Bagong Laban.

first and foremost, i wanna congratulate 1-C's debate team; Jayvee, Jeno, TJ and Pam for ACING (relevant itong word na ito) the 2005 Freshmen's Debate Competition (imbento ng title ng event). Best Memorial and Best Team, let's go 1-C!!!!

Oh well, i do remember saying that i'm actually giving up on my stalker stint for this Backstreet guy. I ALMOST DID IT. But aid came and all of a sudden, there's information overload about him. At higit sa lahat, fate as usual is making fun of me because.... HE IS ONCE AGAIN ALL OVER THE PLACE! I amost didnt make it to Mass today, i woke up late but i didnt wanna miss my chance to read for the first time as a bonafide CMO member, so i did my best. It turned out that i was still early for the mass. So, i have come into a conclustion that the saying "God moves in mysterious ways." is really manifested (fortunately and unfortunately) i my life. While i was reading, he entered the chapel. I ALMOST got distracted. Then, he just started to appear wherever i am. And proposals for introduction also came in abundance. Woohoo. I'm torn between two lovers.

Ayun kay Kay, Raffy's reading my blog... so i'm saying hi to Raffy. At wag ka mag-alala, ipapagpatuloy ko lang ang pagsasabi ng mga kalokohan na ginagawa ni Kay sa law school. Makakaasa ka na patuloy mo syang pagtatawanan sa aking pagkukuwento.

When do you realize that you have finally gotten out of the awkward stage? Hmm. when it's ok to say you're pooping. Dahil sa imminent danger, di ko na sasabihin ang name nya. Para mapangalagaan ang aming pagkakaibigan. Gaya nga ng sinabi nya nun last time, "We're officially close."

I promised Pepe that im gonna make a separate blog entry for him because t'was his birthday yesterday. Therefore, this is the last sentence for this entry.

Nakakatawa.

Now i know why for quite sometime now, i dont seem to have any ranking in Pinoy Blogs... I typed the link to my site wrong.. i typed it as http://eunicemonsod.blogPSOT.com !! can you believe it? It's a"Bible Site", that's why i havent been getting votes. Argh.

I wasnt called to recite today. Mahal talaga ako ng Diyos. Pero nakakatakot baka bigla na lang di na nya ako mahal at matawag ako bukas. Di ako naging productive masyado tonight. I still feel bad that Jaye dropped out of law school already. I dont have a seatmate anymore. Parang nabuhusan ng mainit na tubig na may mga aalis talaga sa laban na ito. Haay.

Ayoko na i-stalk si Backstreet Boy, sa kanya lang ako nahirapan ng ganito. Hmmp. Pseudo-stalker lang pala ako. Nagbo-bow down sa isang matinding pagsubok. Di ko nga sya nakikita sa law school eh. Payn.

I've been complaining about how my life revolves around the law school and Starbucks so to break the monotonous routine that i have, i went to Greenbelt with Joseph to buy his IMPORTED ILLUSTRATION BOARD. Yes, there is such a thing. An imported illustration board. I am praying that he ace this uhmm, project that he's working on. Sa ngalan ng panlilibre. Woohoo! He told me story about his misfortune about three weeks ago. I know he's gonna write a blog entry about it so i'm not gonna preempt his attempt to revive his stagnant blog. I pa-paste ko na lang pag nasulat na nya. Isa itong milestone sa aming pagkakaibigan, quoting him on my riding his car, "We're officially close." Therefore mahahawahan ko na sya ng pagiging "mabait" ko. Yeah right. Roll your eyes.

Nakakatawa, i once again googled my name and i found out that a lot of other blogs have been posting My Bestfriend Theory. Aba, meron na akong "readers". Sweet. Salamat sa inyo mga kapatid.

Nahihilo ako sa bagong layout ng friendster. Nakakalito. Technostress.

Bruhahahahahas.

Romantic Horoscope:
The world seems to be rewarding the flirts and the wild ones, but -- really -- do you want what they're getting? Your patience, rock-steadiness and trust mean your heart will find the right (and far better) place.

Ok. I'm through with flirting. (Thunder and lightning) Seriously, nakakapagod. One moment you feel like something great's gonna come out of it, the next moment you feel like everything's a show. Kaya simula ngayon, WALANG MALISYA lahat ng mga usapan at mga "nakaw na sandali". Hanggang walang nagtatapat, walang maga-assume. Kaya kahit na lahat ng tao ay tinutukso ako sa kanya, at minsan tinutukso ko rin ang sarili ko sa kanya... MAGKAIBIGAN lang kami. Nadala na ako sa mga wrong assumptions. I cannot afford to be distracted.

Yunis: Productive ako ngayon.
Ana: Congrats.
Yunis: Ganito talaga pag walang lalaki. Di distracted.
Ana: Alam mo naman pala eh.
Yunis: (tahimik)

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(habang pinapakita ang mga stolen shots ni Shem sa aking Starbs Cutie)
SHelly: Sino 'to?
Yunis: Taga- *********
Shelly: Bakit sya umupo sa table mo? Di mo sya inimbita? Ang kapal naman nya.
Yunis: Di mo ba alam na pwede na mag-table sa Starbs ngayon? Parang beerhouse?
Shelly: Ano?!

Kat Kalapati read my blog ang found out about my Backstreet boy crush. For a second i panicked. Dyahe. Pero kinuwento ko parin. Therefore, alam ko na ang first name nya. Last name na lang. Chicken feed. Stalker na stalker talaga ako. Parang highschool. Kaya sayo *** mag-ingat ka na, i shall find out a lot of things about you. Please bumalik ka na sa pag-inom ng kape sa Starbucks. Matutuwa kami ni Melo.

Sa lahat ng mga LURKERS at mga unidentified readers. Salamat sa pagbabasa. Nakikita ko ang mga ip addresses nyo. Haha. Just kiddin. Sana magparamdam naman kayo jan.

Sa tingin ko nagiging boring na ang personality ko. Madali na ko mapagod sa pagkukuwento. Tinatamad na rin ako manamit. Nagukay-ukay ako kanina, ang mahal! 120 daw each, hmmp. Natawaran ko na 150 na lang un dalawa. Reyna ng pagtawad ito.

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Use statue in a sentence.
"Yunis, statue?" Hubba, hubba!!!!

Barren

I feel so scared. It’s like I’m falling apart just thinking of what the future has in store for me. I don’t know if I can keep up with the depression that I have to go through. Every minute, I see more reasons why I should start hating myself. I don’t really know what I have to offer. It’s like I’m deteriorating into this good-for-nothing little girl who isn’t accomplishing much in her world of make believe.

I’m just not used to asking for help. It’s happening again. I wish a wolf would just eat me up. I don’t think even a wolf would want to eat me. This is so pathetic. No. I am so pathetic. Chances are, I don’t even deserve the word pathetic.

Please. This is not me. Or maybe, I’m just beginning to see who I really am. After a few hours, I will be smiling again. It’s just that lately, my smiles are painful. They’re empty smiles from a barren being.

Contemplations of a Budding Anorexic.

This morning i was feeling a level heavier, a level sadder and a lever more complicated. T'was that depression attack I had last night. At one point in your life, you will have to cross that quicksand of emotions. Scratch that, it's not ONE POINT is A LOT OF POINTS. People'll either notice or not. For a lot of people, it matters that people notice. For me, it really doesnt make a difference.

When i was a kid, my childhood friends used to embrak into what we then used to think as TREASURE HUNTING. I would often wonder why the grown-ups never noticed the tons of diamonds (which turned out to be broken glass) scattered in our school's gymnasium. I thought, if only they stopped to observe a li'l bit harder, they'd know that they didnt have to work. I eventually found out the truth.. that the diamonds that i was collecting are all worthless. T'was painful to accept it, especially when you thought you had it all figured out. THe truth slaps your sorry ass and leave a really stingy red mark.

Contrary to how a lot of people see me, i value my solitude. It's not because i dont enjoy other peoples' company but it's because i am able to make way for certain emotions that i struggle to conceal.

PLeaaaaase.. I cant handle depression today.

Sunday Morning...

"easy like Sunday Morning..."

Is it possible to have three songs for your LSS? I waited for my"sundo" in Starbucks this morning and three songs caught my attention.. Fever, You Dont Know Me and Sorry Seems to Be the Hardest Word. Ive been singing it the whole day, salisihan. Oh hindi!

I predicted it, the moment my family saw me wearing my shirt and my pants, they all gave me weird looks. So not me. I know. Busabos.

To make matters worse, on my way to the car... Bumigay ang paper bag ko. KUMALAT ANG CASES!!!!!!!! Dyahe. Dyahe. Dyahe.

I'm majorly crushing on a Mr. Backstreey Boy. Natatawa parin ako pag naiisip ko ang kanilang pagkanta. Laughtrip talaga.

My dad bumped into a co-worker he had ages ago. I admire my dad for not forgetting everyone he works with. He's quite an unforgettable character too, im sure. I hope the people i interact with will always have a place in their memories for me. Am i worth it?

Brothers Grimm..

We had no choice, my family wanted to watch that flick by Jodie Foster or Russel Crowe's and Renee Zellweger's Cinderella Man but both apparently arent in the cinemas yet. So, my family decided to watch The Brothers Grimm. My friend recommended it this morning, and he was raving about how t'was a fun movie to watch. My family's fantasy days ended the day Okay Ka Fairy Ko ended (hehe), but since we already are set to watch a flick, we gave it a shot.

The movie was witty, a conglomeration of all the fairy tales associated to the Grimm brothers with a twist. It was kind of dragging in the beginning. A "confused film"... is it a comedy, a thriller or did i miss the humor of the whole thing? The latter part of the film was far better, i like the suspense, the exposition of the now whole picture.

Monica Belucci is just gorgeous! I'm biased, I love her. I love it that amidst all the jokes which are most of the time slapstick by nature, it maintained its dim sort of gloomy feel. I'm a sucker for sad endings. I was hoping that Will won't wake up, and the 12 girls will forever be in their "coffins" preserved with the elegance of death. Oh well, i guess i'm too much of a pessimist these days.

I did like the ending, i mean, how could you not adore the sight of girls running towards a group of villagers who have been waiting for them since forever? How could you not like the sight of a happily-ever-after denoument? I even liked the "two-timing woman" who gave both the brothers a g'bye or perhaps an "im-flirting-with-you-come-and-get-me-boys" kiss (lucky bastard). Thought the beginning was sloooooooooooow, it sorta got my attention in the end.

The movie is a nice ending to my uber tiring week.

Oops, Bar Ops..

Romantic Horoscope for Today:
Interesting encounters are the order of the day (and night), and you're intrigued but not at all acting rashly. Wait to see more before you commit your time or affection to an unknown quantity.

Today's BAR Ops day.I'm meeting up with my friends in..(surprise!) Starbucks before we go to The Westin Philippine Plaza to be first-class slaves. Maybe, just maybe.. this is where ill be meeting the "unknown quantity" that my horoscope's predictin i'll have an intriguing encounter with.

Di na muna ko depress-depressan kasi nakakasawa. Haha. I'll be wearing my "pants with attitude" today to boost my mood. O sha, ligo time.

Bakbakan Na...

I went to school earlier than usual and spent a quiet morning alone in Starbucks. I feel soooo exhausted. I dunno how i will be able to acquire the energy that i need to actually survive lawschool. It's like i'm losing my drive and passion to study. Yves and I were talking about our "quitting is not an option" mantra but these past few days, we feel like we are not as excited as we were a few months ago. It scares me to think that i may be losing interest in this BAKBAKAN.

I know a lot of people are now reading my blog, but i guess everyone knows that i dont like talking about the sad parts of my life. I dont want people to be burdened by my own insecurities. Ganito lang ako, sulat ng sulat ng mga bagay bagay habang nakatingin sa PC ko. Minsan nakangiti, madalas umiiyak. In the end, pinopost ang mga masasayang bagay. Tinatago ang mga malulungkot. Ang buhay naman kasi ay parang teatro. Lahat ng tao ay umaarte lamang. at ang tanging panahon na hinaharap natin ang ating mga sarili ay ang panahon ng pag-iisa na madalas sa hindi ay mas pinipili nating talikuran.

Signs na Masyado ka Na Naglalagi sa Starbucks (Part2)

1. Pinipilit ka na nila na dalawa ang kunin mong pastry pag pagpapa-coffee and pastry sampling sila.

2. Sila na ang pinagdedesisyon mo kung ano ang oorderin mo.

3. Hindi ka nainis nung nalaman mo na may namataang ipis ang isa sa mga customers.

4. Ang tagal mo na kumuha ng water dahil ang katumbas nito ay mga "nakaw na sandali" ng pakikipagkwentuhan sa mga barista.

5. Binigyan mo na sila ng testi sa friendster.

6. Alam mo na talaga by heart ang mga names nila.

7. Nakaka-relate ka na sa mga inside jokes nila at tinetext mo na sila pag nandun un crush nilang customer.

8. Pinapakilala ka na nila sa mga friends at kamag-anak nila, at ikaw din naman ay pinapakilala mo na sila sa mga friends mo na dumadalaw sayo.

9. Napapaisip ka na kung gusto mong coffee-inspired ang name ng future anak mo.

10. Napapanaginipan ka na ng friend mo na kasama mo ang isa sa mga barista at inampon nyo ang isang orphan na nagngangalan na Monserrat.

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Ayun na.

Re: Apathy of Law Students

for me, this is not a matter of moving out of our comfort zones but of knowing when to stop because it wont do anyone any good if we continue to be stubborn. we are not letting go of that dream to be a part of the betterment of the society, it's letting go of the method that we are now using because it's just not working. how many rallies should we attend to before we realize how harmful these things are to our economy? how many walkouts, debates should we tolerate before we realize that maybe if we would just learn how to respect the decision of the majority, things'll be more tolerable? that's what this whole process is all about right? what's the point of creating certain procedures when after these means are exhausted, people'll just resort to once again going to the streets?

i dont think silence is THAT BAD as opposed to continously talking about something that's not gonna be solved by argumentations but maybe worsened by speculations and heated exchanges.

it's one thing to know what you're fighting for but it's another thing to have the wisdom to understand and respect that what you maybe fighting for is not in harmony with other people's sentiments.
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i've been asked today by Jots, "bakit ikaw ba wala kang pangarap? ano ba ang pangarap mo?"

i was alarmed by my inability to answer him. in the past, i wouldve enumerated my list of dreams to him, but right now, i dunno what i really want. please, i dont wanna think that i've been chasing the wrong rainbow all my life.