7 Things You'll Learn only in UP by Ryan Cayabyab

1. Ang buhay ay parang IKOT jeep. Ang iyong patutunguhan ay siya ring iyong pinanggalingan.

2. U.P. lang ang may TOKI, sa buhay wala nito. Pero nasasaiyo na yon kung nais mong pabaligtad ang takbo ng buhay mo.


3. Sa IKOT, pwede kang magkamali ng baba kahit ilang beses, sasakay ka lang uli. Sa buhay, kapag paikot-ikot ka na at laging mali pa rin ang iyong baba, naku, may sayad ka.


4. Sa U.P., lahat tayo magaling. Aminin nating lahat na tayo'y magagaling. Ang problema dun,
lahat tayo magaling!


5. Kung sa U.P. ay sipsip ka na, siguradong paglabas mo, sipsip ka pa rin.


6. Sa U.P., tulad sa buhay, ang babae at ang lalake, at lahat ng nasa gitna, ay patas, walang
pinagkaiba sa dunong, sa talino, sa pagmamalasakit, sa kalawakan ng isipan, sa pag-
iibigan; at kahit na rin sa kabaliwan, sa kalokohan at sa katarantaduhan.

At ang panghuli:


7. Sa U.P. tulad sa buhay, bawal ang overstaying.


*by Prof. Ryan Cayabyab
from Commencement speech given on April 24,
2005 before the Class of 2005, UP Diliman,
Quezon City

Kingdom of Heaven (cont'n)

....... Alas, Janice and Atoy appeared over the horizon...[aaaah, Nina syndrome] and i got excited. Haven't seen Janice for quite a long time and i heard she missed laughin w/ us. We decided to go to her office in Ortigas to catch up on our kwentuhans. At Accenture, Janice once again did something hilariously funny.
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(a guy walks past us, with his friends)
Janice: hi spike!
Guy: (looks at Janice)
Janice: Spike? Ikaw ba si Spike?
Guy: Hindi.
(Atoy and I were tryin soo hard to conceal our laughter, the guy left...)
Jersee: Bakit mo nasabi na si Spike sya? kamukha ba nya?
Janice: Di,para kasing bagay sa kanya un name na Spike e..
(laughtrip na talaga)
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Grabe! Janice never fails to brighten up my day. But i adore her for giving us a cup of coffee and a glass of iced tea, at least it prevented us from gettin dehydrated after walkin our way to her office. After that fun visit, Atoy and i embarked on a journey to our final destination, Robinson's Galleria. What did we do from around 4;30 to 7:30? We walked, again... in my new polka stilettos. i know, it's nothin new, I'm with Atoy anyway, so it's a normal thing.

Kingdom of Heaven.

I bumped into Neil and BB Fred at the cinema, said our usual hellos and his. Then we had to wait for almost an hour before the movie started. Atoy and I entertained ourselves by taking pictures. the usual narcissistic persons that we are.


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T'was an aesthetically-pleasing flick, and overall i loved it. There's nothin unbelievably spectacular about it, but it's well-made.

In the end, everything was worth it. I had fun. And it's all that matters.


Kingdom of Heaven... Part One

Quote for the day:
"i say, merge with the other army.. repent later." -- Pope from Kingdom of Heaven.
Just got home from a very tiring and should i say, "adventurous" day.Woke up early because of a very persistent caller who turned out to be Atoy. He missed his HSBC interview and he's harassing me into going to school earlier. Why did he miss his interview? As usual, as a member of the "What are the chances Club" MRT had to break down while he was on his way to Ortigas. Ok,ok he didnt harass me, he just pressured me into gettin out of my bed. Arrgh.

Then i went to 99.5 Rt's station to claim the tix for the premiere. Didnt want to go back later in the afternoon so i let fate decide. I told myself, if a jeepney that's gonna be passing by the station'll arrive, then i'm gonna claim it. It came, i saw and fate conquered. Ngaks, pinagpilitan.

I feel extra pretty today, i dunno why. Must be the crocheted white top and the killer stilettos.
After claiming the tix, chitchattin w/ afew of the staff and runnin away from a creepy guy i went straight to Peyups.

This is the 2nd time i'm gonna say it, but i still felt nostalgic when i passed by the Oblation. Proud to be a UP Econ grad.. When i came to Econ, there was no Atoy. He was stil in SM North w/ Janice. So i waited and had to pay for my extra pics. 250 freaggin' pesos. Waah, that's what i get for lovin myself soo much. A lot of pics to pay for..

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What Stresses me Out?

1. High expectations
2. being helpless
3. having the need to explain myself
4. writing a "What stresses Me out?" list.

arrgh, im stressed.

Huling Hirit, Grad Party...

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on Crashes and Crushes...

The news of the helicopter crash came as a shock to me for one single reason: these people are good people, they're on their way to a Red Cross mission, they dont deserve to die. I know i'm not in the position to know who deserves and who doesn't deserve to die, my judgment's accuracy will forever be in question, but the mere fact that they're on their way to help people,i think, is enough to at least buy them a day on earth. Yeah, the world and life in particular isn't a simple point system. Crashes happen to jolt us back to that zone of uncertainty. It is in uncertainty that we become certain.

I have the weirdest preference for guys. Or maybe, i have the most rational and stable preference for guys. Amidst all the madness, the beauty and that drool-meter, i get attracted to guys who arent "attractive enough". No, i dont see it as a problem. In fact, i think it's a very big advantage. Look at my present object of affection, Bam Aquino. Merely typing his name makes me smile. I will definitely choose to go out on a date with Bam Aquino than go out with, let's say, Marc Nelson. Im not saying that Bam's not good-lookin, HE IS. But that's not what i liked about him, it's his passion for knowledge. That oh-so-arousing energy that he exudes when he discusses the things he know or is interested in. Bam.............................. im hyperventilating.

I got to chat with a long, lost buddy. Lemme call him, The Artist. It's nice to bump into someone from your past once in a while. It's refreshing, and it reminds you of how it all started. That journey that id like to think is slowly coming to its climax. To goof around and be the child that i am, and to say the "thank you" that's long overdue. I enjoyed the conversation, as a result i made a testi for him. It really is a Friendster world after all. haha


Untitled..

Rage paralyzed me and turned me into a vacuum
Pretension and deceit blinded me,
Captured my being and smeared my trust.
My life is a rollercoaster ride meant to shock me, wound me and lick me.
His smile is my tear and his sanity is my paranoia.
I have to move away, run away from this insanity,
Lock myself in a safe blackhole.
His touch burned my existence,
pricked my membrane.
I walk away, he runs after me….
Then I wait for him, I wait.. I wait.

Make a fool out of me and make me suffer
Mock me and make me howl in pain
Feed me sarcasm and tease me
Then just walk away..
Celebrate my death and rob my sanity
Look down at my existence and I’ll smile.

Illuminated

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you found me, disoriented and scared..
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bound for eternal solitude..
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be still, be gentle...
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show me,
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my lethal loneliness...
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bring light to my dark heart...
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envelope me...
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i dont want to be released...
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from you...
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from your words,
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that burn my mouth...
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you dont see me...
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we are entwined...
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im darkness,that's meant to haunt you...

Freudian Test..

Freudian Inventory Results
Oral (40%) you appear to have a good balance of independence and interdependence knowing when to accept help and when to do things on your own.
Anal (23%) you appear to be overly lacking in self control and organization, and possibly have a compulsive need to defy authority. If you are too scatterbrained, you will not develop much as a person as you will habitually switch paths before you ever learn anything.
Phallic (60%) you appear to have a good balance of sexual awareness and sexual composure.
Latency (20%) you appear to be overly practical; don't undervalue abstract learning, abstract learning increases your ability to make good decisions (and predictions) in the real world so it would be 'impractical' to shun it.
Genital (73%) you appear to have a progressive and openminded outlook on life unbeholden to regressive forces like traditional authority and convention.
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Personality Disorder

so there, im narcissistic and histrionic... i sorta figured that out last summer and even pointed it out in my personal journal.

Personality Disorder Test Results
Paranoid |||||| 30%
Schizoid |||||||||| 34%
Schizotypal |||||| 30%
Antisocial |||||||||||||||| 66%
Borderline |||||| 30%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||| 66%
Narcissistic |||||||||||||||| 66%
Avoidant |||||| 26%
Dependent |||| 14%
Obsessive-Compulsive |||||| 26%
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What these disorders mean..

Eccentric Personality Disorders: Paranoid, Schizoid, Schizotypal

Individuals with these disorders often appear odd or peculiar.

Paranoid Personality Disorder - individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening.

Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings.

Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior.

Dramatic Personality Disorders:
Individuals with these disorders have intense, unstable emotions, distorted self-perception, and/or behavioral impulsiveness
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Antisocial Personality Disorder - individual shows a pervasive disregard for, and violation of, the rights of others.

Borderline Personality Disorder - individual shows a generalized pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and observable emotions, and significant impulsiveness.

Histrionic Personality Disorder - individual often displays excessive emotionality and attention seeking in various contexts. They tend to overreact to other people, and are often perceived as shallow and self-centered.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder - individual has a grandiose view of themselves, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy that begins by early adulthood and is present in various situations. These individuals are very demanding in their relationships.

Anxious Personality Disorders: Avoidant, Dependent, Obsessive-Compulsive

Individuals with these disorders often appear anxious or fearful.

Avoidant Personality Disorder - individual is socially inhibited, feels inadequate, and is oversensitive to criticism

Dependent Personality Disorder - individual shows an extreme need to be taken care of that leads to fears of separation, and passive and clinging behavior.

Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder - individual is preoccupied with orderliness, perfectionism, and control at the expense of flexibility, openness, and efficiency.

Of Trance Crypt of Wreck Hordes...

Today, i met up w/ Atoy to request for our transcript of records, since Ateneo is pressuring me into passing it AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. Of course, it was also an excuse for me to get out of the house without having to beg for money [contrary to popular belief, im not financially stable as of the moment,my graduation money's gone,, blame it on splurging on shoes].

Trance

Hell, t'was nostalgic. I know, you might think im overreacting or that im just romanticizing things. But it felt really different to ride the UP Pantranco jeep as an official grad. That feeling of pride is just overwhelming, it was like you wanted to let everyone know that you made it. On time. with honors. without havin to sacrifice your social life.

Crypt

n. an underground vault or chamber, especially one beneath a church that is used as a burial place.
A perfect description of the UP's Office of the University Registrar, except that it's not literally underground but since t'was Hot, hot, hot, summer made its presence really known by making me and Atoy perspire like crazy. The OUR is like one of those warehouses you see in Filipino comedy/ action flicks where the protagonists are kidnapped and are saved by either Rene Requiestas or Vic Sotto, yeah i know you get the picture. Very crypt-like.

Wreck

im a wreck-magnet. havoc's my middle name. Re-rewind, let's go back to that MRT ride that Atoy and I took after we met at MEga. True to our form, the "What-are-the-chances" people that we are "accidentally" chose the only train that has a nonworking aircon. Good job. So we decided to go train-hopping, t'was a great idea until... i slipped while running for the next train. Yes, in front of everyone i shrieked and had to hug the wide post before finding again my strength and my balance to run for my life and my shame. Oh well, welcome to my life. Minamalas!

Hordes

[eternal laughter]
i refuse to talk about it. (winks at Atoy)

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