That's what I do everytime I am reminded of that thing I did in college. That "thing" made me a candidate for the biggest loser / stalker / desperate act. It was a pretty pathetic thing to do. But yeah, I did it.
Just like any story, regret comes at that exact moment after you can't turn back anymore. I couldn't even find it in my already sorta cold heart to read that 8-page letter. I couldn't find it in my usually tolerant self to look back at the mush that I haphazardly spread around. It felt like it was the right thing to do, not to mention the words of encouragement I got from the people who actually read it. So I did. Eewy. Haha.
Now, I cringe, laugh and feel a thousand emotions as I once again try to read it. Panalo.
Sample?
Excerpt:
If we bump into each other again tomorrow, or next week or in the next few months, whenever, please look at me in the eyes, please don’t let me pass you by without at least saying hi, please don’t act as if nothing happened. I want you to decide, I don’t care when but if ever you do decide don’t ever let me be the last to know. Take care buddy and never lose that smile, it never fails to brighten up my day… See ya ‘round!
YAK!
The Day After...
... what shall be remembered as our last Midterms day.
We had to go to class at 12 noon still. Yep, This is Sparta, este (ang slapstick) Law School. No time for long breaks and celebrations. Anyway. These are the things that I was writing in my notebook while the discussion of Provisional Remedies was playing in the background.
"Your hands are warm... it may be that your heart is cold."
My prof quoted a dean whom he had to talk to regarding a case he was handling. Our instinct was to hold our hands and test if they're warm or cold. Mahirap na. Ninang Nikki had cold hands, uyy warm heart. At ako... WARM HANDS. Therefore.
Which leads me to a sort of summary of: what we decided to talk about last night. Present and past loves. The ability to move on without closure and finding it in your heart to forgive that one person whom you have given everything to only to be left cynical and well, a tad bit short of being frigid. (Haha, I just had to include that word Japhet).But the thing is, in the end, you always end up in a way better place. Whether we like it or not, we end up being in better places because a place becomes better when we become better persons. The ability to find happiness, contentment and well, love becomes not a task but a happy vacation full of stopovers and a lot of time for camwhoring. When you are able to look back at the places you visited and the pictures that are posted in the photoalbums of today (translation: Multiply, Friendster, Facebook, insert name of a social networking site), you don't feel the pain anymore. You only are reminded of good times. And i guess, it,'s quite a clear sign that finally, you are happy.
JOKE BREAK:
Prof: Class, have you heard of BPI Leasing?
Euns: (naisip) Kaanu-ano kaya nya si Gary? (Hopefully na-gets nyo. Haha)
Last night really was a night of being in the hotseat. I was more than happy to answer queries about "stuff" from my closest of friends. They raised a lot of valid points and well, i wouldn't be friends with them if they don't know me that well. YET.
I am happy. I really am. Done with hurting, with complications and a lot of what could've been's..I have been found. Not only by someone, but I have been found by me.
And that's more than worth everything.
We had to go to class at 12 noon still. Yep, This is Sparta, este (ang slapstick) Law School. No time for long breaks and celebrations. Anyway. These are the things that I was writing in my notebook while the discussion of Provisional Remedies was playing in the background.
"Your hands are warm... it may be that your heart is cold."
My prof quoted a dean whom he had to talk to regarding a case he was handling. Our instinct was to hold our hands and test if they're warm or cold. Mahirap na. Ninang Nikki had cold hands, uyy warm heart. At ako... WARM HANDS. Therefore.
Which leads me to a sort of summary of: what we decided to talk about last night. Present and past loves. The ability to move on without closure and finding it in your heart to forgive that one person whom you have given everything to only to be left cynical and well, a tad bit short of being frigid. (Haha, I just had to include that word Japhet).But the thing is, in the end, you always end up in a way better place. Whether we like it or not, we end up being in better places because a place becomes better when we become better persons. The ability to find happiness, contentment and well, love becomes not a task but a happy vacation full of stopovers and a lot of time for camwhoring. When you are able to look back at the places you visited and the pictures that are posted in the photoalbums of today (translation: Multiply, Friendster, Facebook, insert name of a social networking site), you don't feel the pain anymore. You only are reminded of good times. And i guess, it,'s quite a clear sign that finally, you are happy.
JOKE BREAK:
Prof: Class, have you heard of BPI Leasing?
Euns: (naisip) Kaanu-ano kaya nya si Gary? (Hopefully na-gets nyo. Haha)
Last night really was a night of being in the hotseat. I was more than happy to answer queries about "stuff" from my closest of friends. They raised a lot of valid points and well, i wouldn't be friends with them if they don't know me that well. YET.
I am happy. I really am. Done with hurting, with complications and a lot of what could've been's..I have been found. Not only by someone, but I have been found by me.
And that's more than worth everything.
Talaga Lang
(Starbucks, habang binubutingting ko ang aking maliit na MP3 player na napiling masira during midterm, pumasok si Krisette...)
Krisette: (beso)... Ano yan? (Pause) Pregnancy test?
(Na-shock ng sobra un mama sa tabi ko.)
Pregnancy test talaga ang unang naisip e no.lntense. Sa starbucks.
Krisette: (beso)... Ano yan? (Pause) Pregnancy test?
(Na-shock ng sobra un mama sa tabi ko.)
Pregnancy test talaga ang unang naisip e no.lntense. Sa starbucks.
Not Like This
(habang nag-aabang ng jeep at may dalang dalawang malalaking supot ng candies... pinara ang jeep.... sumilip ako. PUNO, mahirap sumakay ng dala ang mga dala ko.)
Sabit: (nun sinignal ko sa jeep na wag na lang) Wag na raw. Malapad kasi.
Salamat Mamang Sabit. Salamat talaga.
Sabit: (nun sinignal ko sa jeep na wag na lang) Wag na raw. Malapad kasi.
Salamat Mamang Sabit. Salamat talaga.
If I Were a Boy/Girl
salamat Ces. Sobrang gusto ko talaga itong version na'to.
You don't listen to her
and you don't listen to him
You don't care how it hurts (you don't care how I feel)
Until you lose the one you wanted
cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy
and you're just a girl
( Beyonce Feat. Lee Carr) |
If I were a boy even just for a day I'd roll out of bed in the morning and throw on what I wanted and go Drink beer with the guys and chase after girls I'd kick it with who I wanted and I'd never get confronted for it cause they'd stick up for me If I were a boy I think I could understand how it feels to love a girl I swear I'd be a better man I'd listen to her cause I know how it hurts When you lose the one you wanted cause he's taking you for granted And everything you had got destroyed If I were a girl even just for a day I'd get out of bed in the morning and take forever to get ready Complain to my friends as if they got a man They talk about you cause they're jealous and I just stay and listen to it (I should get rid of them) If I were a girl I dont think I'd understand how it feels to love a boy I swear I'd be a better woman I'd listen to him cause I don't know everything I would always try to tell him that he needs to treat me better Like I don't gotta change at all It's a little too late for you to come back Say it's just a mistake, think I'd forgive you like that? (I don't) If you thought I would wait for you, you thought wrong (I did wrong) But you're just a boy and you're just a girl You don't understand No you don't understand How it feels to love a girl someday You wish you were a better man |
You don't listen to her
and you don't listen to him
You don't care how it hurts (you don't care how I feel)
Until you lose the one you wanted
cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy
and you're just a girl
Yabang
Euns: I just need to share this 'cause i almost died laughing my ass off. One of my friends commented that in your picture, you look like Alfred Vargas.. Way to go man.
Mark: (insert laughter)
Euns: My boyfriend's an Alfred Vargas look-alike! This is too much. My life's a comedy. And to think that I only showed 'em your picture so they won't bother me with ""what does he look like" questions!
Mark: Wow, what an expectation.
Euns: No not really. You see', they're all crazy like me.I shall be their friend who has an "Alfred Vargas" boyfriend. And the only movie I know that he starred in is Bridal Shower. He was a gigolo there. Great. Haha.
Mark: (insert laughter) Ikaw talaga. Sabihin mo photogenic lang.
Un un eh. Kasalanan mo 'to Patring. Pero ang masasabi ko lang sayo Patring:
Sa ngayon, para kang pleading... DATED.
Mark: (insert laughter)
Euns: My boyfriend's an Alfred Vargas look-alike! This is too much. My life's a comedy. And to think that I only showed 'em your picture so they won't bother me with ""what does he look like" questions!
Mark: Wow, what an expectation.
Euns: No not really. You see', they're all crazy like me.I shall be their friend who has an "Alfred Vargas" boyfriend. And the only movie I know that he starred in is Bridal Shower. He was a gigolo there. Great. Haha.
Mark: (insert laughter) Ikaw talaga. Sabihin mo photogenic lang.
Un un eh. Kasalanan mo 'to Patring. Pero ang masasabi ko lang sayo Patring:
Sa ngayon, para kang pleading... DATED.
From UP ALYANSA (repost from JIHAN)
IN DEFENSE OF REASON AND MUTUAL RESPECT
We recognize, and recognize clearly, that we will not agree with each other all the time. Nonetheless, our disagreements must not stand in the way of reason and mutual respect. For as we abandon these two, we turn into beasts – allowing our basest instincts to run over our humanity. We must not yield our civility and allow this debate to degenerate into a partisan exercise of name-calling and mudslinging.
Amidst the din of partisan conflict, misinformation and mudslinging, ALYANSA remains committed to upholding reason and mutual respect in this ongoing debate for the future of the Codified Rules for Student Regent Selection (CRSRS).
Let us make ourselves clear. For months, we have withstood much partisan attack from our fellow student leaders, the same people claiming to defend the Office of the Student Regent (OSR). Sadly, their defense is not guided by reason and mutual respect, but by unfounded attacks on character. We recognize, and recognize clearly, that we will not agree with each other all the time. Nonetheless, our disagreements must not stand in the way of reason and mutual respect. For as we abandon these two, we turn into beasts – allowing our basest instincts to run over our humanity. We must not yield our civility and allow this debate to degenerate into a partisan exercise of name-calling and mudslinging.
Nonetheless, as we condemn the lack of reason and mutual respect in this ongoing debate, we do not yield our argument. We will stand firm with a resounding "NO" to a referendum that ignores choices for our fellow Iskolars para sa Bayan and changes to the currently flawed selection process. However, beyond opposition, we steadfastly continue to push for our progressive propositions.
Contrary to what our opponents claim, we affirm the upcoming referendum as an expression of student empowerment. However, we believe that this referendum is NOT a truly empowering exercise if students are limited to ratifying a document in its entirety, without even bothering to inform students on its real contents – or worse, deliberately misinforming them with hollow calls for defense. Student councils were given high expectations since September last year that they may participate in forming the proposals that will be forwarded to the students in the referendum. A number of student councils gave counter-proposals to the status quo, none of their heeds were seriously considered - like silenced dissenters during the darkest annals of our country's history. Our representatives were stripped off their right to vote when their calls were merely shrugged off by the OSR during the GASC, and their numerous pleas of appeal. Our position was never to vote no, until the right of the students to choose for their own was capriciously and whimsically slapped away with finality. In defending the office, must we not also defend those that the office has pledged to serve?
We also approve of giving our duly-elected student representatives a greater say in the selection process, not just a group of partisans belonging to the same political stripe. The status quo of a few partisans running the SR selection while our student representatives remain in the dark is not just morally indefensible, but practically untenable.
We also endorse a set of rules and regulations governing the Student Regent, as a sign of his commitment to serving his constituents. The prospect of absolute power is not an option. Arguing nothing for this provision is tantamount to consenting to absolutism by the Student Regent, and nothing less.
We also believe that a Student Regent has the responsibility to maintain a MINIMUM academic standing, consistent with his commitment to the Filipino people who fund his education through their sweat and blood. As a student, he is expected to do nothing less.
As we reiterate our arguments, we stand for the overarching principle that the best defense of the Student Regent lies on making its Office a true representative of the students. Its defense lies not on hollow cries and hackneyed rhetoric bordering on blind endorsement. Its true defense lies in enlightened reason and mutual respect towards building a culture of reform. For in the end, if we are remiss on these basic conditions, we might as well defend the Office of the Student Regent from ourselves.
Once more, we will reiterate our stand, a stand that has defined our formation for almost a decade.
We uphold the spirit of proportional representation, as expressed by our proposal for giving each college a vote each in the Student Regent selection process. The current system clearly disenfranchises many students, while giving some a much greater say. We also approve of giving our duly-elected student representatives a greater say in the selection process, not just a group of partisans belonging to the same political stripe. The status quo of a few partisans running the SR selection while our student representatives remain in the dark is not just morally indefensible, but practically untenable.
We also endorse a set of rules and regulations governing the Student Regent, as a sign of his commitment to serving his constituents. The prospect of absolute power is not an option. Arguing nothing for this provision is tantamount to consenting to absolutism by the Student Regent, and nothing less.
We also believe that a Student Regent has the responsibility to maintain a MINIMUM academic standing, consistent with his commitment to the Filipino people who fund his education through their sweat and blood. As a student, he is expected to do nothing less.
As we reiterate our arguments, we stand for the overarching principle that the best defense of the Student Regent lies on making its Office a true representative of the students. Its defense lies not on hollow cries and hackneyed rhetoric bordering on blind endorsement. Its true defense lies in enlightened reason and mutual respect towards building a culture of reform. For in the end, if we are remiss on these basic conditions, we might as well defend the Office of the Student Regent from ourselves.
ALYANSA ng mga Mag-aaral para sa Panlipunang Katwiran at Kaunlaran (UP ALYANSA)
For more information on our Check the OSR campaign, visit our homepage at http://upalyansa. multiply. com. ALYANSA is also one of the members of the Choose to Know movement, a coalition dedicated to reforming the SR selection process. Log on to our site at http://choose2know. multiply. com to become one of our volunteers.
Splinter
(palakad-lakad un malaking rat sa block 9, nagcause ng hysteria)
Guy 1: tangina ang laki.
Guy 2: Wag mo galawin pare, gumaganti yan.
Guy 3: Master Splinter?
Guy 4: Baka mamaya biglang dumating un Ninja Turtles tapos hanapin sa'tin si Master Splinter.
Tanging sabaw. Haha.
Guy 1: tangina ang laki.
Guy 2: Wag mo galawin pare, gumaganti yan.
Guy 3: Master Splinter?
Guy 4: Baka mamaya biglang dumating un Ninja Turtles tapos hanapin sa'tin si Master Splinter.
Tanging sabaw. Haha.
On CIV LAW Atbp.
On Civil Law:
[insert lots of tears and throwing of whatever may be thrown at anyone or anything]
Atbp.
Perfect:
Almost.
Couldn't ask for more.
Ayy pwede pa pala.
Pero sa'kin na lang un.
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Side kwento:
[scenario, I just got out of my really GREAT Civ exam and was gonna text "the boyps"
The first word that I thought of texting was...
FUCK!!!
And then i stopped and erased it.
Naisip ko. Mahirap ito maintindihan kung wala sa context. Haha.
La lang.
But I did smile. I have that "busy guy" to thank. =P
[insert lots of tears and throwing of whatever may be thrown at anyone or anything]
Atbp.
Perfect:
Almost.
Couldn't ask for more.
Ayy pwede pa pala.
Pero sa'kin na lang un.
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Side kwento:
[scenario, I just got out of my really GREAT Civ exam and was gonna text "the boyps"
The first word that I thought of texting was...
FUCK!!!
And then i stopped and erased it.
Naisip ko. Mahirap ito maintindihan kung wala sa context. Haha.
La lang.
But I did smile. I have that "busy guy" to thank. =P
Patawa
The Bottom Line
Don't put your career objectives ahead of your personal life -- it will not pay off.In Detail
It's extremely important for you to avoid putting your career objectives ahead of your personal life right now -- this isn't the right way to prioritize your time, and setting your own feelings aside is not going to pay off. You have needs that must be met, and you must put yourself first right now. The universe knows that you deserve more challenges and fulfillment in your life -- and it's time for you to show the universe that you know it too. Put yourself first.-
Ngayon talaga ako sasabihan ng ganito ng horoscope ko? Habang fragile ako. MIDTERMS e. Walang personal personal pag kailangan pumasa. haha
LOST and FOUND
But hey, sometimes, it's when no one's looking that you get found.
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Tama ang Love in the Time of Cholera nun sinabi sa book na,
"... then enjoy your pain, take advantage of it now while you are still young. Suffer... suffer all you can, because these things don't happen your whole lifetime."
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Tama din si Natalie Portman nun sinabi nya sa Closer na,
"There's a moment, there's always a moment, You can do this, i can give in to this or I can resist it. And I don't know what your moment was but I bet there was one."
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The weekend was great. Hello MIDTERMS, I WILL ENJOY YOU BECAUSE YOU WON'T LAST MY WHOLE LIFETIME.
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