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Mallows bite my lips and
the sting remained until oblivion.
I struggled to melt with the background
Knowingly trying to make yellow and
green connive like conspiring bitches.
but no matter how contrasting it may seem
they do look good together.
it maybe that common feeling of freshness;
that freshness is exudes...
i guess it's an unknown ingredient.
that biting heat that lingers,
that oblivious difference.

Redbox.. Chicken Pox... Life Rocks.. (Ngii..)

Atoy has Chicken Pox.. therefore, he wants us to call him Poxy Cleopatra. Talk about star complex at its worst. Ok, i must give it to him, Poxy Cleopatra sounds good. I even wrote a poem for him..

Chicken Pox, chicken pox, my life sucks!
I feel itchy, fate sure mocks.
Dear Lord, make this thing go away.
Poxy Cleopatra wants to play.

Went to Redbox last night, was with my groupmates / friends / overnight mates / gimmick buddies, Angel and Jason. T'was fun to goof around with them and to watch them make a fool out of themselves (in a positive kind of way). It was between laughin and singing that i came to realize how close we have become. Spending almost two weeks together, seeing each other at our best and at our most-dugyot state, we got to that level of friendship that doesnt involve awkwardness anymore. They've seen me bra-less (ehem, haha), really oily, and uhmm, really bitchy. While i was looking at 'em last night, dancing (ala-macho dancers, eek) i knew i am gonna miss 'em. We connected, we found the jologs in each other, the conio in each other and the determined-side of ourselves in that bond that we were able to form, unintendedly. I will miss huggin Angel, lookin at Jason after a really corny joke and just plain bein in the middle of two special guys. Now, im soundin like i've fallen in love with 'em. Yeah, in a way i have... i have fallen in love with the idea of havin 'em around. it was refreshing, it was.. enlightening. It's something i will be holding on to. Ngaaaaarks, ang drama.

Chalkdust -- words.
My runny nose is not as runny as time.

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Pictures + Smiles = A Perfect Day

yeah, and they arent into having their pictures taken..



til "dette" do us part.

that pedicab ride made our oh-so-blessed day tolerable..

Chocolate Kiss-ing and Waiting..



Nevermind if i'm only half-shown.. Jason's so into it anyway. haha

Dette-defying Pictures.. (How Lucky Can We Dette?)

Shirking at the University of Sto. Thomas... Adopting Jason,,


enjoying that "quiet time" w/o angel.. the sleepyhead. haha,,



ShangBoi with The Goddess,,

The Diary of Y Speakers feat. Toni, Toni, Toni ... (An Obsession.)

the goddess and biatch of 'em all ...

Drop-dead Gorgeous Angel ...

ShangBoi / ShowerHunk Jason.

Heartthrob Evolution

This is a stupid entry, if you're not into stupidity and nonsense stop right now or forever hold your peace. This isn't an attempt to show my witty side, not even an attempt to be plain funny. It's just that the urge to write about something stupid is unbearable that i had to give in.

Through the years,i observed that not a lot of people know the correct spelling of HEARTTHROB. I'm not judging them, i think it's really confusing. But thanks to these booboos i found inspiration to write something that will satisfy my craving for absurdity.

Hearthrob -- the more common spelling. the synnergy of the words heart and throb. i think among the incorrect spellings, this is the most acceptable and expected. A hearthrob will have to be someone that makes another person's heart throb faster. in fact, it's so fast that the other "t" got lost along the way. (e.g. "Ohmigosh, Bam Aquino's here, he's such a hearthrob! --the girl here is hyperventilating and palpitating at the same time)

Heartrob -- this one's easy, if you're a heartrob, chances are, you get to rob other people's hearts. Though the more correct term would have to be heart robber. heart rob is the word's verb form. (e.g. Bam Aquino heartrobs Eunice's heart.) The occurence of such phenomenon is a heartrobbery.

Heartrub /Heartrubber -- ok, a heartrub is a person who seem to "touch" another person's heart, this thus explains the rubbing motion. It's like the caressing of hearts (tonight i need your sweet caress, hold me in the darkness) But just like the Heartrob, the more correct term is heartrubber. (e.g. i think i'm falling for him, he touches my heart in ways i can never imagine, he heartrubs me.) But then it'll evolve into a whole new word, a heartrubber is someone who possesses quite a flexible heart -- duh, rubber? --. This person claims to be able to love two or more people all at the same time because his/ her heart can extend to them.(e.g. That guy from the basketball team is a player, he is a heartrubber!)

Hurtrob -- for me, this is the most uhmm, emotionally-charged spelling of all. Hurtrob is someone who robs your heart and hurts you in the process. We all encounter a hurtrob at least once in our lives. He can be that childhood sweetheart, that highschool jock, that artsy musician in college or your boss in the office. This guy's Mr. Out-of-my-league. At times, his hurting us and robbing our hearts are unintentional, but since it's a cruel, cruel world, most of the time, it's really intended.

Heartrobe - someone who protects your heart and cares for it. he puts a "robe" around it so it wouldnt be vulnerable. (e.g. I'm not attracted to him, but he's such a heartrobe that i feel safe when im around him.)

That was fun. It just goes to show how easy it is to come up with something with no significance , haha..

My Love Profile,, Analyzing the "Bull".

Taurus - Your Love Profile Your positive traits: You tend to stick with relationships - through the good and the bad. You are a great listener and tend to give valuable advice. Cautious and careful, you never jump in recklessly... saving yourself from heartbreak. Your negative traits: Money is very important to you, so much so that it's a cause of arguments in relationships. If your lover isn't loyal or attentive enough to you, your eyes start to wander... You tend to keep things inside - so your partner may not know when or why you're upset. Your ideal partner: Is stable, serious, and ready to be committed to you. Is successful and able to provide you with the lifestyle you crave. A true romantic, who is willing to express their desire for your heart. Your dating style: Comfortable and traditional. You'd love to have a nice meal at a cozy restaurant. Your seduction style: Love comes first for you before you'd even think of intimacy. Traditional: you're not a cold fish - but you're not into kink either. Pleasing... you always make sure that your partner is having a good time. Tips for the future: Be willing to change your mind. Who you think is the love of your life may be very wrong for you. Try listening to your mate. While your stubborn streak is hard to break, sometimes your partner knows best. Ligthen up! The first months of a relationship should be about fun, not intentions. Best place to meet someone online: American Singles - peek in on how much potential dates make, and what they do for a living. Best color to attract mate: Pale blue Best day for a date: Friday Get your free love profile at Blogthings.

Blog things! You Make My Heart Sing..

Song for the moment: Tell me where it hurts now (tell me?), and i'll do my best to make it better.

You Are A Social Butterfly

You love your friends so much... You're motto is "the more, the merrier"! Making sure everyone's included is your mission And you always prefer a group of ten to a group of two

What Kind of Friend Are You?

Your Seduction Style: Siren / Rake

You possess an unbridled sensuality that appeals to many. The minute you meet anyone, you can make the crave you almost immediately. You give others the chance to lose control with you... spiraling into carnal bliss. A dangerous lover, you both fascinate and scare those you attract.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

You Are From Venus

You love all forms of beauty. You love dressing up and anything luxurious. A social butterfly, you're incredibly popular and a great host. You're known for your fairness and affection. And as a friend to all. Careful though! You're desire to please may make you too willing to conform. Be yourself. Focus on what matters to you. You'll be all the more popular for it.

What Planet Are You From?

You Are a Dare Devil

For you, life is one big dare. And you're all in for any adventure. Others find you exciting, inspiring, and a bit intimidating. You're biggest challenge at this point is trying to top yourself!

How Daring Are You?

Your Brain is 80.00% Female, 20.00% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

NOW, I'M NOT SURE IF IT'S A GOOD THING OR A BAD THING...

SHRINK me Baby One More Time.

We all are shrinks,, we all can give the best goddamn advice to anyone in need. But in the end, we're clueless-- when the situation calls for our expertise and the person in need is the same person that we see staring at us in the mirror. - Jersee

It's funny how the word shrink has fastly become a part of my daily vocabulary. Maybe it's because of my neverending love for Sex and the City, maybe it's because it feels right to say shrink... or maybe, the shrink in me is trying to emerge.

It is easy to say the right words, to do the right things when nothing's at stake. Like if you're just in your room, rehearsing that line you've been dying to tell that guy you've been wanting to ask out. Or when you just picked what you're gonna wear in a normal Monday morning, without thinking of what others might think. Everything's so easy, so natural.

I hate Mondays. I hate that feeling of longing for the next weekend. But i hate weekends, coz weekends remind me of the Monday that's just around the corner. Analyze me.

I dont drink water when i still have food in my mouth. I think it's gross.

I have a thing for gay men. I have a thing for uhmm, allegedly bisexual but really gay men. No, i dont want to be in a relationship with them. i just want them around. How sick is that?

ngarks,, nobody dies in agony,, unless thy get scourged at the pillar, crowned with thorns and gets crucified. - jersee

words of wisdom huh? i didnt mean to be blasphemous. it's just that i think, The Agony in the Garden happened first for a reason. If people feel sad, or pained.. they become vulnerable. They get scourged, crowned with thorns and crucified. It's not really a sign of weakness per se. Jesus did it. It all starts with that tiny feeling of sadness, of longing. We choose to become miserable.

A Certain Sadness. -- i like the title. i like the lyrics. i like the irony. i dunno, sadness is uncertain. i just like that mockery of sadness. a lot of people hesitate when they feel sad. i'm not like them, it is in sadness that i become sure. it is in sadness that i find conviction.

I'M STILL CHASING MY CERTAIN SADNESS.. If happiness leaves me, i know it'll come around. I miss writing. I miss being relevant. I miss profundity. Missing -- longing, not hitting the mark. Dont mind me. You're no shrink anyway.

An Attempt to Be Funny..

Sino ang long-lost sister ni Kitchie Nadal? (Sino?) Edi si Barbie Na Doll! (ngii!)

Speaking of dolls, I once again found myself sipping coffee at the Oz Cafe with my fellow-psycho friends and somehow, our conversations brought us to our childhood booboos. Yeah, we started humiliating ourselves very young. From the "poopoo" stories to our being Little Miss ______ (it varies-- SM, Anito, Barangay...) to childhood sweethearts / flings.

Reality check, we only have one week before we're officially done with our UP days. It'll never be the same again. Err, i think i need another joke.

Anong hayop ang di tinatablan ng bala? (Ano?) Edi Pa-ting, pa-ting. (Ngii)

If this is true, right now i wish i'm a Pa-ting. Sobrang tinatablan ako ng matinding depresyon. I know, it's so not me. But who am i really? Never really got to find out. We're still young, 20? Our whole life's ahead of us. What if it ends tomorrow? Or 5 mins. from now? Hmmmm, another joke.

Anong hayop ang sumasabog? (Ano?) Edi Pa-Goooong! (Ngii!)

I feel like i'm gonna be bursting any moment. I dunno, must be the series of unfortunate events. Kinda feeling insecure, inadequate, unsuccessful. I still dont regret anything, pretty delusional huh? Oh well.. Next Joke.

Eunice Zuleika Monsod

funny? I wish i'm laughin too.

SPOT, LOOK and GLISTEN..

SPOT, LOOK, and GLISTEN :: The Fame Party ::*for the benefit of the UP Economics Society Scholarship Fund and part of the 2005 Oakley Party SeriesMarch 5, 2005 7 PMBig Kahuna, Eastwood City, Libisfeaturing a celebrity auction where you could win a date with TONI GONZAGA and DREW ARELLANO, a studio tour for two at the taping of ABS-CBN's newest sitcom, BORA and so much more only by accumulating points from our party games and boothsalso features an Oakley fashion show, a two-hour open bar, a hip dance party, a vtr audition, a red carpet entrance, and lots of games and surprises..plus, it will be hosted by 99.5 RT's BB Fred together with Eunice Monsod.tickets @ Php 150contact JOEY (09178105976) or LAGS (09184441261) for tickets and inquiries or visit the ECOSOC TAMBAYAN at Room 121, School of Economics, University of the Philippines Diliman, Quezon City- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -UP ECONOMICS SOCIETYService. Excellence. Tradition.