Tatlong Tula

My words are spoken

not by my mouth
but by the tears
that flow invisibly and silently.

I wish for more wishes
my life'll be a giant lamp
with a genie that's in my heart
I wish for my heart to be rubbed.
Robbed.

My hunger is my pleasure.
Every bite is a reminder
of that finger-licking dream
that I can never have.

Mga Bagong Larawan bago Magpasko

Masaklap na Recap

"Kawawa naman siya. Tignan mo, di sya kikita ngayong gabi kasi nasiraan sya. Pasko pa naman." - Euns

I easily get affected by the littlest of things. The whole day, i was feeling guilty for not lending my sister money. I only realized how wrong my decision was when I woke up. Ang mali kasi, tinanong nya ako habang tulog ako. Wala ako sa tamang pag-iisip. Nakakaguilty.

On our way to Haze's apartment, we saw this manong driver looking really desperate because his taxi just won't start. Naisip ko, pasko pa naman. Pag di sya kumita tonight, malaking kawalan un. Nakaka-sad.

But I generally had a great day. We had our legal writing christmas party and suprise! Yellow Cab ang food.. bagong-bago. But we really enjoyed because 1-c knows how to party!!! We sang our hearts out and everyone was game. Saya.

We had dinner at Mang Jimmy's. Kabusugang nakakadugo ng ilong nanaman. Then we had our "Simbang Gabi" at Ateneo [Loyola]. And to end our day, we strolled at Eastwood. Spontaneous kung spontaneous. Fun fun fun.

I now have a new "fave band". Me First and the Gimme Gimme's. THanks to Ces for introducing them to me. Astig.

A Picture Story

Christmas party for Legal Writing. [mukhang di masaya si Ma'am a!]

Dinner at Mang Jimmy's

Simbang gabi at Ateneo. [Oo, sa Katipunan. Oo, dumayo kami]

Moment of Kabanalan

Gimmick time [more like Bazaar time] at Eastwood.

First Simbang Gabi

"Learn to forget yourself and leave everything to God." - Fr. Bernas

I think I should start doing that again. I must admit, I kind of got off track and I almost forgot how God has always blessed me. Everyday, I am constantly reminded of why I should always be grateful to Him for never leaving me despite my imperfections. I still talk to Him, but not as much as i used to.

I watched Angels in America today and it felt weird. I do not know what heaven has in store for everyone nor do i have a picture of what angels look like but i'd like to think that heaven isnt about pleasure. I'd like to feel something that I havent felt. Not something that's expceted like peace or contentment or love. I want to feel something that's only felt in heaven.

Can't wait.

This isnt a Perfect World

Eunice: Sana bukas na lang ako nagkasakit. Para natawag ako ngayon at nakasagot ako tapos bukas, wala na problema kasi natawag na ko for Consti at for ObliCon.
Ana: If this is a perfect world, it would happen that way. (while giving me a "you-should-know-better-look")

My hyperacidity didnt allow me to go to class today. Ohh, and my eyes arent in their perfect condition either. I now am sure that I need glasses. To top it all off, I got called to recite for ObliCon. Absent. 60. Because I wasnt there. I do hope my prof'll give me a chance to recite tomorrow. Should i come to class looking like blood was flushed from my face? Hay naku.

My world's far from perfect. Still, I love it this way.

Konti na Lang.

jhersee33 (8:38:10 AM): this is what ive been dreamin of since forever.. konti na lang.
jazy_reye1 (8:39:11 AM): wat do you do when one day all your dreams came true?
jhersee33 (8:39:33 AM): i'll dream some more.. and repay everyone who helped me along the way. then, il be of help to people..madaming dapat gawin.
jazy_reye1 (8:41:02 AM): tama un

Malalim na buntong-hininga. Konti na lang. Di ito ang time para magbreakdown Eunice.

Nobody's Orphan

the hot Ates

adorable elephants... Euns and Koks.
Kay, Deo, Pepe, Melo, Yvie, Haze, Shem, Jomaeto and Euns..

the hottest couple in town.. Jollibee and Jolinabee

one last picture with our kids

Nangyayari sa Totoong Buhay

May natanggap akong invitation at ang nakalagay ay..
to: Ninang Unice and Family

Bibinyagan daw si Sophia Luise. Ninang daw ako. ANG MALAKING TANONG... SINO SYA? Seryoso! Walang clue kung sino ang kanyang mga magulang. Basta Ninang nya ako. How weird can it be?

Nung paalis na ako ay natuklasan ko na ang sagot sa misteryo ng batang Sophia Luisa. Anak pala sya ng kapitbahay namin. Ano ang maw weird? Di kami close. Haha. Basta bigla na lang sya bumanat na "kumare"na nya ako. Oook. Im honored. Nakakatuwa parin. Sige, nagbigay na lang ako ng gift kasi nga di ako makakapunta sa binyag. Mali un pero di talaga ako makakapunta.

Moral of the day:

Lagyan ng "FROM: _________" ang mga pinapadalang invitation. Nakakapanic for the recipient e!

Orphan Moments

Last Wednesday, my block decided to sponsor a christmas party for orphans. It was a great idea... it was our way of thanking God for giving us another sem in the law school. As usual, at the end of the day, i got emotionally attached to my kids. One of my kids just hugged me for a few minutes like she didnt want to go. I guess she was half-hoping that I'll tell her I'll take her home and that she can be a part of my family now. But I didnt. I cant.

I think we all have our Orphan Moments. When we feel like a lot of people are concerned,a lot of people are devoted to making us feel better but in the end, nobody wants to keep us. Nobody wants to take us home. Their reasons are valid and no matter how hard they try not to make us feel like we're neglected, we still feel that we will never be good enough. We will never be worthy of their love that they can't welcome us into their lives.

Now I'm wondering if we really did a good job in making them feel special that day... or maybe they feel like we're just another group of well-wishers who can only cheer them on as they continue their quest for a true family. I wish they felt that WE REALLY WISHED THEM WELL.

Merry Christmas and thanks for the kisses.

ALL i need is ten minutes.

I am currently wearing something that i'm not used to wearing. Jeans and shirt. I swear, I look like Nora Aunor with the role of an activist.[If you're a Nora Aunor fan, pardon me]. I cannot pull this off. I am not a jeans person. Seriously. To prove my dugyot look, in my daily trips to Powerplant, this is the only day that I was stopped for my bag to be checked. Not to mention that I had this, "Dont mess with me, I am a bitch look" on my face. I didnt know that it was a prelude to something scary.

I saw HER. Jessica Zafra. For s split second, i contemplated on following (a.k.a. STALKING) her. The only reason why I stopped myself is because if she finds out, the security will have a reason to detain me. (I can just imagine their, "Stop that NORA AUNOR/ JUDY ANN SANTOS HYBRID! She's a STALKER!" scream.) I am not only a fashion victim but a low-life stalker of Ms. Zafra, who made it clear that she isnt "stalking material". I just stared. I really stared, it was the only thing i could award myself with. STARING at my heroine. The irony of the whole situation was just so great that it was almost satirical.

Then I bumped into Janice (my TEATRO friend) with Emma ( a BA grad). What are the chances that Janice only bumped into Emma? And that Emma took her "entrance exam" in Ateneo Law? And that we all are gonna chat OUTSIDE powerplant. Where there's no aircon and where i could sweat like a "sunbathing pig"? Argh. But it was nice to bump into her. I miss that bitch.

All i needed was ten minutes. Voila! Something to blog about. Woohoo.