Like Father NOT Like Daughter

"Yung typical na artist.. mahaba un buhok na ang dungis tignan..."
-Dad's comment on an acquaintance he bumped into yesterday

Nasamid ako. Dad just described the men I'm usually attracted to but the difference is.. he described the person with a hint of non-approval. Naalala ko din before he said, "Wag ka magdadala ng parang madugyot tignan na rocker sa bahay ah?" He was kidding but I knew that it was half-meant. Nakakatawa talaga. Looking back, I was attracted to a lot of madugyot persons.

I think it's a good thing. Although I get attracted to a bunch of oddies, I can proudly say that they have their own "winning points". Parang Miss Universe ano? Basta ang common denominator lang, they prefer to look "rugged".. un "im-not-metrosexual-i-dont-exert-that-much-effort-but-i-know-im-cute" kinda guys. Siguro un ang mali. I should date more "business-like men", un talagang mukhang mabango (pero mabango naman un mga dugyot guys ko e, mukha lang hindi! haha). Un mga sasabayan ako sa aking kakikayan. Tama, tama.

Therefore, I should look for someone in the law school. Ayun pala e no? Ang dami pang sinabi, ia-announce lang pala na "predatory" na rin sya. Thanks dad for influencing me. I have decided... no more ARTISTS. Although I think "landscape artists" don't count. (winks at Haze). And writers too. Uhm, ok ok.. I still think I'm meant to marry an artist... only that this time, this artist owns his own gallery or have published his own book and wears crisp yummy-looking long sleeved tops..plus, he loves fine dining too.

Just Like Heaven (It's a Wonderful Afterlife!)

I liked it. It's not super chick flick. Highly coincidental but pleasant. Pepe's and Kiboy's "Awww.." will forever haunt me. What did I love about it? Its humor and its way of making a predictable plot tolerable. Plus the fact that the "garden" that Jack created (because he's a landscape artist) was literally JUST LIKE HEAVEN that it took my breath away.

FAVE QUOTES:

• God made alcohol as a social lubricant. To make men brave, and to make women loose.
• I know what my unfinished business is... YOU.
• I was dead and YOU saved me.
• Unclassy and predatory... two characteristics that men love.
  

MY PAIN IS NO WORSE THAN EVERYONE ELSE'S

I find it tiresome when people parade their agonies for public viewing; the last
thing I want to evoke is pity. We are all the walking wounded, your pain is no
worse than everyone else’s. - Jessica Zafra, Twisted

I am constantly reminded of why I adore Jessica Zafra. She has the gift of saying the things that I would wanna say but I fail to say because I am not as eloquent and as witty a writer as she is. This is exactly my point when I tell people that I dont want to be a burden to anyone. I think we all have our pains to endure and as much as I would want to think that I am suffering more than other people, it's never verifiable. Therefore, I convinced myself that we all are suffering in different levels but at one point in our lives the pain that we feel will be similar to that of what everyone else is actually feeling. I dont think i have any right to feel pity for myself and accept pity from other people because WE ALL ARE SCARRED. We rely on each other once in a while... ONCE IN A WHILE being the operative phrase. In the end, it's just all YOU. or in my case, ALL ME.

A COMMENT on a COMMENT.

This is a COMMENT on A Subject that has no place in the Academe

This is an interesting comment that was published in Inquirer last 30th of November. The first time I read it, I told myself.. "you have got to be kidding me." How could such words come out from a UP student who of all people SHOULD KNOW the importance of being able to RESPECT people from all walks of life. I tried to look at it in his perspective, but still. The subject of Gender and Sexuality is not TABOO anymore, nor should it be discarded as a subject that's meant to make a mockery of the academe... I believe it's about time that we explore that area.

I dont want to judge him because of his religious background, nor should i judge him because of his course (ive got friends who are taking up MBB) but I couldnt help but think of the people he indirectly judged when he wrote these words. I mean come on! He cant just go on making all these claims and back it up with JUST BECAUSE right?

I know it is cruel but baby, sexy stars know A LOT about GENDER and SEXUALITY. If your standards of intellect only include being prim and proper, than that's a problem ON YOUR PART.

I hate know-it-all brats. And i hate know-it-all-self-righteous brats more.

Pain my Love... You Should Pain My Love... (Yuckers!)

It's time to shake off those why-oh-why-can't-I-find-love? blues and take up a
happier tune. Think of what you've got: Count all the ways your life is great,
and all the other kinds of love you have.

Ayun o. Sapul nanaman ako. Argh.

I'm in the library and as much as i hate to admit it, i am not enjoying my surfing time as much as I would enjoy it if I'm not thinking of the fact that I should be in class right now. Kay saklap na tadhana. But it's all good, i deserve a break after my "commuting stint" today.

Carmi was telling me last night about how "strong" I am because I am able to handle the "peculiarities" in my life right now. It just made me think of how I really have grown as a person and how i managed to train myself to have high tolerance for pain. In my opinion, it just takes a li'l focus and then you're all set. It's like training yourself to endure a REALLY COLD shower back when the heater's not working. Until now I can stand a cold shower without the usual jumping around attitude. I think it's always the same with pain. At times you feel the urge to cry and wallow in pity, you have to give in once in a while but you also have to know how far you can go before breaking down. Parang derma lang yan, sabi nga ng dermatologist ko, "Mataas daw talaga ang tolerance ko for pain."

Nakakabother.

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images from Post Secret

GOODbyes.

Whoever came up with the word GOODBYE must be a man who loves irony. I dont understand why it's called a GOODBYE when in fact, people generally don't feel GOOD when they say it. Why can't it be BITTERBYE? Or Sadbye? or Badbye? Oh don't worry, I'm not depressed. It just came into mind on my way home. I was texting this friend kasi of how uncomfortable I am with goodbyes.
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Yesterday, I learned a very important pickup line from Ana. Actually, she just heard it from Rx but i feel that it's one of the most, if not the most, brillian pickup lines ever...

"Fuck me if I'm wrong but is your name Michelle?"

Why do i think it's brilliant? Because it's so modifiable to suit your needs... For example..

1. Treat me to dinner if I'm wrong, but are you Chad?
2. Buy me a drink if I'm wrong, but is your name Charles?
3. Take me home if i'm wrong but are you also from (insert your school)?

Diba? Diba? Ang brilliant e!
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Woohoo, NO LEGAL WRITING tomorrow. I shall therefore relax. Just Like Heaven, here we come!

Dagdag Pahirap sa mga Gift-Givers...

Just like what i said, my LIST isnt complete yet .. therefore to continue on my "bratinella moment, I also have a wishlist for next week's "MINOR GIFT-GIVING". The theme's "mga sumikat na bagay nun gradschool" therefore...

1. yoyo
2. barbie doll
   
3. carebears stuffed toy (please, wag ewoks) ITO NA TALAGA ANG PINAKAGUSTO KO.
   
4. bubble thingie
5. lusis
6. jumping rope
7. tito,vic and joey shirt from "Branded" sa Market Market ko ito nakita.
8. tarot cards
9. wig
10. Fairytale book
11. magic wand
12. walking doll
13. WWE (then WWF) Action Figures
14. tiara
15. OST Beauty and the Beast
16. OST Aladdin
17. OST Lion King

Please, whoever you are.. I'm thanking you in advance. Ma-pressure ka... Thanks sa chocolates.. ang yummy.

I'm way Past my Past.. so I'm saying PASS!

image from POST SECRET

Sometimes you click with a person, and it just doesn't go anywhere. Chalk it up to a new experience, but don't obsess. These things don't always work out, so don't waste time overanalyzing it.

I must admit, i have not fully recovered from everything that happened in the past week. I am missing a friend right now. I dont know if we can still go back to the way we were, but i hope it's still possible.

Dont let your past determine you. - Fr. Mangulabnan

T'was automatic, Pepe gave me am "i know you can relate look" while i gave him a "Tumigil ka kung di masasaktan ka" look. But yeah, I guess i will never believe that with unshaken faith. My past will definitely have a say at who i am at present and at who i will be in the future. I'm forever scarred.

Funny quote for the day:
"I dont have to remind you this because it's in the book... The only reason why I'm reminding you is because I know you dont read the book." - Sir Obieta, Logic Professor

I'm loving my Logic prof, he's witty and he has a way to get our attention. Magaling magaling.

Rush Post

image from POST SECRET

I feel so drained after answering a 6-page questionnaire on the topic of morality. Until now, i still do not understand the concept of being moral that fully. I think people just pretend that they know what is right and what is wrong because they dont want to get looks that says, "you're a sinner" coming from people who like them are just posing... Morality is a very vague concept, that's why it's a concept damn it.

I am not a moral person. Far from it. But i do know that my not being moral does not get in the way of me being able to live my life without hurting other people. Could that be morality? Not caring about the standards set by the shitty society and in effect ositively affecting the lives of the people that surround you? I dunno, dont ask me. Im pretty screwed up myself. Argh.

I wanna go to the Music SUmmit for AIDS tonight. It brings back a lot of memories. Yeah, not happy ones but wadda heck, i can laugh all i want now. I'm on the right track. Im happy again. Thank YOU for making me smile. Wanna know who that YOU is? That's ME. Myself and I.

(nah, thank YOU still. Let's keep it a secret. You are making me smile.. thank you for coming back just when someone left. Astig ka!)

Salamat sa Lahat -lahat.

I saw BSB 1 today, i think he was running late for class. Whatta way to start my day diba? Sulit. Then I got to recite for Obligations and Contracts, it turned out pretty ok. I must comment Richard for being that "theater person" that he is... pati narin si Nalin. Astig kayong dalawa! Went to Starbs to study for an hour before my Constitutional Law 2 class... I got called. I was doing pretty fine, when Fr. Bernas asked about "Stop and Frisk". I froze, scanned my brain for what I read and I was so sure that it wasn't assigned. I was softly telling myself, "Shit... No. 10. No. 10." because Stop and Frisk is no.10 in our book, we were assigned to read no.8 which is about Warrantless Arrests. I wasnt able to answer the question, i didnt have the courage to say that it wasnt assigned but my fate turned when Pam got called. I owe her big time. She told Fr. Bernas that it wasnt assigned and that he should give me another chance. I was more than happy to oblige. After reciting Mengote, I recited Go vs. Court of Appeals. Whew.

I had dinner with Duh Perm today, it's the first day of our exchanging of gifts. We had dinner at Pancake House.. Koko also "made habol". haha.. Then we headed to Starbucks for the exchange. I got a box of Chocolates because my MOMMY's/DADDY's favorite flick is Forrest Gump. I'm so happy that my "BABY" appreciated my gift. At least the effort that i exerted in finding the perfect gift paid off.

Sayang. Bon treated my bestest friends to dinner at Mang Jimmy's. When i talked to Bon, i found out that he didnt expect Sam to say yes to the proposal of going to Mang Jimmy's. Jan sya nagkamali! Japhet, AM, Sam and Abby were all there. I got to talk to them on the phone. Hay nakakamiss. Si Teepee niloko ako about a certain secret na di dapat malaman ng isang tao... buti na lang di nya talaga alam. Panic mode na sana ako kasi kung kelan tapos na, tsaka naman malalaman pa nya diba?

Quote of the Day from my Eternal Source of Joy Koko:

"The only thing that never stops from giving is STD."
(a comment on FHM sex guru's suggestion that the gift should be something that encourages nonstop giving )

Ang sakit ng katawan ko. Maaga pa ko bukas. I need to go to sleep. Nga pala, ang aking mga kaibigan ay may nadevelop na yatang obsession sa panghuhula. Kanina, ayon sa panghuhula "the Hazel way" meron daw akong mutual "attraction" with someone.. kaya lang may humahadlang na lalaki. Argh. Ano nanaman ba ito? Hehe.

Kaya ko ito. Makukuha ko rin si BSB. Ayon nga kay Pepe, SILENCIO DE GALAW!

Yvie, im so sorry that you didnt receive anything today. Dear, dont get too upset. Im sure babawi un nakabunot sayo.

I thought of a catchy line for a novel that I'm working on.. it's actually a breakup line that'll be uttered by my protagonist.

"Honey, it's ok to talk about your problems once in a while. ONCE IN A WHILE being the operative phrase."

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Ayon nga pala kay Ana, masaya sya na natapos ang isang storya ng buhay ko ng ganito. Kasi daw parang magiging miserable ako sa piling nya. Ayun, she got a glimpse of who I will be if ever I'll be spending more time with this person. SAD. Tama sya. Tama sya.
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I still cannot feel the SPIRIT of Christmas. Haay. Bakit kaya? Pero for the first time in ages, i can say that I AM ONCE AGAIN HAPPY. Salamat Lord. Salamat friends.