Miss Nominated but never Crowned

last night was a blast, cant believe i won the beer-drinking contest [sinisikmura pa daw! partida..] Go E-2!!

i wanna say thank you to the stranger/s who nominated me in almost all of the categories for haraya. im now gonna officially call myself...

"Ms. Nominated but never crowned"

im so happy to announce that jeio now has a picture w/ us smiling. Aja!

we have successfully thought of our other batchmates' "theme songs".. if you still dont have one, message me. [feeling.]
e.g

Chiara : boom
chiara, boom chiara boom yeye; Rojo: ro, ro, ROJO
boat.. gently down the stream... (laughtrip!)

Congratulations UP School of Economics Batch 2005!
We made it.. i'll see you guys this saturday...
woohoo!

Habemus Papam!

"Ate, may pope na!"

My sister rushed to my room, all smiles. I dunno if it was reflex but i just ran towards the television and watched with anticipation. I knew right there and then that i am watchin a very important part of history. I couldnt help but smile and record everything.

Habemus papam!

More Bulacan Memories

Ang aming pagdating..




basa kung basa..

"pool-ish hearts.".

Vindicated..

Yesterday was worth wearing my 5-inch Goddess shoes.

Reason #1: I met two interesting and nice people, Mabel and Joy.

Maybel graduated from UST, she took up Legal Management. Her mom thinks her boyfriend embodies someone from an FPJ flick. Funny. Cool mom.

Joy got her degree in European Studies from the Ateneo. She passed the LAE but opted to stay with her alma mater. She studied in Austria for a month. She's technophobic.

Reason #2: I FOUND OUT THAT I'LL BE GRADUATIN AS A DEAN'S MEDALIST!
Woohoo! Need i say more?

Theme Songs..Team Songs.

This is a tribute to my friends who went to Bulacan with me to drink a pitcher of Redhorse in 5mins,that is after drinking a pitcher of what Atoy calls as "the poor man's vodka" while wishing for happiness and world peace to the tune of Choopeta.

Sam Boado
"i want Sam Boado to share, share the rest of my life.." [Somebody]
"i love you Sam Boado, pati na rin Linggo." [Jollibee commercial]

Annamitz
"Annamitz, anna lover, anna child, anna mother, anna singer, anna saint, i do not feel ashamed" [Bitch]

Eduardo
"Tell me when will you be mine? tell me 'duardo, 'duardo, 'duardo.." [Quando]

Bebang
"Bebang! Bebang! Oh baby when she moves, she moves.." [She bang]

Abby IRIBERRI
"Iriberri sa aking pagtulog, ikaw ang panaginip ko.." [Binibini]
"Abby your crying shoulder.. " [I'll Be]

Atoy
"Renato bakla! klaklaklaklakla, Renato shokla klaklaklaklakla.." [Babae Po Ako]
"Atoy isang pinoy sa puso't diwa.."
"They try to tell us we're Atoy-ang, Atoy-ang to really be in love... Bahay namin maliit lamang.." [Toyang]

Bon Burgos
"Burgos na ulan bumuhos ka't wag nang pigilan pa.." [Tuwing umuUlan at Kapiling Ka]
"Bon xi Bon xi Bon Burgos.." [Bom Xi]

DOnald Yasay
"Yasay, you only hear what i want to.. Yasay, i talk so all the time...: [Stay]

Japhet Paragsa
" (incoherent lyrics).... ayy Japheta... japheta.." [Choopeta]
"is-japheting pababa, pababa ng pababa.is-japhetting pataas, pataas ng pataas.." [ispageti song]

Eunice Zuleika Monsod
"Zuleika virgin..touched for the very first time.." [Like a Virgin]
"All Eunice is love..." [All u need is love]
"Im down on bended Eunice.." [On Bended Knees]
"monsoooood, caught up.. [Caught up]

Sanaysay na Walang Saysay

Minsan lang ako magsulat na Tagalog ang gamit, nahihirapan kasi akong makahanap ng mga salita na makakapagpaliwanag ng kung ano talaga ang gusto ko sabihin, masyado kasi akong nabababawan sa mga salitang ginagamit ko na para bang paulit-ulit lang ako, barok pa nga kung minsan. Parang ngayon, may kakaiba ako nararamdaman pero di ko alam kung ano. Para bang, bigla na lang ako napapangiti kahit wala naman nangyayaring nakakatuwa, bigla na lang ako nalulungkot kahit na di naman nakakalungkot. Un tipong, bigla na lang ako naiinis, nagseselos nawawalan ng kumpiyansa sa sarili kahit na wala naman akong karapatan magselos at kahit na alam ko na wala naman gumagawa ng masama sa akin. Un tipong naiirita lang ako ng sobra pag di tumutunog un cellphone ko kahit na wala naman talagang obligasyon un mga tao na I-text ako o tawagan ako. Nababaliw na yata ako, napaka..hmmm… unstable ko, ano ba sa tagalog un? Sa totoo lang alam ko na hindi “cohesive at coherent” itong sinusulat ko, alam ko na di papasa bilang isa sa mga magagandang “essays” na kikilalanin ng mga tao, bokabularyo pa lang bagsak na. E ano ngayon? Nakaharap ako sa computer ko, tapos ang tagal maka-connect sa internet, wala ako magawa, kumakanta ako tapos nawawala naman ako sa tono, gustuhin ko man sumayaw ayoko naman pagpawisan, madugyot e, kaya ito, nagsusulat na lang, kahit na walang saysay ang sanaysay (naalala ko na ang tagalog ng essay.) kahit na alam ko na pag natapos ko na itong sanaysay na ito ay hindi parin tutunog ang cellphone ko, di parin tutunog ang telepono ko, at wala ako matatanggap na kahit anong mensahe, ni smoke signal, galing sa kanya na ayun sa aking kaibigang manghuhula ay di ko pa nakilala at di pa dumadating.

Maayos naman ako ngayon, maayos ang takbo ng araw araw na mga pangyayari. May mga tao na kahit di ko pa ganun kakilala e nagpapasaya ng araw ko, may mga tao na dahil matagal ko na kakilala, nakakapagbigay sakin ng pakiramdam na ligtas ako, na may nagmamahal sakin, na kahit maraming kulang mas maraming biyaya na dumadating. Masaya magsulat, masayang gamitin ang bawat letra ng keyboard bilang mga sandata na tutulong sa akin para sumuong sa laban. Patingin-tingin ako sa cellphone ko, ayoko parin sumuko na may magpaparamdam. Pucha, nasan na kayo pag kailangan ko kayo??!

Ang mga tao ba nararamdaman nila pag may nag-iisip sa kanila, pag may nagiging miserable ang buhay dahil sa kanila? Pag may umiiyak dahil sa kanila? Pucha kung ganun malamang miserable na rin ang buhay nun tao na un. Malamang hindi. Ano ang point nito? Wala. Sinusulat ko lang kung ano pumpasok sa isip ko. Unedited,uncut. Kaya nga parang illogical e, parang walang ibig sabihin, parang napaka-random.. walang autocorrelation, kung ano man un. Pero kasi ganun naman talaga ang buhay diba? Napala-illogically logical, napaka-predictably random… sana di ako sikmurain sa dami ng coke at coffee na iniinom ko.

Bom Xi Bom Xi Bom Bom Bom... The Bulacan Story

taking a break from the "gambling spree"

abby, atoy and bonbon with moi...

my bedmates atoy and bonbon...






shades + us + moonlight = hilarious pic



" someday our princes will come." -- teepee japhet w/ the queen of sunshine amitzie

bonbon's affair with kelly clarkson..

Choices

Is there a good or a bad choice? What if your choice made a lot of people happy and left you miserable,is that a good or a bad choice? - Yna

I think there are bad choices, im just not sure how we can accurately pinpoint 'em. Think of how connected and complicated the web of events is, there are indeed intended and unintended consequences. For me, the only thing we can do is to minimize the damage and not feel bad about things over which we have no control. A lot of people think that if their intentions are noble, things'll end up ok for everyone. But life's a stubborn bitch, it doesnt nod and allow you to go on and on and on in peace. Life will never be fair[Seventh Heaven]. If you choose or decide on something, stand by it, dont blame other people, be ready to be responsible for your actions. it's a classic move to end everything in style, End it with composure, whatever the problem is.

The idea of taking into consideration other people in making decisions is not that bad, it's an obvious act of selflessness. But just like everything else, it must have its limitations. we cant forever sacrifice our happiness just to please the people around us. At times, we have to choose that path that might hurt 'em in the process but will prove to be the right path in the long run. Life is ours to live, every choice we make leads us to our next step. Everything in moderation.

In my opinion, what's more important is how we handle our lives in a more "macro" kind of way. Being able to count your blessings has proven to be very therapeutic for me. I made a lot of wrong choices, wrong decisions in the past, at times i feel bad about 'em. But when the smoke of depression disappears, i make it a point to face life head on. Choices.. if destiny exists, choices are what happen after 'em. Destiny is a prelude to a decision, a choice..

Wowowee strikes again!

jason, pagbabayaran mo ang di pagre-reply,, habang buhay kita kakantahan ng love moves in mysterious ways at ng wowowee theme song. magparamdam ka, i need to know if sobrang sure ka nang sasama. este, di pla pdeng hindi, i need to know kung kumakain ka ng menudo at ng adobong chicken at ng kaldereta. grrrr!

when i re-read my message, i laughed so damn hard. even my text messages are invaded by my Wowowee thoughts. haha..

An Exchange of Thoughts [On Atheism]

if you wanna read more about this visit.. iNexus: The iAteneo Forums

Eunice: belief in God, faith and religion is a decision that a person must make. i respect atheists. i think it's very brave of 'em to live a life that not a lot of people will even think of living. we can always talk about how God has touched our lives in a lot of ways but atheists [the critical thinking-ones] would rather believe that they are happy because they did something that led to such happiness. they'd rather think they are in-charge.

What we think we know, we really dont know. [quoting the founder of the UP Atheists' Circle] As for me, i dont think i should defend my faith, it's something that i hold on to because i decided to. WE are all lost anyway, atheists, believers, there is no assurance.

Batchster: "Nobody can insist that you believe in God" yup, i believe ultimately, it's an existential choice no one can make for you but yourself.

"they'd rather think they are in-charge." well i dunno but this is something i don't particularly admire about them...

"What we think we know, we really dont know. [quoting the founder of the UP Atheists' Circle]" -->we were also taught in Ateneo that Socrates was wise because he knew that he did not know. This is precisely why i think it is foolish and arrogant for atheists, existentialists in particular, to place everything in their own hands and trust nothing and no one else but themselves. If that statemant was meant to attack believers then it totally missed its target. Faith is different from knowing. Faith does not claim that it knows. That is exactly why we BELIEVE.

"As for me, i dont think i should defend my faith, it's something that i hold on to because i decided to." i agree with your second statement because I, too, believe because I decided to. But I don't see the logic in saying that because it is a personal commitment, there is no reason to defend it. (is that what you were saying? please correct me if i understood you wrongly...) I've learned from Theo that that is the flaw of secularization. It reduces faith to personal spheres. but faith is not just one aspect of a person. I believe it gives meaning to the whole of one's existence. o well... sobrang haba, out of the topic na... some other time maybe

Eunice: i know the "we're in charge" statement's kinda arrogant, but id rather look at it as a vow to face life head on, without that hope of getting a miracle someday or of divine intervention, it's taking the blame for the consequences of your actions, may it be direct or indirect.

Existentialists and athesists just like us are travellers in this thing called life. We cant judge 'em just because we think they think so highly of themselves by not believin in a higher being. yes we believe, but if they dont, let's not take it against 'em. Life's harder,(i think) for them. it's bad enough that they dont have God beside 'em but if the society who claims to have faith will make it harder for 'em then that's just too much.

There is such a thing as interconnectivity. i think of my faith as my personal relationship with God but i do accept the fact that my existence affects others who also exist. Not defending my faith is not synonymous to being apathetic for that need to share my faith. I tell my story, i do what i think i should do and let it be my personal testimony of how God has long existed in my life. I dont have to engange in debates, in word plays because by doing so (in my opinion), it demonstrates my finding assurance from the nod of others whom i have convinced.

My last statement wasnt a statement of despair, it's a statement of respect. of that acknowledgment that i have no reason to judge others and that i myself am not the perfect believer that i should be. It's true that there is no assurance, but at the end of the day (just like what you said) WE STILL BELIEVE.. God bless.

Ang Funny.

El Borado = this term is used to say that you have completely erased someone from your life and is not affected by his/ her presence. e.g Ung ex-bf ko? Hay naku, wala na ko pakialam, El Borado na sya sa buhay ko.

Bitter Ocampo = bitter. e.g. Ako masasaktan? Nah, di na ko bitter ocampo.

I am beginning to panic, these past few weeks, i find myself laughin at flicks by Rene Requiestas (think Pido, DIda), enjoying Wowowee and actually appreciating GaryLising.

Uh-oh...........