The Law and Economics of Lust, Love and Life

Rain, Rain Go Away!

[written last night...]

For me, the rain is the most efficient downer. It has a certain effect that I rarely miss and tonight, it got the emphasis that I involuntarily granted when I decided to study alone outside Starbucks despite the heavy downpour.

I was literally alone while struggling to get through my homework in Succession. It got me into thinking about why the hell am I still alone when rumor has it that I don't look and play the part. It can get pretty ugly really, going through my daily routine with that emptiness that constantly bugs me. Right now, it ceases to be a question of WHY because I know that there are reasons that are beyond my understanding but it is more of a string of HOWs that bother me. How am I surviving this emptiness? How can I change the whole thing? How can I continuously deny the reality that I miss being part of an "item"? How did i end up like this? How can I move past the uncertainties, the insecurities and the persistent reign of negative emotions that sometimes overcome me?

Happiness is a decision, in the same way that love is. You don't declare that you love someone just because in the rare moments that you got a glimpse of what could be, you realize that HE COULD BE. It's a fatal error to mistake love for something so temporary, it's fatal to think that you can make someone see what you see just because your view of the possibilities fit in your grand plan.

We all look at the same thing differently and most of the time, these views may never be reconciled. Love really is finding someone willing to share the view with you to share the different experiences that it triggers. Love is looking at the rain as a friend because it gives you the opportunity to share an umbrella. Love means never having to regret dancing in the rain . Love means transforming something as depressing as the rain into something magical...Love means feeling his warmth without having to hold hands. Love can never be temporary because it leaves a smile, a few tears and a lifetime of memories.

Love is pleasant loneliness. Love is enjoyable depression. Love is an expected irony.

SECRET OF THE WEEK

from POSTSECRET

Heard from Anj Danila [Long lost sister]

Laughtrip.

Waitresses talking about their supervisor (paraphrased into tagalog)
W1:
Grabe naman si ma'am ano? akala mo matalino.
W2: Bakit?
W1: Eh kasi kanina
nung pinapagalitan nya tayo, sabi nya "Ano ba guys," eh puro naman tayo babae
dito...
W2: Oo nga, dapat pang lalake lang kasi "guys" eh

International Economic Law

Prof: What would you do when the demand for sequined
blouses rises?
Student: Uhmm... advertise?
Prof: What is Finance?... It's one of the SEVEN SACRAMENTS.

Prof: You only know the value of education when....
TADA! You don't have it.

Prof: Is anybody here absent?
Class: [confused look]
Prof: It was a joke.
Class: [ah ok]

Prof: You're studying law, FICTION must be easy to
you.

Euns: Ang love parang Economics, hindi sya fixed.

Minsan, para din syang International law, kasi it's a PROCESS.

The WILL

Prof: Can you write the will on a tissue paper?
Student: [hesitant] Yes?
Prof: Why? Does the will have to be HYGIENIC?
[un na... di naman po, pero sana mas ok kung hygienic]

Prof: What is Herpes Zoster?
Doc: [blahblahblah]
Prof: Yeah, and it is airborne right?
Euns and Ces: [panicked look] AIRBORNE?????!!!

[afraid!]

THESIS the MOMENT!

Ok, for our first thesis seminar if and when we reach 4th year, I suggest that we call it... "THESIS IT!" while playing the lyrics, "Thesis the first tiiiiiiiiime, I'm gonna say I LOVE YOU...."

While we're at it, I'm formally declaring that my topic'll be...

"FORMALIZING THE INFORMAL ECONOMY"

"FORGIVENESS OF ONEROUS DEBTS"

[the title i will change because it bores me!]

Ana Diaz asked me to post that her topic will be ....

The MILK CODE

Thesis really is it! Let's go Batch 2009!

TRIPLE SEVEN DAY...

... proved to be magical.

I spent 8 hours partying with Ces and the rest of the gang at Coco Cabana...
the boyfriend "made me sundo in Starbucks" and "made buhat my bag" on our way to Plant. then we "made beso" when he went home [looks at Ana]...
ang kanyang pagte-text na "papunta na ako dyan." na inabot ng syam syam [meaning natapos ko basahin ang dalawang dyaryo] at tinext ko sya ng... "Nadapa ka ba?" pero ang totoo, wala syang payong at kailangan nya umikot sa ground dahil sarado na ang B1. aww.
then he stayed for dinner and a bottle of beer "against all odds."
plus, managed to make me panic when he jokingly asked me to talk to his mother. [horrified look]
dagdagan pa natin ng kanyang idea of sweetness na pag "dantay ng kanyang ulo sa aking balikat" na tila baga kami'y nasa luneta lamang.
ang walang hanggang usapan tungkol sa kawalan ng GENDER EQUALITY
ang kwentuhan tungkol sa aking "FIRST DATE" of the day
ang pagbubunyag ng "TENSION Headache" sa Transformers
we got to meet Ces' college friends... halo-halo na'to! and the gorgeous Vernon.
I got to talk to my long lost "brother" Elliot... our kwentuhan was loooong overdue. Napag-usapan ang VFA, JPEPA, go for the gold at kung anu-ano pang kalaliman.
i learned a lot of secrets from "the drunkards" [i.e. Boss Sam and Boss Trina] .
I saw Chris pinch Aj's nipple.
Nasabihan ako ni AJ na sensual dahil sa red shoes.
Nagkaron kami ng patay gutom moment habang napapamura pa sa sarap ng BULALO Steak kasabay ng beer at chocolate cake.
nagmukha kaming human stoplight, human philippine flag at kakulay ko ang PULIS MAKATI.
We ended the party by smoking one cig stick... it was a SMOKING ORGY. [Ces, Haze, AJ, Carloa and Patty]
Pag-uwi ko ng bahay, napagtawanan pa ako ng dad ko dahil according to him, "Para kang pusa na dahan-dahang pumapasok.. Di mo inexpect na gising pa ako no?" Ayos.

TRIPLE SEVEN DAY was GREAT!!!!

Back to regular programming. Back to law school.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CES!!!!!

My choice is the right choice....

You may be feeling quite confused by the many different options in front of you, Eunice. Perhaps it feels as if you are walking up a mountain with a large pack. You arrive at one ridge where the view is beautiful, yet you know that if you hike up farther, the view will be even more spectacular. The problem is that you may feel completely comfortable just staying at the place you are at right now. Remember that the choice you make is always the right one.

Dahil Wala akong Text Message kay Ces

"Di mo pa ako binabati!!!! Ang kaisa-isa mong text message sakin ay... "Wru?"!" -Ces Pal

Kaya naman ang blog entry ay inaalay ko sa kanya.

Kung meron tao na mas nakasama ko pa kaysa sa pamilya ko ngayong taon na'to... si Ces un.
Kung tatanungin ako kung sino ang best sa parallel parking... si Ces un.
Kung may pinaka-supportive sakin sa love life ko at sa iba't iba pang bagay... si Ces un.
Kung may tao akong gugustuhin na maunang magka-love life sakin... si Ces un.
Kung gagawin ko uli ang Chicken Dance at tatanungin ako kung sino ang partner ko.. si Ces un.
Kung merong taong sobrang lakas ang convincing power... si Ces un.
Kung pipilitin ako ng kahit sino na bumalik ng Galera ng walang boyfriend di talaga pwede... dahil kay Ces un. [inside joke]
Kung kinakailangan ko man mag-damage control ngayon... si Ces [at patty] un.
Kung mayroong taong gugustuhin ko na magsuot ng penguin costume... si Ces un.
Kung babalik man ako ng Alchemy at magsasayaw ulit... si Ces lang magpapabalik sakin dun.
Kung may taong masipag na maghatid sakin sa bahay ko... si Ces un.

Pero kung may magtatanong sakin kung bakit nasa Coco Cabana ako ng 8 hours... si CES parin un.

At kung may magtatanong kung sino ang pinaka-magandang tao [inside and out] na nag-birthday ng JULY 7.... SI CES UN.

Happy Birthday Batchy... I want you to be happy... I REALLY DO.

Let's go DL! =P

SIGURO in demand ako ngayon...

... kasi parang naglalabasan ang aking mga "nakaraan". Ok lang naman sana. Ang problema, di kasi seloso si "the boyfriend" nakakapikon. Pinapayagan ba naman ako? haha.

Pero dahil gusto na ako saksakin ng mga friends ko dahil parang kailan lang ay nagra-rant ako na walang incentive sa law school [technically wala pairn kasi nga di naman sila law students], ang masasabi ko lang... di nyo rin gusto mapunta sa kalagayan ko. Kasi sa lahat ng mga "sakit" at "pagkabigo" na kailangan ko mapagdaanan, wala parin akong La Vina. [La Vina ang magiging tawag ko kay "the one" dahil ang project namin ngayon ay buuin ang characters ng Princess Sarah... si Chris at ang kanyang Erminguard... nanjan din si Loti, Princess, Sarah at EMily na love triangle pero walang kaalam-alam na love triangle sila....]

Pero masaya, di pala ganun kasaya kasi nga may mga "disaster dates" na nangyayari. i.e. NEVER MIND.

Ano ang point? I was just thinking aloud... kumbaga sa Mangoes, baka season ko ngayon [that explains why I'm wearing Yellow na kinatawa ko sa cab kasi kakulay ko un mga pulis ng Makati].

Siguro nga in demand ako ngayon. Ang problema... [incoherent babbling]. Di ko pwede i-blog e. Next time na lang.

Sabi ni Father...

... The Lord is my destiny.

Well, it's true. I cannot count the number of times that God has saved me from my bad judgment. In fact, a lot of 'em are very close calls that all I was left with was to say, "Thank God He took control."

Beterana talaga yata ako ng mga maling desisyon at konklusyon. Kasi, I know that a lot of people will agree that being in a position where you are one of the parties blurs the line between LOGIC and OPTIMISM. ANd we are such stubborn creatures that we seldom listen first to God or even to the people who care for us because we think and feel that only us could ever understand the situation.

I don't know, it never has been a habit of mine to pray at designated hours or to even have a routine where I am compelled to talk to God... it's always been spontaneous, sometimes I find myself talking to Him inside a tricycle or a cab, or even while taking a shower, or while I am waiting for my turn to recite... it's just ME. I am not comfortable with conforming and to committing to something when I am not sure if I can actually finish or successfully follow it. It's actually fun to just talk to God the way you'd talk to your close friends... barkada kumbaga. It's very uhmm, effective.

Minsan nga lang, I find less time... and I can never find it in my heart to make excuses... it's futile to even bother because no matter how logical or how convincing it may sound to a human, excuses are not meant to give you a "pass" when it comes to Him. Nothing can justify lack of time for God because if He suddenly decides to not have time for you, basically, you are doomed. I constantly thank Him for the smallest of things because as cornball sounding as it may sound, these little things make life a li'l more exciting...

Finding the extraordinary out of the orindary... finding time to thank Him for allowing you to safely go home... finding time to thank Him for taking away your runny nose... even the most shallow of reasons like finding time to thank Him for a disaster date.

God really is the embodiment of our DESTINY. Just like God, we can never grasp, no matter how hard we try, the complexity of how things work and how things lead us to where we are right now. We can try but if we take away the layers of logic, reason and dedution, it all boils down to faith. FAITH is called Faith because no burden of proof is imposed, no contradiction could ever amount to a rebuttal and no supervening event could ever change it.

At the end of the day, FAITH becomes our companion, faith becomes our strength. FAITH becomes everything.