What to DO?

Dear Eunice,
Here is your single's love horoscope
for Thursday, September 28:

You're in a strange spot. Part of you relishes your comfortable routine, but the other part of you knows it's time for something new, especially when it comes to how you love (not to mention how you live). What to do?

WHAT TO DO? WHAT TO DO? Rach, i'm now sure even the stars want me to start dating again!!! It's not only the rain, it's the stars. So, Lord... [winks]

Must be the hormones.

Euns : do you ever feel like you need to hold hands with someone just because? na parang at a certain moment, YOU NEED TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP? Coz im beginning to think that im being pathetic and needy.
Lagsh: i've been there and i think i'm through sa ganyan . Ever since my heartbreak. But then i realize there's more to it
Euns: it's weird really. because im not really the type. i mean, i joke about human warmth and all these mushy shit that people expect you to feel but this is the first time that i feel like i really NEED A GUY. More to it?
Lagsh : i felt i needed a girl about 2 years ago.actually, sometimes i feel it still today. but then, i ask myself, for what?
Euns: wait, i dont need a PARTICULAR GUY which makes it even weirder.
Lagsh: yeah me too. i just wanted someone. no one in particular.
Euns: : i cant grasp the whole feeling really. and i cannot accept the feeling of just wanting. it's so freakin' illogical.
Lagsh: probably hormones. bwahaha
Euns: pwede rin e. i thought of that too.
Lagsh: why dont you try getting in one. to know or pacify whatever it is that bothers you
Euns: easier said than done. haha especially for someone who's social life is equal to her nights at starbs studying the law.
Lagsh: well, thats law school for us
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yeah. that's law school. Btw I wanna congratulate my friend Lagsh for his successful play. And for the invitation he just accepted. And for LIVING his LIFE. I so envy you man. I hope your entry gets nominated for CineMalaya.

Rain on my Parade... please.

I am beginning to believe that I'm kind of a "psychic". Why? Well, i didnt go to class today feeling like it's ok to not go to class. I didnt feel guilty or anything, considering that i havent been called to recite yet in partnership and that I have Land Titles and Criminal Law to worry about. Rach kind of made me decide not to go to school. I NEED A BREAK. And i cant really focus when I have already pinpointed what I should do and I didnt do it. So I slept and slept and ate and watched TV and slept... then Mel called me to ask if I was going to school. Voila! We didnt have class for Partnership. So... swerte.

But wait there's more... NO CLASSES TOMORROW. We are definitely on a roll [quoted from Pattykins]. No classes for three days in a row? That's like a FREAKY OMEN. I just hope it's a prelude to something GREATER than no classes. Uhmm, Lord... How about that BOYTOY? =P Err, BOYLET... I dont wanna have to resort to knitting [i.e. Meredith and Issy from Grey's Anatomy]

NEED to stop Drought. Now.

Date of Birth: 14/05

You may be feeling like you want more freedom from a certain situation, Eunice. Perhaps it is your own emotions that you wish to distance yourself from, or there is a person in your life that you are feeling smothered by. On one hand, you long for company and intimacy in order to fill an inner void, while on the other hand, you resent having to be so needy. Make sure you are whole before you sink too deeply into a relationship with another.

Yeah, thanks you for pointing that out. Even my horoscope agrees that I NEED TO BE INTIMATE NOW. I am human. I need human warmth.

Seriously? Seriously!

I just wasted one day. I went to school for Property and Negotiable Instruments and well, FREECUT. Announcements were made at 2pm and 7pm, separately. Yes, we had to wait for five hours. Seriously? Seriously.

I am not totally unhappy about it, it's not everyday that we get freecuts from our professors. It's just that I wouldve appreciated the cuts more if I was at home, resting. No kidding, people are panicking because a few weeks from now, the dreaded FINALS WEEK'll once again terrorize the already confused and crazy law students that we all are. 8 days for 9 subjects. Can't wait. Seriously? Seriously!

Earlier this evening, while the women of our block were bonding and waiting for the bittersweet FREECUT announcement, Ana succeeded in making us all happy. Chiara was sort of examining Paopao's bigger than big umbrella and was trying to open it. Ana noticed that Chiara was having a "hard time" so she decided to play the part of the "nagmamarunong na kaibigan" and told Kya to give her the umbrella. Kya did give her the umbrella and the anticipation slowly built up amongst the now UNBELIEVABLY BORED women of my block. Ana, in the beginning, slowly tried to open the now popular umbrella. And then she opened it ALL THE WAY. And when I say all the way, i did mean ALL THE WAY. She opened it until the umbrella was uhmm, UPSIDE DOWN [that result you get when the WIND's being a bitch and you're in EDSA trying to not get wet because of the bitchier RAIN] That's not the fun part, since the GIRLS highly anticipated the UMBRELLA OPENING, unexpectedly, we all shouted in panic when we saw the now inverted umbrella. The panicky shouting was followed by a series of hyena-soundung laughter. Seriously? Seriously!

We havent started discussing the AGENCY par tof our Partnership and Agency class. Seriously? Seriously!

Two of my friends didnt pass the Ateneo Human Rights application process. Tough luck. I guess you guys arent HUMAN RIGHTS ADVOCATES material. Seriously? Seriously. Hehe. Love you both but uhmm, let's just go rafting in Cagayan De Oro? =P

I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY NEED TO GO ON A DATE BEFORE THE FINALS. Or at least go meet someone at a bar like I used to. Seriously? Seriously.

Why? Just because.

"I Still Can't Blog" but I'm trying anyway.

I decided to sort of add tags to my blog. I want to categorize everything. I know it's going to be a LOOOOOOOOOOOONG process before I can finally organize everything I wrote in the past three years but it's worth a shot. Especially now that I am still "CHASING MY MUSE".

This whole "I AM NOT IN THE MOOD TO BLOG" drama got me into thinking of the changes within me. I don't look at things the way I used to look at them. Everyday has become a whole new discovery for me. It's kind of hard to be in THAT STAGE again. That "I'm-not-sure-where-i'm-going-but-i'll-continue-to-walk-anyway" stage. I still want this. I really do. It's just that when I try to picture myself a few years from now, I get gazillions of images. It's like my mind's one big clutter-bin. Argh.


I rarely have time to contemplate about anything nowadays. When did life become so routinary? I hate monotony. At least that's what I try to impose upon myself. But the people who know me [really know me] can attest to the fact that I AM NOT A BIG FAN OF CHANGE EITHER. So which is which? Didnt I just say that i'm a CLUTTER BIN? At least i'm consistent.

Blogger's Block

How do you fight a BLOGGER'S BLOCK? Simple, write about it.

It's hard to figure out really, i mean my life's still the same way it was last week or the other day or yesterday and yet, I don't feel like blogging. A lot of things did happen, (i.e. Pepe's and Yvie's Joint Birthday Party at Dencio's) but I LACK WIT right now. This whole drought kind of reminds me of that episode in Sex and the City when Samantha thought she lost her orgasm forever. Yes, for Samantha it's her orgasm, for me, it's my blogging... which reveals how dull I have become. [insert attempt to laugh]

I think I am choking. I mean come on! How more timely can it be right? My blog's gonna be one of the featured blogs in an article for The Palladium [Official Publication of the Ateneo School of Law] and here I am, with nothing to add pizzaz to my now stagnant blog.

Yeah, yeah. It happens. Sometimes silence says a lot. Heck, silence can be more deafening at times. So let's all just assume that my BLOGGER'S BLOCK is a prelude to something deafening.

Shifting Sandbars

How do you make things right? What is it with tears and disappointments that they always find ways to creep into my life? Why do burgeoning happy endings end unhappy?

Today was quite an emotional rollercoaster really. People didnt notice because I didnt want them to notice. I guess I'm back to my old, defensive and trying-to-be-strong self.

I do hope that wherever this new development takes me, it would be a place nearer to my dreams or at least to finding the contentment and peace of mind that I pray for.


I dont mind hugging myself. In fact, I'm kind of used to it. It's just that I once in a blue moon long to be hugged too. The world can be too cold and harsh at times to a fiery heart.

Today, I'm here... tomorrow, I MIGHT BE THERE.

I Appreciate You More

Tonight is the night that Ana, Carlo and I toured Rockwell and Back/Frontwell. Wanna know how you'll appreciate Rockwell again after spending all your days in it? Wait for a cab or just expose yourself to "REAL LIFE" a.k.a. JP Rizal. Then go back inside Rockwell. You'll learn to love it again. Promise.

I did pretty ok in my Criminal Procedure Midterms. Thank you talaga Lord. It's been a while since I last felt like I was smart again. Drama.

Everything you need to learn...

...you'll learn from your cab driver.

He was recklessly driving and i was in a way panicking. Then he said,

"Ma'am wag po ko kabahan sa pagd-drive ko ha, coding po kasi ako. Just relax. Alam naman ni Lord kung bakit ko ito ginagawa. Sa tingin ko naman di ako ibibigay ni Lord sa kalaban. 100 percent ang pagtitiwala ko sa kanya at dahil alam nya na para sa pamilya ko ito, hinding hindi nya tayo pababayaan."

AYUN NAMAN PALA e...

[from last Sunday's Pep Squad Competition at the Araneta Coliseum]

I just had to post this here. NATAWA AKO NG SOBRA!
at the end of the day, i still am an ISKOLAR NG BAYAN. hehe.


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from geileen