Realization

During a yosi break, Ces, Carlo and I got into a conversation about my romantic past. Actually, I bullied them into listening to my ramblings... In the middle of my discussing why "every li'l pseudo-relationship and almost love stories I had" ended, Ces made quite a startling observation. She declared that every reason I gave is connected to the future. Her exect words were, "Tignan mo na, ganun ka mag-isip e.. Puro in the future."

Totoo nga. As much as I have consistently considered myself as a commitment-phobe, I realized that I never really dated someone whom I thought I didnt have a future with. And, if somewhere along the way, I find out that his [the guy's] future doesn't fit how I imagine our future to be, I never really hesitated in ending the whole fiasco. That's me, I'm FUTURE-centric.

I guess I just believe that a relationship is not worth my time if there is no "future" involved in it. Though it must be fun, spontaneous and light... it doesn't necessarily follow that it has to be pointless. Oh well, thanks Ces for that eye-opener.