I Don't Remember You Anymore

I can't remember you anymore,
I'm not left with your memories,
of your smile, of your laugh
nor of the way you walk when
you're walking with me. I don't
even know if you were with me. We
were never together. I go to seek
for our place but there was none. I look
at your gifts yet there was nothing. I have
pictures in pixels but somehow the folders
are all empty, or they seem to be empty.

I don't remember you anymore,
the absence of these tangibles don't
speak of ease, nor of simple non-
existence. It never is easier, an affirmation
of what used to be there. Slowly found its way
to melt into nothingness. But you're not nothing.
At some point you were everything and then you
were something. I see colors, i hear songs then I feel
you. I must be numb or dumb. But I know
and I feel and it was real.

I won't remember you anymore.
Did you smile? Did you laugh?
Was that "our" walk?
Where did "we" go?
Were "we" in the picture?
Do you remember?
Was there nothing to remember?
Was there something?
Do you find pleasure
from knowing...

I should not remember you anymore?
I used to, then I had to forget, or pretend
to forget. I did. Forget? No.
Remember? Maybe. What was left to remember
were the questions left unanswered, the emotions
left hanging from the window of uncertainties.

Still, I remember.
I choose not to.
I vow not to.