Rhea Salim: ah ok...kaya mo yan!..ikaw pa?!.. you've grown into a sophisticated lady...I'm saying hi to Rhea, thanks for dropping by my blog and for the wonderful conversation today. It made my day. Apir! I hope we and the rest of the "choir" could get together sometime. Nakakamiss ang ating gradeschool days.
Nice: haha. salamat. naks! sophisticated? i dunno if that's the right word for me. more like predatory or uhmm, crazy.
Rhea Salim: just take it...it's more of a compliment...hehehe
Sophisticated? Predatory!
It always feels nice to bump into people whom you have grown up with. It's refreshing to look back at the times when all we had were dreams and our innocent minds were preoccupied by nothing but passion for that ambition. I want that kid in me again. I want that driven girl to emerge from the woman that I've transformed into.
Announcements.
I am happy to announce that I have started to read the book. I am not gonna comment on it because I am afraid that I dont deserve to comment on it yet. Paulo Coelho is a writer that captures the beauty in life's idiosyncrasies. And I should stop talking because I might not be able to contain my excitement. The only reason why I'm posting this is because I'm just so happy that I'm not reading anything that's law school related. At least for the next two days. Then I shall start to review for the midterms. Unlike last sem, i refuse to cram.Also, I am overwhelmed by my discovery that a lot of people watched Love Actually during the break. [duh, it's in Star Movies Euns!] I know I talked about the flick gazillions of times already but I will never get tired of writing about how it never fails to make my heart go, "All I want for christmas is you..." all the time. I am now predicting that in the next years, there will be a proliferation of Love Actually fanatics and it will eventually be immortalized and will rise to the level that was achieved by let's say... My Bestfriend's Wedding or Sleepless in Seattle or Somewhere in Time or uhmm... Casablanca. But I am also predicting that it will be the official love story of the Christmas season. Unlike the movies that I mentioned in the preceding sentence, (eww, it sounded like i was reciting an article in the civil code, haha) Love Actually will be watched not by singles and couples or any lovestruck person during Valentine's Day but during the Holidays. What did I accomplish in making such a prediction? Nothing. So?
Also, Bob Ong has a new book, Stainless Longganisa. Havent bought one but I'm quite sure that it's as hilarious if not more than hilarious than his past books. Let us support Philippine Literature. I'll write something about it in the near future. I got into a conversation with Ana about how unfortunate it is that not a lot of people support our local writers. The books are way cheaper (think UP Press) but never less brilliant.To end my entry, let make one last announcement. I found another blog that's worth linking to. It's Somewhere I Have Never Travelled by Peej Bernardo. So if you guys aren't doin anything and you're tired of reading the exploits of your favorite budding anorexic, I recommend that you go to his blog. He's a better writer. Haha.
Yeah, here's to our "wasted hearts"-- indeed, all of us have our crazy moments. But thankfully, like that character from Love, Actually, we also learn to say: "Enough." -Peej B.
The Spirit of Christmas
This year, i learned not to look for the spirit of christmas. I came to realize that WE must make it happen. It mirrors what we do and what we feel as we celebrate life. The whole month, I whined about how I still cannot feel the Christmas Spirit amidst all the beautiful things that I'm surrounded with. It was a month-long quest for getting in the mood and finding the things that'll make me smile. All of a sudden, I found myself hating the fact that there are a lot of people shopping and that i am LITERALLY bumping into them, i even winced at the idea of people getting together talking about how Christmas makes everyone all giggly, considerate and well, happy. For a time, I wasnt convinced.
We must admit, Christmas is a big neon sign that reminds us of the things that we lack. We look around and see our inadequacies parading all over our faces. It's a holiday that's persistent and at times, annoying. You cannot tell people to bug off and cannot even find it in your heart to say that you want to be alone. You don't do that because even if THAT will make you feel better, you will receive looks of pity and well, of disgust. You are not supposed to be alone on Christmas Dat. Nah. That's too sad. Even if that's what you want. You are supposed to hug people, talk to them about the things you've accomplished so far (yeah, and it continues until the New Year) and open gifts which, chances are, not the gifts you expect (unless you gave everyone a wishlist and made it clear that you are not gonna accept anything outside your wishlist). Still, after all the gift-giving and the human warmth, you still know that you lack something.
Whether it's something tangible (i.e. iron curler) or intangible (i.e. human warmth), you know that Christmas makes you CRAVE. Maybe it's the true spirit of christmas, to CRAVE for something. After all, cravings aren't always on the negative side. Cravings may give rise to your wanting to become a better person, aiming to finally let go of the infatuation you've been nursing for that (INSERT APPROPRIATE ADJECTIVE) guy or looking at your least favorite professor in a different light or... just deciding that you've had enough sad moments and you want to be happy -- again -- just like before. That, my friends, is the true spirit of Christmas.
Or am I talking about the New Year? Now I'm confused.
We must admit, Christmas is a big neon sign that reminds us of the things that we lack. We look around and see our inadequacies parading all over our faces. It's a holiday that's persistent and at times, annoying. You cannot tell people to bug off and cannot even find it in your heart to say that you want to be alone. You don't do that because even if THAT will make you feel better, you will receive looks of pity and well, of disgust. You are not supposed to be alone on Christmas Dat. Nah. That's too sad. Even if that's what you want. You are supposed to hug people, talk to them about the things you've accomplished so far (yeah, and it continues until the New Year) and open gifts which, chances are, not the gifts you expect (unless you gave everyone a wishlist and made it clear that you are not gonna accept anything outside your wishlist). Still, after all the gift-giving and the human warmth, you still know that you lack something.
Whether it's something tangible (i.e. iron curler) or intangible (i.e. human warmth), you know that Christmas makes you CRAVE. Maybe it's the true spirit of christmas, to CRAVE for something. After all, cravings aren't always on the negative side. Cravings may give rise to your wanting to become a better person, aiming to finally let go of the infatuation you've been nursing for that (INSERT APPROPRIATE ADJECTIVE) guy or looking at your least favorite professor in a different light or... just deciding that you've had enough sad moments and you want to be happy -- again -- just like before. That, my friends, is the true spirit of Christmas.
Or am I talking about the New Year? Now I'm confused.
Things Like These Definitely Make My Day....
Mikki [ang nagwagi, kahit nakapikit kayang kumapa... ng gitara, tingin palang ulam na]
L: Peter [yummy talaga, malapad ang shoulder, malakas... ang smash, eksakto... mag-park]
R: Justin [rakista, misteryoso, malalim... mag-isip]
L: Jeio [naghubad sa harapan ko, malakas... ang spike, minamani... ang Economics
R: Gino [escort sa debut ko, magaling... sumayaw, mabilis... mag-drive]
L: GR [maton, mahilig... tumawa at bihasang-bihasa]
R: Victor [boy next door, malupit at malambot.. ang katawan]
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Paumanhin sa mga Involved:
mahal ko kayo, namimiss ko lang kayo ng sobra sampu ng lahat ng mga minamahal ko sa UP School of Economics.
mahal ko kayo, namimiss ko lang kayo ng sobra sampu ng lahat ng mga minamahal ko sa UP School of Economics.
CONTENTED.
A few hours before Christmas and I can say that I am exactly where I wanna be. Uhmm, not in front of the PC. But at home, with the best family one could have, plain chilling. They may not know every single thing that has happened to me in the past months but I know that they feel I had a hard time. I draw strength from the fact that no matter how screwed up my life seems to be, it will be compensated by the warmth and the love that they are more than willing to give. We may have our differences and we may once in a while hurt each other but no one can deny the fact that my family rocks and CHRISTMAS is more than perfect with them around.
May everyone feel the contentment that I am feeling right now and let us never forget that...
May everyone feel the contentment that I am feeling right now and let us never forget that...
JESUS IS THE REASON FOR THE SEASON.
Rhythm
PainPainPainPainPainPainPain
SaneSaneSaneSaneSaneSaneSane
RainRainRainRainRainRainRain
GainGainGainGainGainGainGain
Rhyme with me. We'll sing-song
our way to happiness -- together.
SaneSaneSaneSaneSaneSaneSane
RainRainRainRainRainRainRain
GainGainGainGainGainGainGain
Rhyme with me. We'll sing-song
our way to happiness -- together.
Snow
I dreamt of snow last night.
I was jumping and laughing --
i fell. Still i was laughing.
I looked up and realized
I was dreaming. Not because
it can't be snowing but because
I saw you laughing with me.
You are snow. You exist,
but not where I'm dreamin'.
I was jumping and laughing --
i fell. Still i was laughing.
I looked up and realized
I was dreaming. Not because
it can't be snowing but because
I saw you laughing with me.
You are snow. You exist,
but not where I'm dreamin'.
Salamat.
Salamat sa regalo mo. Salamat sa human warmth. Salamat din sa lahat ng mga bagay na ginawa mo at handang gawin mo para sakin. Minsan nalulungkot ako na di ko masuklian lahat iyon pero paulit-ulit mong sinasabi sakin na masaya kang masaya ako. Di ko alam kung ano ang nagawa ko para maging karapat-dapat ako sa lahat ng ito pero salamat dahil pinaparamdam mo na napapasaya din kita. Hindi ko gustong isara ang pinto sa posibilidad na baka bukas makalawa, handa na akong mahalin ka... pero sa ngayon sigurado ako na masaya akong nandiyan ka.
Eastwood is the Place to be.
What are the chances that I'd bump into a lot of people tonight?
1. Pepe and Esmey... lovebirds ha! haha.
2. Tintin... I met her about two years ago in our restaurant in Libis. She's from Miriam. She has a kid now.
3. JC and Mark... they saw my dad [whom they call THE BOSS] while he was waiting for us outside Ensemble.
Anyway, it was a fun-filled night. We treated some of the people who worked for us at Dencio's (bagong-bago. nakapikit pa ko nag-order.. memorized na ang oorderin e. shemps di nawala ang sinugba!)
These are a few of our "Moments of Vanity"..
1. Pepe and Esmey... lovebirds ha! haha.
2. Tintin... I met her about two years ago in our restaurant in Libis. She's from Miriam. She has a kid now.
3. JC and Mark... they saw my dad [whom they call THE BOSS] while he was waiting for us outside Ensemble.
Anyway, it was a fun-filled night. We treated some of the people who worked for us at Dencio's (bagong-bago. nakapikit pa ko nag-order.. memorized na ang oorderin e. shemps di nawala ang sinugba!)
These are a few of our "Moments of Vanity"..
Gusto kong isulat ang storya nating dalawa. Pero nangako ako na di magsasalita. Maraming magagandang bagay ang sana'y masasabi ko, pero natatakot ako na matatabunan lang iyon ng katapusan na ginawa natin. Minsan iniisip ko kung naiisip mo na dapat di mo ko pinakawalan. Tapos sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na di mo un maiisip kasi unang-una, di naman ako naging sayo, katulad lang din ng katotohanan na di ka naman naging akin. Naalala ko un mga panahon na napapangiti ako ng mga maliliit na bagay na ginagawa mo, dapat pala di na lang ako ngumiti. Kasi kung pinigilan ko ang sarili ko, baka napigilan ko din na masaktan. Sa ngayon di parin ako makapaniwala na wala lang lahat un. Siguro nga inimbento ko lang na merong kahit konti na nangyari sa ating dalawa. Kasi nga diba, di talaga?
Ayoko na sana magsulat tungkol sayo pero kung di ako magsusulat ngayon, baka dumating ang panahon na di ko na maalala ang mga nararamdaman ko at di ko na mabigyan ng buhay ang mga salita. Di lang ako ang naniwala, marami sila. Mas mahirap para sa akin dahil nahihirapan akong ipaliwanag kung bakit di tayo pwede. Masaya ako na magkaibigan parin tayo. Masaya ako na natulungan kita na mailabas mo kung ano ang matagal mo nang itinatago. Natutuwa ako na kahit sa sandaling panahon na inakala kong may pag-asa tayo, naramdaman ko uli na kaya ko nga palang maniwala parin. Ang nakakalungkot, bumalik nanaman ako sa ganito.
Bakit nga pala ulit di tayo pwede? Dahil ba may iba kang mahal o dahil di lang talaga ako ang gusto mo? Magkaiba kasi un. Un may iba kang mahal masosolusyunan pa sana. Kasi ang pagmamahal pwede naman ibaling, lalo na kung di naman sa ayaw mo ako. Pero un pangalawa, ung di lang talaga ako ang gusto mo... un ang mas mahirap at mas masakit. Ibig sabihin ako un problema. Katulad ng dati. Ako nanaman ang problema.
Sala sa init sala sa lamig ang kapalaran ko. May mga panahon na ako ang problema kasi masyado daw ako malamig. Madali daw para sa akin ang magpaalam. Tapos pag naman nagpapaka-sensitibo ako, pag pinili ko naman na ipakit ang kahinaan ko, sasampalin naman ako ng katotohanan na di ako sapat. Di na yata mangyayari na magiging sapat ako para sa kahit kanino. Katulad din ng pagiging di ko sapat sa mga iba't ibang aspeto ng buhay ko.
Ayoko na magsulat tungkol sayo. Pero paano ko un gagawin kung sa tuwing nag-iisip ako at sa tuwing gumagalaw ang kamay ko, wala na ito gusto talakayin kundi tayong dalawa. Hindi pala, kung bakit HINDI NAGING TAYONG DALAWA. Ito lang sa ngayon ang bagay na marami ako masasabi. Hanggang ngayon, hinahanap ka parin nila sa akin. Minsan, nararamdaman ko na sa paningin nila, meron tayong storyang di natapos. Di ko naman masabi na di naman talaga un nagsimula. Ngumingiti parin ako. Minsan patay malisya na lang kasi napapagod na ako. Madalas tinatawanan ko lang.
Mahirap ang pinagawa mo sa akin. Mahirap na walang pagsabihan. Pero dahil magkaibigan tayo, nagagawa ko parin un. Di mo kailangan magpasalamat, di mo rin ako kailangan kausapin pag nabasa mo ito. Sapat nang magkalayo tayo at hinahayaan natin na mabuhay ang isa't isa na parang normal parin. Gusto ko parin na maging masaya ka, sana gusto mo rin na maging masaya ako. Maligayang Pasko. Ngumingiti parin ako pag naaalala kita.
Ayoko na sana magsulat tungkol sayo pero kung di ako magsusulat ngayon, baka dumating ang panahon na di ko na maalala ang mga nararamdaman ko at di ko na mabigyan ng buhay ang mga salita. Di lang ako ang naniwala, marami sila. Mas mahirap para sa akin dahil nahihirapan akong ipaliwanag kung bakit di tayo pwede. Masaya ako na magkaibigan parin tayo. Masaya ako na natulungan kita na mailabas mo kung ano ang matagal mo nang itinatago. Natutuwa ako na kahit sa sandaling panahon na inakala kong may pag-asa tayo, naramdaman ko uli na kaya ko nga palang maniwala parin. Ang nakakalungkot, bumalik nanaman ako sa ganito.
Bakit nga pala ulit di tayo pwede? Dahil ba may iba kang mahal o dahil di lang talaga ako ang gusto mo? Magkaiba kasi un. Un may iba kang mahal masosolusyunan pa sana. Kasi ang pagmamahal pwede naman ibaling, lalo na kung di naman sa ayaw mo ako. Pero un pangalawa, ung di lang talaga ako ang gusto mo... un ang mas mahirap at mas masakit. Ibig sabihin ako un problema. Katulad ng dati. Ako nanaman ang problema.
Sala sa init sala sa lamig ang kapalaran ko. May mga panahon na ako ang problema kasi masyado daw ako malamig. Madali daw para sa akin ang magpaalam. Tapos pag naman nagpapaka-sensitibo ako, pag pinili ko naman na ipakit ang kahinaan ko, sasampalin naman ako ng katotohanan na di ako sapat. Di na yata mangyayari na magiging sapat ako para sa kahit kanino. Katulad din ng pagiging di ko sapat sa mga iba't ibang aspeto ng buhay ko.
Ayoko na magsulat tungkol sayo. Pero paano ko un gagawin kung sa tuwing nag-iisip ako at sa tuwing gumagalaw ang kamay ko, wala na ito gusto talakayin kundi tayong dalawa. Hindi pala, kung bakit HINDI NAGING TAYONG DALAWA. Ito lang sa ngayon ang bagay na marami ako masasabi. Hanggang ngayon, hinahanap ka parin nila sa akin. Minsan, nararamdaman ko na sa paningin nila, meron tayong storyang di natapos. Di ko naman masabi na di naman talaga un nagsimula. Ngumingiti parin ako. Minsan patay malisya na lang kasi napapagod na ako. Madalas tinatawanan ko lang.
Mahirap ang pinagawa mo sa akin. Mahirap na walang pagsabihan. Pero dahil magkaibigan tayo, nagagawa ko parin un. Di mo kailangan magpasalamat, di mo rin ako kailangan kausapin pag nabasa mo ito. Sapat nang magkalayo tayo at hinahayaan natin na mabuhay ang isa't isa na parang normal parin. Gusto ko parin na maging masaya ka, sana gusto mo rin na maging masaya ako. Maligayang Pasko. Ngumingiti parin ako pag naaalala kita.
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