Bittersweet Day

I have a very, very bad feeling about the habits i've been acquiring these past few days. It seems like i'm out of it. It's like i wanna shirk again and let my guards down. Panic time.

(Starbucks counter habang kumukuha ng tubig)
Camille: Hi Eunice, how was your day?
Eunice: (simangot) Itanong mo ulit sakin.
Camille: How was your day?
Eunice: Bad. My day was bad.

But in fairness, it wasnt really like a bad bad day, i had a lot of good "moments" and as usual, luck was on my side. I wasnt called in Crim and in Legal Profession so i once again escaped the surefire way to doom.

Depression almost got the best of me di man halata, [nahalata ni Camille dahil mukha daw ako di masaya at nahalata din ni Jots na mukha daw akong stressed] so i called my Teepee Japhet whom we shall now call Japh (Jeif) according to Jots. I needed someone from my past who could remind me of how "easy" it is to live a life you wanna live. Kwentuhan galore ito, not minding the numerous cases i have to read for a 2-hour battle tomorrow for Constitutional Law. It seems like t'was soo long ago. College.

Jay: Tubig ka ng tubig, Bumili ka naman! (His reaction when for the nth time, i got a glass of water sa counter)

Possible Law Office Names
Marisa Tomei and Joan To - Tomei To Law Office
Bula - Bula Law Office
Ylagan To Law Office - then youll wonder why no one's consulting

Yehey, i have a new bookmark. Special thanks to Joseph, i shall remember you as i read my books.

I thought i was gonna die. I had a scary experience today when i went home. Being alone isnt really a good idea. Sabi ko na nga ba bad day.

Harsh Harsh World

"the law is harsh, but it is the law." -- after the numbing "Mr.speaker, may i explain my vote?" marathon,i can finally say that i feel sympathy for the opposition. i will give it to them for fighting a good fight and though they mourn for their loss,i think it's time that we really move on. i dont like the idea of once again going to the streets, this wont end if the loser wont bow down. this is democracy, the majority has spoken and the truth is, it is a game of numbers.

apathy is bad, but fanning the already alarming fire is worse. =)

Bunutan Para sa Kinabukasan

We, the members of "DuhPerm" [me,Haze,Mel,Yves and Shem] found the perfect way to look forward to our division of labor in making digests for our Consti cases. What we did was to make categories for every round of bunutan. We came up with questions and the bunutan'll determine our ranking. it's very addicting. Kalokohan nga naman.

Ang hirap i-type lahat kaya un mga PINAKA na lang sa bawat category ang ilalagay ko.

Shem - ang mapapangasawa ay pinaka-HOT, sikat, malambing, responsible, mapang-pamper;
Haze - ang mapapangasawa ay pinaka-Rich, Talented, bata; pinakaunang magkakaanak, pinakaunang magiging housewife
Yves - ang mapapangasawa ay pinaka-Mabait, eccentric, matalino, ; pinakamost likely na magiging kabit, unang magkaka-bf , pinakamahal ang asawa, pinakamaraming anak, unang iiyak
Mel - pinakaunang kakaliwain, pinaka martyr, pinakaunang mag-aasawa, pinakamagandang bahay, pinakamagandang car

dalawa lang ang aking napanalunan.. drumroll please.

Eunice:
pinaka-Sexually compatible [bawing-bawi! haha]
pinakamahal ng asawa


pero dahil blog ko ito babanggitin ko na pumapangalawa ako sa:

asawang:pinaka-hot,pinakamabait at pinakatalented [not bad ano?]
at pangalawa ako sa most likely na magiging martyr [ayun na.]

Balik Freshness-Balik Bounce Bounce

I dont like what im doing. Im being my old "tamad" self. Im just thankful that ive been really lucky err BLESSED. I felt bad for Joey Boy Corde today because unlike me, he had been religiously reading our Consti cases but he got called to recite for that 3-page case that he wasnt able to read because it came late. I can still picture his expression when he realized that there's nothing more to say but, "Im sorry sir, i wasnt able to read the case.". Argh. I dont deserve the luck. Mel cried today, i understand how painful it is to accept that the effort you exerted didnt produce the result you wanted. It's more than frustrating, it's... hell. Haze also had an "episode" because she got called also for recitation and she didnt feel ok with her answer. Nakakalungkot. God has been sooooo good to me, i am actually feeling guilty.

Apparently, people are ONCE AGAIN in the streets to call for GMA's resignation. So much for the rule of law. I must admit, when i finally got into the conclusion that the impeachment case'll be trashed, i felt bad for the opposition. I know that it seemed harsh that their case didnt reach the senate because of the Lozano complaint which the DOJ found without merit and totally different from the amended complaint by Escudero's side but just like what i learned in law school, "The law is HARSH but it is the law." When it says that only one impeachment case may be entertained in a year, we have to respect that. No matter how obvious it is that technicality ruled over substance, we have to bow down.

I am still in need of human warmth.


Joke time:
Ano ang first name ni NEMO? --- edi Sarah Gero. (from Au/Deo)

Dont Fight the Feeling

"I can be your cherry pie and you can be my cream on top."

I am no longer fighting the feeling. Because there's no feeling to fight.
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An excerpt from a convo w/ my friend while i was discussing my "BUDDING ROMANCE" with cutie.

japhet_paragsa : mukha naman syang intelihente!!! hehehe so anong level na kayo?
jhersee33 : "friends"
japhet_paragsa : asus!!! i can see you na sobrang kilig!!!! i swear!
jhersee33: lam mo naman na ito lang ang stage ng relationship na naha-handle ko. haha, sabi ng mga lawschool people.. they see a different Eunice.demure.
japhet_paragsa: asus!!! nag-iiba talaga ang tao kapag may pag-ibig!
jhersee33 : sheet. di ito pagibig. isa itong landian. wala ako time magmahal sa ngayon. at wala din sya time im sure.
japhet_paragsa : sbi nya syo?
jhersee33: hindi.
jhersee33 : tapos lahat sila, "Eunice, kung ako sya di ako mag-aaksaya ng panahon kung di ako interesado" still. ayoko umasa. think arthur.
japhet_paragsa : yun na nag lang talaga ang pede mong panghawakan para makaiwas sa tukso!!! hahaha think about what happened with arthur
jhersee33 : haha. exactly.
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hinahabol parin ng anino nya ang aking kasalukuyan. argh.

Mga Kagila-gilalas na Kwento sa Buhay ng Babaeng Naka-palda.

T'was a great day. I was able to continue my journey as a budding anorexic (cucumber lang katapat!) with only one glitch courtesy of Pepe. He bought 2 boxes of my fave Gonuts Donuts for all of us, he is an ANGEL. I only ate one piece of the Pastillas flavor, t'was heaven. Merci beaucoup Pepe! I won our li'l bet, so he owes me a Caramel Machiato grande. (winks) Sabi ko sa'yo di na sya uupo, nasisira na yata ang aming pagiging magkaibigan dahil sa panunukso nyo. Grr.
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I thought it was gonna be an ordinary night until Shem decided to go home... A few minutes after she "allegedly" left, i found out that she was trying to call me and that she sent me an SMS. A green Honda CRV was parked in front of her Vios that it was impossible for her to go. Worse, she wasnt doing anything about it. She was just there, prolly cursing the man (who turned out to be a woman) who parked in front of her without at least checkin if someone's inconvenienced by her decision. I was laughin when i realized that if i didnt notice her missed calls, she wouldnt have gone out of her car and she would be really pissed by the time i found out. I asked for manong guard's help but we couldnt find the owner of the car. I was laughin my ass off at how pathetic the situation was. We had nothing to do but wait. And this apologetic girl emerged, all smiles notwithstanding the annoyed look in our face. Ok, napatawad na namin sya. Fine.
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I was able to write a poem while i was waiting for my friends in Starbucks. I love solitude, it makes me contemplate. I badly need a back massage. Oh well.
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I'm officially out of the circle of fans of Mr. Starstruck Moment. Ang taas na ng status nya sa hotness gauge at masyado na marami may gusto sa kanya. Ayoko ng marami syado ang may crush, therefore he's HOTNESS NO MORE no.2 in my list. Parang he has become overrated. Therefore i only have my "cutie" and Hotness Latino.
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When i ordered my 2nd coffee drink for the night, Jots came up with the idea of turning into reality something that me and my friends have been wanting to do for quite sometime. Remember the KFC commercial? Well, we did it. They announced all of our names for my sole Cafe Americano order. Di ko kinaya ang kahihiyan. Nakakatawa.

Let's Not Drift Apart

Let's not drift apart when we havent
even begun. We flow
like the water in a stream
of unexplainable connection. The ripples
dig deeper to my depth in the sparkling
emptiness that leave my transparent
body emerging from that peaceful
confusion.

Let's not drift apart when we're not
even together. Do mountains choose
to be in their places? If the terrains
have become ordinary, how
do they find that extra spark that could ignite
the now cold breeze? There's no
understanding.

Let's not drift apart, like the stream
and the mountain. What have we become
in this dance of possibilities? DO we
meet through the clouds or through
the earth? We are looking at the same sunset and that same eternity
that draws the line between the tangible and intangible
truth.

Friendship nanaman? Puhlease!

Love doesn't always start with big fireworks for you -- more likely, it begins with a steady, sweet friendship. Cultivate and enjoy these relationships now; you never know what'll grow.

Yeah right. I've always never known.

Childhood sweetheart: we had a thing back then.
Euns: really?
Childhood sweetheart: thought you knew.
Euns: it couldve made my childhood a whole lot better.

RE: Bakit ang jologs ginoglorify sa UP at ang mga Conio disrespected? (from Peyups.com)

glorified and disrespected are such strong words... i'd like to think that the people in UP are one of the most tolerable people you could ever meet. we're a melting pot of cultures so i dont think there really is a glorification or a lack of respect for a certain group. i spent my 4 precious years in UP and my not being jologs didnt get in the way of actually being friends with non-conio people, i think we all are just a mix of these traits.

until now, my classmates in ateneo think im conio and that just goes to show that we can all get along. i dont get offended when they call me conio as much as i dont get offended when i get called jologs. I dont think we all should try to re-engineer ourselves to just fit in. FITTING IN is not really a very big priority because BEING YOURSELF is a better alternative. If one's ok with his/her being, then that person wont find vindication from looking down at "different" people in his/her eyes. :winking:

The Right Love at the Wrong Time.

Is there a right love at the wrong time?

Mel: No. Because if it's the right love, then it can't be at the wrong time.
Ana: Yes. a lot of circumstances can become grounds for a "change of heart". (Paraphrased)

As for me, i dont believe in any adjective that comes before the word LOVE. i think love is indescribable enough that any adjective cannot give justice to its already complicated meaning. If it's love, it's love. No right or wrong love. It's plain and simple love.
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A day after, i still feel bad. I'm on my way to hearing mass with my family, it feels weird. It's like i havent seen my family in a while. We're all so busy that we dont have dinner together anymore. I dunno, i guess it's just a streakof depression that i'm feeling. Hafta think of happy thoughts.
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I think i scare men away. Lemme paraphrase that, I think I scare men to oblivion. My friends said that i look different if i'm talking with someone that i'm interested in. So what does "different" mean? If a lot of people say that i'm this fun to be with / bubbly person, then if i'm different... i'm this boring, intimidating bitch? Argh. I scare 'em away. Or maybe, they're just not that into me. Right, and THat's a better option?

malungkot na kanta, parang "kung ako na lang sana" o kaya "invisible man"...
"what do we mean to each other are we friends are we lovers is it over now?"

Next Attraction:
Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you? Are you coming back to the man you love?

The Exploits of an Optimistic Budding Anorexic.

I just wanna announce that from now on i'm gonna be known as the...

OPTIMISTIC BUDDING ANOREXIC.

oh well. I "made tambay" (ang annoying no?) at Starbucks today to study. I actually didnt have plans to go but Ana and Mel both texted me that they were there and for some reason (which i cannot really write in here) they felt the urge to "convince" me to go. I was more than willing because it felt like i'll die of loneliness in my house. Nobody was there except for the "lavender" err, labandera. And my episode last night didnt really end so i cannot stand to be alone the whole day, i'll die of depression. Nakakalunod na kalungkutan. It took me an hour, I just look vain but i can actually be prepared to go anywhere in a matter of minutes. So i arrived at Starbucks and immediately burdened Ana with my presence. I told her 'bout how disappointed, sorta betrayed or misunderstood i felt last night. It was good to be able to talk about it. It's a matter of acceptance. Lawschool has aged me.

Anyway, i had a funny conversation with my friend Baristas in Starbucks and we got into talking about why i didnt go to UP. I told 'em i didnt pass the LAE and that i'm ok with the idea of taking law here now 'coz i like the environment... one of 'em said, "Ok lang yan, at least dito may papa ka.".. I got confused. Siguro nga ang akala ng mga tao sobrang daming lalaki sa Ateneo. Well, totoo. But most of 'em are taken, at least the desirable ones. Unless may customer sa Starbucks na may crush sakin. hmmm.. oo naAna, wag mo na ko tignan ng masama. Mel, feelingera nga tayo. Haha.

On the "lighter side" of my life it's funny that my horoscope for the day says something like this:

Daily Romantic Horoscope:

A special bond between you and a certain someone grows deeper with even the most minimal efforts from either of you. It's times like this that makes your current relationship seem absolutely magical. Enjoy it to the hilt.

The sweet stuff isn't stopping, so make the most of it. Your affectionate nature makes a path straight to their hearts, so don't be shy -- and consider, just maybe, not taking it quite so slow.

A special bond growing deeper? Interesting. Unless we're talking about uhmm, the baristas in Starbucks or uhmm, my blockmates in lawschool or uhmm, the cab drivers.. I dont think there's a "Special bond" that's been brewing. Wag nyo ko tignan ng ganyan, alam kong iniisip nyo rin ang iniisip ko (at Haze, pepe at lahat ng mga tambay sa Starbucks). Minimal efforts? of course it's minimal, all i do is study, if someone falls for me while i'm doing that, i'm gonna love him like i'm loving my Revised Penal Code. Naks! Voila!

A MAGICAL CURRENT RELATIONSHIP.

Sweet stuff isnt stopping? Has it started? Ahh, mga nakaw na sandali. My affectionate nature, not taking it slow? The last time i listened to my horoscope, i gave the man i thought i love the 8-page letter. He broke my heart. Nakakatakot.

Feelingera nga pala ako. Therefore, i must confess na nagselos ako. Ika nga ni Ana, "Ate ba nya un?" at ang sabi ko, "Malay."