TAROT Cake

The Tower card suggests that my alter ego today is the Survivor, whose superpower for revolution lies in my epiphany for change, brought on with the aid of a serious reality check. Today I have reached a turning point. It may be all over but the crying -- but I have the strength to move on and create a better situation for myself. You may say that I never saw it coming or learned the hard way, but with profound change comes new opportunity. One door closes -- another opens. So tear down the wall, and rebuild anew.

Ok Lang Ako

Haze: Euns, malungkot ka ba?
Euns: Ha? Di naman.
Haze: Marami kasi nagtatanong kung bakit mukha ka malungkot e.
Euns: Ok lang ako. [smiles]
Ces: Ok lang sya.
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Pat: Si Aj, tinatanong nya sakin kung may problema ka daw.
Euns: Ha? Bakit?
Pat: Sabi nya lagi ka daw nya nakikita na parang malungkot ka.
EUns: Di naman.. ok lang ako.
Pat: I know you're ok, pero parang may mga times na malungkot ka, na tulala kang may iniisip. Sabi nga ni Ces ok ka lang daw.
Euns: Ok lang ako.
Pat: It's weird kasi parang... mas matagal ngayon kesa sa Neverland.
Euns: I'm ok. Don't worry.
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EUns: [sings I FInally Found Someone]
Ipe: Wow, buti naman ganyan nang mga kanta kinakanta mo ngayon.
Euns: Ha? E ano ba mga kantang kinakanta ko dati?
Ipe: Malungkot. Baka nun time na un malungkot ka.. buti ngayon hopeful na ang mga kanta.
Euns: Kelan?
Ipe: Start ng sem?
EUns: Wala naman ako issues a. Baka Neverland pa un.
Juanch: Baka nga Neverland pa.
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Bos: Hurt ka pa ba?
Euns: Di naman.
Bos: Naisahan ka kasi e.
Euns: Baka un lang.
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So there... Naiinis ako kasi OK LANG TALAGA KO pero iba un nakikita ng mga tao. So I vow to be cheerful again. As if naman I'm not cheerful enough. Haha. Ok lang talaga ako guys. Thank you for caring pero I am doing fine. I'm actually doing great.

It must be because it's BarOps month, a lot of things are needed to be done so I feel kinda uhmm, tired. It's not emotional, it's physical.

DI sanay ang mga tao na medyo down ako. At least a few are reminded that i still am human. Nasasaktan din at nalulungkot. Yes. Minsan kasi, people tend to forget that eh.

So there.

Dahil Wala ako Mashare-an

May isang tao sa lib ngayon na sobrang diin at lakas mag-type. Feeling ko nasisira na un keyboard sa pagt-type nya. Either galit sya o para syang si Denny Crane na ngayon lang nakahawak ng computer.

Nahihiya ako lumingon kasi malalaman nya na gusto ko malaman kung sino sya. Pero gusto ko malaman. So it-try ko na makita sya.

Natatawa na talaga ako.

Un lang.

Happy Birthday Quanny!

Kahit na mala-probinsya ang Valenzuela na feeling ko ay mas malapit pa sa Zambales kaysa sa Rockwell, go parin ako... at kahit na di ko talaga natanggap un text message invitation mo sige, papalagpasin ko un FOR YOU, este for alcohol and food pala. Haha

It was worth the kalasingan. Tumba ako sa kwarto ko right after. Very good.

Salamat kay Shai dahil nanlibre sya ng yosi.
Salamat kay Alvin dahil the whole night nya hinihintay na maghubad ako.
Kay Caleen na dumagdag pa sa pangha-harass.
Salamat kay Lea dahil kasama ko sya hinarass ng mga tao.
Si Peewee na lumalaban na at nagtatanggal ng butones.
Sa mga "sexy time" people.
Vina for the lighter.
Kay MLo sa ride.
Kay Ona na pinilit ako pumunta.
Kay Patring na masigasig kumuha ng pictures at mabilis mag-upload.
Sa lahat ng mga taong nandun.

Parang ako un nag-birthday e no?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QUANNY, alam mo naman na mahal ka namin... SOBRA!

Tama Naman Pala "Sya"

Prof: It turned out, the action of Malaysia was right. THey got away with
it.
Ana: [whispers] Ayun naman pala... Di naman pala "Malaysia" kasi "Tama
'Sya".
Euns:[whispers] Oo nga, TAMA SYA.

Ito ang nangyayari pag may info overload in 2 hours.

Taurus (Apr 20 - May 20)[?]

The Bottom Line

You need to have a conversation with a friend about your feelings. Share the truth.

In Detail

Time is definitely going to be on your side today, so use it wisely. Your romantic relationship is getting stronger, and today the two of you will finally have all the time you need to have that conversation you both have been waiting to have. Be honest and trust them with your feelings -- the good, the bad, and the vulnerable. This is an important opportunity to get everything out on the table and determine what you are dealing with. Make plans for the future.

Meant to Be Broken

Friend: Di ako sanay na ganyan ka, it's been more than a month. Nun sinabi ko na magpahinga ka, di naman ganito katagal... lalayo na nga ako sa'yo, nahahawa ka na sa akin.

In fairness, it's been more than a month since *that thing that should not be mentioned*. Ces said something last night about how I am able to survive more than a month of having no one to rave about, of not having any "love interest" by thinking of how close I am to being a lawyer [yes!]. It may be true, I'm so close to reaching my goals that my priorities might've slightly changed. It's like I can almost taste victory and I couldn't care less about other things. But it's not true that I couldn't care less, in fact I care. It still bugs me, love and lack thereof. It's always been one of the most favorite topics that me and my "girlfriends" have every time we succumbed to our yearnings for yosi breaks in Starbucks. I still care and I can still feel that I long for something, not a specific someone but a very big something. It's weird really, not having anyone that I can feel kilig about, i have pseudo-crushes and MCIT objects but they're not real. They're not "actionable documents", they're not even qualified as "panawid-gutom".

*That thing that should not be mentioned* was so promising that I forgot to have a contingency plan. Heck, I don't even know what hit him, or me or both of us that we just stopped, he just stopped. But it isn't really about *that thing that should not be mentioned* per se, it's about seeing other people and silently saying that "love works for them". These past few days, a character from Neverland has reemerged, i can't say that we're back to where we were, simply because I CAN'T GO BACK THERE anymore, but I couldn't help but be reminded that what we had was promising, in fact more than promising than my most recent misadventure... *That thing that should not be mentioned*... I arrived at yet another conclusion, another "EUNICISM" if I may call it,

Promising things, just like promises, are meant to be broken too.

I promised myself that I won't whine about *that thing that shouldn't be mentioned*, I even promised myself that I won't think about Neverland again, but amidst all the feeling of loneliness, frustration and longing, I guess all i have are memories. Good ones perhaps that are more appropriately treasured than forgotten.

Promising things are meant to be broken too. Eunicism... Cynicism.

Delayed Reaction

Yay! The SEND OFFS was great. SALSA nailed it!

To SALSA, thank you for dancing with me... i'm honored. It was one helluvan experience. It was worth the "pain".Na-stretch na lahat ng mas-stretch. Rimo, I'm glad you "came". Quanny, thank you for not making me "fall" dahil MCIT. To my crush, GO FOR THE GOLD! Sam, i'm glad you "came" too. Ate Ceia, that's why we're friends... we're both very HOT. To the PURPLE GIRLS, woohoo atta girls.. To batchies, [Diale, ito na un special mention mo], salamat sa pagiging stage moms. Thanks to everyone who cheered for and supported Salsa. Nawa'y maulit muli ito.

FREE SPIRIT

from POSTSECRET

It's Been Good

Haven't blogged in a while, haven't seen a lot of people who used to be parts of my daily routine.

I guess things are really changing and even if we do want everything to go back to how they were, it can't. It must not.

It's kinda sad but not in an agony-inducing kind of way, it's more like bittersweet sad.

Things are happening so fast lately, there's not much time left to look back, to stop and analyze what transpired in the past. It's better that way really, I fear silence and solitude these days. I am scared of myself because I know that with myself alone I have to face the seemingly forgotten remnants of what could be's and I shouldn't have's.

It's been good.

I hope it's gonna be better.

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Playful moments, swan-like stance
Dip me and catch me,
Let me fall if you get the chance.
I sway my hips as you walk away,
Did you really think it was all play?
You are reminiscent of a hesitant dance
One moment close, a million moments far.
I stomp and I turn, undecided as I burn,
My heart wanted to beat faster
but to say no was the answer.
The curtains closed, the lights are dim
I took my final bow
It was the end of an unfinished dream.