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Aww.

[sa elevator]
Euns: Hey Alvin.
ALvin: Hey.
Euns: Kamusta?
Alvin: Pagod na ako... Monday pa lang.
Euns: Don't worry, things'll be better.
Alvin: Sana mag-dila ka... anghel ka nanaman eh.
Euns: Aww.

Alam Mo Naman Eh...

YM Conversation

Friend: Hey, kamusta?
Euns: Ito.
Friend: Are you finally seeing someone?
Euns: Alam mo naman ang sagot dyan e.
Friend: You always fall for the wrong ones.
Euns: Not true.
Friend: I know you too well. Chances are, you're feeling insecure at present.
Euns: Ha?
Friend: Kasi... if you're ok you'd say yes you're seeing someone or come up with a witty answer instead of, "Ito."
Euns: Not true.
Friend: So true.
Euns: Ikaw kasi e, pinagpalit mo ko.
Friend: Ikaw kasi.
Euns: Ano?
Friend: Di mo ko gusto.
Euns: We weren't meant to be.
Friend: Why?
Euns: I don't know.
Friend: See?
Euns: See what?
Friend: You always fall for the wrong guys. You fall for guys who aren't interested.
Euns: Err. Thanks ha.
Friend: You are in love with the chase.
Euns: I am in love with the idea of falling in love.
Friend: Pero you're happy?
Euns: Very.
Friend: I'm happy too.
Euns: You deserve to be.
Friend: Sabihin mo rin yan sa sarili mo.
Euns: [euns, you deserve to be happy]
Friend: Haha. Seryoso. Alam mo naman eh.
Euns: Sana.
Friend: Euns, di mo kailangan mahirapan. Di mo rin kailangan masaktan.
Euns: Baka kailangan.
Friend: Masokista.
Euns: Ibabalik ko sa'yo ito... "Alam mo naman eh."
Friend: *hug
Euns: Salamat.
Friend: For?
Euns: ALways being there when I need you.
Friend: Alam mo naman eh.

I am Very Talented...

"Talent mo talaga yan no? You find unique ways to ruin beautiful things..."
-Japhet

Ok, that was a good one. Japhet dropped that line while we were drinking our hearts out at Pier One last Saturday along with Sam. I don't know if I should believe him, but I know that at the back of my mind, I have some history of ruining good things... but I guess it's part of growing up, of learning and of becoming a better person. In my entire existence, I have only asked two people out.. that again is contrary to popular belief that I am very liberated. I never did and will never regret what I did, maybe it's because when I did that, I was prepared to get hurt. It was like THE DEAD END. It was the make or break of everything. What may be deduced from it is that I am not a fan of cliffhangers.

Of course it's expected that I'd say it wasn't and isn't my attention to ruin great things or to pre-empt beautiful futures, it's just that I am not comfortable with the existence of issues in my life because I end up wasting my time thinking about them. I am a thinker, to the extreme sense of that word... I am capable of halting everything until I get the conclusion or the end of a story. I am not a fan of what if's, of what could've been's and of if only's because I want to be in control. After all, it's my happiness that is at stake here.

What's the point of this whole entry? This is a declaration that I refuse to acknowledge the accusation that I ruin good things. In fact, I would love for good things to come my way and do stay... it's just that most of the time, they don't. I don't harbour ill-feelings, I don't even find it in my heart to get angry with people who may have unintentionally and intentionally hurt me along the way. It is because if they were able to hurt me, chances are, I love them or I care for them. That will justify why I would still want them to be in my life... they have become my friends. I never let go because when I decide that I want them in my life, I do want them. This is applicable to romantic partners, friends, even acquaintances. What you see is what you get. What you feel is what I want you to feel. Never will I intentionally make people's lives miserable because I don't believe that anyone deserves to be such.

I still go out with men I used to date once in a while, some of whom did hurt me deeply, but after all the pain, the friendship and the memories of good times remain. I am very talented, and my closest friends can attest to the fact that I am very strong. People ask me how I am able to easily move on, I say moving on is a decision too. In the same way that everything that could shape our lives will boil down to how we decide to act. At a certain point, you have to be able to tell yourself that it has to stop. You have to be able to tell yourself that you don't deserve to be treated that way. At some point, you must realize that you are worthy to be happy.

I pray everyday asking God to never take away my optimism. So far, He hasn't. In fact, I have high hopes for something that could happen in the near future. It may or may not happen, but I guess the best part of it all is that I did what I had to do. If things don't go the way I want them to go, it wasn't meant to be. And if they do, then I can look back and smile knowing that I had something to do with it.

I am not letting go yet. I still believe. I still hope.

Saturday is Gimmick Day

After the Avilon Zoo thing, I met up with Nate, Sam and Japh for yet another round of kwentuhan and catching up. Sam's too happy to tell us about the "we look up to you" moments that she had in her classes, Nate was too happy to get a tour from me at the Library and Japh was too happy that he brought a box of brownies for us to munch on.

It was a typical afternoon, if only we were still in UP, but the change in venue [Rockwell of course] and the changes in our lives [sa ano mang aspeto] made our conversations richer.

Then we decided to go to Market Market so I can go shopping. Sam, Japh and I ended our day by staying at Pier One until 1 in the morning.

I am happy that I am seeing them more often, I need them so I can be saner.

The ILLUSION of a FRIDAY NIGHT GIMMICK......

... became a reality.

It started out with the controversial one-piece ensemble, which I justified by saying that "I am trying to create an illusion that I have a date on a Friday night", I texted Nate to meet with me at Starbucks, he said yes and then the rest was history. Abby, Nate / Atoy and Japhet met up with me to catch up at Starbucks... It was of course a fun, fun, fun night. A few hours after we had to say goodbye but my night didn't there.

Ces and I proceeded to Dencio's at around 12 midnight to drink and be merry with the sisters. We ended up closing Dencio's again, man, two straight weeks. Yebah!

I have a life.

I am finally, finally doing things that are outside law school. I think I have completely adapted. Dapat lang, after more than two years ba naman e.

Nate: Bakit ang conservative mo ngayon?
Euns: Ces, sabi ko sa'yo e!
Ces: Conservative, napaka-controversial nga ng damit nya today.
Nate: Kasi sa UP, normal lang yan e.
Ces: I can just imagine.

The POTTER Experience

Never ask a law student if he / she liked a film because chances are, he'll / she'll say yes... Why? Because anything that will distract us from the scary and gloomy world that is the law school is welcome.

The other night, we had an official "Girls Nightout", Haze, Ces and I embarked on yet another journey towards finally stopping our loser streak, we finally watched Harry Potter: The Order of the Phoenix. We enjoyed it, in the same way that we enjoyed anything that we did together.. we were literally laughing the whole flick, although we understand that it was supposed to be a dark film. Yeah we got depressed when Sirius Black died, but I will never forget the TORRID KISSING Scene of Cho Chang and Harry. Ang nasabi ko na lang, "Bakit naman kasi may torrid na kissing scene? Bata pa sila!! Yan ang nagagawa ng mahabang sexual tension e."

But seriously, we enjoyed it, kahit na sabi nga ni Ces, "Hanggang dito ba naman may love life parin na issue?". It was a wonderfully-made film, although not loyal to the book, i think it gave justice to it. We are sooo looking forward to the next part.

Caveat: [looks at Chris] I hate Nate for watching it on Imax. I'm sure it was a more pleasant experience.

Got this from KIRA

“My girlfriend, Nicole, is unlike any other girl I’ve dated,” says Greg, 36. “She can dance all night, chat up anyone, and gives me lots of breathing room. All my buddies are jealous of me, and I don’t blame them. I’d be jealous of me too.”

Just like there was something about Cameron Diaz’s Mary—whose je ne sais quoi made men fake handicaps just to be near her—there’s something about Greg’s girlfriend too. She’s in another league. Hell, she’s in the Girlfriend Hall of Fame. She’s the girl men brag about to their buddies when she’s theirs and sigh over when she’s not.

But before you turn green with envy, understand that these all-star g.f.s aren’t born with a rare gift to bring men to their knees. No, somewhere along the way—maybe even after a relationship or two gone wrong—they learned the secrets that can snag a commitment out of even the biggest player. But what are these irresistible tricks—and how can you make them work for you?

To find out, we conducted an exclusive online survey, asking men what traits separate a most-wanted chick from her just-okay counterparts. Tons of guys were psyched to speak their minds—and their top turn-ons were surprisingly similar. They made perfectly clear that their dream date isn’t an impossible blend of Elizabeth Hurley, Lara Croft, and Katie Couric but a mix of seven personality traits that any woman can easily acquire. So without further ado, here are the crucial qualities of gold-medal girlfriends.

1. She can win anyone over
Whew! You’ve finally snagged the guy you want, so you can relax, put your chick charisma on the shelf, and stop worrying about impressing anyone for a while, right? Guess again. In the piles of survey responses we pored over, we found that the overwhelming majority of guys totally dig the same thing: a woman who can work a room—whether it’s a formal business dinner or a keg party—and charm everyone in it. “Most men want a girlfriend who will fit into his life and make him look important,” says Kathleen Mojas, Ph.D., a clicnical psychologist in private practice in Beverly Hills, California, who specializes in relationships. “Winning over the people who are important in his life is a crucial part of that.”

Nick, 26, agrees wholeheartedly. “My girlfriend’s personality is magnetic. She’s extremely smart and witty, and people are naturally drawn to her. Whenever I introduce her to anyone new, they always ask, ‘How did you get so lucky?’”

And Nick’s babe doesn’t have anything you don’t—she’s just learned how to bring what’s inside to the surface. Next time you’re at a party or a family gathering with your guy, shrug off self-consciousness and make a point to show your true colors. If you’re tense, recount a funny story or just speak your mind—“Can you believe that…?” regarding something you feel strongly about to help yourself loosen up. You’ll be surprised how being a little outspoken goes a long way toward making you shine.

2. She makes sex an adventure
News flash: Men like sex. Okay, so you knew that. You figure that as long as you put out, they’re happy, right? Not necessarily, according to the guys we heard from, most of whom had super strong opinions on the subject. “Nothing keeps me interested like a woman who has a real sexual range, who keeps mixing things up sexually,” says one representative respondent. So it’s not getting it “right” that keeps him coming back for more, it’s constant experimentations. “I need a woman who can make sweet love one night, then turn around and be a wild woman the next,” one forthright fellow confessed.

And the experts agree. “Men get bored fast,” says Carole Atlman, Ph.D., a Las Vegas sex therapist and author of Be Your Own Sex Therapist (Casper Publishing, 1999). “To keep him excited about sex, you have to keep him guessing.” A good rule of thumb: Every third time you do it, try to introduce something radically new. Spring a funky position on him, wear a new piece of lingerie, or introduce a little kinky play with a pair of handcuffs. You’ll keep him coming back for more every time you prompt him to ask, “What’s next?”

3. She’s one of the guys—sometimes
Yes, letting your girlie guard down every once in a while can score you some serious points, insist most of the guys who spoke their minds in our survey. “I love it when a woman can just be herself around my friends,” one respondent wrote. And it’s clear why. “Women who drop the over-enthusiastic need to always look and act perfectly feminine come across as natural and confident,” says Judy Kuriansky, Ph.D., author of The Complete Idiot’s Guide to Dating (Alpha Books, 1999). “Men are naturally drawn to them.”

“When I was first dating my fiancé, he as dying for me to go to a professional wrestling match with him,” says Julia, 24. “It was the last way I wanted to spend a Sunday, but he wanted me to go so badly, I gave in.” Julia screamed her head off during the matches and drank way too much cheap beer. In short, it was their best date ever. “He loved it that I got down and dirty for him and was super appreciative later that night, if you know what I mean,” she says. “Now I volunteer to watch wrestling with him. His buddies are dumbfounded and weak with envy.” So go ahead and root for his team, knock back a beer with his buds, and just generally stay cool with his comrades.

4. She struts her stuff
Contrary to Hollywood propaganda, the women who wow men don’t always look like Heidi Klum or Nicole Kidman—they’re women who act like they do. At least that’s what most of our survey guys told us. “There’s nothing sexier than a woman who loves her body,” said one guy. “I dated a girl for a long time who was so self-conscious about her small breasts and round butt that she’d never take her T-shirt off at the beach and refused to wear shorts in public—even though I thought she looked fantastic.” Eventually he broke up with her and found someone new who—though fuller-figured than his last girlfriend—loves to show off her body. “She walks around like she’s God’s gift to men, and it’s such a turn on,” he raves.

So ditch the urge to fixate on flaws—and perfect playing up your assets. Try remembering every sweet thing he says about (or does to!) the parts you obsess most over. If he loves the curve of your tummy, for example, try to see it through his eyes—something soft and warm and sexy. “While it may be impossible to shake the societal pressure to have a perfect body, keep your anxiety to yourself when you’re out with him,” sasy Mojas. It’s simply no fun to be around someone who’s always obsessed with what they eat and how they look—especially if they are thin and totally gorgeous in his eyes.

5. She never goes psycho
One of the biggest girlfriend no-nos according to the guys we surveyed is letting your emotions constantly run amok. “If I have to live in fear of my girlfriend freaking out or breaking down on a daily basis, I’m outta there,” says one respondent. The two most dreaded emotional excesses: being hyper suspicious and crying at the drop of a hat.

Twenty-eight-year-old Trey has watched suspicious girlfriends read his buddies the riot act and is so relieved that his honey, Sara, does not freak out like that. Sara’s cool conduct is especially impressive considering that Trey has stayed friends with his ex-girlfriend, Lynn. “Most women couldn’t handle the fact hat my ex and I still talk on the phone every couple of months or so, but Sara jokes about it,” he says.

As for tears, Gary, 35, has dated several self-reliant women who were also total emotional messes. “Occasional tears are okay, but these women were always crying about one thing or another I did to upset them,” he says. “It drove me crazy enough to end the relationships. Now I’m with a woman who has it under control. Sure, she cries during sad movies, but she doesn’t have the daily breakdowns.”

What can you do to stem a high emotional tide? “First of all, as soon as you feel yourself overwhelmed with emotion, take time-out,” says Kuriansky. If you’re with him, simply say you need a break because you feel on the brink. Then talk yourself down from the emotional ledge or dial up your best bud for a reality check. “Sometimes just talking to a friend for a few minutes is all you need to get things back in perspective,” Kuriansky says. Once you have your emotions under control, sit down with him and talk matter-of-factly about whatever is making you feel unhinged—odds are, you’ll find out it was no big deal in the first place.

6. She gives him freedom to do his thing
It’s official: 24-7 is not a term that a man eagerly applies to romantic relationships—even when he is really into you. The men who spilled secrets online said that “clinginess” is the surest road to relationship disaster. “My number one qualification for a girlfriend is that she give me space to pursue my outside interests,” reported one survey respondent seriously into music. Explains Kuriansky,” Even though your first instinct may be to grab on to him so he doesn’t get away, it’ll backfire. Being too clingy is the quickest way to lose him.”

So whatever you do, resist the temptation to be his shadow, call him constantly, or nag about his spending time without you. This good old-fashioned reverse psychology works whether it’s a business meeting, Wednesday Night Basketball, or even the classic guys’ night out. So Kuriansky advises making casual suggestions, like, “Hey, you haven’t seen Stephen in ages. Why don’t you guys get together on Friday?”

That strategy worked wonders for Lucy, 28, a public relations manager. “My boyfriend is a sports fanatic and loves to watch Sunday games with his buddies,” she says. “So I started an all-girl Sunday card-playing group so he wouldn’t feel obliged to hang out with me. I never mentioned why I scheduled my group the way I did, but I could tell he appreciated it. I’m convinced my ploy had something to do with the fact that after a few months of Sundays apart, he proposed!”

7. She’s strong and independent
Since letting him have his space struck our survey guys as key, we weren’t surprised when they cited “desperation” as the quality most likely to drive them away. “I had this one girlfriend who used to grasp at my clothing all the time to pull me closer to her,” recounts one respondent. “It totally drove me crazy because it represented how needy she was in all aspects of the relationship. Not surprisingly, chicks who have a complete life and interests of their own and who honestly and truly don’t need a man are the ones who effortlessly attract the male species like bees to honey. “A strong, independent woman takes the burden off of a man to take care of her—emotionally and socially,” says Mojas. “And that’s a huge relief to him.”

The key to seeming super strong and secure? “Having your own activities and interests outside of your relationship gives you an air of mystery, independence, and sex appeal when you’re not around and makes him want you more when you are,” explains Kuriansky. So continue your pottery class on Wednesday, yoga with your best friend on Sunday mornings, and otherwise maintain your “pre-him” existence. “In the earlier stages of a relationship, aim to have at least two nights apart for every one together,” advises Kuriansky. “If you’re living together, try to go out with your friends or to a class at least twice a week.”

Cara, 26, says she kept up her sans-man life even after she started dating her boyfriend, Kevin. “After about six months, Kevin said that one of the reasons he was so drawn to me was that I wasn’t manically into the relationship,” says Cara. “Because he didn’t feel like I was watching his every move, he relaxed—and felt comfortable enough to open up and tell me he loved me.”

Zoo-wariwariwap

I'm surfing the net at present with Nate just beside me, we're finally starting our plan to conquer Ateneo one college at a time. As usual, ang mantra ay, "Kami ang makapangyarihan." haha.

Anyway, this blog entry is about my trip to the zoo today with the Kids of the ALS Staff. It was tiring but overflowing with fun and of course with my favorite people on earth, KIDS. I "mothered" two kids, Elay and Jessa whom Ana and I immediately found the need to give theme songs to... To Elay of course, we used the "Under my umbrella, ELAY ELAY ELAY ei ei..." part and to Jessa we sang, "JESSA smile away... JESSA smile away..."

The giant fish was just that, GIANT. And it's aggressive, which made it more of a "character."

Joan, Ana and I were sooooo excited to go to the Zoo that we didn't mind waking up for a 7:30 meet up, actually, it's a problem that had to be conquered by Joan and I because Ana IS DEFINITELY A MORNING PERSON.

I had to carry Elay around when she declared that she's tired, although she isn't a toddler anymore and as much as I liked carrying her, I have my physical limits. Jessa, on the other hand, threw up while we were on our way to the zoo which kind of made me think of why people who sit beside me always end up sick. [wink wink] Must be really me.

I also met Juliana, Ate Marissa's kid, who's uber adorable. Love, love, love her english-speaking , pretty me personality.

It was another great way to end my boring week, and two weeks before midterms, I am happy to announce that I actually have a life.

Woohoo!!

Avilon Zoo was great and I would recommend those who are young and young at heart to visit it one of these days.

Congratulations to Vina Padilla for a successful event and to everyone who volunteered, thank you for making it a heartwarming and uhmm, memorable Saturday.

Next year ulit!

[PS: Ipe, upload our pictures already! Un sa GK at un today, at un picture ko kahapon when I wore my controversial one-piece colorful kung colorful ensemble.

My Birthday Song

this was the number one song when I was born...

Hello

Lionel Richie

I've been alone with you
Inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips
A thousand times
I sometimes see you
Pass outside my door

Hello!
Is it me you're looking for?
I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You're all I've ever wanted
And my arms are open wide
Because you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much
I love you

I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again
How much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello!
I've just got to let you know
Because I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely?
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying I love you

Hello!
Is it me you're looking for?
Becuase I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely?
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying I love you

Elliot and I were talking during one of yosi breaks about how our birthdays may be connected to our lives right now... Kasi, Jeno Sanchez and Atty. Candelaria both have the same birthdays... kaya matalino sila.

At ako, pinanganak ng ELEKSYON, kaya magulo ang buhay ko. Ayos!

Illegal Possession of "Firearms"

Prof: Let's say that Mr. Conejos shows you his firearm.
Euns: [laughs silently... alone]
Prof: I mean, his firearm that explodes...
Euns: [Euns laughs with the class]
Prof: I mean, his firearm that fires bullets...
Class: [tawa na talaga ito!]
Prof: Kayo naman iba agad ang iniisip nyo e.
Euns: ANg lungkot na di pa sya nagbibiro, tumatawa na ako. That says a lot about me.

Prof: Where's your Batsheeba?
David: Sir, probably in Greenhills.

Prof: [starts to ask a question when he was unintentionally interrupted by Cindy] Sandali lang, di pa ako tapos.. nasa foreplay pa lang e! I promise, it's gonna be good.
Class: [noooooooooooo! Disturbing mental images!]