Mahirap...

... sabihin ang mga bagay na sa tingin mo di naman makakabuti pa sa sitwasyon.
... tapusin ang mga bagay na di naman nagsimula.
... simulan ang mga bagay na di mo alam kung paano matatapos.
... umiyak sahil sa mga bagay na di mo alam kung karapat-dapat ba.
... kung nag-umpisang walang problema at natuto kang maniwala para lang malaman na meron lang palang WALA sa paniwala.
... maglakad-lakad kung may posibilidad na madapa at magkasugat ng di mo namamalayan.
... maging masaya kung malulungkot ka din pala.
... magdesisyon at malaman na nagkamali ka.
... maging bahagi ng isang komedya.

Still I Rise

Maya Angelou

You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own back yard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.

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got this from Anj's site

Back in the Ballgame

My close friend from a long time ago, Carlo, texted me today saying that he misses me. I should really make it a habit to catch up with friends that I haven't seen for a long time, if only so I can take my mind off law school and anything related to it.

The stress is beginning to catch up on me, for the nth time, and the sad part is... everyone around me is stressed too. Which leaves me with the brilliant idea of finding emotional support from people who are in the OUTSIDE WORLD [meaning, outside law school].

I really should start "bumping into people" again. I miss the social butterfly in me.

Buntong-hininga.

Sabi ni Sarj, "we should get payong."

ang sabi ko naman, "saan nakakabili ng payong na pipigilan ka mabasa ng sarili mong luha?"

Ok fine. What the Heck..

Horoscope for today:

What the heck -- might as well, right? Give a new social opportunity or a
new certain someone a whirl. Saying yes doesn't commit you forever, and it
signals to the universe that you're willing to try.

SUCCESSION Moments

Prof: [blah blah blah blah about BAKEKONG...] Wait, why am I talking about
BAKEKONG?

Prof: Do you have AIDS?
Class: [blank stare]
Prof: AIDS as in Anit Is Definitely Showing. Or HIV?
Class: [expectant look]
Prof: Hair Is Vanishing.

Prof: [talking about CORRELATIVE NUMBERING in WILLS] It could Alpha, Beta,
Charlie, Delta.. Echo. Teka nasan un Echo?
Class: [confused look]
Prof: Edi ayun na, sumama kay HEART!

BERI GUD.

Dahil Late ka nagpass ng Pic

Hi Eunice, would you know where the LUMPIANG SHANGHAI from Atty. Balane's party was from? Thanks.
-TJ Batan

Alam ko valid naman ang question, pero nakakatawa lang kasi e. Tinanong nya kung san galing ang Lumpia in english. Un na.

I Love the Rain [na pala]

I know, kakasulat ko lang ng isang mahabang-mahabang entry about my not liking the rain but something happened a few minutes ago to make me change my mind...

I was about to go to Starbucks when I was welcomed by the fury of the rain and while I was contemplating on whether I should stay in school or swing it [meaning, magpakabasa sa ulan] over a stick of yosi, something kakilig-kilig happened. This guy I've been crushing on back in the day emerged in front of me.

Euns: I know you.
Guy: Yeah.
Euns: YFC right?
Guy: Yup.
EUns: I'm sorry, what's your name again?
Guy: Anthony.
Euns: Oh my God, you went to my debut a few years ago!
Guy: Yup... WHat's your name again?
Euns: Euuuuunice. [this is how I introduce myself when I'm in the presence of sosyal people]
Guy: What're you taking up? Law?
EUns: Yeah, you? MBA?
Guy: Yeah...
Euns: Your classes just started?
Guy: This week.
Euns: Great.
Guy: What year are you in?
Euns: Third.
Guy: Wow, that's like 2 more years and you're a lawyer...
Euns: I knoooow. Who would've thought diba? Anyway, I'll see you around.
Guy: Aight. Bye.
[naiwan si Eunice na nakangiti]

Chenes! Checked his blog. IN A RELATIONSHIP. Pakshet. What did I expect diba?

Anyway, I'm blogging because there's nothing else to do. The rain is still pouring like there's no tomorrow.

2007 na!

Euniceeeeeeeeeeeeee! 2008 na! 2006 ba yung year na inaabangan natin? hahaha its been so long! Naalala ko lang bigla LOL, so did you meet prince charming? Did you? Did you? *hugs!* -Shine

Backtrack... in 2002 a "manghuhula" friend of ours predicted that we'll meet "the one" four years after. That's supposed to be in 2006. But no!!! 2007 na. Sabagay, ang sabi lang naman "mami-meet" di naman sinabi na magiging kami na agad. And so the countdown once again begins... ang problema walang specific period para malaman ko kung titigil na ba ako sa paghihintay. Malas.

Prof: Do you guys know what Toll Packing is?
Class: No.
Euns: Ana, TOOOOLLL PAAAACKING daw.
Ana: Bakit pag ikaw ang nagsasabi, laging parang bastos?

Our very accommodating tax professor, Atty. Gonzalez lectured today on VAT because we begged him to do so [some photocopying fiasco resulted to this]. I would like to acknowledge his being very reasonable and amicable via a moment of silence. [moment of silence].

FREECUT kami sa Labor kanina so I would like to acknowledge the class' happiness by shouting Hell Yeah! [Hell Yeah!].

Ces: Mag-aaral ka ba sa Starbucks today:
EUns: Oo eh, May meeting ako ng 9pm for SALSA.
EUns and Ces: Yeeeeeeeees! [may blending]

Who would've thought diba? So, surprisingly, I am not inactive.. besides being the resident host for all the Law School Events, I am now a member of FOUR Organizations, a startling deviation from my tumataginting na ONE ORG in college [UP Economics SOciety, ay dalawa pala isasama mo pa ang Performance Artists Circle]... Sa Ateneo, I have:

Campus Ministry [CMO],
The BADminton Club,
The Palladium [Student Publication] and
SALSA [Dance Group of the Law School].

Yihee, kamusta naman ang may time?

Hazel: Ate, may nanliligaw ba sayo ngayon?
Euns: Wala e.
Hazel: Sinungaling. [walkout]
Euns: [Lord, pati sarili kong kapatid di naniniwala sakin.

Badtrip.

Nobody Has that Right

Nobody has the right to tell a person whether she will or will not stay in the law school [may it be a for a year or for four years, even if the person talking is in fact at the "finish line" of his law school race because everyone in the law school SHOULD BE GIVEN CREDIT].

Nobody has the right to judge a person and dismiss her as a weakling, worse as a bimbo, just because she doesn't look as haggard as everyone.

Nobody has the right to exploit a person's fragility by accusing her of being someone who will most likely put herself on a pedestal.

Nobody has the right to judge without basis because a judgment is, LOGICALLY SPEAKING, supposed to have basis.

Nobody has the right to outrightly harm another, may it be emotionally or physically, just because he was given the opportunity to do so.

Nobody has the right to be mean, insensitive and plain cruel.

Nobody has the right to win at the expense of another especially if the "at the expense of another" part demonstrates how dirty the winner is willing to get to reach that goal.

Yes you can voice out your opinion, but your freedom stops when another person's right starts.

If I were a freshman,

I will vote for J Viray..

she may not be your stereotype BATCH REPRESENTATIVE but I know why she wants to win and she doesn't have to go low to prove her point.

Rain, Rain Go Away!

[written last night...]

For me, the rain is the most efficient downer. It has a certain effect that I rarely miss and tonight, it got the emphasis that I involuntarily granted when I decided to study alone outside Starbucks despite the heavy downpour.

I was literally alone while struggling to get through my homework in Succession. It got me into thinking about why the hell am I still alone when rumor has it that I don't look and play the part. It can get pretty ugly really, going through my daily routine with that emptiness that constantly bugs me. Right now, it ceases to be a question of WHY because I know that there are reasons that are beyond my understanding but it is more of a string of HOWs that bother me. How am I surviving this emptiness? How can I change the whole thing? How can I continuously deny the reality that I miss being part of an "item"? How did i end up like this? How can I move past the uncertainties, the insecurities and the persistent reign of negative emotions that sometimes overcome me?

Happiness is a decision, in the same way that love is. You don't declare that you love someone just because in the rare moments that you got a glimpse of what could be, you realize that HE COULD BE. It's a fatal error to mistake love for something so temporary, it's fatal to think that you can make someone see what you see just because your view of the possibilities fit in your grand plan.

We all look at the same thing differently and most of the time, these views may never be reconciled. Love really is finding someone willing to share the view with you to share the different experiences that it triggers. Love is looking at the rain as a friend because it gives you the opportunity to share an umbrella. Love means never having to regret dancing in the rain . Love means transforming something as depressing as the rain into something magical...Love means feeling his warmth without having to hold hands. Love can never be temporary because it leaves a smile, a few tears and a lifetime of memories.

Love is pleasant loneliness. Love is enjoyable depression. Love is an expected irony.