The Law and Economics of Lust, Love and Life

THANK YOU BUTTERFLY.

Why is happiness such a fleeting emotion? I went home happy. I slept with a heavy heart. I cannot share what made me cry last night, i only told one friend. I dunno, i guess i am embarassed that my life's not perfect. I guess im scared that if people'll start knowin how screwed some aspects of my life are, they'll stop loving me. Thank YOU for being a friend. Thank you. I can never thank you enough. You taught me that it's ok to share your problems with friends.

I HAVE A NEW LOVER.

His name's RT. I have long waited for someone who will make me stop from talking. Someone who will bring out the submissive part of me. Someone who will help me become a better person and i finally found him... RT. Rotary Torso. The most intimidating machine in Fitness First. haha.

Yeah, i went to the gym today with three of the Senior partners of Duh Perm, THE SHIFTEES [why? I'll explain later]. I told 'em, "I'm submissive today." I ALMOST didnt come. THe rain was pouring hard and it was awfully hard for me to get out of bed. But according to Grace Slick, "No matter how big or soft or warm your bed is... you STILL have to get out of it." Bravo! Buti na lang Melo called, i was compelled to wake up.

Shemps i took the cab to The Fort. At take note, isang mapagmarunong ang driver. Therefore mali ang aming inikutan. Haay. Kamusta naman ang field trip to The Fort db? Anyway, i arrived at Fitness just in time for the Latin Groove class. It was so much fun. It's just sad na wala akong totoong gym attire so un sweat pants ko ay halos nalalaglag. Ang poor. Sobrang cute ni Yvie nun nakarating kami sa "Face the Mirror" part of the class. I will never forget her hirit, "Ang motivation ko habang nagc-class ay fetuccine." MALI ITO.

We danced for an hour, nonstop. I missed dancing. Then GYM PROPER. More like kwentuhan proper. At nakilala ko na nga si RT. I was "moaning" while i was riding him. Napalayo tuloy si Yvie at Melo habang si Mumiel ay busy sa kanyang leg press. THen it's stretching time. Yvie and I achieved something. We know where to get the sound effect of a freaky door opening (just in time for halloween)... sa STrETCHINE [ stretching machine]! I swear, ganun un tunog nya while we were riding it. Bwahahaha.

Perpetual kwentuhan sa locker room. Mas matagal pa yata un pags-stay namin sa Locker room kesa sa mismong pag-gym. ANdami napagkwentuhan na mahirap banggitin dito dahil.... may imminent danger. Harhar. So shower time na. LSS: By the Time this Night is Over by Peabo Bryson. SHemps naalala ko nanaman "SIYA" na hindi ako tinext ng dalawang araw na. Ayaw na nya sakin. HMmp. Drama. ANg tagal mag-shower ni MUMIEL! At Pink club nanaman kami paglabas namin ng shower.

After Gym-ing, we decided to try this Chinese Resto somewhere in The Fort. I do not remember the name of the resto and i do not know how to pronounce it plus i shall not give them AD SPACE in my blog because the service WAS HORRIBLE. And to think na kami lang ang customer. Argh. Mongkok parin at LuK Yuen hahahaha. At just when Mumiel was really really hungry, her order took forever to come. It was just Beef and Oyster sauce. Oh well.

Shem and I decided to "chill" at our HOUSE, Starbucks Loft while she was waiting for her sister. Kwento-kwento. At bigla na lamang akong tinawagan ni Jeifet. They're coming daw. Therefore, hanggang gabi pa ako. Dumating si AM, Abby, Japhet and Paula. Hay i miss 'em. Kwento-kwento. At iyon ang aking buong araw.

Zorrito My Love III.

Sa wakas at nakasakay na ng Cab. Napaisip ako tuloy, mabilis bang kumalat ang balita sa community ng mga cab drivers na nakiki-text kami ni Jason dahil wala kaming load? haha. Sa loob ng cab ay di parin ako binigo ng dalawa. Napatawa nanaman nila ako dahil sa kanilang mga jokes. Jason, wag ka mag-alala, funny ka parin kahit na feeling mo wala kang comic-timing. Ang adorable talaga nitong dalawang lalaking ito. Sa sobrang kakornihan nila, binuksan ni Manong Driver bigla un radyo ng cab nya. Guys, get the hint daw. Haha.

Sa wakas nakarating din sa Meralco Cheter este Theater. Napansin namin na magarbong-magarbo ang mga ilaw sa loob ng Meralco. Diba dapat nagtitipid ng kuryente? At meron isang seryosong tanong na nabuo sa aming isipan, ang Meralco Theater ba ay nagbabayad pa ng electric bill sa Meralco? Ang redundant diba? Sa dinami-dami ng mga memories na maaalala nila, ang naalala nila ay ung time na nadapa ako sa Ateneo sa harap ng mga cute guys. Thanks guys. Sabi nga ni Angel magkakaiba ang attire namin, siya ang nag-aalok ng credit card, ako ang donya at si Jason ang highschool guy. Therefore, kami ni ANgel ang mag-asawa at anak namin si Jason. Bwahahaha... happy family. Uhm, di ako handa. Nakapambahay lang ako. =P

We waited for the members of Duh Perm, Melo, Yvie and Shem... Yvie was with Nes (her bestfriend, i think) and Shem was with her highschool bestfriend (sorry i forgot her name) and the bestfriend's pamangkin. Ako? I was with my "hot dates" Angel and Jason. Naks! Hintay hintay sa lobby. PHOTO OP. I swear, we're so narcissistic,haha. Pasok sa loob, may free coffee. Great. The best way to aggravate my hyperacidity. Photo OP uli. Time for the Movie. FINALLY.

The movie was funny. Keri lang. Tawa kami ng tawa kasi andami namin kababawan na naiisip. At higit sa lahat, magandang maganda talaga un pwesto namin. Nakatagilid kami. Parang magpapakuha ng picture. Laughtrip talaga. Pero ano ang pinaka-ok na mga ideas na naisip namin? READ On.

1. Sa tingin namin, shining moment talaga ung time na NANLAKI ang MATA nun horse ni Zorro. Parang biglang naisip nun horse, "Pakshet, andami ko na nalagpasa, sa tunnel lang ako mapipisot? Damn!"

2. Sa tingin namin, ang tawagang MY LOVE ang pinakapangit na tawagan ng magkasintahan. Ito ang magiging dahilan ng paghihiwalay ng magkasintahan sa sobrang kakornihan ng tawagan na ito. At, naisip namin si Ruby ang Bidang Kontrabida. MY LOVE ang tawagan nla ni Hector diba? Nakakadiri talaga. Therefore, MY LOVE na ang tawagan namin ni Angel at Jason.

3. Sa tingin namin, dapat na ituro sa mga tao na if by any chance ay may parating na train at nakaharang sila dun... TUMABI AT WAG MAG-PANIC lalong wag ugaliin na nanagpapaikot ikot dun lang sa spot na tatamaan ng train. Wag din tumunganga. Wag din i-try magpahabol sa train. Argh. Kasi kahit gaano ka kabilis tumakbo, mahahabol ka ng train.

4. Sa tingin namin ay dapat na basagan na ang anak ni Zorro na ZORRITO. O diba? Sosyal n sosyal. Kaano-ano nya si Zorrito Solis? E si Ana Zorrito Diaz? =P Nung narinig ko itong Zorrito, forever na ko tumatawa. Tapos parang naririnig ko na Zorrito! (tono ni Pepe) haha.

After the flick ay kinailangan na naming magkanya-kanya ng landas. Si Angel ay may sundo. Kami ni Jason at Mel ay sumakay kay Shem. Nauna na rin sila Yvie. Hinatid si Mel sa condo. Balik Makati. Balik ng realidad. Oooh btw, we passed by Capone's. LITERAL. Shem drove to Valero st. and we passed by Capone's. Ang creepy no? Para kaming stalker. haha.

Wawa naman ang aking "ka-date" na si Jason so we passed by Starbucks to get something to eat, i know he's starving. Dapat nga Goodearth, pero close na. We stayed there for a while. Kwentuhan nanaman. Kinakabahan nga pala sya dahil sa grades nya. Aww, im sure you'll do great sweetie. Ako nga rin kabado e. Pero kaya natin ito. Tapos we went home na. Sobrang sulit ng araw na ito. Ang saya-saya.
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Btw, thanks to Jots for the "pseudo-pasalubong"... Ang sarap nun mga durian candies na galing Zamboanga dahil sa mom mo na galing sayo na galing ng La Union. Pag gising ko kaninang umaga, un ang nilantakan ko kasi na-depress ako na mag-isa lang ako sa bahay. Kelangan ko tuloy ng matamis. Nakatulong ka.. hehe.

ZOrrito My Love II

Ayun na nga, nakitext kami sa driver ng Cab... When we finally got to China Bank in Paseo, we went straight to the lobby. I walked straight to sorta look for Angel. At hinarang kami ng guard. "Sino pong hinahanap nyo?" At si Jason naman ay biglang sumagot, "Si Angel Sembrano po." As if naman kilala sya ng guard ano? Haha. Lauhgtrip muli. So wala na lang ako nasabi kundi, "Sige po hanapin na lang po namin sya sa kabila."Therefore, naglakad nanaman kami ni Fafa Jason upang hanapin si Angel. At dahil nga wala kaming load ay umasa kami sa swerte. Lakad, lakad. But no, nasa harapan lang pala si Angel, sa may.. SURPRISE! Starbucks. Ngii. Hanggang sa Paseo, Starbucks parin. Hug hug, kiss kiss. Kailangan ni Jason mag-washroom, pumasok kami ng one week-old na Starbs China Bank, at... WALANG WASHROOM. Bwahaha.

Hulaan nyo kung saan kami nagwashroom? Jollibee. Sosyal. At wala talaga kaming binili. Pano ba naman si Angel, puro credit card ang dala. Hay naku. So hinintay namin si Jason sa harap ng Jollibee. ANg funny.Tapos we went on a journey to find LOAD. Lahat kami ay walang load, kamusta naman? 7-11. NAgbibiruan kami ni Angel na bibili kami ng Tagalog pocketbooks para may mabasa bago mag-start un flick. Maling-mali. What are the chances na mali un pinilahan namin para sa load? Hay naku.

Ok na, papunta na kami ng Meralco Theater. Maghahanap na lang ng cab. NA LANG pala ha! Ayun, after 10 years.. some buckets of sweat sa paglalakad at matagal na paghihintay sa harap ng China Bank.. WALA PARING CAB. Oh well. May dalawang cab na tumanggi. Kasi naman si ANgel, sa uninhabited place pa napiling mag-abang. Habang napaka-busy ng kabilang street, sa street na tinigilan namin ay panaka-naka lang ang sasakyan. Bwahahahahaha...

To be continued.

Zorrito My Love.

Isang nakakatawa at nakakatuwang araw. Sabi ko na nga ba at magiging laughtrip ito. Kanina bago ako umalis ng bahay ay nagsusulat ako ng entry para sabihin kung gaano ako kasaya na magkikita kami ni "Spontaneous Jason" at "Bratinello Angel".. NGUNIT NAWALAN NG KURYENTE. O diba laughtrip agad?

Jason and I decided to meet up around 3 pm. I told him to text me if he's on his way na so i can leave na my house. So when Jason texted me na he's on his way na, that's when i began to change clothes and get ready to go to Powerplant. We know each other too well, alam kong di totoong on his way na sya. As usual, nauna nanaman si Jason sa Starbucks... Un cab driver ko, natripan pa makipagchikahan sakin tungkol sa EVAT. At in fairness to him, napatawa rin nya ako. Pagdating ko ng Starbucks ay wala ang anino ni Jason. But noooooooooooo! Maling Starbucks ang pinuntahan nya. Argh. Sa may Starbs Powerplant sya nagpunta... therefore pinapunta ko sya sa Starbs Loft. Nakakatawa nanaman diba?

Kwentuhan ever. Gaya ng dati talagang di nanaman namin namalayan ang oras ng nagkukuwentuhan kami. Ito ay habang pinipilit este pine-pressure namin si Einj na sumama na sa Premiere night ng Legend of Zorro. Ito pa pala segue, the whole time sinasabi ko na The Mask of Zorro ang title ng flick, therefore pinahiya ko ang sarili ko. THe Legend of Zorro ito. Mabalik tayo, kwento kwento kami. Naks DATE nanaman! haha. Hanggang sa napilit na namin si Angel na sumama, pero susunduin namin siya sa China Bank. Payn. Umalis kami ng Starbs around 5:15. Maling mali kasi "uwian time" sa makatuwid, TRAFFIC ng sobra! So, matagal nanaman ang bonding moments namin ni Jeiz.

We were texting Angel.. first text sabi namin dadating na kami in 5 minutes, pero kakalabas pa lang ng cab namin sa Rockwell nun. Two minutes, nasa Jupiter pa lang kami. I know naman na alam na ni Angel un, sanay na un samin. Tapos after a few minutes, nagtext na si Einj, mejo nagb-bratinello. At, what are the chances na sabay kami ni Jeiz mauubusan ng load? you know what we did? NAKITEXT KAMI SA DRIVER NG CAB. Ayon kay Jason, "Manong patext po. Isa lang po." The MANONG DRIVER happily obliged. Ako ang nagtext kay Angel, "ANgel, phone ni manong driver ito, parating na kami, sobrang traffc lang.. hintayin mo kami sa may lobby." Tama ba na makitext sa CAB DRIVER???? Minsan lang ako mahiya, pero nahiya talaga ako. haha....

To BE CONTINUED...

Im Looking Forward to...

thanks to postsecret

I have nothing left to say. I'm exhausted. This is the last time i'm gonna whine over the uncertainty of this whole mess that we're in. I am moving forward. I am not leaving you behind but I am not gonna carry you. If you wanna walk beside me, then do so. If you wanna look at me from afar, then be it. I said yes to the date proposals, they're not indefinite anymore. It's not that you're not special, i just dont want to restrict myself from looking at other options, especially now that i'm getting tired of pretending... and you're not giving me things that i can hold on to.

If there's anyone i would wanna hold hands with, you know that it's you. Just ask. But then again, you're not you and i'm not sure if i am me. I think it's me who's digging deeper as of the moment. Tell me to stop and I will or maybe I wont. Either way, I WILL STILL SEE YOU AROUND.

The Strangeness of Men err.. a Man.

“Men are very strange… They can beat you up, shout at you, threaten you and yet they’re scared to death of women really. Perhaps not the woman they married, but there’s always one woman who frightens them and forces them to submit to her caprices. Even if it’s their own mother.”
--Eleven Minutes, Paulo Coelho

Do I frighten you? Don’t you think I’m worth the risk? Well, I think you are. Despite all the analysis, all the looking at other options… today, I found myself thinking of what’s stopping you, me… us. Yeah, you annoy me at times, you make me roll my eyes, you make my friends roll their eyes, you are clueless, you offend me with your insensitive comments and ways but I still think you’re cute. As cute as the first time I decided that you are cute. Yes, you are strange. You don’t beat me up, you don’t shout at me, in fact you are too quiet, but you still intimidate me. You scare me because you are different. You are able to look at me straight in the eyes; you are able to share with me my passion for words. And yeah, your lips look good.

Japh: Mahal mo na ba?
Eunice: Wala pang pagmamahal na involved.
Japh: Mahal mo na no? Nakikita mo ba ang sarili mo na nagkikiss kayo?
Eunice: Ano ba ito. (sigh of resignation)

So there, my sem break already started. I got around three date proposals since Friday. All of ‘em want to either have dinner with me, watch a flick or drink coffee. To my mind I said, “Been there, done that.” I said an indefinite yes to all of ‘em. Why indefinite? Just in case.

Evil Prevails.

Some say that evil prevails when good men fail to act. But the truth is…EVIL prevails.
-Nicolas Cage, Lord of War

Does evil really prevail? When you look around you, I’m sure you are tempted to just nod at the suggestion that it does. How can you compromise the prevalence of good with the reality of suffering and injustice? How do you make yourself maintain that belief in the power of God when all around you, you see an infinite number of people whom while waiting for their own miracles, only experience more misery? I will not pretend, I know not of how difficult life can really get. I cannot fully comprehend why evil seems to have triumphed over good in the eyes of a lot of people. All I know is that I still believe. There is no explanation; I just choose to still believe. Evil doesn’t prevail, it’s just more flamboyant.

I don’t want to be remembered if being remembered means getting killed.
-Nicolas Cage, Lord of War

I was talking with my friend Japhet a few nights before, and we got into a discussion of how complicated our lives have become. Is there really a proliferation of suicidal men and women in this generation? I got into thinking of how dreadful the world has become when I heard this from a friend, “If I die tonight, it’s ok. I am ok with the idea of not waking up tomorrow.” I got alarmed because I was unconsciously nodding. I know I said I’m not suicidal, but there is a thin line between suicide and natural death. It’s so thin that I don’t think anyone will really know the difference. In the end, the people who love you will grieve over your death and those who don’t will attend your funeral, will dress in black but will never care.

Ang Pag-ibig.. BOW.

paloys : wala ka bang bufra diyan sa ateneo
jersee_d_goddess: nakupo, walang time.
jersee_d_goddess: (shit ako ba tlga nagsabi nun?)
paloys: ano ba, hanap ka ng boys. kaloka, hindi hinahanapan ng time yan
jersee_d_goddess : hahaha.. oo nga. mas importante ang boyps ano?
paloys :

ang relasyon, para yang tita na galing abroad. bigla na lang babandera sa buhay ng mga kamag-anak niya sa pilipinas."

ayun. sounds like Dubai.

Let's take it from the expert, Ateneo School of Law's Dr. Love a.k.a. Pepeng Kuryente:

"ang pag-ibig ay parang magnanakaw sa gabi.."

"Ang tunay na pag-ibig ay parang tsinelas.. sa dinami-rami ng sapatos,, babalik-balikan at hahanap-hanapin mo parin ang tsinelas.."

Need i say more? hehe.