Where's my (Blue)tooth Fairy?

as some of you know, my computer gave up on me.. so, i had to have it reformatted.. but after the smoke has been cleared i realized that my installer for my bluetooth is missing..

this was my intro for my "panawagan" in friendster. i'm a desperate woman waiting for her "bluetooth fairy", i miss transferring the pics i took using my cameraphone to my pc. i miss tweaking its aesthetic value in Ulead photo express. I so need my Blue SOleil installer cd!!! waah.

I've never been surrounded with so many men for quite sometime now. So, I felt really good after workin out for 3 hours today. Nah, these men arent boyfriend material, but i just miss hanging out with my guy friends. I dunno, after highschool, i only gained close girl/gay friends {ok, except for some, but the number's very minimal}. i miss being "madugyot" and not minding what they're gonna think about me. These are authentic guy [muscled] friends. I almost forgot how good it once felt to be able to joke around ,dapat masculine jokes. Ang saya-saya.

This morning, an anonymous person called me on my cellphone. He was lookin for "Lal". He was claiming that i used the number to contact him. Err, im sure he has the wrong number because i didnt call anyone last night. At dahil i dunno him, i was speaking in ENglish. I'm sorry but nahirapan sya. Defense mechanism ko un e, je suis desolee.

Then after the weird phone call, my long-lost pal AMiel called. He was asking me about Taguig. My home sweet home. He is allegedly doing some market study in the area. We got to catch up on each other's lives. It's always fun to rekindle friendships that are almost nonexistent.

Drama, drama, drama. I was supposed to go to Cebu and Bohol this weekend. But something unexpected happened and the accommodations were changed. So there, I cant go anymore. Sayang. I already packed. Im a "heavy packer" ika nga ni Amitz. haha. Cummon, let's all pack!

Starwars na! My cousin/friend Jeff invited me to watch it with him. He said he's gonna treat me to dinner, Jack's Loft. Hmm, hmm. Ok na sana, sabay sinabihan akong Lesbiana. Wadda effing hell was that about? If i look lesbian, i dunno what's feminine-looking anymore. Kaasar.

Ngunit subalit datapwat... i need my (blue)tooth fairy NOW NA! i miss my bluetooth...

Flattery

flattering conversation for the day:

Casablanca : ur not the type who acts on it
Nice: yeah..
Nice: im just the type who gets acted upon..
Nice: haha
Nice: i dont even know if that's gramatically correct
Casablanca : i think u got that wrong... ur the type that they wish they could act upon

i love that. 'stig.

Ang Gasgas na Nguso -- Bow!

Ako'y isang bata na ubod ng drama
Nagpunta sa derma upang magpaganda
UPang ang bigote ay muling mawala
ito't gasgas sa nguso ang aking napala.

Ang Gasgas sa nguso.. bow!

Paalam na...

this is a tribute to the victims of my recent what-are-the-chances experience.

to my pc who gave up on me and conspired with the gods and
goddesses to
bring misfotune to my already colorful life, i hope you're
happy now that you're
reformated and cleansed.

to the
victims-- my pictures and mp3s--, you've been loyal files, memories
of your
jolly existence in my computer's folders will never be forgotten...

to the persistent pop-ups, may you rest in non-profit.

to my system restore, you have disappointed me.

this is the day i'm literally carrie bradshaw-ed,

with no Aidan to give me a new pc,

kay saklap.

JOYEUX ANNIVERSAIRE to ME!

Just got home from a nightout with my friends. If I'll say that i'm happy, it'll be an understatement. Though the night didn't turn out to be obstacle-free, just the fact that i'm surrounded by the people whom i trust and love is more than enough to compensate for it.

Merci Beaucoup... AM a.k.a Anna [for the really cute sandals], Atoy a.k.a Nate [for the very hot and interesting undies], Abby, Sam, Bon, Jomer, Paul and Jason... for being the friends that you are...

More of My Rules in Dating...

-- if he declares that he's a warlock, it's time to stop entertaining him.

-- if he says he's bisexual, he will eventually become homosexual,dont sweat it.

-- starting out as friends makes things more complicated. starting out as lovers makes things boring.

-- if he says "i love you" or anythin close to it after a week of knowin each other, he's lying.

-- if he doesnt call or text you after a date, "he's just not into you" [quoting Jack Berger from Sex and the City]

-- if he's a childhood sweetheart, chances are, you can only go as far as flings and in-between relationships.

-- go date your bestfriend. go fuck things up.

-- if he asks about your cup size, he wants to have sex w/ u.

----------------------- to be continued ------------------

Where Are YOU?!

Birthday's just 'round the corner... Where are YOU?!

Who is YOU?

YOU...
will not complete me but will complement me.
will hold my hand,kiss me, beat me up at the right place at the right time.
will not tell me to do things but will help me see what i should do.
will surprise me with his creativity and annoying persistence.
will love me. all of me.

Where is YOU?
arrgh,i wish i know.

Sobrang Random..

love complicates things. its existence and its absence for some reason make things a li'l less tolerable.

Carlo: dali take me into ur wings and teach me the art of doing dat... [on flings]

What Classic Movie Are You?
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i miss my friends. i miss havin love problems.

I have issues with...

honesty excess mother sex love

Take Word Association Test

i dont wanna talk about love pala.

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It's Nice to Feel Pain...

"If you feel the pain, then it's working." -my gym instructor

I guess that's it, pain is an essential part of our lives. It's like signposting, it tells you when an exercise is workin, or when what you're doin is wrong or when you're deeply in love with someone. If you dont feel pain, then you dont appreciate happiness.

Pain makes me strive. Pain makes me look at the good things that i have. Pain is a promise. A promise that it too shall pass.

Vanity is our Family Name...

I am now 101% sure that my family is the coolest family in town. Besides the fact that we all love each other (aww, group hug), duh that's a given, i dont know of any family that goes to the dermatologist, goes to the spa, goes to the parlor, gets drunk and goes shopping together. TOGETHER. Everyone present. My mom and my dad and my two sibs.

Last Saturday, we went on a gimmick.. got sorta drunk at Bagaberde. Last week, we went to the spa... we all spent our day there relaxing and went shopping, literal ito! Yesterday we watched a flick and went shopping again. Next week we plan to get a body massage. Today, i went to the gym w/ my dad... Haay.

I will never forget my dad's "bilin"..

"Pag nagkaron kayo ng pamilya, maging goal nyo na mabigyan nyo sila ng higit sa nabibigay namin sa inyo..."

Uhmm, dad.. that's gonna be tough. You and mom give us everything and more. Aww, group hug ulit.

The Sweet Side of Suicide

"He took his life because he wanted to protect us from the further pending hell that was again to break loose, as a result of losing his battle in the Supreme Court, as a result of the injustice that continued without fail," Dolly said, reading from a statement after the ninth-day Mass for Borlongan last Tuesday..."

I saw Ces Drilon's interview of Dolly Borlongan last week, and i couldnt help but be affected. She talked about how "it was ted's personality" to eventually commit suicide, and how it's his way of showing his love for her. I can feel how mixed her emotions still are about her husband's death. I never thought she wold talk about the SWEET SIDE of SUICIDE. Death really is one mystery that we are yet to fully understand.

A flashback of one scene in Kingdom of Heaven ran into my usually barren mind [naks], that scene where Orlando Bloom's dead wife was being buried. They had to cut her head because she committed suicide. I dont think it's necessary. Im sure a lot of people'll agree, and im sure my opinion is useless because this tradition must've disappeared ages ago. Will you be surely in hell if you committed suicide? What if it's your only way to save other people? Won't God understand?

"I'm sure God will understand. If He wouldnt, then He is not God." [Orlando Bloom on burning the cadavers while being stopped by the Pope]

How do we measure if one's reason for suicide is just and isnt plain selfishness or cowardice? How do we know if it's in the personality of a person to be suicidal? I'm sure there are psychological symptoms, but do we really know? It's a horrifying fact that a person's life is so bad that one chooses to end it. I think suicide is that one fleeting (Yassy-inspired) moment where you feel it's the best thing to resort to. It's that one insane minute of superficial sanity.

I dont think I could ever commit suicide. I cant stand the thought of bringin so much grief to my family. Im sure someone'll blame him/herself for my death and i cant stand that. There's no sweet side of suicide for me.

As for Ted Borlongan's family, i hope they survive his love. Death is such a tough act to "follow".