Equally Mushy Friends

"In life we always search for answers because we want to prove to ourselves
that we had the right decisions, but the truth us, we can't search for what's
not there. Things happen because it's meant to happen. That's why we forgive
people even if they hurt us, we love people who don't love us and we smile
despite every painful crash in our hearts. AT THE END OF THE DAY, THE LESSON WE GOT ARE THE ANSWERS TO OUR DECISIONS." -sent by Carlo Luna

"Everytime I try to forget the great loves I've had I partly succeed. But
as a consequence, I feel like a very real part of me has died, and that I've
become partly a monster." -sent by Miko Samson from an unpublished journal entry

"I want to be a redeemable share, so that when I'm no longer satisfied with
the one I'm with, the one who set me free could bring me back to her fold." -
sent by Elliot Mondez

"We are all looking for the wrong eprson... the right wrong person...
someone we could lovingly gaze upon and think, 'This is the problem I
want to have." -sent by Rach Sy

"It's always painful to know that someone is irrevocably gone and all
that's left are memories of beautiful days that have gone by... Sometimes
it's confusing why people fall in love and then say goodbye. Why they cannot
belong forever when at first, they can never seem to part." -sent by Ces
Pallarca

"We at times sit at one corner alone, appreciating life as we see it
through our eyes.. then suddenly, someone surprises us, shares that corner until
it becomes the world." -Eunice Monsod

I dunno which ones were originally written by them or which are forwarded, but sometimes, text messaging can be deep. Some are deeper than daily conversations.

Letter of Love # 7

Everyday, I wake up and choose the idea of you. Everyday, I get dressed and hope to be given the opportunity to be with you. 

How can an already numb heart still feel grief?

How can pain compound every second and succeed in jolting the numb heart into feeling despite the threatening prose of an unresolved mystery?

When are you coming to save me from my self-induced agony?

Please dream of me tonight. Dream with me.

Let our separate lives intertwine reality and fantasy. Let our future love blur the line between clarity and sanity.

FACADE

Date of Birth: 14/05

You may find that freedom is a core issue for you today, Eunice, and
that you are yearning to break away from a situation that has been dragging you
in for quite some time now. It could be that you have continued to play your
part in a certain role that was developed for you during your childhood.
Circumstances regarding your family led you to behave in such a way as a defense
mechanism and now you know of no other way to act. Shed this
facade.

Fine. I will not be afraid to be weak anymore.

RAPE

I was reading this article on STATUTORY RAPE being a common crime now and we sort of noticed a lot of quotable quotes.

"It is quite perplexing to the Court how the alleged victim can complain of
being raped and yet say, under oath, that she enjoyed the experience." -People
v. Burgos

"Absence of love notes, mementos or pictures casta doubt on the accused's
claim that he and the victim were sweethearts." -People v. Larag

"Love is not a license for carnal intercourse through force or
intimidation." -People v. Gecomo

Panalo diba?

DARK AGES

"Kamusta naman ang lamay?" -Patty

That was Patty's opening line to me yesterday afternoon when I gloomily entered my classroom... well, it was a sort of lamay. It was a wake for the temporary death of hope and faith and happy times.

"Our friendships are now in their DARK AGES." -Ana

And it's sort of true, a lot of issues have emerged and this, for me, is the most emotional sem yet.

"I've seen you cry a lot of times this sem Euns." -Joan

Argh, it's painfully true. It's sad really, looking back, I experienced an emotionally unstable sem. But according to John Cage of Ally McBeal, when you look back at what happened in the past year and you can't particularly remember any moment where you cry, the year is a waste. I guess I'll look at it that way, it was a fruitful year, a lot of discoveries, triumphs and yeah, disappointments. It was not a year of waste, i guess.

Even if our friendships are at our dark ages at present, I am continuously waiting for renaissance... the rebirth of good times, of normal times. I know that we have accumulated a lot of treasured memories that are more than enough to help us get past the problems that we are currently facing.

Kaya guys, let's all hang in there. Let's just hope that this summer, we can wash away all the sand that has mudded our judgment. Let's just hope that after this sem, good vibes will flow.

In the meantime, let's all study for the FINALS. Goodluck everyone.

...

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from POSTSECRET

Of Sorry and its Synonyms

"Bakit ba lagi na lang ang buhay mo punong-puno ng drama? Di ka parin ba
nagbabago? Kahit dati, ganyan ka na!" -Sam

I am at a loss for words. If tears can say everything that's needed to be said, I would've already written a novel. It's a blessing that my eyes go back to normal after an intense crying session because if I'm normal, my eyes will be puffier than cotton candy. It's hard to grasp the whole situation, there's no place for hatred, not even for blame... and it's making it way harder to cope. How can you mend a wound that was inflicted upon you unintentionally? How can you not take personally something that in reality is personal? It pains me that we are in this whole situation with nothing to do but wait for things to be better in the future.

In the meantime, I am constantly reminded of how blessed I am with friends who are always ready to cheer me up when I'm the unstable woman that I am. Thanks for the muffins Joan, thanks for the Belgian Waffle Sam, thank you for being strong for me Patty, thank you Hazel for feeling my pain, to Melo and Juanch for making me believe in love [walang kinalaman e no! hehe], to Ces for making me understand what happened and for convincing me about Lost Boy [wala nanaman kinalaman], to Ana for that heartwarming message, to Carlo for chain smoking with me and for reminding me to stop crying, to Dennis for asking if I'm ok [even if it was his birthday and we should be making him happy], to you for at least saying sorry.

Sometimes, the people whom you expect to hurt you end up standing by you and making you feel loved and the people whom you have so much faith in end up hurting you, though unintentionally... in the end, they still hurt you. I guess it's partly because they matter in your life that whatever they do becomes that big of a deal. Perhaps it's because you love them so much that in the end, you can't find it in your heart to hate them so you end up just letting it pass, like it didn't happen at all. That's what friends do right? Like what I've said in the past, I don't let go.. even if I bleed so badly, I won't let go.

I hate walking around all teary-eyed like a loser puppy. I hate it when people perceive me as sad. That is something that I as much as possible try to avoid, affecting other people negatively. That is so not me. But I guess it's true, sometimes life throws a curveball at you and well, all that's left for you to do is say sorry because the curveball turned out to be more than that. It turned out to be one viscious ball of pain. And it wasn't life that threw it at you, it was someone.

I'm sorry too... I am worrying that it might burden you. Finals pa naman, wag ka na masyado mag-isip. I'll be fine. We'll be fine. I am still trying to understand . At oo, sana madapa na uli ako kasama ka. In the meantime, I'll see you around.

Rain on my Parade, Procession and Every Li'l Sunshine

Kanina lang there was nothing to write about... it's amazing how one minute I was raving about how normal my life finally is, only to be laughed at by fate and now, I am a big joke. Again. It not only pisses me off but it's making me cry. It's so uhmm, stupid... it's so petty but the situation makes me emotionally unstable. TOTALLY. That's without him even trying, without him ever feeling even a bit of what I'm feeling. I needed to get away from there just so I can stop myself from making a fool out of myself. I can't accuse anyone of being insensitive because well, I don't deserve to be taken into consideration. And it all the more pisses me off.

Side kwento na lang to make me feel a bit better, I was crossing the street from Block 9 to Ateneo and was waiting for the cars to pass by when this car stopped and made me cross.. I thought, "Ang hot ko naman, tumitigil sya kahit may karapatan sya na mag-go..." Un pala, si RC un. May kawayan blues pa kami. Laughtrip.

Anyway, to add insult to the injury, I found out that CLV shuffled our class cards... So, there is a big possibility that I got called in class today. And I was at Starbucks, studying Civ Pro for the finals. Great. Ano pa ba ang darating?

Hay, buti na lang Shem's online. I ranted and ranted and ranted. Then she had to give me the jealousy-inducing news, SHE'S OFF TO EUROPE today. Great. And I'm stuck here in Manila, with an internship that's yet to be finalized, and a lot of other un-fun stuff to do. Saya.

I'll be probably be meeting up with Sam later around 6pm. I hope we can sort of catch up, it's been a while since I last saw that ass.

I'm thinking of going back to Starbucks to continue my interrupted studying streak. I hope and pray to God that I get in the mood again. Linshak talaga o. I read pa this article about Ali Sotto and her second husband who writes poems for her. I read some of the poems and and it broke my heart that I have no one to write similar poems for, and no one to write poems for me. Sige, depression kill me softly. Salamat ha.

Minsan talaga nagbabalak na ako maglayas sa bwisit na Neverland na yan e. Sinasaktan lang ako. Lalo na yang tinkerbell na yan. Isama mo pa yang si Lost Boy. Maghahanap na nga lang ako ng crocodile...

Carlo: Wala pa ba crocodile sa Neverland mo?
Eunice: Sige maghahanap na ako.
Carlo: Astig un si Crocodile, may clock na sya at maganda un tagline nya.
Eunice: Ano?
Carlo: ONLY TIME WILL TELL.

Things are Back to "NORMAL"

... and normal in my life is synonymous to abnormal. Now I'm confused. hehe

Well, keri na. Finals Week is fast-approaching and as much as I wanna go on a three-day leave, I don't think I can afford to bum around... especially if I have a lot of "FIRST READINGS" to finish. I do not have a lot of things to write about, simply because my life's pretty stable and the only exciting thing that happens to me is when I go to Starbucks to study...

Yeah, and the short interactions I have with the characters in my Neverland. It gets sorta boring too, it's not as exciting as before and it can be attributed to the fact that in reality, I don't think they're really interested. No, I'm not going into my self-pity mode, all I'm saying is that sometimes, it gets tiring to get excited about something that's not really worth being excited about.

Kaya kung ikaw man ay may HD sa akin, can you please step up so we can work on it? [evil grin]

My friend AM sent an email that made me smile and [sige na nga] laugh. So I'm sharing it to everyone.

Intsik: Bili kayo panty. Kapag sinuot ito, hindi kayo mabubuntis.
Babae: Bigyan mo ako ng tatlo.
3 months later, galit si babae: Bakit ako nabuntis?
Intsik: Baka hinubad mo
********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ***
GF: Hayop ka, niloloko mo ako!
BF: Bakit, wala naman akong ginagawa ah!
GF: Anong wala? Nakita kita kanina, may kasama kang ibang babae, magkahawak pa kamay nyo! Niloloko mo ako!
BF: Makinig ka muna... hindi kita niloloko, maniwala ka... Yung kasama ko kanina ang niloloko ko!
************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* Ifugao: Apply po ako ng sundalo, sir.
Officer: Hindi ka pwede, ang dami mong sirang ngipin, bungi ka pa!
Ifugao: Bakit sir, sa gyera ba ngayon, kagatan na ang labanan?
************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ***
A lizard fell on a table.
Genius: Oh! reptila scincidae;
Kikay: Eew, lizard!; A
stig: Shit, butiki!;
Mataray: Shucks, butiks!;
Mayaman: Yuck! Lacoste!;
Mahirap: Pare, ulam!
************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ***
Bakit "S" ang nasa costume ni Superman? Wala na kasing medium! Napansin mo, fit masyado, di ba?
************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ***
Mother superior: Hala, layas dito sa kumbento!
Madre: Bakit po? Dahil po ba sa paggamit ko ng vibrator?
Mother superior: Hindi, ayoko lang may nakikiaalam sa gamit ko!
************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ***
Nanay: Hala, sige, layas! Huwag ka nang bumalik dito sa bahay! Simula ngayon, huwag mo na akong tawaging nanay at hindi na rin kita tatawaging anak, naintindihan mo? Anak: Sige dude, alis na ako.
************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ***
Boy: Kukunin ko ang mga bituin at ibibigay ko sa iyo!
Girl: Shut up! Hindi mo nga makuha yang kulangot mo, bituin pa!
Boy: Ay sorry, hindi ko alam na ito pala ang gusto mo!
************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ***
Ice cream ba talaga yung inendorse in Pacquiao sa TV ad nya na Nestle Ice Cream? Akala ko kasi, softdrinks. Kasi, sabi nya, "Oh mga bata, Mirinda na!"

************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ***
A priest at a church.
Lady: Father, ang gwapo at cute mo naman! Bakit ka pa kasi nagpari?
Priest: Dahil ayaw pumayag ng magulang ko na magmadre ako! Bruha! ************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ***
Pedro: Alam mo, yung pusa namin, kahit nakalagay sa lamesa at walang takip ang ulam namin, hindi kinakain!
Juan: Maniwala ako?!
Pedro: Totoo!
Juan: Ano ba ang ulam nyo?
Pedro: Asin!
************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* Boy Guwapo + Girl Ganda = Perfect Couple.
Boy Guwapo + Girl Panget = True Love.
Boy Panget + Girl Ganda = Galing Diskarte.
Boy Panget + Girl Panget = SUKOB!
************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ***
Ama: Bakit ka umiiyak?
Anak: Pumasa po kasi ako sa test. Huhuhu!
Ama: Aba , magaling! Anong subject yun, anak?
Anak: Pregnancy test po itay!
************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ***
Erap at Starbucks.
Erap: Waiter, isang kape nga!
Waiter: Sir, decaf ho ba?
Erap: Syempre! Bobo! Lahat ng kape, de cup! Bakit, may nakaplato ba?! ************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ***
Sa prusisyon.
Pari: Ang mga boys, sunod sa karo ni San Jose , mga girls, sa karo ni Mama Mary. Bakla: Kami father, saan kami susunod?
Pari: Mga bruha! Follow me!
************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ***
Pedro: Ang tapang talaga ni Paeng! Biro mo, tumalon sa eroplano nang walang parachute!
Leo: Ohh, totoo? Saan mo naman nabalitaan yan?
Pedro: Dun sa burol nya!
************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ***
Anak: Inay, ang galing ng titser ko.
Inay: Bakit naman?
Anak: Tinuruan kami ng kagandahang asal.
Nanay: Eh di marunong ka nang gumalang at magpo at opo?
Anak: Natural! Tanga ka ba?
************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ***
Use "Bampira" in a sentence! Ahmm, Dodong. Pautang naman, meron ka bampira?! ************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* *** TUKMOL: Sino sa inyo ang matapang? Lumabas!
SIGA: Ako, matapang ako, bakit may problema ka?
TUKMOL: Wala po, survey lang ho. Ngayon, yung duwag naman ang lumabas! ************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ***
Anak: Ma, hingi sana ako ng P50.
Nanay: P40? Ang laki naman ng P30! Anong gagawin mo sa P20? Akala mo madaling kumita ng P10? O, eto P5.
************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ***
Boy1: Bakit mo ako sinuntok?
Boy2: Tinawag mo akong hipopotamus!
Boy1: Last year pa yon! Tarantado!
Boy2: Eh kanina ko lang nakita picture ng hippopotamus, bobo!
************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ***
May kwento ako tungkol sa lovelife ng ampalaya. Huwag na lang! Masyadong mapait!
************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ***
Grabe! Biruin mo, 150,000 pesos daw, hot oil lang! 150,000 pesos ang rebonding! Sobra naman yang David's Salon na yan! - Rapunzel.
************ ********* ********* ********* ********* ********* ***
Hindi makapagtimpla ng juice si Inday. Tahimik lang syang nakatitig sa bote ng juice. Dahil nakasulat: Concentrate.

To Pia, my Dance Partner

[clean version, just because I can't seem to post in my blog the 'F' word]

I WANNA LOVE YOU
by Akon

I see you windin n grindin up on that pole,
I kno u see me lookin' at you and you already kno
I wanna love you, you already know
I wanna love you, you already know

[Snoop Dogg]
Money in the air as mo feel grad you by your coat tail take you to the motel, hoe sale,
dont tell, wont tell, baby said I dont talk dogg but she told on me, oh well,
take a picture wit me, what the flick gon do, baby stick to me & ima stick on u,
if u pick me then ima pick on you, d-o-double g and im here to put this dick on you,
I'm stuck on pussy n urs is right, wrip ridinin them poles and them doors is tight
and ima get me a shot for the end of the night cuz pussy is pussy and baby ur pussy for life.

[Chorus: Akon]
I see you windin n grindin up on that pole,
I kno u see me lookin' at you and you already kno
I wanna love you, you already know
I wanna love you, you already know

[Akon]
Shorty I can see u aint lonely handfull of niggas n they all got cheese,
so u lookin at me now whats it gonna be just another tease far as I can see,
tryin get u up out this club if it means spendin' a couple dubs,
throwin bout 30 stacks in the back make it rain like that cuz I'm far from a scrub,
u kno my pedigree, ex-deala use to move phetamines,
girl I spend money like it dont mean nuthin n besides I got a thing for u.
[ these lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]

[Chorus: Akon]
I see you windin n grindin up on that pole,
I kno u see me lookin' at you and you already kno
I wanna love you, you already know
I wanna love you, you already know

[Snoop Dogg]
Mobbin' through club in low pressin im sittin in the back in the smokers section (just smokin),
birds eye, I got a clear view, you cant see me but I can see u (baby I see u),
its cool we jet the mood is set,
your pussy is wet u rubbin your back and touchin your neck,
ur body is movin' u humpin' n jumpin' ur titties is bouncin' u smilin' n grinin' n lookin at me.

[Akon]
Girl n while your looking at me im ready to hit the caddy right up on the patio move the patty to the caddy,
baby u got a phatty the type I like to marry wantin to just give u everythin n thats kinda scary,
cuz I'm lovin the way you shake your ass , bouncin', got me tippin' my glass,
lil' mully dont get caught up to fast but I got a thing for you.

[Chorus: Akon]
I see you windin n grindin up on that pole,
I kno u see me lookin' at you and you already kno
I wanna love you, you already know
I wanna love you, you already know

[Chorus: Akon]
I see you windin n grindin up on that pole,
I kno u see me lookin' at you and you already kno
I wanna love you, you already know
I wanna love you, you already know

girl...

You guys should see us dance to this song. It's gonna be a whole new experience. haha. One of a kind.

Di Naman Bored.. Tamad lang.

Dear Eunice Zuleika,
Here is your single's love horoscope
for Wednesday, March 14:

A piece of the romantic puzzle that's been missing might just snap into place now, and the person who's holding it may not be who you'd expect. Be ready for enlightenment from an unusual source.

	I, Eunice, being of sound mind, hereby bequeath my entire estate to a Ferrari. I do this because they work for the mob. My only regret in this life was that I never met my idol Tom Green.
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Your Dating Style: Honest Relationship (Self-Directed)

You like to have an honest relationship with someone. You may or may not be faithful, but you would always tell them what's going on with you.

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Zaldy and Elvie are Proud to Announce the Birth of their Child, Eunice, on May 14, 1984.

Unfortunately, Eunice vomits candy.

Zaldy and Elvie are confused. So very confused..

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