The Law and Economics of Lust, Love and Life

Realization

During a yosi break, Ces, Carlo and I got into a conversation about my romantic past. Actually, I bullied them into listening to my ramblings... In the middle of my discussing why "every li'l pseudo-relationship and almost love stories I had" ended, Ces made quite a startling observation. She declared that every reason I gave is connected to the future. Her exect words were, "Tignan mo na, ganun ka mag-isip e.. Puro in the future."

Totoo nga. As much as I have consistently considered myself as a commitment-phobe, I realized that I never really dated someone whom I thought I didnt have a future with. And, if somewhere along the way, I find out that his [the guy's] future doesn't fit how I imagine our future to be, I never really hesitated in ending the whole fiasco. That's me, I'm FUTURE-centric.

I guess I just believe that a relationship is not worth my time if there is no "future" involved in it. Though it must be fun, spontaneous and light... it doesn't necessarily follow that it has to be pointless. Oh well, thanks Ces for that eye-opener.

I Got Banged II

ZAIRA-inspired Pictures... ROCKER CHICK ang drama. Rock on!!!

I Got Banged.

Because I'm so sick of my same old hairstyle... my crazy self got a pair of scissors and cut away. So, I am now banged. FULL BANGS ITO. Edgy kung edgy. Bahala na. Hehe.

Be posting some pics maya-maya. Zaira ng Rockstar Supernova ang drama ko e. Haha.

Kapanahunan nanaman...

Kapanahunan nanaman...
... ng malalamig na mga gabi.
... ng bibingka, puto-bumbong at simbang gabi.
... ng bigayan ng regalo, tanggapan ng regalo, batuhan ng regalo.
... ng mga hawakan ng kamay, akapang walang-malay, halikang matagumpay at paglalambingang walang humpay.
... ng kasentihan, masinsinang usapan at iyakan.

PASKO na... susundan nanaman ang TALA.

Rebirth

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these are pictures of Renz, the twins' cousin. He reminded us of the twins so we took pictures of him...

Closure [Sam, alam kong hinihintay mo 'to]

I think I finally got "it" last Wednesday. I think we're friends again.

Japh: Handa ka na ba?
Euns: Saan?
Japh: Na makita sya?
Euns: Di ko nga sya naisip e. Naman o.

Ed: Di naman naging kayo diba?
Euns: Hindi.
Ed: E ano ang problema?
Euns: Wala naman problema e.

AM: Di ka raw namamansin e.
Euns: Di naman nya ko kinausap.
AM: Nag-hi kaya sya sayo.
Euns: Di ko sya nakita.

There was silence anticipation amongst us who knew of "THAT LETTER". I wasn't really looking forward to seeing him, in fact, I was half-hoping that he won't be there. It may be attributed to the fact that well, it was him who chose to not be friends with me anymore.

But like all wounds, mine finally got healed. It was awkward and I won't deny that. I guess it was the twins' way also of forcing us into leaving the past behind. Now, I'm glad he was there.

Euns: Suplado ka parin sa personal a.
Guy: [smiles, hugged me from behind... long, tight and lingering... heartwarming... the hug which we shall now call the, "TGIS HUG"... It got me into thinking of what he wanted to say with that hug. I'm betting on, "Im sorry that I had to do that. I felt like it was the right thing to do. I didnt mean to hurt you. I hope you're doin ok." or "Let's just forget about what happened and be friends again."]
Euns: Ano naman un, ang laki-laki mo na ganyan ka parin. *smiled and said to self "Ok na un, di naman ako mahilig sa mga confrontation e, the last time i had a really intense situation, i ended up biting my nail and looking out the window thinking of why i had to be in that situation."

That was it. I guess I can now admit it, he was once THE GUY. As I watch him grieve for his bestfriends, I couldnt help but feel guilty for making it a li'l bit harder by being around. But like what I said, I guess it's God's way of giving me that closure that I thought will never come. We're friends again.

That's good enough.

At Nasan ang BAGYO? Aber?!

You Are 52% Nerdy

You may be a bit surprised with this score, but your more of a closet nerd than an actual nerd.
Stop denying your inner nerd! You're truly dorkier than you think.

How Nerdy Are You?

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"Nice doggy."

What Will Your Famous Last Words Be?

Your Personality Is Like Acid

A bit wacky, you're very difficult to predict.
One moment you're in your own little happy universe...
And the next, you're on a bad trip to your own personal hell!

What Drug Is Your Personality Like?

Illustrated Ironic Reunion

Ironic Reunion

Last Wednesday, the MYSTICAL FIVE, together with Ed and Bebang, went to Pampanga for the last night of the wake and the burial the next day... My friends and I talked about how odd life's jokes are. DRY HUMOR. Kasi kami, we havent seen each other in ages, and the only time we finally found time to be together now that we have to see Peter and Paul go. Ironic and sad.

The twin's untimely death, though shocking and unexpected, paved the way for a much needed reunion. It gave life to the memories of our college years that we temporarily have almost forgotten. Suddenly, it's like it was only yesterday when we were struggling Iskolars ng Bayan, looking at a life full of promise and a string of problems [some of 'em really petty].

It's another thing reason for me to say thank you to Peter and Paul. They made us realize how important it is to appreciate our lives, AT PRESENT... While we still have time. There's no room for hangups. We should be happy now, with hope of being happier in the future.

Peter and Paul, 'til our next gimmick.

Peter and Paul were icons back in college, women were lured by their silent charm and men were envious of their being oblivious to the looks of admiration being thrown at them.

But above all, Peter and Paul were each other's strength.

They were special. More than special in fact.

I still can't believe that they're gone... it's so surreal. I can still imagine them smiling, playing badminton, driving and doing everything together with that contentment that you rarely see in the eyes of people our age. They loved each other more than brothers, more than twins, even more than their own lives.

I feel blessed to have known them and to have experienced the ray of sunshine that they give when they're around.

I will not cry nor will I say goodbye.

Peter and Paul, 'til our next gimmick.

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Peter and Paul Mendoza, two of my memorable, endearing and unique friends in college, passed away last night in a car accident on their way home. The wake's in their house in Pampanga. My condolences to their loved ones and to the people who are weeping for the void that they have momentarily left us. I am not worried, I know we shall hangout again...