Ang Weird.

Ang weird ng gabing ito... Bakit? Basta.

I googled my name again and voila!!! Nakalagay na sa site ng UP School of Economics ang thesis namin ni Teepee Japhet. Yuckers. Land Issues and the Medium Term Philippine Development Plan. Parang totoo.

Im supposed to blog something.. but i forget. I didnt get called today for anything. We reported na for Persons and Family Relations... Good Job Phantom of the Oprah group. G'luck kina Chorizo, Ricky Boy at Joey Boy sa kanilang report tomorrow. Umaasa akong maentertain nyo ako.

G'luck to Jots para sa kanyang Final Exam in Art History later. Nawa'y nakatulong ako sa iyong "pseudo-review". Ipasa mo yan, importante ito! Let's go Madonna of the Long Neck! (winks)

Realization

Shem: Ano na ba ang status nyo nun?
Euns: Ganun parin.
Shem: Ano nga?
Euns: We're friends.
Shem: Just friends?
Euns: Friends.
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Sa tingin ko, di siya nagmamabagal... baka "He's just NOT THAT INTO ME." We're JUST FRIENDS until proven otherwise.
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Fave drink: Bevande in lattine and acqua minerale naturale
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I got called to recite today in Crim. Todo na 'to.
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Pag dumating ang sem break at wala parin... WALA NA TALAGA.

In Agony.

Literal. Hyperacidity ruined my day. T'was my bad really, i drank coffee early in the morning without eating anything. I feel so bobo. I got called in Consti, Crim and Stat Con, my friends said i answered the questions pretty ok but i felt like i should've done better. That's if i wasnt literally hurting. I had my first breakdown in front of my law school peeps. Parang tanga. I'm running out of luck. Thanks peeps for being there, for the pat on the back that i needed. Source of joy kayo.

We got to report in Consti. Isang malaking laughtrip. I sooo love my groupmates, they were all out in their performances. Pao pao's impersonation of Sir Ereneta was hilarious, and Joey Boy and Ricky Boy's Sex Balls cheer was just superb. Ang saya saya.

Sa Starbs natawa ko kay Mel. I was talking to an upperclass guy from law school when she texted me. What did she say? "Yihee. =)" Ayun na. Thanks Mel.

I'm seriously contemplating on stopping my daily trips to Starbucks. Naf-frustrate kasi ako tapos lately parang masyado ako distracted. Baka i need a change of venue.

FINALS NA. I need some inspiration. I need a date to jumpstart my reviewing for the Finals. I shall ask someone out. Argh.

Saktan nyo na lang ako.

A few days before the Finals.. Nawawala un Revised Penal Code (Criminal Law) book ko. Putangina. May Crim bukas. Tangina.

Weeping For Fiction

when will i weep for something REAL?

The Constant Gardener

Watched a flick with my family again... wala parin un Flight Plan so we settled for the Ralph Fiennes / Rachel Weisz movie The Constant Gardener. I loved it. I'm really a sucker for weep-worthy movies.

I will never forget this conversation...
Guy: (blah blah threats threats) Forget about it. Go home.
Justin: Rachel was my home.

Awww. Pero di ako dun naiyak. Di na ko iiyak dahil sa pag-ibig. (nahahawa na ko kay Pepe) At the end of the flick, two african kids were running around, smiling amidst the trash, the misery that's surrounding 'em. I was touched by how they still manage to be happy with their lives. Nakaka-guilty na nagrereklamo ako. Ako na nag-aaral, na nasa Rockwell lang lagi, na wala naman talagang masyadong malaking problema as compared to 'em.

On the other hand, I remembered talking to Joseph about us, as individuals, having the capacity to suffer a certain quantity of pain. About the relativity of our strength sa persons. That it's really hard and inappropriate to compare your life to other people because what may seem easy for 'em is hard for you and vise versa. That's a good way of looking at it, it's a more "tolerant" perspective... still i feel like i dont deserve to whine and be bratty about my being in law school. How many people would wanna trade places with me right?

I remember myself saying last Saturday, "Mababaw lang naman kaligayahan ko eh." Totoo naman, madali ako mapasaya. Pero ang nakakalungkot, madali rin ako malungkot. Ika nga sa Crim, nao-offset lang ng mga aggravating ang mga mitigating circumstances. Here we go again.

For Lack of Better Ideas...

... i'm just commenting on my daily romantic horoscope:

It's not about trying to look good or make a great impression -- it's about doing what makes you happy and letting that joy radiate from the inside out. Set out to have fun, plain and simple, and see what happens.

doing what makes me happy... i dunno what'll make me happy now.

You're someone who appreciates -- heck, revels in -- the earthier pleasures of life. So when it comes to fun, all you need to make you happy is some friends and some really fine food. Make dinner at your place tonight.

so that explains it. friends and food'll make me happy. sa horoscope ko lang pala malalaman ang mga kasagutan eh. ngii. sana ganun nga kasimple.

Bakas ng Kaantukan

For Philo of Law, the biggest challenge is for you to stay awake. So, to stop myself from journeying to Neverland right in front of my professor, i write. I didnt have the chance to type my random thoughts so i'm just gonna put 'em in one entry. Halo halo na ito. Isang magulong post. Random kung random. Mga doodles na nakasulat sa likod ng aking notebook.

On Caring

We begin to care when we begin to doubt. Caring for someone is such a complicated emotion. You at times find yourself thinking of how you can make life better for that person only to realize in the end that you have your own inadequacies... and that these might tear your worlds apart.

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Runnin Out

I'm running out of words to write,
of stories to tell,
of moments to remember,
of emotions to feel,
of tears to shed,
of hope to hold on to
of the passion to keep fightin
of love to smile about,
of happiness to look forward to,
of everything that matters.
But the list goes on and on... and it never runs out.
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It never occurred to me to quit. When you're at the last step of achieving your long-time dream, quitting is not an option.

These past few days, the harshness of my new life has become unbearable.

I'm not absolutely unhappy. This is something that i want. It's a case of wanting something too much that it drains the life out of you.

"Eunice, are you really smiling, or are you smiling to stop the frown from showing?"
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Do people take me seriously or will i forever be stuck in the blackhole of pseudo-apathy that people push me to become?

I never use big words to express myself. I feel that it will take away the simplicity of my thoughts. I cannot afford to be too complicated anymore. Life's complicated without me exerting any effort anyway.
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ANO NANAMAN ANG NANGYAYARI.

Tinatamad ako pumunta ng Rockwell. Umuulan pa naman. Ang sarap magpaka-mantikang matulog. But nooooo, CONSTI report sa Monday. Walang karapatan magmaganda.

Nakakatamad. Nakakatamad. Nakakatamad.

Sana bigla dumating si marc nelson sa bahay ko tapos kakargahin nya ko hanggang Rockwell. Argh.

nakakatuwa un friendster meron na syang "send a smile" feature. tina-try ko send-an lahat ng mga friends ko. wala lang. para naman matuwa din ako.

un brother ko di naligo today. may laban sya ng volleyball sa UST ng 9am, nagising sya ng 9am. Kung di lang sya nakakaawa laughtrip talaga un sitwasyon nya. Buti na lang umulan, napostpone yata un unang laban sa kanila.

ang sarap nun sinigang na kinain ko. magluluto sana ako, but nooooooo, masaya na ko sa sinigang ni Mommy.


nanonood ako ng Batman ngayon, si Jim Carey ay isang cute cute na kontrabida.

Ito ang aking Daily ROmantic Horoscope:

Just because you're indecisive doesn't mean you don't have anything to say. Quite the opposite, actually -- so share your ambivalence with a certain someone and see what they can do to convince you.

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Payn Alpayn.

An Entry about Princess Milkshake's Birthday Bash and the COMMITMENT-havoc that is Me.

I'm just so glad Yvie liked what we did. In the law school, we should try to do li'l things to uplift each other's spirits...We got to meet Yvie's Bebe Joseph, finally. After a long time of being merely a semi-fictional character that we read about in her blog entries. He was kind of shy, but who wouldnt be shy around really loud and weird people like us? Uhmm, yeah.. ME.

I didnt do well in Crim's midterms. But it isnt enough to make me feel like shit. After all, the WORSE or WORST is yet to come.

Haze said something last night that made me think. She perceives me to be not serious about this "WHOLE ROMANTIC THING" that's been sorta-unraveling. I'm not really sure what i want from this rendezvous. After all, nobody's saying anything about taking it to the next level anyway. But i value it, i really do... and it's undeniable that there IS a connection. But this old me is resurfacing... Shit, im thinking again. This is the 2nd level of my ROMANTIC DOOM cycle. I will not run away from this. We'll see. We'll see. This might be IT.

Segue:
Nga pala, si Backstreet guy ay nasa Starbs yesterday. Naka-glasses. Cute. Nakalong sleeves. Cute. May kasamang girl. Di cute. Hmmp. Bakit ngayon ka lang? hehe.

Whew.

I [finally] got called to recite in Persons and Family Relations today. I think i did pretty ok. 27 cases in Constitutional Law?! I was literally shaking while waiting for my doom. Melo, Yves, Shem and Haze all got called. I'm still a lucky gal. But then again, i already got called in Persons.

Quotable Quote:
"Arent you gonna check on the background of the kid you're about to adopt? Dont you have a say? What if his name's Chucky?" - Persons prof.
[ayun na, takutan ito?]

I think Ana and Pepe belong together. Sana nakita nyo sila sa Tokyo Tokyo at narinig nyo ang mga hirit nila. Laughtrip.

According to Shem, Yves' Fafa Joseph'll be going to Rockwell tomorrow. Finally, we'll meet Sannet's love of her life. BEBE JOSEPH. Excited na kami.

Melo's text. "Naalala kita dahil tinugtog ang LOVE WILL LEAD YOU BACK" I dunno why. Therefore ito na ang LSS ko for the night.

Jots gave Ana and me a ride "home" and we thank him for that. Sa uulitin. (Winks)