay shopping today with my sister. THat's after cleaning my room. So yes, I am doing my best to stall my studying for Nego Finals tomorrow. I am gonna watch Step Up first before I start memorizing.

PLAY DEAD.

AMEN

"My plans for you are good and not evil, to give you a future and a hope."
Jeremiah 29:11

I Could Use SOME Sleep...

... but I have to go to Mass with my family at 8am. It's not like I look at going to Mass as an added burden to my already burned out [tried to think of a good metaphor, to no avail] powerplant. This just got me into thinking of my a few weeks old SPIRITUAL IMBALANCE. It's probably hard to imagine me looking for SPIRITUAL BALANCE but like what a lot of my old friends already know, I am a very spiritual person. Not religious, spiritual. I do respect religious ceremonies and I do believe in their relevance with regard to my practice of my faith. It's just that I choose to be more of a "God-I-know-you're-with-me-let's-talk-now" kind of girl. Lately, I have been feeling a teeny-weeny bit of guilty because the truth is, things are actually doing kind of great in my life. Not that bumpy but not that smooth, and so it's kind of stable. So, I think my SPIRITUAL IMBALANCE comes from the fact that I don't know what might be brewing in the future. This is me. I anticipate bad things looooong before it happens. It's my way of saying, "Hey BAD THING, I know you're there and I want you to know that I DON'T CARE. I will conquer you!" but somewhere along the way, before it does come... I feel afraid. I get scared a lot of times. I often look at everything around me and see myself as a nail that's sticking out. A stubborn nail. This is ME without sleep. I tend to think a lot. I tend to overanalyze. I could use some sleep. Actually, A LOT of sleep. Heck, I could be Sleeping Beauty and not care.

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This is GOING TO BE WORTH IT.

Not the time to be disheartened.

Why would he send me something so sweet after sending him something so CORNY?

Romantic Euns: Kasi he STILL LIKES YOU. After all these years.
Cynical Euns: Kasi un ung unang-unang message sa INBOX nya at di na sya nag-isip. Basta lang may mai-forward.

Simple Pleasures

1. 5-minute breaks [anything can happen. from "text-text na lang pickup line from a STRANGER" to yosi breaks, to making fun of Haze's senyora aura, LOLO jokes about you-know-who]
2. joke time with SABAW kung SABAW law students
i.e. from Tin "true love" Plata: Ano ang pinakamalakas na bagyo?
Euns: Ano?
Tin: TUKSO.
Euns: [blank stare]
Tin: *sings... Kay rami nang, winasak na tahanan... kay rami nang, matang pinaluha.

Tin: Bakit di pwede magsuot ng grass skirt si Mahal?
Euns: Bakit?
TIn: Napapagkamalan syang sipa.

Tin: Nasa hospital daw si Mahal... nasagasaan.
Euns: *look of anticipation
Tin: ... ng Tamiya.

Patring: Nalulungkot ako.
Euns: Bakit?
Patring: Bumababa na ang kalidad ng mga jokes.

Patty: May chismis ako sayo. May kakilala tayo, three months na on the way.
Euns: [interesado]
Patty: Si Santa Claus. Three months na lang, on the way na.


3. seeing the look of confusion on the faces of non-law students... "Starbucks ba'to o library?!"
4. dwelling on the ITLOG issue [see previous entry on ITLOG]
5. paparazzi moments with Patring
6. surprise visit of LOPEZ as the cool DRIVAR and driving around Rockwell with him to "catch up with our block's KAKUPALAN"
7. Justice Aquino's "closing spiel" thanking us for giving him the opportunity to share his knowledge. [Aww!]
8. learning how to read the hymenal clock
9. looking at exit and entry wounds
10. Ana's future SHOWER scene [because she apparently understands NEGO more if she's in the shower ....

Para sa lahat ng ito. I AM HAPPY.

Icky.

Ayokong makarinig ng mga kwentong FIRST KISS. Lalo na kung TORRID.

Ayokong makarinig ng mga sorpresa na nagi-involve ng lalaking naka-brief lang.

BAWAL ANG LOVE PAG FINALS. Walang logic ang love.

Clutter Bin ALERT

I felt smart today. Both my SALES and Nego recits were ok... plus, LAND TITLES quiz was tolerable. [*winks]

DuhPerm had dinner at Goodearth both to celebrate Ana's birthday and to sort of mark the OFFICIAL START OF THE FINALS FEVER. Kumbaga, meron kaming sariling version ng Send-offs. Un nga lang, for the FINALS. Beer, cake, chinese food at kape. Whatever's available e no?

But I'm happy. And stable. It's 4am. I have a 2pm class. Last meeting for Property. Closing time's knocking at our door again. I'm hoping for the best.

Second year first sem's not as bumpy as my past sems. FOCUS and PROPER PERSPECTIVE can get you to places.

Nagyayaya si Ricel mag-BORA sa sembreak. Sana.

May BRA ako

After tripping on ANA's egg, she decided to avenge herself by conniving with the "more respectable" people of our block into telling the others that I'm not wearing anything under my green knitted top because the spags underneath is similar to my skin's color.. Ana succeeded this time into making me blush.

lokohan portion

Mia: Eunice, ano ka ba? Bakit naman di ka nag-bra?
Eunice: Ah kasi nagsusukat-sukat ako sa kwarto ko tapos di ko na-realize na mala-late na pala ako. So sabi ko, di naman siguro nila mapapansin kahit na knitted na butas-butas un damit ko kasi busy sila.
Mia: [tawa] Kadiri un a.

so for the nth TIME... may BRA ako. Masyadong mahirap for me kung it-try ko na pumasok sa school na wala un. Although I once had a prof in UP who vowed never to wear bra as a sign of her being in touch with her femininity. Still. I'm not into that.

Klasmeyt: Bakla ba si ________?
Everyone: Oo naman!
Klasmeyt: Sabi nun friend nya di raw e. In touch lang daw sa feminine side nya.
Euns: Baka naman kasi, meron lang KONTING part nya na in touch pa sa MASCULINE SIDE kaya di pa nya ma-declare.
Kyok: Bakla un, sya un tipong di mo na tatanungin e. Pagkakita mo pa lang ang assumption na agad, shit bakla 'to.

Prof: Alonzo?
Patty: [tawa] Sir she texted and said that she's coming.
Euns: Ayos a, prof.
Patty: imbes kasi na ang assumption dadating sya, kabaligtaran e. [smiles]

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