Learning

Five Things I Learned About Life:

Life will never be fair, you just have to maximize whatever you have.
Happiness is found in contentment.
Change is inevitable.
You are what you envision yourself to be.
Fate is a prelude to a decision.

Sea of Emotions

we're drifting apart like two opposing currents
carrying our own lives towards the bottom where
the corals are soft enough to provide shelter for
our helpless hearts. i lost my memories of how i
used to love being lost in your hollow stare and
instead i remember how you avoid me like im a
lethal virus which threatens to inhabit your
tanned physique. from the violent current to the
green field turning into a dull brown as the once
full of life facade has turned into a nightmare.
for a second, i have cornered you only to
discover that i have cornered myself in the end
and chained my lips to a bowl of tears where a
fish weaps and the coral dances with the rhythm
of the current. this is a dance and i'm lying,
floating, blinded.. bleeding...

The Romantic Cynic

I don’t get it. Why do a lot of people believe that being romantic and being cynical are mutually exclusive? If we are to consult a dictionary, a cynic is defined as a person who “questions the goodness of things” while being romantic is defined as a state of doing things as an act of love. I don't see anything mutually exclusive about these definitions.

I must admit, for the past few years, I have swung like a pendulum from being cynical to being a hopeless romantic. Maybe because a number of times in my life, I was pushed to ask if loving someone is really worth the pain.

Now, looking back at the things that happened, I realized that I have evolved into achieving something close to an equilibrium. From being totally cynical to being totally romantic, I learned to become a romantic cynic. It may sound absurd or awkward but the truth is, this can be the most stable state that a person could achieve. Being romantically cynical is being “realistic”.

I still believe that love is worth all the hassle and misgivings that needs to be gone through but instead of daydreaming, I also know that in finding "the one" whom I will love for the rest of my life, I have to understand that I must first love myself.

I’m cynical, I don’t easily get hooked or I don’t jump at every opportunity to date guys. I question their intentions really well, I try to be as level-headed as possible and I try to be sensitive of what my heart feels all at the same time.

Romanticism and cynicism are not mutually exclusive terms and having a little of both in our lives will probably help us survive.

Ever Lusting Love

I was drowning, gasping for air and choking in pure desperation.

Water was burning me and fire was freezing me, like irony in a sarcastically mushy love song.

You untied me from the desperation, attended to my emotionally wounded soul, and held my hand to ease my enduring pain.

I moved away, hesitated, examined your entirety.  Unhurriedly, your frozen skin inhabited my burning stare.

In that moment’s shyness, there was understanding, in that scene’s uncertainty, there was commitment.

Things were vague, disconcerted, undecided, hushed.

You were peace, I was subtlety, we silently entwined.

I continued drowning, gasping for air and choking, not in desperation but in throbbing anticipation.

You freed me through your sea-colored eyes, passion forced itself through, lingered and we drowned, gasped for air and choked -
together.

For the better.
For a little bit longer.
For a bid to reach forever.

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